My Love Dreams Come True

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me a failed actress: “At least I won the same amount of oscars than suicide squad”

them:”Uhhm..”

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them: “Donald Trump did...”

me: “And so did Hitler.”

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“Show me something that’s violently american”

uhhmm

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I laughed at this way too hard

[tennydr10confidential]

My mood after getting stuck in traffic in the pouring down rain. 

[mylovedreamscometrue]

“Ohh… Tumblr… What is tumblr like?“

“Uhhh… ”

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when she says she doesn’t send nudes

[straighthater]

when guys objectify women and expect them to send nudes

[timelordpillbug]

when someone asks you about your nuclear plans for russia

[hikingnerd]

When Russia sends you nudes

[dr-thackery]

[dismantlerepaired]

[ilovepretzelrods]

[thegingerbalrog]

[onwardwall]

[miss-jaxon-flaxon-waxon]

#what the fuck happened here

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This is my favorite post in all of tumblr

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lucreztiab

[deans-pie-67]

What even

[mylovedreamscometrue]

Bootyfull

[2002hondacivicwithac]

[mauvais44]

Fucking punch me in the face

[thriftedrose]

Every time I click on this and hear that first note I cry a lil

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Did tumblr mobile stuff up or does this actually have a million notes

[please-daddy-spank-me-deactivat]

I love this video so much

[gbyeih8u]

*daydreams about fucking you*

[you-make-me-wander]

RANDOM SENTENCE STARTERS

Following my AUs and Prompts List from a few months back, here is a compilation of my favorite sentence starters for all your writing needs.

Because most of them aren’t mine, credits are at the end.

SHORT

“Marry me.”

“Do you want me to leave?”

“You are not going without me.”

“I can’t believe you!”

“I swear it won’t happen again.”

“What did you say?”

“I’m not jealous.”

“You’re jealous, aren’t you?”

“We can’t keep doing this.”

“Are you sure this is legal?”

“Isn’t this amazing?”

“I’m going to take care of you, okay?”

“Stay the night. Please.”

“You can’t die. Please don’t die.”

“Run away with me.”

“You did WHAT?”

“Quit whining.”

“Get outta my sight!”

“Why are you so annoying?”

“Were you ever going to tell me?”

“Never in a million years.”

“Don’t ask me that…”

“I might have had a few shots.”

“What’s with the box?”

“W- What are you doing?”

“Say it!”

“I could kiss you right now!”

“Are you done with that?”

“What’s going on here?”

“Stop pinning this on me! You started it!”

“It’s your fault we’re in this mess.”

“Did you do this on purpose?!”

“Kiss me.”

“Are you still awake..?”

“Excuse you?”

“This is all your fault!”

“I can’t believe you dragged me into this.”

“Don’t give me that look! It wasn’t my fault!”

“I shouldn’t be in love with you!”

“It’s not fair!”

“I could kill you right now!”

“Knock it off!”

“Screw you!”

“You’re a complete moron!”

“I love this song!”

“I can’t be in love with you!”

“Make me.”

“Don’t tempt me.”

“I hate you.”

“You are infuriating!”

“Just shut up already.”

“That doesn’t even make sense.”

“Bite me.”

“Eat me.”

“Kiss my ass.”

“Just admit I’m right.”

“Just admit you’re wrong.”

“You are being ridiculous!”

“That’s irrational.”

“Listen to me!”

“That’s not what I meant and you know it.”

“Don’t yell at me.”

“That’s it. End of discussion.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“You shouldn’t have said that.”

“Fuck you!”

“Shut your mouth before I shut it for you.”

“How dare you?”

“I dare you!” 

“It’s you, it’s always been you.” 

“Well this is awkward…”

“Just pretend to be my date”.  

MISCELLANEOUS

“Are you really gonna leave without asking me the question you’ve been dying to ask me?”

“The planet is fine. The people are fucked.”

“I just did some calculations, and I’ve been able to determine that you’re full of shit.”

“You know what I like most about people? Pets.”

“Do you ever think if people heard our conversations they’d lock us up?”

“What about a compromise? I’ll kill them first, and if it turns out they were friendly, I’ll apologize.”

“I don’t hate you.. I just don’t like that you exist.”

“Love is the jelly to sunshine’s peanut butter. And if I tell you that I’m in sandwich with you, I’m not just saying it to get in your Ziploc bag.”

“Do things that make you happy within the confines of the legal system.”

“Did you really just insult Captain America in front of me?”

“Can I touch your boob?”

“It’s not that you’re wrong, exactly, you’re just extremely not right.”

“You shouldn’t be trusted with small children, should you?”

“Give me cake or give me death.”

“On a scale from, ’I can sometimes make important phone calls without crying’ to ’I have a stable job with a steady income, a spouse who loves me, a dog, and two kids who are screwed up minimally at worst’, how much of an adult are you?”

“You think I’m dumb enough to fall for that stupid move?”

“Despite the cliche, it’s not me, it’s you.”

