thaw winter's rime anew

“There are few things more terrifying than one's own heart, and there is almost nothing more terrifying than sharing it with another. But the most terrifying thing of all is to leave one's heart unshared.” © | Idris, they/them, 25 | discourse blog: discourse-and-suffering, kin blog: sword-of-darkness, kink blog: kinky-cat | AO3: lady_of_the_labyrinth | ko-fi: ko-fi.com/idriss

[eternal-flame]

hewwo tumblr! I am opening ✨writing commissions✨

what I will write:

original fiction, preferably. if you really want to commission a fic from me for some reason, ask and I will decide if I can write for that fandom.

other than that, just about anything. sfw, nsfw, weird kinks, weirdly specific ideas, etc.

what I won't write:

graphic gore

vomit, scat, piss, and adjacent topics

nsfw content of characters below the age of 14

I reserve the right to realize I forgot a kink I'm squicked out by and refuse a commission (or for other reasons)

pricing:

$1 per 100 words

+ $0.5 for writing fanfic or your specific ocs (as opposed to giving me a general idea) (if you want me to write about your ocs I will also need a detailed description of what their deal is)

+$0.5 for action scenes or nsfw scenes (yes, I have the exact same problems writing both. no, I cannot explain why.)

+$1 & a reference of some kind for detailed visual descriptions, because they drive me insane

+$5 for every 500 words above 1500

I will write up to ~1500 words. if I get hit with sudden inspiration and end up writing more than we discussed, I won't charge you for extra words, but feel free to give me more money if you want. tips are appreciated!

payment methods:

paypal or ko-fi (ko-fi is listed in my blog description, paypal will be given out in private) (please do not mention anything nsfw on either of those platforms)

if you wish to see examples of my writing, my ao3 username is also in my blog description. unfortunately, all my original writing is either really old (and in russian) or private WIPs, so I will not be sharing that, unless I decide I like & trust you.

writing speed:

will have to be decided on a case by case basis, depending on length and complexity of the commission and how much coursework I have at any given point in time.

should generally be between a week (if it's really short and simple) and two months.

I will not be working on more than one or two commissions at a time, but hopefully that will mean I can go through them quicker.

I keep all rights to my work, and I am allowed to post/publish it wherever/whenever I want (although I will not post it publicly until the commission is complete). you will not publish it under your own/some else's name.

(if you really want to hide it from the world for some reason we can discuss additional payment for that. either way, I will not be disclosing who the commissioner is if and when I post it, so you don't have to worry about your anonymity.)

commissions status: open

I also take shorter commissions on ko-fi! See the link in the blog description.

[sawed-on-shotgun]

the human body when you use it and exist in it

[tim-official]

that poll going around of the guy who thought "people only eat tofu as a bit because they're deranged vegans" or whatever really crystalizes something that i have never been able to precisely say - which is "a nonzero fraction of people who start picky-eater discourse just happen to precisely hate those foods which are not from north america and refuse to introspect on this whatsoever"

[tim-official]

In contrast some people say "there aren't any picky eaters in Asia 🙄" but this is laughably untrue. I have a cousin in India who refused until his 20s to eat anything in a sauce. as you can imagine in India this was difficult. he basically had to pick things out of curry and wipe them dry

[bobcat-pie]

[hollowedskin]

[synfullewrecche]

logging onto woundblr and seeing all the pain on my gashboard

[questionable-method]

no but im so tired of how self-deprecation is always more accepted than self-advocacy. if i say i can't drive because im autistic i get questioned on how exactly that works and given a million suggestions on how to do it anyway and i look like im trying to be special so it's easier to just say im a loser. yeah i don't drive because im kind of a loser lmao. oh well. and people say lmao back and we move on. at worst they say "oh im sure you'll figure it out haha." but no interrogation!! being a loser is more respectable than being disabled. being a loser is something that doesn't make other people feel uncomfortable about their own biases. so no, no im not disabled. i don't struggle to keep friends and do the laundry and make quick trivial decisions and clean my room and brush my teeth because im autistic. it's because im a loser. it's my fault. it is what it is. at least im funny now. do you think im funny? please think im funny

[parakeet]

just saw a 'comments' tab on someones blog you know where the following and likes tabs would be if enabled and it was just showing all the replies theyve made on peoples posts. this is fascinating when did this feature come out

[parakeet]

EMERGENCY - ITS AUTO ENABLED!

if you've made replies on posts there is now a tab on your blog showing every post youve replied to and your reply.

if this is not what you want, either go to your blog and click comments and disable it from there or just go to your individual blogs setting pages. just change it from blue to grey if you dont want everyone to see your replies AND the post you're replying to

