disastrousLesbian @keyboardsareforcoding - Tumblr Blog

I was trying to understand why while i am transitioning for the longest time I am not overly girly nor i want to become overly girly. I think i have the funniest realization...

My model of ideal womanhood in my head is probably my mother. and my mother hates to act overly feminine, but likes to dress up and put on make up. But she hates overly feminine mannerisms and avoids them like the plague, unless she is working.

She was the handy person in our household growing up a quality only i her only daughter got. She has a mechanical engineer son, but when it comes to anything outside his lab he ain't touching shit.

Crap I am thirty and I am literally transitioning to become my mother??????????? holy shit this is the funniest thing ever.

Obviously I am overly simplifying. I am far more sensitive than her and much more caring, but that could be the fact that i haven't been through the jading of raising three kids and a husband. But yeah now i wonder how many trans women follow this pattern? realising that they are trying to copy their mothers presentation of womanhood?

noah-wyles

it's pride month

everyone get more understanding of the asexual spectrum right nOW

catboybiologist

After some years of HRT I've been left with this deep, low simmering rage. Because what do you mean it was always this easy to be happy

catboybiologist

I take a shot once a week, and even if that was too much, I could do it as pills, and so many of my problems just evaporated overnight.

And not one person thought to bring it up.

When I was talking about how horrifying puberty felt. When I was cutting myself. When I was in inpatient care. When I attempted suicide. When I talked for YEARS in therapy about how dissociated and trapped I felt in my body. When I felt like I never truly fixed something that was deeply wrong about me that started at puberty.

Not one person said it was a possibility. No one thought "hey, maybe this kid should go to someone trained to identify dysphoria". No one mentioned that trans people weren't some weird other group of people. It didn't have to be pressure. It didn't have to be "forcing" me. Just mentioning that trans people exist and it could be me. That it was possible and it was easy. No pushing, just laying the option out there.

HRT is treated like this last ditch option. This horrific, mutilating thing that I GUESS we can give to you if you have NO OTHER options. Because did you know it's permanent? Did you know you'll be on it for the rest of your life? Did you know the health risks? Did you know it'll make you infertile? Did you know that it's deviant? Did you know that it's an alternative lifestyle for other people?

No one said it was okay to WANT it to be permanent. Or noted that most people are reliant on the medical system in one way or the other anyways (and it's not even necessary for HRT). Or that the health risks are the normal parts of having that hormone, even in cis people of your gender. Or said it was okay to not want kids, or mention that you can just freeze gametes. Or acknowledged that the "deviant" people are just people, living their lives, that have been violently pushed out of "normal" society.

I grew up in an area that Republicans mock for being a kind of "woke central". And even then it's just. Not treated as an easy option. It was never on the table if you don't specifically already know you're going through gender stuff, and no one will help you get to that point. At which point, it's still treated like the last ditch option. Did you know you can be a feminine man? Did you know you can slap a "she/her" in your twitter bio and be done with it? Did you know that you're oh-so-valid without it? Did you know that you shouldn't take HRT? Maybe don't take HRT? Don't take HRT? Don't take HRT? Don't ta-

When you've been in it a while, HRT is the easiest, most casual thing in the world. Just pop a shot on a Saturday as part of your "everything shower" routine and you're done.

Anyways. Support trans kids always and forever.

serpexnessie

Me with a Time Machine

#also convince your parents to let you buy expensive reserved list cards

theonion

#same stapler same

drowning-lessonz

daily affirmations

i am the unkillable faggot

i can exist in grocery stores

i have the shittiest music taste in any room

i have a gun

Finishing university broken and built back up I can some the experience as the best swordman of your village goes to the capital to join the royal guard in a fantasy novel.