“Obviously you can’t tell a woman you just met that you love her, but it sucks that you can’t.”

“No, it was my fault for thinking that you might care.”

“When you love someone, you just don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Specially then!”

“If you’re not scared, then you’re not taking a chance. If you’re not taking a chance, then what the hell are we doing anyway?”

“I think I’ve been holding myself back from falling in love with you all over again.”

“What have I told you about the toilet seat?”

“I tried to change the duvet and I got stuck inside.”

“I vote today to be a pajama day.”

“You have to tell me why were committing a felony before we do it. Not that that’s going to stop us, but at least I’ll have all the facts.”

“I don’t leave messages. If I wanted to talk to a machine, I’d talk to my VCR.”

“I can be flexible. As long as everything is exactly the way I want it, I’m totally flexible.”

“You know we’re suppose to be together. I knew it the first time I saw you, and you know it, too. I know you do.”

“Those things you said yesterday… Did you mean them?”

“I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore.”

“What I hear when I’m being yelled at is people caring loudly at me.”

“I am NOT crying, okay?! I’m allergic to jerks!”

“This would not happen if I had a penis!”

“That’s almost exactly the opposite of what I meant.”

“All nighter, you and me. First one to fall sleep buys the other dinner.”

“I don’t think I’ve ever played spin the bottle.”

“Sorry! I didn’t mean to touch your butt.”

“I’m ok, thank you. Just please, stop talking to me.”

“To the night you’ll never remember!”

“Excuse me, did the 12:15 bus come by already?”

“Could I sit here? All the other tables are full.”

“Are you meeting someone here? Because.. I think I’m that person.”

“You weren’t supposed to laugh! I’m so embarrassed!”

“It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.”

“Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his/her cake hole.”

“I’m not gonna die in a hospital where the nurses aren’t even hot.”

“You better take care of that car or I swear I’ll haunt your ass!”

“This is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.“

“It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.”

“I could do that, but could doesn’t mean would.”

“You cannot fathom the immensity of the fucks I don’t give.”

“You’re like, five feet tall. How you gonna reach me, shortie?”

“I recognize that you have reached a decision, but given that it is a stupid ass decision I have elected to ignore it”

“Do you need me to kill someone for you?”

“Look out where you’re going, asshole!”

“Fuck the sandwich guy!”

“I did not mean for stripping to come out of this.”

“The whole street is blocked off. The police won’t tell us anything, but I think there’s been some kind of attack… Maybe a bomb?”

“Oh my god, are you okay? I’m calling the police. I think I saw who did this to you.”

“I’m weird, you’re weird, we could have weird little babies and live weirdly ever after if it wasn’t for the fact I find you repulsive.”

“There is nothing wrong with planning a wedding with a video game character.”

“I’m gonna lay down and die for like half hour okay?”  

“There’s been some real friction in our friend group lately. I suggest an orgy to save our friendships.”

“It’s midnight, what do you want?”

“I think I know how to use a bed.”

“If I wake up in the morning and I’m dead… Wait.”

“You are completely unfit to handle a child.”

“We have to get out of this place. It is EVIL.”

“Don’t you dare throw that snowba-, goddammit!”

“When in doubt curl into the fetal position and give up on life.”

“It’s not a double date, we’re just third and forth wheeling.”

PREGNANCY

“I have something to tell you…”

“I think I’m pregnant.”

“I’m pregnant!”

“When were you going to tell me that you’re pregnant?”

“You’re smart and successful with an adorable belly.”

“$50 bucks says it’s a girl/boy.”

“Pregnancy suits you…”

“Hello little one. We can’t wait to meet you…”

“I’ll just be in the bathroom throwing my fucking guts up because our unborn kid wants to be a dick!”

“There’s someone I’d like you to meet…”

“Shh… He/she’s sleeping..”

“I have a special surprise for you. Close your eyes and follow me.”

“No, no, no, no, no, we aren’t ready… We aren’t ready for kids yet!”

“Oh, gosh, I felt it! I felt a kick!”

FLUFF

“Your hair is so soft…”

“You’re so cute when you pout like that!”

“Just relax, I’ll wash your hair for you.”

“I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.”

“What, does that feel good?”

“HA! I found a weak-spot on you, didn’t I?”

“Are you wearing my shirt?”

“You are ridiculously comfortable…”

“I’ve had a rough day and honestly all I want right now is a drink and someone to cuddle with…”

“You’re so cute when you’re half asleep like this…”

“You’re beautiful, you know that?”

“We should get a puppy!”

STARGAZING

“Aren’t they beautiful?”

“These stars are nothing compared to the ones I’ve seen in your eyes.”

“Shooting star, make a wish.”

“It’s actually a comet, but I’ll still make one.”

“Imagine if it could always be this way, even in the city.”

“Never thought something so beautiful could exist in nature…”

“Wouldn’t it be cool to name a star after yourself?”

“Y'know, your roof may not be the safest place for us to stargaze.”

“This is why you made me drive three hours out into the middle of nowhere?”

