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what up, i’m emma, i’m now 21 :(, and i never fucking learned how to read ao3: emmacortana

[emmacortana]

Ok so I just wanted to let you know I freaking LOVE the Spider and Bat series and the scene from "Watching Through Fingers" when Peter finally breaks down in front of Batman is my favorite thing I've ever read on ao3. I lost my sister right before i read it for the first time resonated with me a lot. I absolutely love all of your writing and I think you're really talented.

Omg thank you so much for this. i'm so glad my fic provided some kind of resonance with you during such an unimaginable grief, and I really wish for nothing but the best for you (and your sister, wherever she may be). my condolences. i love you so much for reaching out. 💜💜💜

[goldfishinaplasticbag]

last daughter of krypton

how does it feel to be a forgotten daughter who has to remember? do you still count even if there’s nobody left to call your name? nobody to worry? a lost daughter is just called lost, isn’t she?

can you even remember everyone? do you remember their voices? their faces? you don’t, do you? of course not. you were left behind. you got lucky.

every breath you take is borrowed.

[what2wha]

Love them sm

[goldfishinaplasticbag]

last daughter of krypton

how does it feel to be a forgotten daughter who has to remember? do you still count even if there’s nobody left to call your name? nobody to worry? a lost daughter is just called lost, isn’t she?

can you even remember everyone? do you remember their voices? their faces? you don’t, do you? of course not. you were left behind. you got lucky.

every breath you take is borrowed.

[mantisdepot]

they are best friends

[nathanielorion]

הבל | hevel

This is how it goes: God whispers in Cain’s jealous ear, drawing his attention to the Sin crouched at his doorway. Sin has haunted eyes and a mouth that has been kissed. Let there be no doubt that Sin has been kissed, with a wet-red mouth that may taste of blood or pomegranate or the electric crackle of a stoplight. Cain looks at Sin. He runs his tongue over his teeth.

This is how it goes: Cain leaves the house at one am in bare feet and a hoodie, careful to avoid the last stair that creaks, and treks out into the Field. There are many fields in the world but there is only one Field. Cain feels the difference in the grass when he crosses the border from field to Field, the way the grey-green blades stand up at attention in his wake, the way the dirt turns ice-cold and furious beneath his heels. The earth is good with foreshadowing. The tree of Knowledge has deep roots.

This is how it goes: God says, I will take you or your brother.

God says, You get to choose.

And Cain says, “When you split me and my brother in the womb, you did not divide us evenly. He got kindness, and I got longing. He got complacence, and I got ambition. I want to kill him sometimes. I think sometimes he wants to die.”

I have never made brothers before, God explains. That is how I thought they were made. What more do you want?

“I want to steal some of his kindness,” Cain says, and shakes his pocket knife out of his sleeve.

Back at home, Abel sits up in his bed with a start, heart racing. That was close, he thinks, that was a damn close one, and does not know why.

In the Field, the ground warms as blood seeps into the dirt. 

[emmacortana]

Jason and Dick core

If you need me I'll be crying into fanfiction

[emmacortana]

random writing things no one will care about :)

somebody asked “what was your ribs by lorde moment” and i had this out of body experience because the first thing i thought of was the day before you left for california in summer 2021. i was trying to explain why it was so significant to me and i mentioned how we both liked this poem that goes: “At childhood’s end, the houses petered out”, so we would say the houses are petering when we really meant that childhood was ending and then i had to stop completely because i haven’t thought about that phrase in so long.

and i still love duffy poems and i could still quote most of the words. i still think about it once in a while; a “hey, i like this poem and i remember it exists”, but i can’t remember the last time i said “the houses are petering”. when was the last time i noticed that childhood was ending before it actually, you know, ended? am i too far grown to even remember what it felt like to grow up? how did i forget what it was to lose childhood? when every minute was like a timebomb.

and i remember what we said to each other, that in a way we were like dying because we were turning into different people. how this is the end of us, the last time we see each other as we are now, because when we see again we won’t be the same. different people meeting different people. and in a way, we were giving each other permission to change, and change different from each other. and it was probably grief.

anyway, this is definitely a crisis about getting older but i think it’s also a long-winded way of saying i miss you and still love you and i hope you’re doing well. i forgive you for changing, but i don't know about myself. i think i knew myself best when i was with you.

i miss you. i still love you. i hope you’re well.

[dustorange-moved-deactivated202]

TAGGED BY @bluegarners and @daringyounggrayson THANK U!!!!!!

TAGGING @danishsweethearts @havendance @saturnaftertaste @biromantic-nerd @your-worst-knightmare

Number of stories posted to ao3: TWO

Word count of works posted last year: 26,177

Fandoms I wrote for: bat….man..

