some stuff before you follow (or skip it, i guess, you might just be surprised later.)
tags, details, and ""dni/byf"" under the cut--it's not actually a dni i just block liberally and you'll probably wanna read if you have one
about me/the blog
hi, i'm a changeling (specifically a xanín). i have a lot of names, and my real name will not be on here, but among others i go by crow, magpie, koraki, and jackdaw. my pronouns are fey/feyr, it/its, me/i, &/&s, 🦷/🦷s, .../...s, and unhinged screaming. i do not have aux pronouns, i do not use he/she/they, don't ask.
i'm also plural and in a system (whether or not i'm the host is none of your business). our body is light-skinned Latine with Indigenous and Spanish/Italian heritage, physically disabled, Autistic, transgender, and queer. i identify as physically a changeling. (i prefer alterhuman, nonhuman, otherkind, alterfolk/ faefolk/ changelingfolk, brood parasite, and fae > otherkin.)
i'm a hellenic pagan in a body that is working on beginning our giyur. i align with nearly all (reform) jewish teachings/beliefs beyond monotheism, and have a very low tolerance for antitheism (not atheism) and antisemitism.
this is a sideblog, so interaction will come from our system blog (safety pins). i don't plan to be active or check this often.
tags
- #human.milk | important informational things, such as term definitions, community resources, and folklore
- #eggshell.tricks | personal posts, ie about my identity, experiences, etc
- #my.cradle.now | asks/responses
- #no.ragerts | discourse posts
- #rio.cabra | changeling/fae aesthetic posts and art, stuff that feels like 'home'
- #chupacabra | things about Latin culture that feel like my actual literal homeland
- #citation.needed | upg and me being on my bullshit
- #i.am.the.citation | me on my bullshit but when i actually know what i'm talking about (mainly disability, neurodiversity, queerness, hellenismos, and some related topics)
tws will simply be tagged "#tw subject" and/or "#cw subject", and i will always tag unreality/possible psychosis triggers as "tw unreality" & "unreality".
i will not tw or censor terms i reclaim for myself, images/discussion of trans and disabled bodies, the existence of any marginalized groups, mentions of religions, or the naming of disorders/differences and symptoms. don't ask me to, and do not nonconsensually add tw tags for these on my posts.
(i will however tw for in depth discussion of negative symptoms, trauma, or religion)
not actually a dni
- i'm a minor so do with that what you will. while i'm close to being 18 and the 17/18 difference doesn't really exist (except legally), the teen/adult difference does, so still.
- seriously i am not into discourse, don't ask my opinions on it. i may respond to it on occasion, but not a lot. it's overall very toxic and petty.
- i'm a cripple punk, dyke, queer, transsexual, spic, autist, hysterical, mad, lame, gimp, fag, transvestite, etc.. if you're against people taking pride in reclaimed slurs and outdated terms, first pick up a history book, but second you might want to avoid me. i will not tw for or censor words i reclaim, if you don't wanna see it put it on your "hide" list.
- i'm a rad inclus for everything (mspec lesbians, lesboys, nondysphorics, endo systems, nondisordered systems, non-lesbian dykes, non-gay fags, etc.) and i don't entertain discourse on it
- i hate the term d/a and "irl" isn't psychotic exclusive. i am, in fact, delusional myself. but both communities get really shitty to kins, and both spread a fuckton of misinfo on psychosis. i don't care if you have those experiences, but those labels are oof!
- narcissistic abuse doesn't exist, stop calling people sociopaths/psychopaths/narcissists unless that is their self identification, its really that easy
- f-mboy is a transmisogynistic slur and i will absolutely block non-transfem/amab trans folks ""reclaiming"" it. no, it's not against transmascs or gay men, it literally means tr-p.
