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!Flashing lights!
YOU ARE THE REASON

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tree heartbeat
!Flashing lights!
What's behind this
Urge to run
What's this fear of
Spontaneous convulsions
With baby Sparrows
In hand
I build fences,
Not nests
Sharp stick
Barricades
Baby birds
Cast shadows
On the moon
Jumping from
My Hap hazard home
In the sun
Floodland, Mixed Media, 5 x 7 inches, 2022
Youtube / Instagram / DeviantART
Dull eyes,
Doll eyes;
Oh honey...
What do you know?
Little leaf on the tree
Hold tight,
Though the wind
Blows us so.
<3
These could be movie posters.
Magical girl transformation where I look exactly the same by the end except my posture and speech are different and I have to be reminded of several details on the conversation we just had
There I go. Processing through art again.
ADDICTED TO THE PEN
A poem by all of us.
Quantum Buddhist
When DID Can Form
Based on my extensive research, I believe DID can develop between the ages of 6-12. This is wide range is due to a multitude of factors, including neurodivergence, I've found. Autism and other such things cause someone to have a low stress tolerance and/or get stuck FEELING a certain age subjectively/mentally due to the stress in their life and/or the Autism. This would explain why the physical age range is so wide.
(personal trauma mention; non-extensive talk) I know this is true due to the fact that we are Autistic and have gone through several bouts of stunted mental age, AND it causes a very low stress tolerance. Our most major traumas didn't happen UNTIL we were bodily 10-16. We had some other "smaller" traumas before that, and we were essentially emotionally neglected by both parents for the entire duration of childhood and beyond. For someone with a low stress tolerance, though, this is enough to prevent a full personality from developing. Especially considering we weren't even really being taught how to have a personality (see "emotional neglect" and "Autism" haha).
Everything stated here is based on extensive research and personal experience. We're not professionals (but we certainly could be considered such at this point).
I particularly appreciate the end, of not being taught how to have a personality.
Neglect is real abuse.
Yes, Your trauma was enough.
Picture by Adel and Rebel. Yes, that's me. And me, and me.
Poem by everyone. It's long, but an insightful read.
We call it, PSYCHOSIS
TW: DRUG USE, ABUSE, DEATH/DYING
contacted my govenor's office. bc why the hell not.
i need 1300$ by mar 28th. really more bc bills.
but. i guess we'll see what happens. otherwise i'll be outside by the 15th of April
in other news: still trying to get a job. despite breaking out into hives, having chest pains, head aches and other fun symptoms
just.. trying to do that necessary stuff i need to do.
and i am very grateful for what people have given me.
but i can't keep doing things that i know is going to cause more damage in the short AND long run.
i cannot express enough how much i've demanded of my body, mind, and soul.
ignoring all sorts of pain, cold, heat, dehydration, hunger, and the like. not to mention the massive amounts of psychic damage i've endured which. apparently is. hm. abnormal (that's literally what my therapist said and i only told him a handful of things)
so i have no doubt in my mind that what's currently happening is the result of accumulated damage. of living the life I had
i managed to become a capable and compassionate person despite everything
but i am equally pathetic and mean spirited. how could i not be?
i've seen hell. and i wish that was an exaggeration.
i'd like to heal properly.
i'd like to not get worse.
that's all.
i am what i am. so that healing looks differently than it does for others.
you cannot offer me the same remedies as others. i have seen time and again how they hurt me.
so if this is how it is going to be
all i can do is pray
and hope that what effort i've put in thusfar will see me through it.
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MEET THE GARDENERS
Let's start from the top down
And get one thing straight.
This is a blended system based on a host that gave up, with the things she came to admire the most taking root in her.
Her life collapsed. She is still, to this day, exhausted.
She has not slept. She has had no idea who she is. Since 2018. 2020 sometime is when she checked out for good.