Im never setting this blog up LOL

Hi im desirplural Parasian sys wanting to separate more Banner is desirschizophrenia

[desirplural]

Hello, welcome to my desirdae sideblog! List of desirdaes coming soon.

We collectively identify as desirplural because we are a parasian median system who wishes to become more separate and distinct. We experience a lot of dysphoria about this and imposter syndrome that we're faking or mistaken.

!! Please don't tell us "you have to be INTENTIONAL about faking" or "if you're mistaken its ok!!" or "you're valid as a median system!" that doesn't help and it makes the dysphoria and imposter syndrome worse !!

[ PT: !! Please don't tell us "you have to be INTENTIONAL about faking" or "if you're mistaken its ok!!" or "you're valid as a median system!" that doesn't help and it makes the dysphoria and imposter syndrome worse !! end PT ]

List of desirdaes coming soon.

Refer to us collectively as They/it and as Anomaly. Refer to the host as she/they/xe/it and Calypso.

Our main blog is @onyxolotl and our system blog is @abysstem, you'll see likes and follows from the former.

Tag guide:

#straight up desiring it - regular blogtalking #asking the real desirquestions here - asks #pqrt - reblogs #atypical dyswhoria - desirdae/atypical dysphoria talk #pluh ray luh tay - plurality posts #mean i mean median system - median specific posts #jeepers creepers - paranoia/schizospec related posts #yoink - label hoard

credits: @simply-plural-accessories

[ronniesrecovery05]

Im so proud of you for trying to leave the rq community <3 that place is hella predatory and its very hard to leave. And I agree a ton with your post on transracial people; its very blatant with transasian people just seeing it as an aesthetic instead of caring about any of the culture or history, but also transblack people just spouting the n word every other sentence and not learning aave AT ALL past that or learning anything else about black culture

firstly thank you a lot its been really hard. im not used to people being nice to me so the support ive gotten on this account has been making me tear up a lot. abandoning the radqueer mindset (idk how else to word it) has been hard because ive kinda just been in a state of constant apathy and not really caring who gets themselves hurt (as bad as that sounds), so trying to focus on the things i actually don't agree with has been helping, and so far its been the idea of transracials

its just. . . really stupid? i understand the idea of having a lot of respect for a specific race or culture and wishing to take part of it as an outsider, but the idea that you can just "transition" to a specific race is so dumb. so so dumb. the argument that ive seen used the most is "if gender is a social construct why isn't race?" and that's because while your gender isn't determined by your ancestors, your race is.

your race is a cumulation of the people before you who have fought tooth and nail to be where they are now, and the idea that you can attempt to rewrite a whole bloodlines history like that is insane.

AAND THEY DONT EVEN DO IT RIGHT IS THE THING

they don't TTRYYYY to hear about POCs experiences or history or culture. being transblack means youre a 'gangster' with rights to say a "special word" and nothing more to these people. being transasian means you're suddenly cute and 'kawaii' and nothing more to these people.

its so sad seeing the amount of people of color or even white people with interesting ethnic backgrounds try to change who they are because they feel ashamed of it. every culture is beautiful and instead of trying to "resonate" with another's, you should instead embrace who you are.

anyway, sorry for the long rant. the idea of radqueer is that you have to agree with every little transid label there is, and acknowledging these truths really has helped.

[desirplural]

I've talked about my racial dysphoria and how I was able to overcome it before on this account. I think a main difference between the dysphoria we experienced and a lot of 'transracial' radqueers is that their 'identity' stems from racist stereotypes.

You said, "its so sad seeing the amount of people of color or even white people with interesting ethnic backgrounds try to change who they are because they feel ashamed of it. every culture is beautiful and instead of trying to "resonate" with another's, you should instead embrace who you are." I really agree with this statement. Learning about and to accept and embrace my German American heritage that had been erased and suppressed by my Grammy and Gramps was an important step in recovering from that dysphoria for me, and I love my culture now <3

To all radqueers, recovering radqueers, and those with racial dysphoria- you are not alone. You will always be safe on this blog, I love you for who you are.

[desirplural]

I saw on one of your posts that it's impossible for you to differentiate alters w/o apps like simply plural. I was curious: would pluralkit's fronting feature help?

I apologise if this is overstepping.

Not overstepping, don't worry. The pluralkit fronting feature doesn't have the features we used simply plural for. Namely, statuses, like this:

+ with pluralkit we don't have much of the motivation to learn all of the commands, while sp is intuitive and helpful for this. And again, the lack of privacy buckets makes it extremely difficult for us to be sharing that all comfortably. We don't want something based in another app, like discord, especially with how the outlook for that app is... bleak.