- shipcourse is ridiculous. if you're militant about literally any side of it, we're probably not going to get along. it's a toxic debate with nothing but miscommunication and pettiness in it, and framing media discourse as "100% anti vs 100% pro and not anti" is a fantastic way to erase literally all nuance
- i don't care what your kinks are and find all anti-kink shit to be queerphobic and shitty. but i do 100% expect you to not interact with me from any NSFW or kink blog, and expect you to not fetishize other's non-kink experiences without consent, and will block if you do
- being anti sexual abuse/bestiality/map & zoo pride? great, yes, agreed. being anti paraphilia? gross, shitty, and saneist. they're still mental illnesses if you hate them
oh by the way we came out as plural, started a yt channel, and switched accounts lmao. our new main is @bodyetal, but most of our contents on our youtube at the moment! [same username i dont wanna get url dinged lmao] -crow&
hey so we're an endo collective and we try and not actively participate in syscourse for the most part, but i was hoping yall could give some opinions on a post we saw? the post was from griffinsyscourse and i agreed with what they were saying. it was about how the demedicalization of medical terms (system, alter, ect) is harmful and that, while theyre not saying our experiences arent real experiences of plurality, we should try and use different language like collective or headmate instead. weve been using system up until this point but i really agree with what they had to say, but i wanted to hear some more peoples thoughts on kt!
Why do people keep asking me abt this blog like this. It's clearly just a sysmed.
Anyway they need to prove those are purely medical terms first, which they haven't done (bc they aren't)
"system" as a term predates medicine (obviously) and medically speaking a system =/= plural, there are singlet systems and that's the basis for IFS. a system is literally "a set of things working together as parts of a mechanism or an interconnecting network."
"alter" is short for alternate personality/identity state, it is ALSO not an original medical term, it post-dates "alter ego" and isn't exactly creative. actually, "alter" is less medical than "alternate identity state," which also isn't inherently medical.
i'm excited for their sources too, especially since i've never met a single clinician who believes the terms to be exclusive.
nothing is being demedicalized, if anything, the terms are being needlessly medicalized so people can make up a guy to get mad at.
[also, obligatory reminder that endogenic =/= nondisordered and traumagenic =/= disordered and an origin says nothing about one's diagnostic or disordered status]
Just informing you I reblogged this, but through the reblog queerautism made so I do not believe you would have gotten a notification. It is a bit down on my page if you wish to view it, it addresses this.
hi! unfortunately your reputation precedes you and i have no interest in interacting with you, but thanks for whatever you thought was important to say i guess
hey so we're an endo collective and we try and not actively participate in syscourse for the most part, but i was hoping yall could give some opinions on a post we saw? the post was from griffinsyscourse and i agreed with what they were saying. it was about how the demedicalization of medical terms (system, alter, ect) is harmful and that, while theyre not saying our experiences arent real experiences of plurality, we should try and use different language like collective or headmate instead. weve been using system up until this point but i really agree with what they had to say, but i wanted to hear some more peoples thoughts on kt!
Why do people keep asking me abt this blog like this. It's clearly just a sysmed.
Anyway they need to prove those are purely medical terms first, which they haven't done (bc they aren't)
"system" as a term predates medicine (obviously) and medically speaking a system =/= plural, there are singlet systems and that's the basis for IFS. a system is literally "a set of things working together as parts of a mechanism or an interconnecting network."
"alter" is short for alternate personality/identity state, it is ALSO not an original medical term, it post-dates "alter ego" and isn't exactly creative. actually, "alter" is less medical than "alternate identity state," which also isn't inherently medical.
i'm excited for their sources too, especially since i've never met a single clinician who believes the terms to be exclusive.
nothing is being demedicalized, if anything, the terms are being needlessly medicalized so people can make up a guy to get mad at.