“Is that a– Wait, no, just an airplane.”

“I wouldn’t mind falling asleep out here.

FLIRTY/SUGGESTIVE/SEXUAL

“Did you just… finish?”

“They always make shower sex sound so appealing, but honestly, this is getting dangerous.”

“I’m not actually feeling anything.”

“Are you getting any closer?”

“Why do they make this look so easy in all those porn movies?! This hurts like fuck!”

“Did something just happen? You’re not turned on anymore.”

“Shit sorry, am I going too fast?”

“Wow, you’re hot.”

“Is that a gun in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?”

“Hey, I’m open minded.”

“Keep sweet-talking and this could go a whole new direction.”

“I think it’s about time we stop avoiding the obvious.”

“I’m gonna be honest with you. I’m really horny, and you’re really hot. Can we fuck? Like, now?”

“I see someone’s happy to see me.”

“I saw that. You just checked me out.”

“You know, when this is over, we should really have angry sex.”

“Take off your clothes.”

“Tell all those other guys/girls you don’t need them ‘cause you got me.”

“Don’t give me that face, it’s so cute I might not be able to hold back.”

“Boobs are really just squishy pillows.”

“If you don’t get turned on by having your neck kissed somethings wrong with you.”

“Blasphemy! Sex solves everything.”

“I platonically want to have sex with you. No big deal.”

TEXTS

[text]: What do you want now?

[text]: Do you want to bet on that?

[text]: Guess who just got back in town.

[text]: So I might be in a hospital right now…

[text]: We can’t keep doing this anymore!

[text]: Come on, come to the party!

[text]: Can you pick me up from the bar? Too drunk to drive.

[text]: You have no clue how I feel so shut up.

[text]: I call bullshit.

[text]: You thought you could get away with that, didn’t you?

[text] I gave up great shower sex to be here so don’t say I never did anything for our friendship.

[text] Living alone for four weeks has given me unrealistic expectations of pantslessness.

[text] Also, my bed has glitter in it for reasons I do not recall.

[text] Who says no to sex and donuts?!

[text] I know what you did last summer…

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lxdymxbelton

[finaltrinity]

Art References Tumblr Accounts!

Some of these may be in the wrong category. Some may need to be in another category! Do tell me (through my ask box) if I need to change or add something! Have fun looking through these accounts!

HUMAN ANATOMY

http://anatomicalart.tumblr.com/

http://amazinglyartisticadvice.tumblr.com/

http://learninganatomy.tumblr.com/

http://artutorials.tumblr.com/

http://referencesforartists.tumblr.com/

http://the-art-post.tumblr.com/

http://ibelievepracticemakesperfect.tumblr.com/

http://human-proportions.tumblr.com/

http://drawingwithpurpose.tumblr.com/

FASHION/CLOTHING

http://lifestylefashion.tumblr.com/

http://drawthisdress.tumblr.com/

http://saranghaex5.tumblr.com/

http://vogue.tumblr.com/

http://carnevaledivenezia.tumblr.com/

http://empireoffashion.tumblr.com/

http://neuro-mantique.tumblr.com/

http://calantheandthenightingale.tumblr.com/

http://dressesthatilike.tumblr.com/

http://fashionoverhype.com/

http://thingstheheartdesires.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeahwarriorwomen.tumblr.com/

http://womenfighters.tumblr.com/

http://babesinarmor.tumblr.com/

http://omgthatdress.tumblr.com

http://10022-shoe.tumblr.com/

http://stitchmeapetticoat.tumblr.com/

http://dailydoseofcoats.tumblr.com/

http://frillsanthrills.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeahchinesefashion.tumblr.com/

http://thisandthatstyle.tumblr.com/

ANIMATION

http://wannabeanimator.tumblr.com/

http://drawingforsuckas.tumblr.com/

http://animationtidbits.tumblr.com/

http://animationart.tumblr.com/

HISTORICAL

http://lostsplendor.tumblr.com/

http://doctormonocle.com/

http://tass-posters.tumblr.com/

http://centuriespast.tumblr.com/

http://www.cavetocanvas.com/

http://1920s.tumblr.com/

http://1930s.tumblr.com/

http://1940s.tumblr.com/

http://1950s.tumblr.com/

http://miyako-odori.tumblr.com/

http://okiya.tumblr.com/

http://tammy17tummy.tumblr.com/

http://mindthegarter.tumblr.com/

http://petticoatguru.tumblr.com/

http://hatsfromhistory.tumblr.com/

http://oldrags.tumblr.com/

http://cofairytales.tumblr.com/

http://ornamentedbeing.tumblr.com/

http://picturesofwar.net/

http://fuckyeahvictorians.tumblr.com/

http://theniftyfifties.tumblr.com/

http://theunconventional.tumblr.com/

http://yeoldefashion.tumblr.com/

http://vintagology.tumblr.com/

http://lament-for-the-past.tumblr.com/

http://asianhistory.tumblr.com/

http://art-of-swords.tumblr.com/

ART TIPS/TUTORIAL

http://fyeaharttips.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeaharttutorials.tumblr.com/