It's frustrating that there's no suitable alternative for us. I'm keeping an eye on ampersand and concordia, but that's really all I can do right now. Simply plural was the only app that really had all the features we needed.

[desirplural]

“Exotrauma isn’t real trauma and if you seek out help or support for it I will physically harm you possibly the the point of murder” WOW DUDE what a take dude I’m sure you’re so safe to be around in trauma spaces and also system spaces

[gentlewindchimes]

my alters are all MORONS!!!!

[desirplural]

syscourse has gotta be like a social experiment its the only place you see stances that you just ASSUME are satire because of how stupid they are. In my time in syscourse I have seen 1. pro endo anti willos, 2. pro willo anti endos, 3. pro willo anti traumagen anti endo, 4. pro willo pro endo anti traumagen, 5. pro delusiongenic anti everything else, 6. pro endo anti protogenic, 7. pro endo and traumagen neutral, and 8. anti singlet

[nightmares--galore]

I was never intending on making a post here, as I wanted this to be a place someone could reach me if something were to go awry on my Pluralpedia terms or maybe upload my terms here or on a similar blog.

But with Simply Plural shutting down, I want to give my honest opinion and speculation. Forgive me if I seem a bit unhinged, but I need to get this out, as I'm incredibly upset that something that has been helping with my disability is basically being stripped away.

While I can use Ampersand (as it has an Android app, but sadly not iOS), this does not have the feature I used Simply Plural for. I used Simply Plural to alert my partner systems and my friends of who was front and for mood tracking. With Ampersand, I can't do that. And no alternatives have this feature, aside from potentially Octocon.

While I am a traumagenic system, I happen to "system-hop", between my side system and main system. That was banned on Octocon as even topics of discussion. There were people who were banned for simply existing as endogenic systems on this app. This proves that the dev team and/or owner were seeking out profiles with things they personally disagreed with and banned them for no reason, which is something you have to agree to in order to use the app.

I do not trust a dev team and owner that treats their userbase in such a way, and since I am a programmed DID system, meaning my system is almost entirely traumagenic in origin, it is not a safe space for me due to how my system operates, as well as the fact that I am pro-endogenic and do not discriminate other system origins in any way. I do not want to be on an app where simply expressing my support for those who are of different origins can get me banned.

On another point, I'm very skeptical of how Amaryllis has decided to handle this situation. I took the time to archive (link) the blog post. I will be using They/Them for Amaryllis, as I'm not sure of their pronouns, and the second someone tells me their preferred, I will edit this post to reflect their proper pronouns.

Anyways, my points.

Simply Plural brought about Simply Plus (link) in November of 2025. This was four months ago. I also had this archived (link).

Now, as someone who uses Simply Plural rather consistently, I didn't even know of this. If it were the finances, well, I'm sure they could have pushed Simply Plus a bit better? Why set up a premium subscription and then sunset the app less than half a year later? This... Really doesn't sit well with me.

I also want to point out that The Plural Association (link) was helping support them, as were other people donating to them, as referenced in their Simply Plus (link) post, which I archived (link).

I also want to point out that... On their patreon (link), they have 136 paid members and you can see their tiers here (link), as well as my archive (link). Since Archives don't let you move around, I also want to point out that their highest price is $31.

I want to point out that, if my math is correct, on the lowest tier, if 136 people are paying $3.50 a month to support Simply Plural, that's about $476 a month. That's the lowest possible income from their patreon alone.

And that's not pointing out their Simply Plus (link) and archive (link), which has a similar pay system.

Then, the claims of being a single person running the app in the "Simply Plural is being Discontinued" post.

But this is... Blatantly untrue? In their release of 1.8 (link), they said you could reach out to their team on Discord. I also archived (link) this.

Why would you make such a claim? When you completely contradict yourself.

And of course, I can't speak for this, but apparently, the Simply Plural Discord has basically shut down any discussion or cries for help. When Octocon has drawn criticism for being disingenuous about their "change of heart" to be "neutral" to non-trauma systems, messages were deleted and users were told "don't bring that here." when it is a very reasonable concern.

The sudden push to move to Octocon from the Discontinued post feels very off, considering the above factors.

I also want to point out... They say its not fees that are the problem, but rather their won personal time... But they have a dev team with them, do they not?

Why not just hand it over to another person in your team?

Not only that, but the "We'll keep it up longer if you give us money, but it'll come down eventually" is extremely fishy.

