Feeling physical exhaustion as a psychosomatic reaction to things that feel daunting or intimidating is such a ridiculously counterproductive thing to do. Like there's a situation that requires you to be alert and mentally present and paying attention, and your brain just goes "hey I don't wanna. I don't wanna be here. How about going unconscious instead. No fuck you we're warping out. Night night."
Like most annoying human things it's really just a healthy mechanism that's been pushed too far.
I'm pretty sure it stems from "This is going to take work so I should rest and maybe eat something first"
But when you are exhausted all the time, and/or don't have enough time, etc... It gets pushed too far and you get caught in the loop of "I just need MORE rest and maybe food first" infinitely, every time you look at it, because of disability and capitalism and then self re-enforcing habits and so on.
The best advice I can give is to learn to consciously gauge what your actual limits are and how much rest or recovery you actually need before starting, and to maybe break daunting things down into smaller tasks and rest in between.
This doesn't really help for things that have come up that you can't really put off, except maybe to help inform you that you are in fact maybe being over extended.
The fact that most of us live most of our adult lives in a state of constantly being over-extended and accepting that as normal is kind of a problem.
If you are encountering the problem a lot, it might mean you need to take on less, or get something diagnosed, or sleep or eat more.
How do I proceed if The Daunting Task that the brain is trying to avoid is trying to understand why a normal situation is stressful? Like okay time for a 100% normal function the average adult has no problem with, and the brain just goes "no fuck u we will not."
A lot of recent studies coming out strongly suggest that psychosomatic pain is not a thing. Itās really chronic inflammation triggered by an already distressed system that now thinks youāre in mortal danger bc of the added stress. The physical energy to handle it isnāt there, like on a cellular level.
The person above you is kinda right. I felt this way for years with no answer, then this may I find out theyāve renamed PCOS, itās PMOS now, and itās a gd METABOLIC DISORDER. I learned about that and like 2 other conditions I most likely have bc genetics, started taking the advice around what specific nutrients and supplements I needed and itās not like Iām magically better now, but Iām definitely in Random Pain or Physical Distress a lot less often already
TL;DR: Itās probably not actually The Thing Itself sapping your energy, itās just where you notice it being gone bc addressing it would require a lot more than the daily average, and your body is trying to beg you to conserve energy for sone reason or another.
YES. It can. Thatās like the main reason they had to rename it, from what I understandāthe cysts were the only prominent symptom for a long time so they were focusing on that, but either the research around long covid or glp1s or both has led Science to agree that the main issue is apparently what it does to your insulināitās different than diabetes (but over time it can create insulin resistance that LEADS to diabetes.) The cysts were just a downstream effect from androgens building in the system. It is probably massively underdiagnosed in men and people without ovariesāthe most obvious sign isnāt present, and a lot of times it just develops into type 2 diabetes unchecked.
Feeling physical exhaustion as a psychosomatic reaction to things that feel daunting or intimidating is such a ridiculously counterproductive thing to do. Like there's a situation that requires you to be alert and mentally present and paying attention, and your brain just goes "hey I don't wanna. I don't wanna be here. How about going unconscious instead. No fuck you we're warping out. Night night."
Like most annoying human things it's really just a healthy mechanism that's been pushed too far.
I'm pretty sure it stems from "This is going to take work so I should rest and maybe eat something first"
But when you are exhausted all the time, and/or don't have enough time, etc... It gets pushed too far and you get caught in the loop of "I just need MORE rest and maybe food first" infinitely, every time you look at it, because of disability and capitalism and then self re-enforcing habits and so on.
The best advice I can give is to learn to consciously gauge what your actual limits are and how much rest or recovery you actually need before starting, and to maybe break daunting things down into smaller tasks and rest in between.
This doesn't really help for things that have come up that you can't really put off, except maybe to help inform you that you are in fact maybe being over extended.
The fact that most of us live most of our adult lives in a state of constantly being over-extended and accepting that as normal is kind of a problem.
If you are encountering the problem a lot, it might mean you need to take on less, or get something diagnosed, or sleep or eat more.
How do I proceed if The Daunting Task that the brain is trying to avoid is trying to understand why a normal situation is stressful? Like okay time for a 100% normal function the average adult has no problem with, and the brain just goes "no fuck u we will not."