http://art-tutorials.tumblr.com/

http://thecandyjar.tumblr.com/

http://eyecager.tumblr.com/

http://underappreciatedart.tumblr.com/

http://artists-help.tumblr.com/

http://how-to-art.tumblr.com/

http://artist-advice.tumblr.com/

http://learnfromwebcomics.tumblr.com/

http://tutorialsforatists.tumblr.com/

http://help-me-draw.tumblr.com/

http://howdoesidraw.tumblr.com/

ART REFERENCES

http://pb-resources.tumblr.com/

http://simonist.tumblr.com/

http://idlm.tumblr.com/

http://artreferences.tumblr.com/

http://theprophetandtheliar.tumblr.com/

http://art-help.tumblr.com/

http://artanecdotally.tumblr.com/

http://artiststoolbox.tumblr.com/

http://fuckingarthowdoesitwork.tumblr.com/

http://artkink.tumblr.com/

http://artresourcecollection.tumblr.com/

http://referensu.tumblr.com/

http://conceptlibrary.tumblr.com/

http://nazdorovie.tumblr.com/

http://iwantogohome.tumblr.com/

http://art-fridge.tumblr.com/

http://collectionofartreferences.tumblr.com/

http://archimaps.tumblr.com/

http://helpful-inks.tumblr.com/

http://college-campuses.tumblr.com/

http://fyeah-artreferences.tumblr.com/

http://usefulartreference.tumblr.com/

http://ashgrayart.tumblr.com/

http://how-to-art.tumblr.com/

http://onemoreartreferenceblog.tumblr.com/

http://art-aid.tumblr.com/

http://drawallthecouples.tumblr.com/

http://aswordfight.tumblr.com/

http://sequentials.tumblr.com/

http://ref-pixie.tumblr.com/

http://photoshopandfriends.tumblr.com/

http://artrefs-andtutorials.tumblr.com/

http://stufftodraw.tumblr.com/

http://foodpalettes.tumblr.com/

http://humanae.tumblr.com/

http://kxhara.tumblr.com/

ART INSPIRATION

http://pythias.tumblr.com/

http://submit.curioos.com/

http://stoopidanchovy.tumblr.com/

http://artistdirectory.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeahillustrativeart.tumblr.com/

http://deviantfinds.tumblr.com/

http://gunnerromantic.tumblr.com/

http://1000reasonsnottostartmakingart.tumblr.com/

http://nightgrain.tumblr.com/

http://kayspiration.tumblr.com/

http://referenceartgallery.tumblr.com/

http://artforadults.tumblr.com/

http://clanless.tumblr.com

http://designindex.tumblr.com/

http://saycreative.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeahconceptart.tumblr.com/

http://blog.drawn.ca/

http://stuckwithartblock.tumblr.com/

MISC.

http://attadesign.tumblr.com/

http://digitalgrfx.tumblr.com/

http://fixitredlines.tumblr.com/

http://youngartist-city.tumblr.com/

http://color-palettes.tumblr.com/

http://thisbelongsinamuseum.tumblr.com/

http://professorgoodwin.tumblr.com/

[erikalynae]

According to feminism who is it OK to have sexual fantasies about? It seems like porn is frowned upon, looking at attractive strangers is harassment, perving on friends or co-workers is creepy, objectifying celebrities is wrong, and even video game characters are off limits.

According to the Rules of Feminism™, you are permitted one sexual fantasy a day about Nicolas Cage.

Only Nicolas Cage.

[mylovedreamscometrue]

Bless you

[the-art-post]

Art Sites

Photo References

http://www.artsyposes.com 

http://lovecastle.org/draw/

http://www.pixelovely.com/gesture/figuredrawing.php

http://www.referencereference.com/

http://characterdesigns.com/

http://www.biodigitalhuman.com

http://www.af.mil/photos/index.asp?galleryID=2

http://www.vectorsite.net/gfxpx.html

http://www.inetres.com/gp/military/cv/index.html

http://www.gracefulnudes.com/main

Instructional

http://www.ctrlpaint.com/

http://www.artbyfeng.com/tutorials.htm

http://www.3dtotal.com/index_tutorial.php

http://www.drawspace.com/

http://www.theartdepartment.org/program-info/free-demos

http://www.youtube.com/user/Sycra

http://www.youtube.com/sinixdesign

http://www.youtube.com/noahbradley/

Book Reviews

http://parkablogs.com/node/8

Helpful and Inspirational Threads

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=81332

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=190982

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=174821

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=165931

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=152626

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=128631

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=161825

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=136370

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=194479

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=126999

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=224682

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=230251

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=138102

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=78323

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=233791

Other

http://deadoftheday.blogspot.com/2009/07/perspiration-anatomy.html

http://www.redbubble.com/people/blythart/writing/2707929-did-famous-artists-use-photographs

http://www.allpaintings.org/

http://blog.ted.com/2011/09/23/doodlers-unite-sunni-brown-on-ted-com/

http://conteanimated.com/

http://www.dummies.com/how-to/content/art-history-timeline.html

http://anatomytools.com/products/

http://muddycolors.blogspot.com/

http://gurneyjourney.blogspot.com/

http://livlily.blogspot.com/

http://www.deadoftheday.blogspot.com/p/downloads.html

http://www.sketchtheatre.com/

http://theroundtablet.com/2011/06/27/photoshop-brushes-of-the-pros-for-free-skills-still-required/

http://www.steambotstudios.com

http://www.buzzfeed.com/jpmoore/this-is-how-you-advertise-for-an-art-school

This will continue to be updated. Please note, there are NSFW links included.