I am like average from among the best and I am happy I got to see the finish line. Some didn't. I am relieved and glad I didn't give up neither on uni nor life

lakemojave

Happy Pride Month everyone! Remember 4 months ago when the CEO of this platform harassed and chased a trans woman off this website just for posting her transition timeline, then chased her to other social media platforms to continue harassing her, and threatened to call the FBI if she continued disputing the multiple dubious terminations of her blogs that did not violate tumblr's terms of service in any way? And despite tumblr staff insisting that the CEO was acting against their interests, the broad transmisogyny evident in the site's culture and moderation policy has still not been adequately addressed?

lakemojave

Remember that staff is continuing to nuke the blogs of trans women even after all of this. Remember this post when they call this site the queerest place on the internet again this month

lakemojave

It's 2 years later. It's gotten worse. Happy pride month.

evilnicegirl

maybe there never were any twin towers. like did u ever see them?

nypaingers

So I know all you kids are joking around but no, you’re not allowed to make jokes about this. No.

evilnicegirl

trash-panda-gorl

Can’t just leave this in the tags, @the-starboy-symbiont

ludicrouscheeseburger

All of the above, plus:

For years after 9/11 we were constantly told “NEVER FORGET” and the idea was basically “keep feeling sad and afraid and especially ANGRY forever; don’t let time dull your emotional response like it’s naturally supposed to; continue to justify the injustices by feeling this way all the time.” And the 3000 deaths were constantly pointed to as this huge deal that justified any lengths to go to.

And then Covid hit. And there were several points during the height of the pandemic (because fun fact, according to the actual definitions of a pandemic, *it’s not technically over yet!* ) where we were having a 9/11’s worth of deaths every week or so. And suddenly 3000 deaths were not a big deal at all. Instead of being enough reason to go to war far away and strip us at home of many rights too, they weren’t even enough justification to make people wear a damn piece of fabric over their face.

3000 people died once and now the government can legally wiretap anyone without a warrant, and hold people at Gitmo under suspicion of terrorism (no need for due process)… 3000 people dying every week but we should all still be going out to brunch and concerts and who cares about the disabled and immunocompromised?

Something in me broke. Make all the 9/11 jokes you want.

keyboardsareforcoding

There are so many things to be said about 9/11. Most of which would make the usamerican hate my gut

evilnicegirl

maybe there never were any twin towers. like did u ever see them?

nypaingers

So I know all you kids are joking around but no, you’re not allowed to make jokes about this. No.

evilnicegirl

trash-panda-gorl

Can’t just leave this in the tags, @the-starboy-symbiont

ludicrouscheeseburger

All of the above, plus:

For years after 9/11 we were constantly told “NEVER FORGET” and the idea was basically “keep feeling sad and afraid and especially ANGRY forever; don’t let time dull your emotional response like it’s naturally supposed to; continue to justify the injustices by feeling this way all the time.” And the 3000 deaths were constantly pointed to as this huge deal that justified any lengths to go to.

And then Covid hit. And there were several points during the height of the pandemic (because fun fact, according to the actual definitions of a pandemic, *it’s not technically over yet!* ) where we were having a 9/11’s worth of deaths every week or so. And suddenly 3000 deaths were not a big deal at all. Instead of being enough reason to go to war far away and strip us at home of many rights too, they weren’t even enough justification to make people wear a damn piece of fabric over their face.

3000 people died once and now the government can legally wiretap anyone without a warrant, and hold people at Gitmo under suspicion of terrorism (no need for due process)… 3000 people dying every week but we should all still be going out to brunch and concerts and who cares about the disabled and immunocompromised?

Something in me broke. Make all the 9/11 jokes you want.

keyboardsareforcoding

There are so many things to be said about 9/11. Most of which would make the usamerican hate my gut

forgetmcnotts

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!

SENSE8 | I Am Also A We (1.02)

keyboardsareforcoding

While I fall in love with the show a very early plotpoint made me go into full panic attack and give it up like episode 2 or 3.

The trans woman being denied to see her girlfriend, being deadnamed by family and medical professionals and basically under the threat of detransitioning and even lobotomy hit too close to home for me.

I really want to finish it, but I am afraid how I will react

emilyscully

THE MATRIX (1999) dir. The Wachowski Sisters

#I love the matrix movies #yes including matrix 4

filmphotofranz

#personally I am a thrash transbian who has never seen no action 😂

3000s

the grocery store should be open 24/7 but they should let the employees go home and just trust us

keyboardsareforcoding

It is a deeply held belief of mine that if food was free for everyone to access but like completely utterly free it would take us at most a year as a society to get used to the situation and treat the grocery dispensers better than most people treat churches and temples.

Like obviously it requires people to run them and maintain them but if people knew they could take as much as they needed home, just this act of kindness would make everything better. However cruelty is the point