I'm not buying this "I'm a single person (who has a dev team) and I'm getting burnt out". Especially with the seeming hesitation to make the code open source for people to make their own Simply Plural apps.

This is incredibly frustrating because for many people, Simply Plural is not just an app. It is an Aid. A disability aid. An accessibility aid. Taking away Simply Plural with absolutely no alternatives that meet the same needs is akin to taking away my cane and not giving me a viable replacement in case my knee decides to partially dislocate in public again.

Every user SHOULD be angry and upset about this, especially with the seeming refusal to allow others to make a new app and instead ushering them to an app that has a turbulent history within the system community itself, that has made itself known to be unsafe for users that disagree with it's creator.

Amaryllis, I suggest two things. To hand the app over to someone else and let development continue, or to make the code and app entirely open source so people can retain their disability aid.

[desirplural]

Without simply plural I cannot differentiate between headmates. If it goes down, I will not have a way to distinguish between myself and my headmates and my quality of life as a system will significantly decrease.

[the-clockwork-mirrors]

[desirplural]

If you see someone post "I hate [oppressive majority class]" and your first instinct as someone in that oppressive majority class is to get upset and argue that youre one of the good ones or to stop generalizing you're lowkey part of the problem

[desirplural]

I'm fucking sick of looking at plural communities or plural tags and seeing people talking about forcing their headmates into dormancy. "I want to force my persecutors into dormancy" "we forced our old host into dormancy" "can we force all the non-helpful alters into dormancy" "I don't want to go through the effort of establishing healthy communication with the whole system can I just force some of them into dormancy" "We forced an alter into dormancy and he came back and hates us all, any advice" "If you're dealing with a persecutor and they won't listen to reason you should try forcing them into dormancy" "I forced my alters into dormancy but it didn't make them go away what should I do" " This alter was annoying me and so I forced them into dormancy lol" "We don't bother giving our fragments identities we just force them into dormancy" "This alter triggered another alter's source trauma so we forced them into dormancy" I feel like I'm on the fucking truman show what the fuck are you talking about? What the hell do you mean? Why are you all so fucking obsessed with it? What is wrong with you guys? Don't you understand how fundamentally fucked up that is? Hello? Am I talking to myself right now?

[thedreamerspace]

kinda didnt know that was a thing hot take i say they have the right if said member was actually harmful and damaging in long term for the whole group in some way. But also if there's also a possibility of rehabilitation or fusion if needed. for us its the other way round dormancy is to some extent involuntary because brain will exhaust or overload itself/its decided its not convenient at least at the time. for the majority of our plurality mostly i didn't understand our true capacity to the detriment of others so we're primed for it - a really grey area somewhere between natural and havihg control

other times members will desire dormancy n i cant force them to stay sometimes helping works sometimes it doesnt if i/we cant trust someone to be rational/safe then there's not much of a choice

idk if its relevant but the tone kinda made me want to respond looking in the comments you dont give much room to fringe cases so there's that in those cases not like there isnt any guilt or grief involved because they are a person after all its not as easy as the minority make out most times; it's a long fought thing sometimes we get through other times not

yeah they might come back, we'll bear the consequences like we have before also cant help if the brain attaches itself to someone and doesn't let go

[desirplural]

can you people stop trying to make excuses for it being okay in my notes I hate you all

[comikbook]

schizophrenic people are constantly made to be a joke or a quirky edgy meme in recent years and it actually makes me insane. psychosis as a word has become watered down last year there was people “schizoposting” people joke about hallucinating or unreality because they think its funny and god forbid an actual schizophrenic person posts about their experiences because then you get people dming you with scary images and cryptic text to try to induce psychosis like that cant fucking kill someone i hate all of you people

[desirplural]

I'm fucking sick of looking at plural communities or plural tags and seeing people talking about forcing their headmates into dormancy. "I want to force my persecutors into dormancy" "we forced our old host into dormancy" "can we force all the non-helpful alters into dormancy" "I don't want to go through the effort of establishing healthy communication with the whole system can I just force some of them into dormancy" "We forced an alter into dormancy and he came back and hates us all, any advice" "If you're dealing with a persecutor and they won't listen to reason you should try forcing them into dormancy" "I forced my alters into dormancy but it didn't make them go away what should I do" " This alter was annoying me and so I forced them into dormancy lol" "We don't bother giving our fragments identities we just force them into dormancy" "This alter triggered another alter's source trauma so we forced them into dormancy" I feel like I'm on the fucking truman show what the fuck are you talking about? What the hell do you mean? Why are you all so fucking obsessed with it? What is wrong with you guys? Don't you understand how fundamentally fucked up that is? Hello? Am I talking to myself right now?