[intersectionalism]

HOW I DISCOVERED I AM WHITE

By renegademama (Janelle Hanchett)

RENEGADE MOTHERING

When I was 14 or so, I asked my grandmother why we didn’t have a “white club” at school. I don’t recall her response, but I do remember feeling particularly smug and vaguely angry that there was a “Latino” club and a “Chinese” club but not a “white” club.

Oh the unfairness! Oh the disparity! Why do we celebrate their heritage but not ours?

And I didn’t think about race again, at least not much, until I dated an African American man in college and a stranger whispered “nigger lover” in my ear one night as he walked by us in a grocery store. Disgusting.

I figured he was a strange exception of horrible racist creature. He was, after all, approximately 97 years old. (Well, 70, but he appeared 97 to my fresh young eyes.)

And then, a few months later, when my boyfriend’s roommate took me aside and asked why I have to “take a good black man who was in college,” when so many black men were incarcerated. I concluded she was crazy. And mean.

She hurt my feelings. Poor Janelle.

Beyond these few moments, and a couple others, I didn’t really think about race. Well, I thought about how people made arguments “about race” when clearly they were not. I mean why do they make race an issue? It’s obviously not.

Oh yeah, I had America all figured out: If ya work hard, you get ahead. And if you don’t get ahead, it’s because you made bad decisions. And if you get arrested it’s because you’re breaking the law, and people who break the law are more likely to be black. Obviously. That’s why they’re always getting arrested. (How’s that for some cyclic logic?)

I knew this to be true because:

America was awful to black people but that was fixed during the Civil Rights movement;

Therefore, we are all on equal footing now and if you don’t succeed it’s because you aren’t trying.

I learned it in school. It was fact. School teaches the truth.

And then, graduate school, and Professor Lee.

Oh, shit.

“Not all white people are white supremacists, but all white people benefit from white supremacy.”

WHAT THE WHAT?

She made us repeat it like a mantra. At least 3 times. I read Tim Wise’s White Like Me (I have mixed feelings about him now, but I digress) and bell hooks and David Roediger’s Wages of Whiteness and learned how our economic systems benefit from racism and we read about thehistory of American immigration laws (have you ever read them?) and colonialism in the Philippines and elsewhere (yes, America has colonies but we call them “territories”), and we read about redlining and white flight (ever wonder how black people ended up in urban centers?), and we read some DuBois and Omi & Winant and literature by people of color and all of the sudden I realized I had been fucking lied to.

I understood America through white eyes. I understood the world through the mainstream, polished glasses of a nice clean history of “we used to be bad now we’re not the end.”

Go team.

I discovered I was white.

“Not all white people are white supremacists, but all white people benefit from white supremacy.”

She wanted us to see that as individuals, not all white people are bigoted. But she also wanted us to see that every white person – whether they are bigoted or not – benefits from the racially structured hierarchies in America. They benefit from racism.

Yes. Even me. Even though I am not “racist.”

How? And she explained whiteness. She explained that “white” is the standard. White is the background against which difference is measured.

In other words, it’s “white” until further notice. It’s “white” until proven otherwise. It’s “white” or it’s the “other,” and it has nothing to do with actual numbers, percentages of “minority” population. It has to do with power. It has to do with the culture of power. What do I mean? If a comedy film features a white family, it’s a comedy. If it features a black family, it’s a blackcomedy.

Think about it.

White is the standard. And I’m white. Therefore, I am standard, and that benefits me.

When I walk into a room, I don’t fear that I’m representing my whole race. I have never acted badly then thought to myself “Oh shit, I sure hope they don’t hate all white people now.”

Or, in other words, even though pretty much every Columbine-type-school-kid-murderer is white, I’ve never developed a distrust for white, socially awkward high school kids.

A few do not represent the whole.

“Privilege is passed on through history.”

Whatever. I grew up POOR!

But then I thought about how, in the late 1940s, my grandmother was the first woman editor of the University of Washington’s newspaper. After she graduated, she and my grandpa bought and ran small newspapers in northern California. The family business they built employed my family members for 40+ years.

In the late 1940s, black people were not allowed to sit in the front of the bus.

How can I deny that my grandparents’ access to education and economic success did not materially affect me in a positive way, directly, through my father? I thought about the loans my parents were able to take with financial backing from my grandparents, and how that benefitted me. My life. My quality of life. The neighborhoods we lived in. The schools we attended. My cultural knowledge.

