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𓊆𐂯𓊇

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

Hello, I'm s̴t̵a̴t̵i̶c̷ or C4.

ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ᴠᴇɴᴛ ʙʟᴏɢ, ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴇʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴠᴇɴᴛꜱ, ᴍʏ ᴠᴇɴᴛꜱ, ᴀʟʟ ᴠᴇɴᴛꜱ.

ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟʟʏ ɪʟʟ ɪɴ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴡᴀʏ, ᴍᴏʀᴇ ꜱᴏ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʙʟᴏɢ ᴍᴅɴɪ, ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ꜱᴀꜰᴇᴛʏ.

MDNI.

Rules are simple;

ɴᴏ ꜱɴᴜꜰꜰ, ꜱᴍᴜᴛ, ᴏʀ ᴅᴇᴘʟᴏʀᴀʙʟᴇ ᴀᴄᴛꜱ.

ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴋʏ$, ᴏʀ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ.

ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴀʙᴜꜱᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀʙᴜꜱᴇʀ.

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ'ꜱ ᴇɴᴛɪᴛʟᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴏᴡɴ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴꜱ, ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ꜱʜᴀᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ꜰᴏʀ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ꜱɪᴋʜɪꜱᴛ, ᴄʜʀɪꜱᴛɪᴀɴ, ʙᴜᴅᴅʜɪꜱᴛ, ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏ ʀᴇʟɪɢɪᴏɴ. ꜱʜᴀᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴅᴇᴘʟᴏʀᴀʙʟᴇ ᴀᴄᴛꜱ, ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ɢᴏᴅ.

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ'ꜱ ᴇɴᴛɪᴛʟᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ᴏᴡɴ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴꜱ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀ ʟɪɴᴇ ɴᴇᴇᴅɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄʀᴏꜱꜱᴇᴅ. ᴘᴇᴅᴏᴘʜɪʟᴇꜱ, ɴᴀᴢɪꜱ, ᴢᴏᴏᴘʜɪʟᴇꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴀᴘɪꜱᴛꜱ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴀ ꜱᴀꜰᴇ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ʙʟᴏɢ.

ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀ ᴋɪɴᴋ ʙʟᴏɢ. ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡɪʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇ ᴀ ᴋɪɴᴋ ʙʟᴏɢ, ʙᴅꜱᴍ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴀɴʏ ꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ ᴀᴄᴛꜱ, ᴋɪɴᴋꜱ, ᴏʀ ꜰᴇᴛɪꜱʜᴇꜱ ᴄᴀɴ ꜱᴛᴀʏ ᴏꜰꜰ ᴍʏ ʙʟᴏɢ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇᴅʀᴏᴏᴍ.

ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴇʟꜱᴇ ɪꜱ ꜰᴀɪʀ ɢᴀᴍᴇ. ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʙᴇ ʀᴇꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛꜰᴜʟ— ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ʜᴇʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ʀᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ.

ᴄ4/s̴t̵a̴t̵i̶c̷ ɪꜱ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴏꜱᴛ ᴏꜰᴛᴇɴ, ᴜɴᴅᴇʀ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛᴀɢꜱ, ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ꜱᴘᴇᴄɪꜰɪᴄ ᴏɴᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴛᴀɢ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴇᴅ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪꜱ ᴏɴ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʙʟᴏɢ, ᴀɴɢᴇʀ ɪꜱꜱᴜᴇꜱ, ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ, ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʙɪᴘᴏʟᴀʀ ᴅɪꜱᴏʀᴅᴇʀ. ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ'ᴛ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ, ʙᴇ ᴄᴀᴜᴛɪᴏᴜꜱ, ɪ ᴡᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ.

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

> be me

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

FUN thing btw when you open up to your parent about "how do you want something? I don't know what I want and I don't understand how people want things." And they go "well how would u, u never tried???" When all of the attempts you have tried at genuinely fucking failed btw.

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

"You have nothing to be depressed about"

"why are you always miserable all the time"

Just give me a fucking break and be mad about only one thing

[xvelvetcoffinx]

backshots this, backshots that, i would like to be taken out back and shot

[riotd]

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

[echoesofsaturn]

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

[brdrlneprsnltydsrdr]

[goodboysuffering]

crazy how with bpd your expected to shut up, suck it up and suffer alone for your whole life because otherwise you’re a burden and causing stress for other people who don’t deserve it, they treat us like we asked to have bpd and we’re doing it all on purpose

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

"get help!"

"Wait, no not that help!"

"And not from me!"

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

"ohh you're so young, you haven't missed out on anything."

[vacuiterror]

mfs will tell you to reach out for help but when you do, nobody knows how to help

[pleaseseemeibeg]

how it feels to be aware of your paranoias btw

[tyynicbubul]

It's so bad that I don't even know how to put it in words.

[caffeinatedgirlfriend]

i wanna smash my head on concrete

[speakingspirals]

i want to be loved as much as i love them. i want it to feel even just a bit more equal. please.

[bunnyycocaine]

no im good i just have to go kill myself

[drowningbpdbodies]

I don’t know what making love is and at this point I’m too afraid to ask