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hey there! my name is kirsche, i write fic when the adhd isn't kicking my ass. tummy enthusiast, accidentally includes body worship in every fic.
currently into heated rivalry after season 5 of stranger things embarrassed me like that. my ask box is always open for anyone who wants to send me a (nice or interesting) message! I am always open to discuss fics and theories.
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hey, I'm kirsche and I write fanfiction. i have a few fandoms so it wont all be the same stuff!
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I will post explicit content both here and on ao3. i write kink sometimes, which i usually publish under a pseud to keep it separate. Some of it is on anon, i dont mind people knowing it's me and have linked to it in my masterlist post, but I keep it off my ao3 profile due to people being weird. Some of the ones I'm more proud of are on my main though lol.
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I do not write or share dead dove or underage content because of personal preference and comfort, but I am anti censorship in fiction and anti purity culture. Which means I'm not interested in discourse and drama over whether things are okay in fiction. If it's not real and nobody is harmed, it's not a real problem. (We had a handle on this ten years ago I'm not sure what changed). That said if you post a lot of content about something I'm uncomfortable with I might block you. It's not personal, it's just curating my space.
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i think post retirement ilya occasionally does extreme dehydration diets to see how ripped and vascular he can get and shane is always like: Babe (drooling a little bit) this is so stupid (stroking his hands up and down ilyas marble abs and obliques) its literally so unhealthy (not making eye contact) water is vital (squeezing bicep between both hands)
god I want to write a hollanov fic inspired by charli xcx party 4 u SO badly but I just can't picture a scenario in which Ilya would think throwing parties to get Shane's attention is a good ide WAIT. SHANE THROWINF PARTIES TO GET ILYA'S ATTENTION
ive had this "will at a gay bar" fic in my docs since 2023 and it's like, kind of ooc, but also i do feel like will would love gay bars once he gets to his early 20s. if anyone deserves a slut phase it's will. idk what do we think
I just found this post in my drafts with this screenshot and all, and I still never finished this fic. Given that it's been three years I probably never will. I might just post it as it is? Its in that awful stage of completion where all the important parts are fully written but the beginning and end are mostly not there and I've got no ideas or motivation to actually complete them. I feel like some of you would enjoy it even if it's got a handful of my planning notes in the middle of it
@ bylers who have survived my pivot into heated rivalry fic what do we think?
#myshane thinks it's hot when Ilya speaks russian (he has been pavloved by years of only hearing ilya speak russian during sex) but #myilya doesn't think shane's french is particularly sexy sounding because shane speaks quebec french and Ilya is european. he thinks the competence is sexy, but not the actual sound of it. ilya may not speak french himself but everyone from europe is pretty familiar with the sound of it and québécois sounds SO odd to him
Okay. I was on my beloved AO3 and I saw something that made me do a double take. So, now I really want to know…
What is your AO3 user ID?
I’m an OG user 5 digits or less
Six figures baby!
I’m in the millions…
Remaining time: 1 day 12 hours
I’m so curious to see how long people have been on AO3! I know some people have been on there since beta/invite only, but I would love to see what the number is on tumblr!
Been thinking about a Heated Rivalry Competition Climbing AU recently. Because that’s a sport I love dearly, but also because it would change some things so irrevocably while also very much keeping the I need to beat-you dynamic, but in a sort of different costume. I think if Shane and Ilya were climbers in the world circuit, a major difference would be that throughout this entire budding relationship they’d be competing for their home countries, which would make the entire thing so much more complicated. Shane’s concussion could happen during a competition, and if it were a finals-situation and the last boulder (or they were climbing Lead) and Ilya had gone before, Ilya would be in a chair right by the mat watching Shane do the climb and Ilya could reasonably have the Reaction he did.
I’m thinking Boulder or Lead for them, also because I think that reasonably, when they start planning for a future, all possible routes will have Ilya retire from comp climbing for the time being and focus on trad. He could also spin a move to Canada as a decision for trad climbing, since the US but also Canada are very well-known for their trad routes. And we see this sort of move – gradually out of comp climbing and into trad – somewhat regularly with boulder and lead climbers especially. I think it would still be big news in the climbing world (Ilya Rozanov retiring from comp climbing while still seemingly at the height of his career and moving entirely to Canada to focus on trad would be HUGE news), but ofc the level of international and even national fame would be decidedly different if we’re talking climbing as opposed to ice hockey. I also think potentially climbing-Shane can figure out his sexuality a little earlier because the culture is less toxic, but have just as huge closet-issues because internalised homophobia is a beast, and also I think he would somehow manage to convince himself that a) nobody needs to know about his sexuality, ever, b) just him coming out would immediately put Ilya at risk, and c) if he wants to stay competing the world circuit he should not come out because not all countries on the list are exceedingly welcoming to gay people.
I’m also thinking that Ilya and Shane would be more famous than the usual climber for their extreme success, so known outside of climbing circles too (maybe think a men’s rivalry situation of Janja Garnbret success), which would absolutely make Ilya’s decision to basically forsake his home country super controversial.