[positivitygenic]

median plurals are absolutely just as plural as everyone else, they are inherently a part of our community.

[abysstem]

THE ABYSS SYSTEM

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HELLO !!! We are the ABYSS SYSTEM !!!

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╭﹒⟢﹒Our collective name is Anomaly or Abyss and our pronouns are they/it, but we prefer to be called by the current fronter's name.

╰⪼ Simply plural: Abysstem (We accept almost every frq but don't expect to see every member !!)

╭﹒⟢﹒Other blogs ╰⪼ @edible-emerald - Main blog ╰⪼ @xenomayhem - Coining blog ╰⪼ @bah-pearl-cookie - Build a Headmate blog ╰⪼ @desirplural - Desirdae blog ╰⪼ @clutches-of-the-kraken - Vent blog

SYSTEM INFO !!

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╭﹒⟢﹒Please call us: ╰⪼ Plural, system, you& (multiple or other system terms never or sparingly) ╰⪼ Headmates (pref), facets, members (alters sparingly, parts never) ╰⪼ Again we prefer to be called the current fronter's names and pronouns, but our collective name and pronouns are Anomaly/Abyss and they/it

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╭﹒⟢﹒Origins && system data ╰⪼ Mixed origins, Esogenic ╰⪼ We also coined the term hexabyssgenic for ourselves but it no longer fully fits, we still identify with the term however ╰⪼ Median (specifically parasian (no we're not from Paris?????)) ╰⪼ Panconscious (mostly monoconscious && split monoconscious) ╰⪼ Pro-endo, pro-willo (may post syscourse sparingly here but won't get into arguments)

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╭﹒⟢﹒Headcount, collective disorders && disabilities ╰⪼ Headcount is around 25-30 known though there’s likely more ╰⪼ We have ADHD (diagnosed), RSD, Autism (diagnosed), Major Depression (diagnosed), Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder, ASPD traits, and likely PTSD (medically recognized), something schizospec and NPD (undiagnosed), also likely more but we're unsure ^^' ╰⪼ We struggle very heavily from paranoia and are triggered very easily, and tend to react with aggression often. Please be careful and don't take things we say while triggered personally, usually we don't mean it ^^' ╰⪼ Because we have autism tone indicators help a lot !! ╰⪼ There's a chance we have some sort of physical disability but we're not sure && need to do more research ╰⪼ We are collectively queer && most of us reclaim the slur faggot, many of us reclaim tranny but not all of us can !! We can reclaim the r slur but rarely say it. Also, even as a joke, NEVER call us the r slur and NEVER insult our intelligence ever. /srs (we'd also prefer if you just don't call us slurs in general but yk) ╰⪼ Some of us use a typing quirk where we double our "&" symbols and add spaces before exclamation points (&& sometimes other punctuations) usually we don't provide a translation because it doesn't affect speech that much but if you'd like one please do ask !! /gen ╰⪼ Please note that because we have (suspected) NPD a lot of things you say may make us defensive or threatened. Don't imply you're better than us both in general and at specific things we care about (such as hobbies or video games we enjoy), don't brag at us, it makes us really uncomfortable and we'll likely get defensive. ╰⪼ We often leave people on read or forget to reply. Don't take it personally and don't be afraid to remind us to reply.

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╭﹒⟢﹒Headmate list ╰⪼ Note: You will NOT see every headmate here, the emojis used but not with an attached headmate will be at the bottom !! ╰⪼ Calypso/Emerald/Syren - Host & Gatekeeper & Anger holder - She/they/xe/it (fluctuating) -🧜‍♀️ ╰⪼ Wild - Fictive - He/she/they + neos (fluctuating) - ⚔️ ╰⪼ Spoke - Fictive - It/?/null - 🌌 ╰⪼ Squiddo - Faitive - He/she/they/it (fluctuating) - 🌐 ╰⪼ Ash/Ashswag - Faitive - He/him (?) - 👾 ╰⪼ Finn - Roleless/unknown role - He/fae/it - 🪶 ╰⪼ Valerie - Fictive - She/they/gold/shiny/locket/study (+ academia themed neos) - 🔏 ╰⪼ Aria - Caretaker (?) - They/them - 💿 ╰⪼ Pangi - Faitive & holder - He/any - 🏺 ╰⪼ Adora - Fictive & Body dysphoria holder - Shx/they/fae/dove - 💮

