ellen 🎞

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daily affirmations: I'm not a pedophile, my mother will not die tragically during her trip to the store bc I didn't say goodbye to her exactly 8 times, I do not want to kill my family, I'm not a pedophile

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It's so crazy how I used to genuinely believe that I was the ugliest, fattest, most terrible creature to ever walk this earth when I was literally just a regular 8-year-old

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I keep my circle small 👌 (not by choice)

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I'm always laughing and giggling at fanfiction and then I realize I'm so fcking weird and my life is miserable so nothing is actually funny

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#TFW you just start telling people absolutely everything bc none of it will matter soon anyway

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hey so I take back what I said, I'm absolutely about to relapse soon

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chat what substances do I have to abuse to make it stop

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I was reading super old one direction fics on wattpad (purely for historical research purposes) and oh my god. You guys were absolutely insane. There was one where Niall Horan of all people was taking pictures of the fmc naked, without her knowing, and then refusing to delete the pictures. Wtf.

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so now that heeseung is officially the zayn of enhypen, when is pillowtalk part 2 coming out?

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I dont know if this just bc I'm neurodivergent but am I the only one who actually fucking hated being a child?

I genuinely felt like a prisoner in my own life every single day. Couldn't pick what I wear, what I eat, when I eat, or even what I do on my free time. Literally felt like the most dehumanizing shit ever.

So, no, I don't miss my childhood, thank you for asking.

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hey so I'm actually psychic and I just had a vision that even tho the mercedes is a rocket ship max verstappen will still win the championship bc I just said so 😊😊

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I always forget that I'm not a little child anymore and I am actually allowed to say no to my parents

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you know, maybe it actually wasn't okay for a 9 year old to be on edtwt and read smut and sh and have unsupervised internet access

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I'm like the Ireland version of a koreaboo. I love Ireland. It's the most interesting country ever.

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me when someone even TRIES to promote unhealthy eating habits to me bc I spent over half of my life battling an ed and I am not abt to relapse because of someone's ignorant ass

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Hot take: kids should be taught about sexual assault and grooming from the moment they start school.

There is literally no reason why they shouldn't, other than "oh it's against my religion!!" "oh but it makes me so uncomfortable!!". Idgaf. I personally don't think that a few adults being uncomfortable for a little while, overrides the thousands of children getting sa'd and groomed every year.

Especially when probably at least half of said children could've realized that something was wrong and told someone, had they just been taught to do so.

And before somebody starts with the "parents should have to sign a consent form!" Tell me how we're supposed to make sure that the many parents that don't sign the form, ACTUALLY teach their children?

No matter your personal beliefs, a child's safety should not depend on whether their parents want to lift up a pen or not.

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when ur parents are on some weight-loss shi and doing everything wrong, but u can't blow your cover and give them tips