A lot of recent studies coming out strongly suggest that psychosomatic pain is not a thing. Itās really chronic inflammation triggered by an already distressed system that now thinks youāre in mortal danger bc of the added stress. The physical energy to handle it isnāt there, like on a cellular level.
The person above you is kinda right. I felt this way for years with no answer, then this may I find out theyāve renamed PCOS, itās PMOS now, and itās a gd METABOLIC DISORDER. I learned about that and like 2 other conditions I most likely have bc genetics, started taking the advice around what specific nutrients and supplements I needed and itās not like Iām magically better now, but Iām definitely in Random Pain or Physical Distress a lot less often already
TL;DR: Itās probably not actually The Thing Itself sapping your energy, itās just where you notice it being gone bc addressing it would require a lot more than the daily average, and your body is trying to beg you to conserve energy for sone reason or another.
please read this even if you're not indian. especially if you're not indian.
you've seen the jokes. india is "dirty", indians are "everywhere", why don't they fix their own country. ok. let me tell you why, and what's happening right now while nobody's watching.
first, the history you skipped: britain ruled india for two centuries and drained it. economist utsa patnaik's research estimates around $45 trillion in today's money was taken. the india that got independence in 1947 was one of the poorest countries on earth. every "why is india like this" question starts there. you don't get to profit off a robbery and then mock the crime scene.
now, what's happening RIGHT NOW:
in may the question paper for NEET leaked. that's the national medical entrance exam. over 2.2 million students took it. cancelled. years of studying, families' savings poured into coaching, gone overnight because someone sold the paper. students died by suicide after. these were kids who wanted to be doctors.
and out of that came a protest movement. a gen z group called the cockroach janta party, started by a 30 year old named abhijeet dipke, got 22 million instagram followers within DAYS. they've been doing a sit-in at jantar mantar in delhi demanding education minister dharmendra pradhan resign.
and then there's sonam wangchuk. if you've watched 3 idiots, he's the real engineer the character was based on. built solar schools in ladakh. invented ice stupas so himalayan villages have water. spent his whole life on education. he's 59 and he's been on hunger strike for 17+ days now. reporters went to see him this week and he was too weak to talk. and the troll armies are calling him "anti national" and "foreign funded". a man starving himself for other people's children. that's the thing here, anyone who asks a question is suddenly a traitor.
it's not one incident, it's everywhere you look:
ā¢ infrastructure worth thousands of crores failing within months of the ribbon cutting. tunnels collapsing in regions where heavy rain is a guarantee, not a surprise.
ā¢ youth unemployment near 10% for ages 15 to 29, 13.6% in cities. in a country of 1.42 billion where more than half the population is young.
ā¢ only about the top 3% of indians earn above 10 lakh a year. meanwhile billionaire wealth keeps ballooning and the headlines celebrate it.
ā¢ manipur burned for over two years. an ethnic conflict, tens of thousands displaced, and the prime minister barely said the word manipur while it happened.
ā¢ journalists raided. critics' houses bulldozed. activists sitting in jail for years without trial under laws like UAPA. our press freedom ranking has cratered.
ā¢ even the petrol is a fight now, ethanol blending pushed through while drivers complain about their engines and get no straight answers.
and through all of it, the PM, who came to power on religious polarisation (americans, sound familiar?), travels abroad for photo ops and has not held one single open press conference in over a decade. not one.
what i'm asking:
if you're not indian: share this. our media mostly won't cover any of it because the big outlets are owned by the same billionaires the government serves. the only reason wangchuk's fast is getting any coverage is people refusing to look away.
if you ARE indian: speak up even if you're comfortable. especially if you're comfortable. join the protests. add to this, correct me, translate it. staying quiet is a choice when nothing in this post touches your life.
india is not "dirty". india was robbed, and it's being robbed again, from the inside this time. but it's also the country where a 59 year old will starve for strangers' kids and 22 million young people will rally behind a party literally named after cockroaches, because cockroaches survive everything.
just found out that accidentally in love by counting crows was literally made for shrek. they didnt just choose it. it didnt exist before. they asked counting crows to make a song for shrek 2 and thats how we got one of the best songs ever made. insane.
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If you've ever spent time around Wikipedians, you've doubtless heard its motto: "Wikipedia only works in practice. In theory, it's a mess." It's a delicious line, which is why I stole it for my 2017 novel Walkaway.