PLEASE BE ADVISED that it is set to disabled for blogs that have not made any replies but it will turn ON if you reply with that blog in the future.! i just tested it with my main, which was greyed out but it turned on the moment i left a test reply

figured i'd get the word out bc i have not seen a single mention of this and i'm sure there are plenty of people who maybe comment on things they don't want on display for everyone to see on their blog lol. you can still look at your replies with it toggled off just no one else can, like locking the following and likes list

[thebreakfastgenie]

Quand il faut expliquer la pâtisserie à un Américain: imaginez un hamburger

[kurhanchyk]

i grew found of calling the incorrect usage of greek alphabet "grssk". it's like greek's stupid brother

[peregrynne]

You would LOVE this restaurant then

[kurhanchyk]

oh my god it's THE grssk

[stackslip]

I was too young for mass effect when it was out, is it worth visiting?

not if you still want to have some shred of respect for me and my tastes at the end of it

[stackslip]

the longer answer anon is that if you want a semi-decent if tonally and thematically incoherent space opera with dreadful politics that keeps promising interesting worldbuilding before refusing to commit to any of it, fun banter with a charming cast who will never really challenge the protagonist except one or two and only to a certain degree, a decent sense of scale and space operation, an EXTREMELY fun space magic charge-and-shotgun-these-fuckers gameplay, aliens you can fuck but only heterosexually (because gay alien sex outside of blue babes is apparently not allowed unless you have mods and a powerful pc), a genuine sense of deep connection to the protagonist you follow through three games to the point of getting ridiculously attached to them, practically no good roleplaying options bc said protagonist remains a power fantasy who's set in one of two major paths (and the second one is near untenable and makes no sense by the third game), space exploration that feels at least semi alive and was v impressive for the late 2000s/early 2010s, war crimes of many kind and apologism for it, urdnot wrex and tali'zorah vas normandy, cool robots, really really bad late 2000s gaming misogyny including refusing to make alien women bc they're too complicated to make sexy, lot of fun background npc conversations, well. maybe? i do not know. i was obsessed with these games from 14 to 18 which is the worst POSSIBLE time to get obsessed with them and has left me incapable of truly being objective about them. i have also not replayed them in years and i am tinkering with the idea but also v reluctant to play them unmodded by this point. anyways. maybe it's more entertaining to watch me suffer and grapple with them.

[stackslip]

#i love the vibes#i try not to think too deeply about it otherwise#shooting explodey shotgun bullets into a guy whos helplessly floating in the air is fun tho

it is so so so so so so so fun and honestly that's p much it. mass effect is FUN and has VIBES as long as you don't think too hard about some of its very basic premise which from age 14 to 19 i simply didn't and now i do and suddenly the vibes have shifted. but also god singularity is so fun. charge + nova is so fun. getting garrus or ashley to literally melt down enemies' armor before you boomerang yourself at them or ram your techno blade while jennifer hale screams her battle cries is so so so so fucking fun. fighting a reaper on foot in me3 is so good. the suicide mission music still gets me hyped so badly. god.

[eternal-flame]

oh my god the fucking suicide mission. it's objectively the best idea for a video game finale anyone's ever had in terms of its like, structure. I can't believe more games aren't stealing it.

also, man. me3 still regularly makes me cry even if quite a bit of it makes no sense, objectively speaking, even before the universally hated ending.

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[heat--end]

i haaaate being avoidant. it makes you feel like the world's biggest jackass whenever someone tries to talk to you or whatever and you just Freeze Up

[heat--end]

Oh sorry i took a long ass time to reply and didnt say anything. I got arbitrarily scared and tired myself out so now i cant say much. Oopsie teehee. it makes you feel like a huge dickhead

[dearausten]

not now sweetie, mommy is watching how the massive girlbossification of female characters has led to the belief that weak and vulnerable female characters are badly written characters because apparently every woman needs to be outspoken and witty and snarky and brave in order to be considered “complex” and have any value in a piece of media!!

[chilewithcarnage]

[revvethasmythh]

happy birthday to THE bitch of all time

[wifegideonnav]

remember kids if someone’s trying to get you to do something with money and they get agitated when you want to slow down and google stuff to confirm, that’s a scam

[wifegideonnav]

anyway do you want to see the funniest email ive ever received

[tiktoks-i-enjoyed]

Tiktok post by @ _urlovelyboyaurwen_ (he/him).

[markovchaingang]

seeing a mutual post a picture of two anime guys standing next to each other and using my elite media analysis skills that i got from secondary school lit class (hence why i'm not a fascist) to instantly decipher which of them they want to see fucking the other

[storm-of-feathers]

yeah yeah rainbow capitalism is bad and whatever but like. when I was a child, being pro gay was not the popular or lucrative choice. I'm happy that times have changed.

[storm-of-feathers]

I miss rainbow capitalism. I do. I miss when it felt like public opinion was still pro gay. I understand it was always an empty gesture, but it mattered in a sense of knowing how socially acceptable being queer is. If that makes sense.