“Why don’t we have ‘White History Month?’”

Because White History Month is every month other than February, asshole.

Oh, shit indeed.

“The culture of power determines which version of history is told and retold.”

Prior to the Women’s Rights Movement, women were stuck in the home while men went to work and supported them. But then women were liberated and able to get jobs working outside the home.

Right?

WRONG. White, middle to upper class women were “stuck in the home.” Women of color have ALWAYS “worked out of the home.” In fact, the women of color were probably working in the homes of the white women about which our history is written.

So one of the most oft-repeated, trusted narratives about American history erases the history of women of color. It is dead fucking wrong. It isn’t even kind of right. They are erased. Non-existent. Unseen.

They are Chapter 10. They are a chapter that ends with “but then Martin Luther King, Jr., and all is well.”

They are Chapter 10. I am chapters 1 through forever, and every day I cash in on that fact, whether or not I support the systems making that happen for me.

I realized the reason I had never thought about race was because I was of the privileged one, because I didn’t have to, NOT BECAUSE RACIAL DISPARITY DIDN’T EXIST. I didn’t have to think about race because I was having a fundamentally different life experience than people of color. But I could ignore them, because of my privilege.

I was able to hang out in meltin-pot, “post-racial” land was because the structures of that society allowed (and encouraged) me to “not see race” while continually feeding me narratives about “equality,” “multiculturalism,” “color-blindness” and “ghetto urban lifestyles.”

I spent a lot of time in graduate school in the library, writing at a computer. Like, hours. Whole days. When I had to pee, I would ask the person sitting next to me to watch my stuff so I didn’t have to pack it all up and carry it down the hall to the bathroom. I did it a 100 times.

Once I looked over at the person next to me and my first thought was “Oh you can’t ask him. He’ll steal your stuff.

He was a young black man wearing a gray hooded sweatshirt.

I was sickened at myself. I was horrified at my response. There was absolutely nothing different about him than the 100 other people I didn’t hesitate to ask, except he was black.

I realized that not only do I benefit historically and presently, every day, from the color of skin, I have also internalized cultural narratives regarding blacks and whites that manifest whether or not I support them.

“Hey, would you mind watching my stuff for a minute?”

But what now?

Does it mean my grandmother’s accomplishments are less badass? Nope. Does it mean I do not “deserve” success? Nope. Does it mean that I am a bad person? Nope.

It means that we live in a highly racialized society rooted in a history of discrimination and that we have a long way to go. It means that I have had an advantage over people of color. Yes, always. Yes, no matter what. Because even if you’re poor and white you can join the culture of power by learning the walk and talk. But you can’t change your skin color.

From the day I was first introduced to this “other story,” I couldn’t get enough. Not because I’m some sort of saint or conspiracy theorist, but because I was curious. I was interested out of a sense of shared humanity. And I was fucking angry that I had been swindled. I wanted the truth. Or, I wanted a fuller picture. I wanted more sides.

That, my friends, is pathetic in its privilege.

I learned in graduate school what every person of color knows through life experience. I learned in graduate school that we weren’t “fixed” during the Civil Rights movement.

But when this information was presented to me I felt a sense of relief, because I think deep down I always knew something was terribly wrong, but I couldn’t put my finger on it.

I don’t understand the white rage I keep reading on the internet.

Just another dead thug.

He got what he deserved.

Run over the protestors. They’re making me late for work.

STOP PLAYING THE “RACE CARD.”

I don’t understand it. What’s at stake, people? What’s at stake in accepting that racism exists? Or even entertaining the thought? Are people really so stupid they can’t fathom that other people might be having a different experience than they are? Is it really that hard to comprehend that something can exist EVEN THOUGH YOU DON’T PERSONALLY SEE IT?

(Although you’ll see your privilege if you’re willing to examine your life honestly.)

Why the hell are people so unwilling to listen?

Let’s think about this for a moment. A whole community of people are saying this exists. Data shows racial disparities in economic, education, justice, and healthcare systems. Basically, ALL OVER THE PLACE. Unarmed black boys and men are killed without recourse. Repeatedly. The comment sections of these crimes are riddled with assholes shouting “Good. One less loser.”

But people still claim “Racism doesn’t exist.” But here’s the thing: The only way you can discount the words, lives, efforts and voices of hundreds of thousands of people is THROUGH THE RACISM YOU CLAIM DOESN’T EXIST.

You can only ignore them if they’re aren’t worth hearing.

You can only ignore them if they’re liars. If they’re just looking for a handout.

If they’re not human like you.

You can only ignore them by using the very narratives you claim aren’t happening.

And let’s be honest, we can only ignore them because it’s easy, because we’ll never have to walk a day in their shoes, and it’s just so much more pleasant to turn away, look away, focus back on our lives.

But the sand is getting skimpy and our heads are showing. At this point, if we’re not part of the solution we’re part of the problem.

