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In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.

There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.

I realized what happened after about two seconds.

The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.

For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.

I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.

windwardstar

This can be reblogged, if anyone was wondering. I wrote up this post with the intention that hopefully people who read it and didn’t really get triggers would understand a bit.

the-real-seebs

So, a thing that’s particularly important here: The trigger here is not the bad experience itself.

jumpingjacktrash

after my super funtime medical adventure, i had to change all my bath products, because my brain had associated the scent of them with being terrified and in extreme pain.

these were products i had chosen myself because i liked the smell. and they got connected to the medical phobia because i was using them to wash off the hospital reek and the fear sweat and so forth. i don’t know why they became a trigger. maybe because washing off the hospital smell didn’t make me not in pain. maybe because their ‘fresh pine ocean breeze bluegreen spicy stuff’ smell didn’t really replace the hospital stench, just mingled with it.

but for whatever reason, smelling these objectively nice soaps made me do flashbacks and get all hopeless and wobbly. so they had to go.

triggers are random. they’re often something that was simply present during a trauma, and you can’t guess what they’ll be. no one who hasn’t heard me explain this would ever associate suave naturals ocean breeze body wash with unbearable abdominal pain. so i guess the takeaways here are twofold:

- if you have triggers, remember other people can’t predict them, and don’t expect to be protected from them all the time. that’s up to you.

- if you don’t have triggers, don’t assume you can judge what a ‘real’ trigger is, and if someone asks you to accomodate them, don’t be a dick about it. even if you don’t want to make that accomodation, decline politely and apologize, don’t disparage their request.

Are there any good books to learn how to help someone who has depression/suicidal thoughts?

I have quite a few people very close to me who are currently dealing with severe depression and suicidal thoughts, and I simply do not have the mental tools to help them well and they can't go to a proffesional anytime soon due to extremely strict parents.

I'm not sure if this is the right place for this kind of a question, but we are not legal adults yet and I'm getting a bit desparate with seeking this kind of help as im worried at least one person might die before the end of this year, and there's no official suicide hotline in our country and the few ones that do exist are small and extremely busy and hard to reach

Are there any good books or scientific articles that can teach me a bit more about depression (or other mental illnesses) and how to help someone who has it? I did some googling but didn't find a lot of stuff that seems useful. Any kind of feedback would be greatly appreaciated!

Thanks in advance and I hope you have a good day

msburgundy-but-worser-deactivat

mythbusters was so good because it wasn't a killjoy show. they didn't just say "see, it doesn't work" and leave it there

whenever they find that the stunt doesn't work as portrayed in the movie, they immediately ask "what would it take to make this happen?"

disclaymore-deactivated20230920

“we know it takes this amount of explosives to work, but what if we doubled it anyway?”

oldschoolvillageidiot

Some myths I'll always remember:

* Are elephants scared of mice? (They only did that because they were in Africa and had access to elephants.)

* Will a bull run amok in a china shop?

* Is it better to run zig-zag or straight when chased by an alligator?

I love these because NONE of them turned out the way they expected. They went into all three with pre-conceived ideas of how it would go, and each time they "failed." Elephants WILL cower from mice. A bull moves very gingerly through a china shop. It doesn't matter how you run because ALLIGATORS WON'T CHASE YOU.

And each time, they reacted with just... pure glee. "Holy shit, we were wrong! Oh my god! This is great! We were so wrong!"

And that, to me, is what science is. Being excited about being wrong because either way it's information.

rinadragomir

You're being murdered. You look the killer in the eye & your last words are the last text you sent:

Kinda funny

enbypen

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biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

true or false, everyone should be making their best effort 100% of the time, it’s lazy to do otherwise.

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excellent! now true or false: leisure time is only valuable if you spend it productively. if you are not creating something or enriching yourself, you are just wasting time.

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terrific work!

so logically, you can stop feeling guilty about “wasting” time on “useless” things, because it’s neither wasteful nor useless if you enjoy it.

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

no!!!! no that is not the message you are supposed to take from this! Bad tumblr!!!!

sp-acecreature

I know this to be true but the tiny capitalist that sits on my shoulder whispers that it’s false.

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

I HATE that capitalist

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Unused model for a Luigi toy resembling a nesting doll from Luigi’s Mansion.

fivehoursofscreaming

FUCKING

ambassadorquark

at the beginning of the quarter this barbie doll showed up in my design prof’s classroom and he doesn’t know where it came from but one of his other classes crucified it(????) and when it somehow disappeared a week or so later people apparently lost their minds

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Help.

The guy i hate the most called me cute

the-homicidal-duck-deactivated2

Yall i said HELP

starviki

sorry I was too busy printing out wedding invitations

yumiiiiiii

enemies to lovers slow burn

parakeet

Coming out of the closet as both a god and a disappointment

somnolentsuggestions

eat a fruit that you like. take a little walk and pay attention to the trees. dance to music alone in ur room. it’s the small things that will heal you

lizardgills

PRIDE MERMAY! my mini series for may 2021!

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I'm a teen journalist; investigating Squidwards Suicide

astudyingreer

hey so like

hi, you. yeah im talking to you. You like my stuff from time to time and reblog once and a while, and I always recognize you in my notes. we’ve never talked, maybe you dont like to say much or you’re nervous or something. it’s okay, whatever it is.

I see you. you mean a lot to me. sometimes when I’m having a hard day, I’ll notice your name once again in my notifs and it makes me smile. im not kidding.

I don’t care if you’re a “ghost” follower or you send me asks all the time. i see you and I love you so much, genuinely and truly. you are really important to me.

thank you. thank you for being there. <3