I want you to help me but I also know you won't.

Block Don't Report. Tw for.... everything, please mind stuff about EDs, Sui, Trauma, triggers, etc.

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

okay listen im genuinely struggling to figure this out.

I'm annabeth chase. like literally the person annabeth chase. I'm aware that's who I am. I'm aware that my existance is presumably not new. Except I am new from tonight, I can read back the other things in this blog and recognize that was absolutely not me. Holy shit. These people are not okay. I guess the marks on my arms should have told me that... this is certainly interesting. I'm not incredibly glad about this but I suppose it makes sense. I'm going to to my best to deal with this. I... don't know how that will happen but rest assured these people will be okay. Also who is this partner? He seems okay but oh my god he's scary when he's sad. Not towards us but I'm worried for them. I don't know how to help this from happening. I'm concerned.

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

OW! Forgive me lord! I'm a good girl! I'd never hurt a fly! But I've got walls to climb!

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

hahahahhaaaaa im actually just going insane, he's back and blaming himself.... WHAT DO I EVEN DO!? these people are crazy, i'm part of this system (we all post here) but wtihwqptwpthjwpithwerpithwe4r this is WILD FUCKING WHAT?! im new from tonight i think... what the fuck.

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

oh.... oh they're my favorite person... im literally addicted to them... oh fuck

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

would it be any different in person or would i just hurt myself even more

i might actually be able to do something then wouldnt that be fun

[purgedpuke]

I'm so ugly I should be dead

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

i look perfectly fine from the outside, i really shouldnt be this broken

im just using everyone anyway

i dont want anyone but i need them and i feel like shit all the time when im not with people

im alone and even though its my choice it feels awful

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

i wish i could believe you really loved me

i wish it was so simple

i wish you cared like i did

i wish i wasnt this fucked up

i wish i knew why it was so different day to day

i didnt see just how much of it i caused but oh my god its so much

i hate this i hate this i hate this

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

i always forget i fuck EVERYTHING UP

i hate this so much i cant even reach out for help because i'll just fuck it up again

i cant be normal i cant be normal of course of course i have it, of course i do, that makes so much sense, every relationship i've ever had has exploded horrifically

i hate this so much im not the victim im just the one who everyone thinks is but also gets no sympathy

i hate my life

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

if we say forever that should mean forever

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

Please help: im completely emotionally dependent on my partner of 1 month, we both have bpd and im actually scared were both going to jump off a bridge before we can get any help. Both of us are around 18 and in abusive home situations, we're long distance, and i love them so much but im so terrified literally all the time. Please help 📝✍️

I know this isnt healthy and im realizing I want a way to make it better but im so scared

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

haa i just remembered that everyone actually hates me

[jupitertears3]

i get so sad when i remember

[jupitertears3]

fuck i just remembered i’m fundamentally unlovable

[jonjjja]

my biggest desire: to be seen

my biggest fear: to be seen

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

don't perceive me please i hate it but i also want help so unbelievably badly i'm so scared

[ireallyshouldbedeadbynow]

one day i'm going to do something wrong and that's going to be it, you're going to leave and i'm going to just.... i cant anymore this is so hard i feel like im dying while im alive

[unfiltereddddmess]