I’m also thinking that likely a spousal visa might work better for them than a residential or work visa in this situation, which would absolutely put a lot of additional pressure on the entire situation because basically the second Ilya moves and they start the visa process he knows he can’t go back home no matter what, so if the visa is denied he’s absolutely fucked.
Idk please talk to me about this. Let me hear your thoughts. This is just a collection of my silliness and thoughts born while I was watching the Arcos U17 and U19 lead climbing finals yesterday. and for some reason my brain wanted to put my Blorbos in there
i dont have much to add right this second but as a climbing enjoyer YES YES YES YES i have also thought about a climbers au for them!!! also totally agree w your tags about shane starting with lead and ilya starting w bouldering but both being really good combined climbers, that definitely fits them i feel. and as always fuck speed climbing who gaf
do you love AUs? want to write one with just 5,000 words?
5k is our maximum, not the minimum, and shorter stuff is absolutely welcome. Compete for the shortest fic of the year! The 5k welcomes all fandoms, ships, and original fiction. And as for content restrictions, we don't have them. Write what you want, tag what you write.
I have to say I'm not entirely sure where the fanon that Ilya treats Luca like a son comes from. my friend has my copy of tlg so I can't go and check but from what I remember Luca is barely in TLG and while he obviously has a crush on Ilya from the readers perspective, Ilya doesn't really think about him that much?
At a guess, it comes from how often Ilya (and the rest of the Centaurs) tease Luca about being so young. And then also since Ilya is the captain, plus because Luca looks up to him, their dynamic does have a bit of a mentor/mentee flavor. And add to that the fact that Shane and Ilya have a conversation about whether they want kids...folks run with it.
At a push I'd say Ilya gives off more older brother vibes. They interact a few times and Ilya gently teases him and offers some advice and also suggests Luca draw his next tattoo (half seriously, imo, but still). Mostly it just seems like an example of Ilya being a good Captain.
Hmm yeah that makes sense. Combine all that with fandom's tendency to exaggerate character traits/interactions and I can see it lmao. Luca is also canonically fairly shy, that could make him seem younger. I like older brother vibes Ilya, i agree that sounds like a good assessment of how he behaves. I wish there was more of that in fanon rather than the Team Dad thing because I don't really see that happening? to me, anyway. He enjoys causing light chaos too much to be a dad honestly lol but also I think too much parent-adjacent behaviour would be pretty condescending if I'm being realistic?
im about to start infodumping sorry, can't stop talking today lol but I know in my job, I started there at 18 and I had several older coworkers who had kids around my age and they treated me not as a kid, but as like... someone who they look out for a bit more and maybe offer advice to when needed, yknow? Mentor/mentee is a good way to put it even if its unofficial. That's the kind of positive older-younger dynamic I would expect in a workplace. (and then as I got older you end up with a genuine friend who is 20+ years older than you lmao) Now obviously a sports team is a bit of an unusual workplace lol, I don't know shit about hockey or its team dynamics but they're all adult men so I feel like a young player is more likely to want to prove himself as a proper adult/proper player, rather than allow himself to fall into a dynamic in which he is babied/treated as juvenile. I also had coworkers at the same job who, when I was 18/19, treated me like a kid who didn't know what they were doing and looked down on me because I didn't have as much experience as they did and it pissed me the fuck off. that definitely isn't what Ilya does to Luca but I definitely think that treating him as anything other than "guy who needs a bit of extra looking-out-for" would run the risk of making Luca feel bad.
Fandom is so obsessed with contrasts in ships that they force them onto hollanov, a couple who are FAMOUSLY supposed to be similar. There is no slutty one and prudish one. They both love sex. There is no smart one and dumb one. They both excel at the same career where traditional metrics of academic intelligence don't apply. There is no jock and nerd. They are both professional athletes. There is no neatfreak and slob. They both pay other people to clean their houses. Please release yourself from the need to manufacture an opposites attract dynamic in every facet of their relationship, ESPECIALLY when the central conceit of hollanov as a couple is that they're more alike than everyone else seems to think.
i disagree with the way most people interpret "shane doesn't listen to music" tbh. i think shane doesn't dislike music he just doesn't really have an interest. he won't turn on the radio when he's driving but he doesn't really care if other people do. he's not listening to music when he works out. I do think he likes some music! he's just not particularly passionate about it. most of what he likes is stuff he's heard on the radio or that his parents played in the car when he was younger. he can even hum along to some of them. he just doesn't play music a lot, his Spotify wrapped would be like. under a thousand minutes a year.
however I do feel in my heart that avril lavigne Let Go was deeply formative for young shane.
this post popped up in my notifications and I am reblogging bc i still stand by this. myshane is a sensory seeker whose job is slamming men into the boards in a loud arena full of fans, he does not hate music/loud noise! he just doesn't feel much of a draw to listen to it. i think listening to music is an active choice for him and he sits and listens to a full album start to finish more often than he puts on a playlist while doing something else, you feel me?
I have to say I'm not entirely sure where the fanon that Ilya treats Luca like a son comes from. my friend has my copy of tlg so I can't go and check but from what I remember Luca is barely in TLG and while he obviously has a crush on Ilya from the readers perspective, Ilya doesn't really think about him that much?