But this is one of those lines that's too good to fact-check. The truth is that there's a theory that very neatly describes how Wikipedia works; that is, how Wikipedia is one of the best sources of information ever assembled, despite allowing tens of thousands of anonymous and pseudonymous people with no verifiable credentials to participate in a collective knowledge creating process.
Nupedia, Wikipedia's immediate predecessor, tried to solve this problem by verifying its editors and establishing that they had the requisite expertise before allowing them to write encyclopedia entries in the domain of their expertise. This was an abject failure: not only was it so slow as to be indistinguishable from dormancy (Nupedia produced a mere 20 articles in its first year), but also the fact that these articles were written by experts did not mean that they were good. After all, experts disagree!
Wikipedia jettisoned user-verification in favor of source verification. After all, it's impossible for a group of strangers to agree on the identity of another stranger, let alone what qualifies them to write an encyclopedia entry. Instead, Wikipedia created a process by which a source could be deemed noteworthy and reliable source, then instituted a policy that assertions appearing on Wikipedia had to be cited to a noteworthy and reliable source:
Wikipedia doesn't say "It is a true fact that Cory Doctorow is 54 years old." It says that a website called "Writers Write" published the assertion that my birthday is July 17, 1971:
There's no ready way for you to verify my birthdayā”, but anyone can verify that Writers Write published this and claimed it was true.
ā” Unless, of course, you are my mother, who does read this blog. Hi, Mom!
Not only did this resolve otherwise unresolvable disputes, but it's also a tactic that got more effective as the internet grew, and more noteworthy sources were digitized and made readily available. A major milestone here was the creation of the Internet Archive's Open Library, which aims to scan and index every book ever published. That meant that the citations to print sources in the footnotes of Wikipedia entries could be automatically linked to a scanned page and verified by everyone:
Wikipedia omitted a step that was considered indispensable throughout the entire history of encyclopedias ā verifying facts ā and replaced it with a new step ā verifying sources. This maneuver is characteristic of many of the most successful online experiments: get rid of something deemed essential and replace it with a completely different process, suited to the affordances and limitations of a world-spanning, public, anonymous network.
That's what eBay did in 1995, when (as Auctionweb), it created a person-to-person selling platform that neither verified the identities of buyers or sellers, nor did it use an escrow service that held money in trust until goods were received. Rather, it replaced these existing measures with a new kind of reputation system, whereby reliable sellers could be sorted from scammers by looking at their numeric scores.
That's also what Kickstarter did. Kickstarter is based on a scheme first mooted by John Kelsey and Bruce Schneier in 1998, which they called "The Street Performer Protocol":
In the Street Performer Protocol, a provider of goods or services announces that once a set amount of funds were pledged, they will deliver something. Think of a street juggler who wows a crowd with an escalating series of impressive tricks, before calling out, "For my final trick, I will juggle eleven razor-sharp machetes with my feet ā but I will only do this trick once there's $100 in my hat."
Many people tried to implement this as a digital service before Kickstarter. They all foundered on a seemingly insurmountable hurdle: the sellers were raising money to make the thing they were raising money for. All the pre-Kickstarter platforms erred on the side of protecting buyers by holding onto the money until the promised goods or services were delivered. But because the seller needed the money to deliver on their promise, this repeatedly failed. It was a procedural vapor-lock: I can't do the thing until I have your money, but I can't get your money until I do the thing.
So Kickstarter jettisoned the escrow step, handing campaign creators the full payout and then trusting them not to run off with the dough. The platform understood that this would allow a certain amount of fraud and failure, but deemed it worthwhile, especially after they took countermeasures to minimize backer losses, such as verifying sellers, subjecting projects to human review, and canceling any project that failed to meet its funding goals (if you need the money to do the thing, and you don't raise enough money, then you will not be able to do the thing).
In the Oblique Strategies deck, Brian Eno and Peter Schmidt counsel us to "be the first person to not do something that no one else has ever thought of not doing before":
https://stoney.sb.org/eno/oblique.html
That's what Wikipedia did when it swapped verifying facts for agreeing on sources. It's what eBay did when it swapped validating sellers and buyers for reviews. It's what Kickstarter did when it swapped escrow for acceptable losses, project review, and setting minimum funding thresholds.
Platforms may not know it, but they live by the "be the first person to not do something that no one else has ever thought of not doing before" maxim. They're forever removing seemingly load-bearing Jenga blocks to see whether the whole thing collapses. After all, it's certainly possible to omit a step and cause a catastrophe.
