Mindfulness Ann

A Journey of Healing and Self-Discovery

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A little body positivity for the week:

The "heavy" feeling you have is just your body doing its thing. It’s not a sign of failure or excess. It’s a sign that you’re human.

Keep trusting your body. It’s working perfectly for you! 💪✨📸🌿

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Recommendation: Take a "mental health break" from your physical schedule today. Consider today a "recovery day" rather than a "missed day."

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What a journey it has been!

2026-05-07

Today has been my last therapy session. I have no words to describe what I am currently feeling. However, bittersweet is the closest term that comes to mind.

2025 was a very rough year, and it took me 15 months to finally say I am better - better mood, better headspace, better ME. 15 months of addressing a lifetime filled with anxiety and trauma was daunting yet eye-opening too.

I self-healed. I had a life coach. I went to therapy. I had my ups and downs. There were days when I felt like I was out of my wits. I had countless sleepless nights. I was easily annoyed and irritated. I was scared for my life.

Today, however, it is lighter. My world is brighter. I am braver.

I personally believe that healing itself is a non-linear process, and it is never truly complete. Despite no longer having weekly therapy sessions since February, I know that my healing continues.

You learn every day. You grow every day.

To you who is reading this, hang in there. You will get better. You WILL feel better.

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How have you guys been?

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Was admittedly disappointed with my bouldering performance today. I had hurt my elbows, my knees, and my head a few times. I had no sense of awareness and was easily distracted. I had to take a breather a couple of times just to be at the right head space. But then, acceptance won over everything. I realized that it is okay to give myself grace as it has been 4 months since my last climbing session.

It was really rough today, but I still had fun.

Now, that my schedule has opened up a bit and it is starting to be warmer once again, bouldering will be part of the routine once more. Looking forward to next time! 🧗🏻‍♀️

Song for today:

Sunshine, Lollipops and Rainbow by Lenka

.𖥔 ݁ ˖𓂃.☘︎ ݁˖

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When I was around 7 years old, I started learning ballet and continued to dance throughout my childhood and some of my teenage years. I took a break at some point, but I found myself back at the studio when I was 16 and danced my way up until I was 20. At that time, dancing in pointe shoes was my greatest achievement. Fast forward to 2023, at the age of 25, I enrolled myself in an adult ballet class at an open level in Sweden for two terms. Due to distance and work schedules, I stopped dancing all over again.

I dance at home from time to time; I take online dance classes, do dance exercises, play Just Dance on TV, or just randomly move my body whenever I want to. Dancing ballet on stage after a long hiatus with no proper training made me feel really mediocre at it. There was a part of me that knew that I had once been really passionate and good at it. Nonetheless, I am aware that I have the potential to improve and it's never too late to begin anew. One thing that did not change though, was that dancing and performing really made me happy. It made me feel alive. 🩰

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Funny how sometimes I forget the purpose for why I got my tattoos and the meaning behind all of them. My tattoos embody my stories. They are a reminder to stay grounded when things get rough.

Today, I am reminding myself of the reason and the lesson of this "let them" tattoo. To you who are going through something, who have had a bad day, and are facing a bump in the road - we got this! 💪🏻

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"Everything is a win when the goal is experience."

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It was 2 AM and in the midst of a random anxiety attack that I came across this heartwarming video on Instagram and saw a comment that is worth sharing with everyone.

To this individual, thank you very much. Your words touched me that early morning. You had helped me in an unimaginable way.

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Mental Health is not a joke.

We need to spread awareness, strengthen support, and most importantly, provide more understanding.

Never take anything for granted.

Please take of yourself mentally too. 🥹✨

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"It is okay to prioritize my health and recovery."

I caught the common cold last week and had been home since Friday. Today, I had a check-in with a doctor online to see when I can go back to work as I woke up this morning, feeling a bit better than the past few days. I believed that I am improving, thus explain the consultation. Other than that, a part of me felt guilty for being sick. Not as much as I used to, but still guilty nonetheless. Progress right?

That consultation not only gave me the idea of what has been happening but also I was reminded to listen more to my body and to assess how I feel. Another one was exposure to stress - both physical and mental - can have a negative impact on your immune system. And lastly, to remember that it is okay to prioritize my health and recovery.

11.03.2026

*Throwback photo.

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balance over burnout

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As someone who is diagnosed with PTSD, Other Mixed Anxiety Disorders and Unspecified Severe Stress Reactions with OCD tendencies, reaching the Final 5 and ultimately ending as the Second Runner Up is not just a blessing but also a great opportunity to expand the reach of my advocacy: Mindfulness Ann; a blog where I share my journey on mental health and advocates for its awareness. The Miss Runway Valentine event became a very good platform to start with. It became a chance to share with everyone present that evening, my story and my purpose while I was onstage. 🥹✨

Mindfulness Ann: https://mindfulnessann.tumblr.com/

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"One thing I learned from my pageant in Germany, is to never compete just for the crown or else you'll lose yourself ones the result is not in your favour.

Plus, you should never define yourself base on a result or a tabulated score. You are more than that. You know what you can offer. And that judges can be very selective. Their taste varies and can be very subjective."

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Kudos to YOU, indeed! ✨

Credits: @artful_miniature

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Repeat after me:

"You're struggling and you need to take care of yourself too."

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"The goal is to make sure that your emotions are no longer a barrier in your life."