╰⪼ Scarlet - Harboringer - She/they - 🐦‍🔥 ╰⪼ Pure Vanilla - Fictive & Comforter - She/he/they/star + neos - 🍦 Emojis you will see that do not have public headmates attached to them: 🪺💎♊🥊🐰🐟🥩🪼❄️🏛️☯️🐝🩵🐀

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╭﹒⟢﹒Source list (feel free to send an ask if you share any !!) ╰⪼ Lifesteal SMP (5) ╰⪼ Unstable Universe (1) ╰⪼ Kaboodle SMP (1) ╰⪼ Glitch SMP (1) ╰⪼ The Realm SMP (1) ╰⪼ State SMP (1) ╰⪼ Content SMP (1)

╰⪼ Linked Universe comic (1) ╰⪼ Horse Racing Tests (1) ╰⪼ Cookie Run Kingdom (2) ╰⪼ Breath of the Wild/Tears of the Kingdom (1) ╰⪼ Rot in Paradise (1) ╰⪼ The Amazing Digital Circus (1) ╰⪼ Pokémon Sun & Moon (1) ╰⪼ Bee & Puppycat (1) ╰⪼ OCs (1)

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╭﹒⟢﹒Coll. interests / spinterests / hyperfixations ╰⪼ MCYT (lssmp, uu, wp, evboverse, csmp, trsmp, ksmp, gsmp) ╰⪼ Psychology ╰⪼ SIGverse ╰⪼ Arcane ╰⪼ Cookie Run Kingdom ╰⪼ Plurality && systemhood ╰⪼ Puzzles, Jigsaws, brain games, etc. ╰⪼ + many more fandoms that we're in !! Please feel free to ask ^_^

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Find the borders we used for this in the tag '#borders we used' !!

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[redacted-coiner]

Hi!! do you think you could do pride pixels for these memory flags? https://www.tumblr.com/eepy-coining/792649692507963392?source=share tysm in advance if you do these!!

Memories Missing & Memories Stolen

Memories Locked & Memories Broken

Memories REDACTED & Memories Abstracted

Memories Divergent & Memories Foggy

Memories Errors & Memories Repetitive

DNI is listed within my pinned post. Please go read it before interacting with any part of my content. Ask to tag.

[desirplural]

This community has a real issue with just completely ignoring median systems and burying their experiences. To be clear, I don't believe it to be intentional, but it took me a full year after realizing my plurality to realize I was also a gatekeeper, because the way I experienced it was so much different from any gatekeeper I'd seen before, because the gatekeepers I'd seen before were all from non-median systems. The way it works for me feels like I'm faking, feels like I'm just convincing myself I'm switching when I'm in full control- because I am in full control, but that's just normal.

Median systems like us have so little resources and support surrounding our experiences- I'm sure that if I told people these experiences before this revelation I would have been outright told I might not actually be plural. I was too paranoid of this outcome that I never told anyone which might mean I'm just still anxious but I digress, because at the time, and still now, I was desperately, desperately hoping I was plural.

[desirplural]

Don't!!!

You are NOT contributing to the issue by talking about your plurality. In fact, you are actually actively helping it by taking steps to normalize median plurality.

Not every plural experience a median system will have is affected by medianhood. Not every system will experience medianhood the same way.

Talking about your plurality in median tags when you're median, even if you don't feel like it relates to medianhood, is very important and super cool!! It isn't contributing to any problems, you're actively contributing to plural communities and discussions as a median system which serves to make us more known and more respected as systems, which is the opposite of a problem.

Keep talking about your plurality. Keep talking about your medianhood. We are still systems and thus we will still have system experiences. We are not lesser than other systems, and so putting median tags on your posts about regular plural experiences helps a ton. Not only does it help questioning systems who don't know about medianhood to learn about our existence (which, if I knew what median systems were when I was questioning, things would be way less confusing for me then), but it also serves to show that we are normal. We are systems and we belong.

[desirplural]

hi. anon for safety reasons. is there a limit to desirdae labels? like, is desirramcoa valid..? i know its a horrific thing but idk.

Desirdae labels are definitely a lot more critical for lack of a better word with desirharmed identities. Short answer is yes but be respectful about it. It doesn't support any kind of transition, instead either accepting that whatever ramcoa related experiences the user had were 'enough' and dispelling imposter syndrome, or safely dealing with the dysphoria causing it. Being desirharmed isn't horrific to identify as, but understand the limits and how the identity differs from transIDs and transramcoa