Kickstarter competitors like Indiegogo tried omitting the funding threshold restriction, passing any amount raised to the creator, even if it was too little to complete the project, but after an initial blush of success, lost a lot of ground to Kickstarter, partly due to customers who felt burned when the project they put money into never delivered.
But that's not the only problem with "be the first person to not do something that no one else has ever thought of not doing before." Often, the new measure instituted to replace a former bedrock principle turns out to have critical flaws that bad actors can discover and exploit.
So eBay's success conjured up an army of "reputation farmers," who sold a series of low-value items to the public (or to one another, or to alternative accounts they operated themselves), cultivating a high reputation on the platform. Once they reached this high score, they listed a bunch of high-value items (like dozens of $1,000 laptops) and absconded with the money.
And Kickstarter's payment threshold isn't that hard to game: just set a very low funding goal, and you are guaranteed your money. Sure, the funding goal has to be high enough to satisfy a human reviewer, but for many items, it's hard to know exactly what constitutes a reasonable funding threshold.
Then there's Wikipedia. 25 years ago, it seemed easier for a group of strangers to agree on whether a source was noteworthy and reliable than it would be for them to agree on a fact. But while that remains true, it did open up a new avenue of attack: bad actors who wanted to slip lies and spin into Wikipedia could switch from arguing about which facts were true to arguing about which sources were reliable.
That's exactly what's happening today, and it's the conflict that forms the spine of Josh Dzieza's lengthy, magisterial essay on the past, present and future of Wikipedia for The Verge:
Dzieza describes how compelling and effective the Wikipedia "facts about facts" approach has been. It's such a sweet hack that it converted many Wikipedia vandals and trolls to editors in good standing, who switched from making Wikipedia worse to making it better.
But in an age of endless culture wars, conservatives have turned their sights on Wikipedia. Conservative publications are ā empirically speaking ā the most falsehood-strewn and conspiratorial branch of the press:
The fact that reality has a pronounced left-wing bias means that many popular conservative publications have been disqualified as reliable sources on Wikipedia, starting with the Daily Mail in 2017. This has the Maga right spitting feathers about "anti-conservative bias on Wokeapedia," and has Maga Congresstrolls demanding that Wikipedia unmask its editors and disclose their identities, a risk formerly confined to Russia, India, China and Turkiye.
The emergence of this threat in the USA is a potential game-changer for the Wikipedia Foundation, which has long relied on its US domicile ā and the First Amendment ā to protect the core project from political censorship. Wikipedia's status as the best, most trusted source of information on the internet has painted a crosshairs on its back: leaked Heritage Foundation slides detail a plan to force Wikipedia to unmask editors who contribute criticism of Israel to the project.
The Media Research Center has called for the Big Tech monopolists ā Meta, Google, Apple, Microsoft, all openly allied with Trump today ā to block Wikipedia until it agrees to treat Newsmax, OANN and other conspiratorial publications as reliable sources.
Ironically, one of the things the right hates most about Wikipedia is that it takes affirmative measures to identify and correct its bias, for example, by actively encouraging editorial participation by members of minorities who are underrepresented in Wikipedia's volunteer editor cohort. Right wing demagogues call this "DEI," even as they demand that the government force Wikipedia to institute DEI for conspiracy-addled right wing trolls. As the saying goes, "When youāre accustomed to privilege, equality feels like oppression."
The culture war on Wikipedia isn't the only risk the project faces. Dictators around the world are obsessed with dominating Wikipedia. Dzieza describes how one anonymous editor in a Middle Eastern autocracy was summoned by the secret police, who ordered him to capitalize on his standing as a long-term Wikipedia editor to insert pro-regime materials into the encyclopedia.
One of Wikipedia's great strengths is its structure. While Wikipedia started out as one of the internet's characteristic "benevolent dictator for life" projects, with founder Jimmy Wales taking on the role of "God King" of Wikipedia, Wales voluntarily walked away from his power, creating a nonprofit with an independent board (Wikimedia Foundation) and then handing his veto power over to an Arbitration Committee made up of volunteer editors.