[also, obligatory reminder that endogenic =/= nondisordered and traumagenic =/= disordered and an origin says nothing about one's diagnostic or disordered status]
we have a very bad friend right now and i’m sad. he’s not being kind to us. i wish he was good. i’m trying to give benefit of the doubt, but all the others think i need to let them cut him out. and i know i agree.
i stopped being the singletsona ages ago and he still assumes i am. he forgot our birthday. he refuses to stop using ableist language. he doesn’t talk to us before we text him. he forgot our birthday party, didn’t tell us if he was coming until less than an hour before, stayed for half of it, and didn’t bring a gift or a card.
he didn’t wish bug a happy birthday at the party. this is their birthday, more than anyone else’s. they turned six. kit’s never gotten older before. bug loves him.
i need to let go. but it hurts. i just want people to be nice. i wish he treated me with the care i take for him.
one of our two “best friends” called their abuser a narcissist today and refused to listen when we corrected him. they know we’re borderline. we told them explicitly that they were voicing attitudes that kill us.
we already didn’t feel awesome about him because of another thing he did this week but i cant stop feeling The Grief(tm).
i don’t know what the point of this message is. i’m just splitting and in so much pain and i need to say it
-🌻
Damn, that's rough. It's tough when a friend gets sucked up into the whole "narc abuse" thing. I hope he's able to express himself without ableism/armchair diagnosing and I hope you two were able to sort things out.
thank you for the kind response :3 i forgot i sent this ask but he got worse.
the day after that, at lunch (i was absent) he said something just ridiculously anti PD. i had explained the night before, and he hasn’t acknowledged it.
so basically egotypicals are terrible 0/10
(advice not minded because we are not sure how to navigate this but we Can’t Be Around This Ableism)
anti-egg vegans are always a hoot. like, she’s not using it. it’s not fertilized. it’s going to rot and attract predators. you want me to just throw it in the trash??
same thing with anti honey vegans. like, oh, sorry, you're right, i should just let my bees drown in honey and stop feeding them. and then use alternatives that decimate ecosystems, in turn further destroying the bee population and biodiversity
nondelusionals have the most closed minded view of the world and how facts operate that doesn't even adhere to how the nondelusional world works and it's obnoxious.
y'all have never had to ask why your reality is the "real one" if others' are real to them too and it shows. stop treating psychotics like we're ignorant wen you've never asked half as many questions about what you think to be true.
[D \ As and I R Ls please don't derail. delusional community content is extremely dominated by D \ As, I R Ls, and nondelusionals already. ]
i want to stand in the creek. i want to walk outside. i want to pick flowers. i want to be away from the human world for a bit.
the human world wasn't made for me in any way. flat floors hurt me. heavy doors tear at my shoulder. medium-low backed chairs destroy my spine. concrete stairs dislocate my knees. this way of life pulls apart my bones.
and all those flat floors, heavy doors, low-back chairs, hard stairs, everything, damage my body so much that i can't even go where i belong once i've run through the motions of human life.
it's so frustrating to be trapped by the daily injuries i get from my inability to escape. i don't want to hurt this much. i want to be in the river. all i get now is staring at the sun.
what if i just got the fairy forest smart crutches, huh? what then? all of you are powerless to stop me. you shall gaze upon my fairy crip gear and weep
[id: an example image of a smart crutch showing the coil shop absorbers, the full crutch on both sides, and the design in the center. the art, which is on the crutch's forearms, is of light creme glowing mushrooms growing from green moss, with tiny glowing fairy figures floating around. end id.]
(hi this is 🌻 from the safety pins on my sideblog lmao)
not to sound like,,, idk what or derail the nip convo, but i have thoughts on nipples.
as you might be able to tell from my avatar, i am anti nipple.
i mean im pro,,, nipple autonomy, i guess, i dont care if you have nipples. i think that goes without saying?
but for me being a Not Human, and especially being a species [of changeling] with folklore revolving around producing little to no breast milk, it gives me a few things:
1. mmm species. yes. good brr
2. less human body!! also less mammalian but i don't mind being a mammal. voidpunk and all that! you don't want to see me as a human while i look like one, so i'll stop looking human while you keep giving me what i wanted
3. i just like the concept of visibly being unable to breastfeed by my own choice and transphobes not having anything they can do about it. like yeah fuck you i want you to know i'm never birthing a child and get mad
4. i don't want to look like a normal unmodded human, i want little kids to think i'm super cool and their parents to fear me
i have 99 problems and 98 of them would be solved by living in the abandoned Spanish-moss covered building and singing a hypnotic song that suffocates the unkind.