Pairings: all gen

Stories with the most kudos, bookmarks and comment threads: 

Most kudos: the lower and coarser soul

Most bookmarks: New Again

Most comment threads: New Again

Work I’m most proud of (and why): NEW AGAIN! 1) I neverrrr finish multi-chapter works and 2) IT IS AN IDEA I TRULY LOVE and an idea that i have desperately wanted to see executed for a LONG TIME and i am glad to have done it and am pleased as punch with the concept and the angst

Work I’m least proud of (and why): the lower and coarser soul i now think could be punchier and have more economy of language. Reading it back it feels tryhard and a little saccharine 

share or describe a favorite review you received: i got a review on a different fic asking if i would be updating New Again because they really liked New Again—and that was like omg. It really touched my heart that like someone was following my stories and thinking about my first chapter of another fic like enough to ask. New Again was really my baby and I more or less felt like it was me and that work against the world and it wouldn’t be very popular because it’s sort of a cheesy concept and Thomas Wayne Jr also is not too well-loved so it was like THAT ONE??? YOU WANT MORE OF THAT ONE??? And it was because of that comment from theknwing that I actually wrote and posted the next two chapters!!!! I literally would not have done that otherwise. I was so shocked and like omgggg when they asked. So thank u theknwing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A time when writing was really, really hard: Writing is never hard for me but Having Ideas is REALLY HARD i never have ideas 

A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: 

I always knew I wanted to end New Again on the bittersweet (or just bitter) “watch his face when I leave and see how it falls” with Dick choosing Thomas over Bruce because Dick feels attached to Thomas and too melted-down and undeserving for Bruce, but I didn’t intend initially for the timeskip to be so many years. Frequently think about going back and revising it, but haven’t yet. BUT I DO REALLY LIKE THIS SPECIFIC PASSAGE

A favourite excerpt of your writing: 

THE SCENE AFTER THOMAS MAKES DICK KILL SCARECROW AND THEYRE BACK IN THE CAVE:

Dick slowly folds to his knees next to the computer. Thomas gazes down at him. Dick looks up. Onscreen is a description of the night as it happened in Thomas’s characteristic clipped, short sentences. The glow from the screen colors Thomas’s cheekbone angel-white. Next to the keyboard is a tray Alfred must have left, with sugarcubes, what smells like very strong peppermint tea, and neatly cut cucumber sandwiches. Thomas brings down a hand and brushes the back of his knuckles against Dick’s cheek. 

“I told you,” Thomas says quietly. “This doesn’t change anything.”

Dick turns his cheek away from Thomas’s hand. Instead, slowly, he presses his forehead against Thomas’s outer thigh, still plated with the Owlman suit. Thomas exhales sharply.

Thomas’s hand moves to the crown of Dick’s skull, where it applies almost possessive pressure, fingernails scraping against Dick’s scalp, even though Dick’s hair must make Thomas’s fingers wet. 

“I adore you,” Thomas says. 

Dick shudders.

How did you grow as a writer last year: I REALLY CUT DOWN ON A LOT OF MY PURPLE PROSE

How do you hope to grow this year: I WANT TO WRITE THINGS THAT ARE EXCITING AND LIKE FORCE ME TO MAKE JUMPS AND LEAVE THINGS OUT FOR THE READER TO HOTWIRE TOGETHER instead of me over explaining or lingering too long everything and undercutting the shortest point   

Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): EMMACORTANA MY BELOVED. Omg what a thing to be mutuals with one of your fandoms biggest writers and have them enact stunning hyperperceptive analyses of your work. She catches every single detail i cannot tell you how often i reread her notes. My hero mon ange whom i adore beyond measure 

Anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: Im sure lots and lots but nothing i can think of off of the top of my head. However the “Have I told you I love you yet today?” thing that Alfred says in a bunch of my work is from my mom saying that

Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: If what you want to write doesnt seem like it will have an audience and no one will want to read it but you REALLY love your idea, WRITE IT and do so with such like satisfaction and like dignity that you’re writing something truly a product of YOU and YOUR intuitions and knowledge and desires and thoughts, not just some burned-CD version of what you think some abstract Audience arbiter of popularity wants. Don’t even worry about things being popular. I know people say dont worry about that and then it is sad when your thing is unpopular or less popular and its like okay well. But its serious and its very important to not let people pick you up and move you from what you want. Do you know those people whose politics for example are just what will get them applause and what slogans they memorized from the Ideological Software Updates or whatever they can glean from çanva posts on  social media? Have you ever looked around and realized all of the people around you were saying exactly the same truisms you believed and thought were being especially Good and Clever for believing and they’re saying them all inelegantly and hamfistedly and for the wrong reasons like grievance and applause???? You HAVE to find it for yourself. That is a bad place to be—and that happens when you let yourself be moved too much. You have to not let yourself be moved except by you. You dont need to be on the cutting edge: You need to do you. Reinvent the wheel by all means if the wheel schematics are in your brain, or be a real true normie with the most basic aesthetic and media tests ever (I AM!!!!) but NEVER change your work and the sake of it being more popular. To make more $ sure, def change it, but for fun???? HAVE INTEGRITY WITH YOURSELF and what you want!! 15 kudos for something that is 100% truly yours what you wanted it to be is superior to 100 kudos for something that you compromised on even just 5% and buckled for bc then it’s something you don’t even want so like what was the point?

Any projects you’re looking to starting (or finishing) this year: 

i have this one medieval dc fic within the context of like william blakes mythopoesis that I’ve been TRYING TO GET OUT and i alsoI have this Azrael&Dick enemies-to-???? fic in my mind where there shall be a silly (in context it is supposed to b sad. But describing it, it is very silly) scene where JPV has like all these mini hard pretzels in a bag and drops the bag and then half are broken in half and so JPV spreads them all out on the countertop and is breaking the others in half because of like. i don’t want to diagnosticize here bc JPV has a Lot going on but like OCD-adjacent reasons and Dick comes in and sighs and then in total pure silence under the kitchen light in the middle of the night they sit across from each other and break the rest of the pretzels in perfect halves until the unbalancedness doesnt  bother JPV anymore and after that JPV is so totally touched by that act and he is so obsessed enamored with DG

[emmacortana]

your dream girl’s dream girl. your favourite fanfic writer’s favourite fanfic writer

or we can skip me as the middleman and let dustorange be ur fav fanfic writer too ;)

[kingcrow01]

A huge Fel for Chapter 5 of Missing From the Photographs by @emmacortana, quite literally called Felicia Hardy is BUILT. Peter is a very lucky boyfriend.

Instead of having Peter here, I was going to make a separate drawing with all of their reactions. Tim and Duke would be clutching each other in disbelief, their jaws on the floor, Steph would be giving an encouraging double thumbs up with a shark-tooth smile, and Peter would just be smiling with his arms crossed. He never doubted her. She's so awesome. He is so lucky.

(also @gummieturtle this is totally your fault bc of the rec video you made about ch 10, I went through and re-read some chapters and now we have this. WHERE IS THE RESPONSIBILITY

[emmacortana]

HAHA im LOVIN the felicia fanart who WOULDNT want to be picked up and gently swayed by that absolute BEAST of a woman. and i love ur artstyle!!! peter is me

thank youuuuuuu sm <33

[lordlesslawlessmen]

Tagged by @anatargmova ✨

1. do this picrew

2. do this uquiz

3. tag people

LOVE the validation from this uquiz lmao <3 was definitely expecting to get called out but instead it was like youre actually so sexy and cool

Tagging:

@lovewithoutresin @speaknowbuckley @bibellebibuck @joshrussosbff

(no pressure to do this ofc! ^^)

[speaknowbuckley]

Thanks for the tag! 💜💜💜

I want to read these supposed headcanons so badly. But very flattered (and scared) to be the fanfiction character.

No pressure tags!

@maverey @xpacingtherocksx @onceandfuturehighpriestess @anderperries @jade-efflorescence @jackwhiteprophetic @lingering-sunrise

[lingering-sunrise]

happy pride month lol

thanks for the tag!! 🥰

@suburbanlegnd @abirdsnest @jade-efflorescence @wouldvecouldveshouldve @cookie4love2

[wouldvecouldveshouldve]

happy pride month!!! ❤️ and thank you loml beth for the tag 🫂

tags: @youareinlove @lovelornnobodyknows @svnflowermoon @typingwithmyhandstied @rocketsaurus

[typingwithmyhandstied]

Thank you for the tag!

Npt: @no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist @froginthestars @crowgenius @thatpersonwithbooks

[ganymede-dewormer]

Thanks for the tag!

I got mom/dad friend but forgot to take a screenshot. I don’t think that’s accurate tbh.

Npt: @writergracethepanda @juliette-cai-enthusiast @marsneedstherapy @yelenapines

[yelenapines]

thx for the tag!!

the eyes look scary but it was the closest to brown

@s0lit4ir3 @awild-mustang @mybedroomceilingsbored @alley-brigade-productions + anyone else who wants to join!