I’m using my voice to talk to you. I’m using my voice to talk to my kids. But it isn’t enough. We’re looking for places to volunteer. I’m looking for actions I can take.

We’re at a crossroads. This cannot go on. We’re crushed under the weight of hatred, history, silence, violence, bullshit media and the insidious defense of systematic unequal distribution of resources, and at some point, none of us will be able to breathe.

It feels small and pathetic to be one person in this mess. I feel stupid and vulnerable and slightly insane to be writing this here, now. But fuck my feelings. Fuck feeling uncomfortable. Fuck the nonsense that keeps us quiet and content and cozy in our little post-racial dreamland.

They can’t breathe, and I’m breathing just fine.

And that is precisely the problem.

[angel-of-death-2015]

FUCKING SPREAD THIS TRUTH AND GIVE THAT PERSON A MEDAL DAMMIT

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Share!!!!

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WHY DOESNT THIS HAVE MORE NOTES?????

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Wow….can this please make it over to white tumblr

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READ IT ALL

[fishnbanjos-deactivated20180901]

AMAZING essay. 

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This is what I try to explain and fail at. It’s put into words. Thank you!

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Synonyms for the Word Said

Said Synonyms- Reporting

Added: to enhance an argument

Advised: to warn, to offer help

Announced: to declare formally and or publicly

Asserted: to state positively but having no proof

Called: to capture attention by increased volume

Commented: to explain, interpret, or criticize - to make a remark

Complained: to express dislike or disagreement

Congratulated: to give wishes; to acknowledge an action or deed

Continued: to further or add to an earlier point

Declared: to make known clearly and openly

Informed: to give information, to make known; declare

Lied: to not speak truthfully

Observed: to mention casually

Offered: to suggest; to state

Mentioned: to state briefly; to bring up in conversation

Protested: to formally or openly disagree

Quoted: to repeat words of others; to cite a source

Recalled: to remember or bring up

Related: to make connection; to say allegorically

Remarked: to make a brief, casual statement of an opinion

Remembered: to recall

Reminded: to remember; to mention so as not to forget

Repeated: to say again; to restate

Replied: to answer; to say in response

Reported: to give a formal statement; to give an account of

Reassured: to give additional comfort, support, or evidence

Revealed: to make known; to publish

Stated: to say or paraphrase from official documents

Taunted: to cruelly tease in a mocking or insulting manner

Teased: to annoy or pester; vex

Tempted:  to cause to consider (usually) something bad

Said Synonyms- Explaining

Addressed: to speak directly to sme, respond or answer

Answered: to respond to a question

Asserted: to add or offer additional information

Assured: to soothe, comfort, calm

Broke In: to interrupt, supplying additional information

Cautioned: to warn or advise; strongly suggest

Claimed: to assert or maintain; to state as fact

Concluded: to finish or draw to a close; to understand

Confided: to let in on a secret; to disclose

Described: to give additional information

Explained: to make or offer an explanation

Finished: to conclude or complete

Quipped: to say ironically or unemotionally

Implied: to suggest, hint, or say without saying

Noted: to make mention; to acknowledge

Promised: to give word or make a vow

Puzzled: to say with doubt or ambiguity

Reckoned: to add or submit; to figure or believe

Rejoined: to answer an objection

Replied: to answer a question or comment

Responded: to reply or answer a question or comment

Retorted: to reply to criticism in a sharp, witty way

Returned: to answer an objection; to reply to a criticism or charge

Speculated: to guess using information available

Surmised: to conclude or deduce

Said Synonyms- Arguing

Accused: to charge, slander

Agreed: to concur, to be in harmony

Argued: defend position, disagree or dispute

Chided: to scold mildly; to goad into action

Commanded: lead; overwhelm opposition

Contended: to argue, dispute, disagree

Countered: to dispute, question

Convinced: persuaded; remove all doubt, win over

Disagreed: to be at odds; to not agree

Emphasized: to stress

Exclaimed: to speak suddenly, loudly with surprise

Interjected: to add or assert; to interrupt

Interrupted: to cut off or disrupt; to interject out of turn

Maintained: to assert, to support by argument, to affirm

Objected: to disagree; be in oppostion to

Pleaded: to implore or beg; to speak desperately

Proclaimed: to announce officially; support publicly

Proposed: to set forth a design or plan

Reasoned: to state calmly and with logic

Sassed: to speak back to authority figure; rebel

Screamed: to use high pitch loud voice

Threatened: to say in menacing manner

Warned: to make aware in advance of harm, danger, or evil

Yelled: to shout or use loud voice; scream

Said Synonyms- Suggesting

Chimed In: to add (usually) unwanted advice

Coaxed: to convince against someone’s will; change mind

Dared: challenge, question

Hinted: implies suggestion

Implied: similar to suggest - indicates a definite idea

Insinuated: to convey sth unpleasant in a sly, sneaky way

