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seeing an extra handsome picture of *him* got me gnawing at the bars of my enclosure

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The Little Help

Finding someone who will do the extra little things, just to make your life a little easier, is so special. He's like: Of course I'll call the restaurant ahead of time and make sure their menu includes something you can eat with your allergies. Of course I'll offer to buy you any little thing you like. Of course I'll change X day of my week for you, so we can have our movie night instead. Of course I'll go to your favorite store with you and engage with it to learn all about it. Of course I'll listen to your favorite music and listen to your story time of what the song means to you. Of course I'll learn your love language(s) and incorporate them into our interactions.

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Always You

I loved you before I knew you. I prayed for you before I met you. I longed for you before I ever even looked into your eyes for the first time. It was always you. It has never not been you.

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Ways You Can Show Love To Your Partner If Their Love Language Is: Physical Touch

-Random or unexpected kisses/touches/hugs throughout the day mean the world to someone whose love language is touch. Knowing and feeling that your partner wants to be near to you is one of the best things ever, and it's very reassuring. -Don't underestimate the morning kiss/hug/cuddles if you live together. -Random touches such as an arm around their shoulders, a hand on their back, holding hands, standing close, etc., in public are important. It's a way of showing those around you that you guys are together. As someone whose love language is touch, this is one of my favorite things. I love knowing that my boyfriend wants to make sure everybody else know he's mine and that I'm his. -Holding hands is so simple yet helpful to someone whose love language is touch. It's convenient and just lets you be close to your partner. Do it when you get the chance, such as walking into a restaurant/store, at the movie theater, going on a walk, waiting in line, etc,. Bonus points if one of you does the classic "Thumb CircleTM"/gentle rubbing of the hand. -Massages are awesome not only because they feel good, but because of the person giving them to you. It doesn't have to be some long drawn out massage, either, it can be something simple such as while your partner is standing while cooking, at their desk, etc,. You can, of course, ask them if you can massage them during a movie at home or something of that ilk, which would give you more time. Either way, a simple rubbing of the shoulders or back is always welcome and kind. -Have a secret handshake. It seems random but it's just an innocent and endearing action of touch, while also bringing you two emotionally closer with a silly inside joke between the two of you. -Cuddling is a huge deal for someone whose love language is touch. Don't forget about it! When you get the chance, cuddle your partner and hold them close. In my experience, it's one of the safest feelings in the world when I get to cuddle up with my boyfriend. Something about being so close to your person, feeling their warmth, taking in their scent, etc., is comforting. Cuddle your partner!!

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Ways You Can Show Love To Your Partner If Their Love Language Is: Acts of Service -Run and errand or do a chore that is usually your partner's responsibility. Bonus points if this errand or chore is one that your partner is dreading/hates/doesn't want to do! -Is your partner in the shower/taking a bath? Put a towel in the dryer for 5-10 minutes so it'll get warmed up, and then bring the warm towel to your partner. It's an endearing and simple action that's just a sweet way to show you want them to be happy. -Does your partner get a certain beverage or restaurant order each day? Beat them to it and get said beverage/order for them. -Is your partner at work? If the workplace/time allows, come in simply to say hello, I love you, give them a hug, etc,. Seeing that you took time out of your day to come and visit them will make your partner appreciative. -Does your partner have to be up at a certain time tomorrow? Even if they have an alarm set, make sure you aid in them in assuring they get up on time. Call them, text them, etc., a couple minutes after their alarm was scheduled to go off so you can ensure they're up. Your partner will see your willingness to help/that you want to help their day go right. -Don't underestimate the significance of even the littlest things that happen on day-to-day life in a household. Things like, "Can you open the window?", "Can you turn on the fan?", "Can you hand me the remote?", "Can you let the dog out?", "Can you take this downstairs for me?", etc, etc. These little things that are simple inconveniences at the most, take little to no time for you to do and simply show your willingness to make your partner's life easier. -Leave a kind note in your partner's purse/bag, room, etc,. Bonus points if the note offers to do whatever your partner wants that day. -Lastly, communicate! Ask what your partner wants to do, how they're feeling, if you can do anything to make their life better/easier, etc,.

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"I would die for you. I would live for you. I love you more than anything in the world..." -My Boyfriend, September 25th 2023

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"You're my angel. You'll always be my angel."

