JESTER

[clownhospitals]

Hello! Welcome to my blog🫀🎪🎠🎢

It / they / she / he

Aroace-spec omni-sapphic

Far leftist

Folk Catholic witch

Mexican 🇲🇽😝🫀 I live in the states 💔

Avpd , bpd , ptsd , cdd , bipolar w psychosis , paraphilic disorder , possible cluster a

Fan of : horror , ska , transformers , psychosexual media , cartoons , queer stuff , bdsm , country music , interview with a vampire , black metal , more stuff

[deprogramming-techsupport]

anon asked: is there a specific definition of torture?

To start, we are talking about physical torture here.

TW definition under the cut

Taken from the UN

"Torture means any act by which severe pain or suffering, whether physical or mental, is intentionally inflicted on a person for such purposes as obtaining from him or a third person information or a confession, punishing him for an act he or a third person has committed or is suspected of having committed, or intimidating or coercing him or a third person, or for any reason based on discrimination of any kind"

[clownhospitals]

One part of me wants to be someone’s number one , but another part of me pushes that away and is disgusted by people’s needs and expectations.

[sitting-1n-silence]

Graveyard etiquette from a cranky traditional witch:

-Leave shit at the gate (coins, cigarettes, eggs, flowers)

-If alone go in silence, if with others speak in a hushed tone

-Wear a hat or head covering to prevent possession or bringing home unwanted spirits.

-Bring bells and/or rattles to wake the dead if desired

-Smoking in the graveyard or carrying a flame is an easy way to get the attention of the dead at night.

-Bring a knife or object made of iron should things get hairy (always bring a knife). Canes are also excellent tools for working with the dead

-have a way of gathering occult materia without being noticed by people or spirits (invisibility charms work best)

-If you're bringing spirits home with you (intentionally), don't turn around until you're across the threshold of your home

-Upon leaving the cemetery, say a prayer for the dead and wild things that inhabitant there

-When home, spread white powder (flower, salt, ect...) at the door to keep unwanted spirits out. A colander over a key hole works too.

[clownhospitals]

I am so entitled and disgusting

[1nternetangel]

Ibuprofen-chan ♡

www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/128621235

[clownhospitals]

I’m a hikkineet . I’m a shut in and I’m not in education or job training. I’m ashamed to say it. I’m not proud of myself. I’m about to be a legal adult and I haven’t done jack shit since the first week in 9th grade. Which is when I (illegally) dropped out.

I was sexually abused ages 3-about 8 years old. And I was in a cult when I was 13-14. I have a lot of mental disorders. I’m on disability because I cannot function like a normal person.

I don’t take care of myself. I’ve lost all motivation for self care and my hobbies. My mom helps me and tries to motivate me to do basic hygiene and do things like change my clothes , clean , take my medication, drink water and eat. I don’t do anything. I can laugh , I can have fun, I can force myself to do good but I’m exhausted from nothing.

All I think about is how to escape from my constant flashbacks , Stockholm syndrome , and disgusting thoughts. I used to cut myself. I’m a year clean. But now, if dangerous situations where I could get seriously hurt comes my way , I don’t stop it. Nothing too serious but yeah. For example: my brothers dog bit me. I tried to run away but before my mom got him away I just kind of accepted it. I could have got rabies. The thought of death and everything crossed my mind, and i realized I don’t want to die yet. But I do like pain. I feel pain , I can feel it a lot . I enjoy it. So whenever it happens to come by , I welcome it.

I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I’m on my phone and tablet all day, on the internet, on TikTok , on here on instagram. Talking to people who are like me. I’m a loser. I’m a low life. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know how to be a real human being. And at this point I don’t know if I should even try anymore. But I have to, I have to keep fighting . I do want a life, a career, I want to go out into the world.

(Please don’t give me advice or pity, I know what I should be doing, I know I should be better)

[clownhospitals]

Got a comment saying I’m not oppressed because I’m Christian. They’re right … sort of not really.

I’m a folk Catholic, which is a direct result of oppression. Try again. 😫

[clownhospitals]

[cheaphalloweencostume]

good morning to horror fans, fat bitches, people with psychosis, they/thems, people who can’t drive, trans women, witches, and single dads. the rest of you... you’re on your own

[knifearo]

by the way

[riversnothuman]

Finally finished the roadkill coyote skull, in all it took 4 months (this includes from when I found it, it decaying, cleaning it, degreasing it, and assembling it)

[luciferpickledhooves]

A transmasc deerkin who's deadname is Doe and he changed it to Buck.

[scavvenger]

i love being a weird kid who is secretly an even weirder kid

[clownhospitals]

People assuming I like or dislike something (even if it’s correct) feels so disrespectful and invasive to me.

[feefal]

Translucent enamel on teeth are kind of a vibe… everything looks better at 50% opacity. Or maybe this is a giant cope after my dentist told me I can’t have energy drinks anymore cause I’m ruining my enamel.

[clownhospitals]

“I watch the skies getting light as I write , as I think about those years”

-Lana Del Rey