Intimidated: to say without saying, stresses delicacy of situation

Pondered: to consider; to weigh all options

Suggested: to propose as a possibility, to imply

Urged: To entreat earnestly and often repeatedly; exhort

Said Synonyms- Questioning

Asked: to question or solicit

Begged: to ask in a humble manner earnestly

Blurted: to interrupt or interject, to ask all together

Bugged: to ask repetitively; difficult or unwanted questions

Demanded: to ask for urgently and boldly

Guessed: to infer; to ask without evidence

Hypothesized: to guess, infer

Implored: to ask with fervor, implying desperation or distress

Inquired: to ask, seek information

Insisted: to demand strongly, to declare firmly

Pleaded: to answer a legal charge, to lovingly implore

Questioned: to ask, doubt, or dispute

Requested: to ask (sometimes) formally

Wondered: to say with puzzlement or doubt

Worried: to cause to feel anxious, distressed, or troubled

Said Synonyms- Acknowledging

Acknowledge: reluctant disclosure of something perhaps a secret

Admitted: reluctance to disclose or concede facts

Affirmed: implies deep conviction, little chance of contradiction

Alleged: to assert or declare, especially without proof

Approved: to consent or agree

Avowed: boldly declaring, often in the face of opposition

Boasted: to take pride in, brag or overstate

Bragged: to boast or overstate; be prideful

Conceded: similar to acknowledge and admit  

Confessed: an admission of a weakness, failure, omission, or guilt

Corrected: to instruct more correctly; remove misconception

Denied: not accepted; unused, refused

Disclosed: to reveal something previously concealed

Divulged: to reveal sth that should have remained secret

Fretted: to needlessly worry about small details

Greeted: to acknowledge presence; salute, salutation

Imitated: to copy, mimic or simulate

Jested: to make fun of, tease

Marveled: to speak with wonderment or amazement

Nodded: to move head up and down in agreement

Praised: to speak of with honor; to speak highly of someone

Revealed: to make known that which had been secret or hidden

Uttered: to articulate; pronounce or speak

Volunteered: to give or offer to give voluntarily

Said Synonyms- Sounds & Misc

Babbled: to speak incoherently; gibberish, like baby talk

Bubbled: to speak lively and expressively; with joy

Chatted: to speak informally as to a friend

Chortled: to chuckle gleefully; short laugh of joy

Chorused: to speak simultaneously, together

Chuckled: short, soft laugh; usually to one’s self

Coughed: short, strong expulsion of air from lungs

Decided: finished, set

Echoed: repeated sound

Gasped: heavy breath after scare or physical exertion

Giggled: short, high-pitched laugh from fear or nervousness

Growled: rough, threatening manner

Gulped: to speak taking in large amounts of air as if drinking

Gurgled: to speak with fluid in the throat

Hissed: to speak in evil threatening manner

Hollered: to shout usually to someone at a distance

Lisped: to speak unclearly substituting sounds especially ‘th’

Panted: to speak as if out of breath

Piped:to speak suddenly and loudly

Quavered: to speak emotionally with faltering voice

Shrilled: high pitched shriek

Sighed: to speak with difficulty as if bored

Snickered: to say derisively with a laugh

Sniffed: to say as if about to cry

Snorted: to say with contempt and a short burst of breath

Sobbed: to cry uncontrollably

Sputtered: to speak with difficulty perhaps from impediment

Stammered: repeating words and sounds while missing others

Stuttered: to repeat certain sounds multiple times

Vowed: to promise solemnly; pledge

Wept: to cry softly, quietly

Whimpered: to cry or sob with soft intermittent sounds; whine

Whine: to complain or protest in a childish fashion

Credit to http://www.synonyms-antonyms.com/synonyms-for-said.html

[mylovedreamscometrue]

Omg I REALLY NEEDED THIS

[alltheworld-willbeyours]

So, my whole life I thought my favorite color was purple. “What’s your favorite color?” “Purple.” Always. That was my answer. And it wasn’t a lie. I truly believed my favorite color was purple.

And then my sophomore year of high school, someone I had just met in art class asked me if my favorite color was green. I have her a weird look and responded, “no, purple.” She shook her head “nope, you literally wear something green every day. Your favorite color is definitely green.” And I laughed it off. We’ve been friends ever since, and she hasn’t let it go. “Where’s the green?” “There’s the green!” And I never thought twice about it.

But lately I’ve started noticing that my closet is full of green clothes. And while I do find the color purple very beautiful, I actually prefer green. And I find the color green just, very attractive. And I realized that green is my fucking favorite color.

This makes it sound like green being my favorite color was forced upon me, but honestly it was nothing like that. Green has always been my favorite color, I was just not able to see it and accept it.

And I’ve also recently realized that when I write this short story, you could replace a few choice words and this would be the explanation of how I realized I was gay.

[fallenangels2000]

Please read this entire thing

[likepetalswealleventuallyfall]

im laughing so hard because no matter what song you listen to 

spiderman dances to the beat

no matter what song ive been testing it and lauing my ass off for an hour

[deans-pie-67]

Hotel California was playing when I saw this….