nanax

just your mentally fcked up teenage girl looking for comfort online because she doesnt have anyone irl and is in generally a fuckin awkward loser bitch doomed by life forever :3

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About me!!

basic info

- not irl name but call me nanax

- used to put my age here but too many horny people so ew

- my pronouns are she / her

- im bi but still unsure

- diagnosed bpd and autistic

- trauma involving : (c)sa, cocsa, hard bullying, emotional abuse by multiple people

- sub

- kind of a masochist

what ill probably blog about

- self hrm

- ed

- vents

-sui

- just in general about my mood / day

dni list

- anyone who hates on the topics above

- trump supporters

- i dont know im genuinely open to any fucked up people

So that's it, byee!!

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61 days left

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istg im sick of looking for hours, can someone FINALLY tell me all the possible ways to commit and maybe guide me through them? this is getting annoying as fuck come on.

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62 days left

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63 days left

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i need to finally come to better terms with my death i cant do ts anymore

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srry if i keep posting about one thing over and over again its just a really important thing for my entire life.. or its lack lmao

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when im lowkey feeling decent but then i remember im dying in two months

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the thought of dying at the end of the summer makes me uncomfortable but the thought of living past it terrifies me

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the more i think about it, i dont actually want to die.. but i have to. its better than living whatever is this forever. i just gotta convince myself the summer and then do it, ill get used to the thought sooner or later

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fuck the tags, this is a personal vent account anyways. i just wanted to call a certain someone a SELFISH FUCKIN BITCH

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does she seriously not get how much she hurts me or is she doing this on purpose.

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when are you going

if you mean the svicide post then the last day before the new semester starts

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update i passed school!!!!!!! im so pathetically happy ngl, time to prepare my evil plan (¬◡¬)✧

aka the perfect suicide~

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oh, shes so fuckin lucky. im difficult? she doesnt want me to be on online teaching? alright, just one more reason. theres 13 of them now, finally catched them all.

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i know im going to get hated but whatever. here you go.

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yeah im definitely killing myself. once i pass all classes and finally have vacation, ill commit on the last day before 8th grade. ive been suicidal since i was in 4th, im tired of failing all my attempts, this time ill do it right. i just want to enjoy my last two months.