This was a rare and remarkable gesture. The internet has many of these "benevolent dictator for life" public interest projects, and nearly all of them are still controlled by their founders, who may be benevolent, but are far from perfect:
It's all the more remarkable that the internet's most prominent self-deposing benevolent dictator is Jimmy Wales, a self-professed, Ayn Rand-reading libertarian. While many of self-described leftist benevolent dictators who preside over other key pieces of internet infrastructure decided that their projects needed the long-term control of their founders, it was Wales, a libertarian, who decided that a project of so much collective importance should have collective rule.
But while Wales has stepped down as Wikipedia's God King (and its "single throat to choke" by the world's dictators and thin-skinned billionaires), there is something of his unique genius in the ethos of the project, and its ability to civilly bring together people of many irreconcilable viewpoints to collaborate on something they all value. I've known Wales for decades and count him a friend, notwithstanding the wide gap in our political philosophies.
If you want to be a Wikipedian ā and I hope you do ā there are many ways to get started. The easiest is probably fixing punctuation errors and typos: when you come across these on a Wikipedia entry, click the edit button and just fix 'em, making sure to check off the "this is a minor edit" box before you hit submit.
But for a more ambitious entree, try this method by veteran Wikipedian ā and slayer of cryptocurrency bullshit ā Molly White, who, in 30 brisk minutes, shows to go to the library, find a cool book, and use the facts you find therein to make Wikipedia a better, more complete source of knowledge:
You don't have to be an expert in butterflies, hydrology or the Peloponnesian War to improve their respective entries. You just have to find a useful fact in a reliable source. Go ahead: be the latest person to do what no person (before Jimmy Wales) ever thought of not doing.
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The fact that reality has a pronounced left-wing bias means that many popular conservative publications have been disqualified as reliable sources on Wikipedia, starting with the Daily Mail in 2017. This has the Maga right spitting feathers about "anti-conservative bias on Wokeapedia," and has Maga Congresstrolls demanding that Wikipedia unmask its editors and disclose their identities, a risk formerly confined to Russia, India, China and Turkiye.
The emergence of this threat in the USA is a potential game-changer for the Wikipedia Foundation, which has long relied on its US domicile ā and the First Amendment ā to protect the core project from political censorship. Wikipedia's status as the best, most trusted source of information on the internet has painted a crosshairs on its back: leaked Heritage Foundation slides detail a plan to force Wikipedia to unmask editors who contribute criticism of Israel to the project.
The Media Research Center has called for the Big Tech monopolists ā Meta, Google, Apple, Microsoft, all openly allied with Trump today ā to block Wikipedia until it agrees to treat Newsmax, OANN and other conspiratorial publications as reliable sources.
Conservatives created their own Wikipedia competitor years ago, and yet somehow that doesnāt quell their outrage, because nobody else uses it. Itās not that they donāt get a voice; itās that they canāt be the only authority.
Got Too Focused during woodworking and didn't notice I'd cut myself (superficial injury, not serious) so now there's blood on everything that I need to clean up.
The idea of a popular teenage subculture that has girls & boys pretty much all dressing the same feels impossible now but for a while it was reality and it was beautiful.
i read an anecdote ages and ages ago from a gay person who grew up with gay parents, and struggled to find any kind of belonging in the gay community because everyone else there was bonding over having homophobic parents. everyone else was defining themselves by their suffering and oppression rather than by their sexuality, leaving this gay person to feel like they weren't really gay because they didn't have the right experiences. they wondered whether more gay people would feel this way as more children grew up with gay parents, if the gay community would leave them behind for not having suffered enough. i think about that anecdote a lot.
a lot of the current rhetoric around gender reminds me of that anecdote. a lot of people are willing to go "transgender people are oppressed for their gender presentation, therefore if you're not oppressed for your gender presentation, you're not trans." but i don't think we should be defining ourselves by our suffering and oppression. what will we do, in a few years, in a few decades, as there start to be, say, adults who were supported in their transition as children? what will we do when a stereotypical trans person can genuinely say they didn't suffer hardship for being trans?
i'm afraid i know the answer. i'm afraid that people are going to close ranks as they've already started closing ranks against intersex people, against nonbinary people, against double binary people, against closeted people. as some people have started closing ranks against people who transitioned in the opposite direction from them. as many people have closed ranks against people with edge case gender experiences. "i don't consider you to be oppressed, therefore you are not welcome to share in this community you might otherwise belong in."
i wish people would understand that we shouldn't do this. i wish people would understand that we benefit from a broader, more inclusive community more than we benefit from whatever purity testing oppression olympics it is that i keep running into.
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