[legargoyle]

I got the hot one which is CORRECT

All my problems would be solved if I looked like this but I know my neurodivergent ass could not handle having long hair

@kimu-dem @carrotsinnovember @silly-lil-scribbles + anyone else

[silly-lil-scribbles]

i would love to die in canon, devastating the fandom <3

ive done this one before but i gpt a different result so whatever :D

@mcrratthing @raccoons-under-a-trenchcoat @noah-is-in-the-closet @humanteethmarksonhumanbone and whoever, too tired to remember oeople rn sorry

[raccoons-under-a-trenchcoat]

Yes, I'm a wet cat. Can confirm 👍

The mandatory no-pressure tags as always: @vvanillavveins @bumdaspooderman @robyn-i-guess and literally anyone tbh

[vvanillavveins]

Thanks for the tag!

I do scare people & i am autistic, so that checks out, lmao. I have memory issues though so god help anyone who needs that vital information from me

Tagging @encryptidarchivist @oxthemoron @buried-in-the-archives @alvin-draper @mossy-stormcloud @field-cryptobotanist

[alvin-draper]

I am not sure that that is accurate!

Tagging: @tybaltstann @deadwardiann @alytyler @quarter0master and anyone else!

[alytyler]

I struggled on the hair cause technically it’s dark brown that was dyed red but has faded a lot.

That result is definitely not right especially compared to like half my friends.

@lemoncarddboard @bianca-hooks123 and @rainbowgothdisaster

[lemoncarddboard]

Yeah that tracks lmao. The picrew is a little half-assed, but I am simply too Actively Ill to put any more thought into it. Looking at the difference between this and my pfp is making me miss my stereotypical 'butch lesbian side part side shave' tho. Rip to my freshman year haircut :')

Happy Pride!!

Tagging: @dyingdinosaurus @britcision @stealingyourbones @starry-bi-sky

[starry-bi-sky]

Yeah pretty accurate lmfaoooo. If I had a nickel for every uquiz that called me Bastard I’d have two nickels.

@kingcrow01 @the-navistar-carol @bridgespider @brainman1987 >:3

[kingcrow01]

TLDR, I'm forgettable lmaoo

The picrew is basically me but imagine a better haircut and more face piercings. Oh well

the lucky victims that get tagged today: @gummieturtle @haleswallows @ghostie-doodles @emmacortana

[emmacortana]

i am a reddit warrior thru n thru. it’s my worst trait

i don’t know that many ppl ahhhhh uh @can-u-like-stop @tupacaze (hi on tumblr ig??) @msbobsponge and anyone else who wants to do this 🥺

[gummieturtle]

__

fic: Two Former Hellraisers by emmacortana

fic link

@emmacortana

[emmacortana]

OMG very late to this but HILARIOUS and great art 👌👌

thank you thank you thank you

[emmacortana]

the grind did in fact stop

[msbobsponge]

im back again with a dumb comic, this time inspired by me and @emmacortana bullying the batfam.

damian has a youtube channel where he does random things with his pets. like one video is him drawing alfred the cat and it’s just titled “u peasants need to learn how to draw. watch and learn” and he starts EVERY SINGLE video like this:

gotham goes crazy for it.

[ignorethisemma]

this is the truth and everyone who disagrees is in denial

damian: roblox (sticky ipad kid)

tim: discord (typical discord mod on a power trip)

dick: snapchat (the most awful milennial filters known to man)

jason:

[emmacortana]

i posted this on the wrong acc ignore it ignore everything ugh why does this keep happening anyway my point is still across

[emmacortana]

guys this post is for no reason at all but i just realized in a cold sweat that i have never made it clear that if i ever write bruce wayne going “Hn” in a fic or anything, it is ABSOLUTELY the minecraft villager noise and not at anything at all a little grunt.

you are not only encouraged but required to read it accordingly.

[msbobsponge]

have i read a single nova comic? no. but @emmacortana has been obsessing over it and sending me the found family content i crave, so here u go

this is directly ripped off of one of emma's fic concepts. u can fully judge me on my anatomy skills. and comic art skills. and line drawing skills. but i've been told that the body language slaps so i have that going for me

[emmacortana]

hey guys. i’ve risen back from the dead with a new hyperfixation character and i’m throwing this out there into the world.

yes i am losing it over rich rider. yes i have read every one of his comics past 1999 in the span of three days. yes my brain has melted. this little comic actually sent me deceased.

[emmacortana]

HRKSHRKSH SORRY i found out and i had to subject everyone to it too

[emmacortana]

Triumvirate

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Peter Parker loves his brothers.

Really.

Kind of.

(that’s tim freaking out in the corner)