-My Boyfriend, August 2023

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you have to stop viewing yourself from the perspective of your insecurities. you are not the wrinkles on your face or the scars on your skin. you are not too skinny or too fat. you are not the discolorations or the stretch marks on your body, or the texture of your hair. you are not the asymmetry of your face or the shape of your fingernails. you are the sparkle in your eye when you sit and enjoy the sun, and you are the warmth in your hugs when you embrace somebody you love. you are the kind laughter people hear and the sweet smile your loved ones see. you are the passion you show towards the things you obsess about. you are the simple gestures you do for others like holding the door or offering a compliment. you are your own unique combination of atoms in a world where nobody is the same and everybody exists at once and exists differently. learn to view yourself from the perspective of your best features and best personality traits. don't get caught up on the things you don't like, and choose to focus on what you do.

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Autistic Traits I've Recognized in Myself (Pt. 2)

-being told i speak in a "mechanical" manner. especially when i was little. i think i've learned to mask this or lessen its effects over the years. -rather than walking on my "tippy toes" as some autistic people do, i tend to stand on the outside of my feet very often. i almost always have at least one foot tilted to the side when i'm standing (not walking). -i have synesthesia (a commonly-found trait in autistics; particularly autistic females) -I have had/still have an ED. I've struggled with anorexia off and on throughout the years. It is common among autistics to struggle with some sort of eating disorder. -I tend to go nonverbal when extremely overwhelmed, upset, anxious, sick, etc,. This can last for anywhere from 5 minutes to 1 hour I've noticed. At this point it will be nearly painful to say even 3 words, and it requires deep breaths beforehand just to get those words out. -I literally always have some sort of song, quote, word, etc., stuck in my head. It is rare for me to have a moment of silence -I get attached to how some words or phrases sound, and will think about them often for the following days after hearing that word or phrase. Example: yesterday my grandmother was talking about the Chevrolet Monte Carlo. I then proceeded to say Monte Carlo at random times throughout the rest of the day, due to it being stuck in my head at random points. Sometimes it seems as if there is an emotional attachment to a certain word or phrase, even if only for a day or two.

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there's nothing some good music and a run can't fix

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falling asleep on your boyfriend's shoulder is good for the mental health

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Some words between me and my boyfriend

My bf: "You're the prettiest girl in the world." Me: "Every boyfriend tells their girlfriend that." My bf: "But I actually believe it. That's the difference between me and them."

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Autistic Traits I've Recognized in Myself

-constantly quotes things from videos, memes, movies, etc -difficulty communicating certain things out loud; prefers to text or write a letter to talk about certain things -feels emotions very, very strongly (especially negative ones) -recognizes patterns in many things. i think this is one of the reasons why i'm so good at rhythm games -addicted to music/listens to music for most things in life -sensory issues/sensory processing disorder (diagnosed) -severe anxiety (diagnosed), which can get worse because of some of these things -loud noises are a no-go -hyperfixations -easily misunderstands what people ask/need of me -time management can be very difficult at times -not being able to make myself/my perspective understood no matter how hard i try or explain -feeling anxiety/sensory overload/worry physically within my skin, as if it were static or pent-up electricity in-between my bones and skin -stimming -i sometimes HATE to be touched, and the other percent of time, i love it. it also depends on the person 99% of the time, as well as if i'm feeling overstimulated or anxious -OCD (diagnosed) combined with just being a perfectionist -very stubborn/strong-willed If anyone with diagnosed autism sees this, can you let me know your thoughts on it? I'm not diagnosed, as it's quite expensive to get that process started, but I've spoken about this with my therapist and the doctor who diagnosed my sensory processing disorder, and it's definitely not out of the realm of possibility. My cousin is autistic, so I know we have the gene in my family somewhere. In the past year or two, I've really become aware of how much I've done throughout my life that points towards the autism spectrum.

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sometimes i look at my man and it just hits me all over again about how lucky i am. that i'm the one who gets to hug him, play with his hair, hold his hand, leave him little notes, draw him, have his pictures as my lock screen, know all of his favorite things, share hobbies with him, encourage him, listen to him, and kiss him. he's so amazing and God chose me for him. life can be so hard but moments where i realize all of these blessings, as if for the first time, can make it easier.

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random naps on the couch with ur bf >>

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am i the only one who calls their boyfriend the most girly or dumb names for fun? i resort to, "babygirl", "girlboss" and "shawty" more than anything else just for the fun of it

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(more) underrated physical touch things

-feeling the breathing pattern of the person you're hugging -holding pinkies, or just a few fingers -secret handshakes -forehead (or neck!!) kisses -playing with your person's hair (or them playing with yours) -unexpected gentle, one-handed back rubs while waiting in line or a similar scenario -tracing words on your person's back for them to guess -hand kisses -feeling/listening to your person's heartbeat -touching foreheads