Just A Girl Caught Up In Her Dreams And Fantasies

~artist, lesbian, actress~ ~Nico (she/her)~ awkwardbookishtheatrenerd

[not-oki-doki]

I hate to do this but..

I’m deleting this account. Along with my main “nicocamefromhell”

I’m sorry for anyone who actually cared but this account isn’t right for me anymore. I want a new account for art, and aesthetics, and photography and things I actually enjoy. This account got crammed up with some of the bad sides of tumblr, and I can barely go on it anymore.

If anyone still wants to follow me, I will be making a new account Nico-Marie and hopefully posting more often on it.

I love you all, and goodbye💖

[bloodytales]

If you refuse to provide someone with the medication that a DOCTOR prescribed them, you should not become a pharmacist because that is the job description.

These goes for those people who claim “moral” reasons to refuse to fill hormone therapy drugs for transgender people, those who refuse to fill birth control prescriptions, and emergency contraception meds.

[between-stars-and-waves]

This.

[thesaltyspice-deactivated201901]

personally i believe shakespeare would be thrilled to see his plays turned into trashy teen rom coms

[ardenrosegarden]

#shakespeare watching she’s the man with tears in his eyes: i’m a fucking genius (via @shakespiracy)

[kaijuno]

I’m just super fucking bitter that once the flint water crisis got it’s 15 minutes of fame people stopped giving a shit. The water is still poisoned, people! Donations have plummeted and people have been forced back into drinking and bathing with the water! The medical effects of this are astounding, cases of legionnaires disease have skyrocketed, people are having seizures, people are having weird rashes break out over their body, people (including me!) are having their blood poisoned, and it’s not just lead! it’s coliform bacteria! it’s THMs! it’s all in the water and it gets into the bloodstream and breaks down blood vessels, causing bruising and petechiae and internal bleeding and no one gives a shit anymore and it’s only gotten worse like how many people are going to have to die until people realize this is still a problem

[contemporary-petroleuse-deactiv]

I would like to add that the people of Flint cannot sell their houses, because selling a house with leaded water is illegal. Additionally, households with children can’t stop paying for the water because living in a house without running water is cause for CPS to take their kids. Flint has been living this way for over two years. 

The people of Flint are trapped by the legal system. And it is only the most high profile case out many cities with a similar problem. 

Because the government has abandoned them, they are dependant on help from the outside. Donate here

[babypinkb1tch]

If u can’t donate, reblog so someone else can!!!

[ithelpstodream]

[byzantium-glytch-deactivated201]

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[snowie-skyes]

And for the boys, no not wanting it doesn’t make you gay, less of a man, or anything to that effect, you’re allowed to say no too, and when she says “am I just not hot enoughy for you” that is an attempt to guilt you into sex.

[doubletwoseven]

Reblogging for IMPORTANT addition.

You are allowed to only sleep with people you like & WHEN you want to. Don’t let anyone else tell you different, ever.

[all1sees]

So Google does math for you??

division

square roots

dividing percentages

IT EVEN FOILS

beautiful.

[qurioq]

i just checked ALL of these on my calculator and they are all correct

all. fucking. correct.

[averagedopeydope]

DAYUM, SON! IF ONLY THIS WAS AVIALABLE WHEN I WAS ON SCHOOL >:(

[my-little-mod-blog]

HAH! You kids. When I was in school, it wouldn’t help because we still used Roman numerals back then!

AHAHAHAHAHA-

oh my god

i’ll just be over here shutting the fuck up right about now

[dutchster]

you can even solve geometric problems

or plot graphs

even 3D graphs!!!

[aureliusquinn]

Reblob to save a life

[mcdyke-deactivated20171112]

being a female means needing to see 10 different doctors to get a proper diagnosis because they always think you’re exaggerating and/or lying

[leftiesneedrights]

define proper diagnosis. I mean, does that just mean the diagnosis you want?

[mcdyke-deactivated20171112]

no :) it means going to 10 different doctors who disbelieved your symptoms until the 11th found cysts on your ovaries :) which may mean infertility :) sit on a cactus :)

[cobra-23-deactivated20151224]

I call bullshit

[40yodater]

Of course you do. Like the first 10 doctors. 😒

[cobra-23-deactivated20151224]

I call bullshit on the story. If you think you have an issue you should see a specialist not just your PCP.

[40yodater]

Like the 4 “specialists” I saw for the crippling numbness in my face and legs I had for over a year while they told me it was “stress”? When it was finally found that I had scars on my brain and spine? Those “specialists” we’re male neurologist who wouldn’t give me an MRI because “women stress too much”. Go fuck yourself.

[beesplosion]

MY SPINE WAS BROKEN FOR 2 YEARS BECAUSE MY DOCTORS TOLD ME I JUST HAD BAD CRAMPS AND REFUSED TO TAKE XRAYS. FUCK YOU AND YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. WHEN WILL BOYS REALIZE THEIR EXPERIENCES ARENT STANDARD???? I ALSO LOVE THIS IDEA THAT YOU CAN JUST GO TO A SPECIALIST WHENEVER YOU WANT LOL IF OUR PCP DOESNT BELIEVE US WHEN WE TELL THEM OUR SYMPTOMS THEY ARENT GONNA REFER US TO A SPECIALIST YOU FUCKING MOLDY WALNUT

[proudly-pro-choice]

My parents began noticing something large in my throat, saw a specialist….Guess what? Told me to lose some weight..even though I wasn’t overweight. I would have my period for weeks at a time. Was told that it was teenage hormones and stress.

Two fucking years later I attempted suicide they ran a battery of tests as required and bam! They find out that I have untreated Hashimoto’s. The “thing” was a goiter. Possible symptoms of an untreated thyroid disease is the goiter, unexplained weight gain, and depression. All they had to do was test my blood, but they said young people don’t have thyroid problems. 😒

-Allie

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Ten years ago, my mother—who is a pretty tough cookie—started feeling both ridiculously wired, anxious, and incredibly emotional. Every doctor she saw told her she was going through early menopause, even though she was still menstruating. Her health declined to point where she was barely sleeping, losing weight, and crying constantly, which was a huge red flag because my mother never cries. Finally, she went to see another doctor 2.5 hours away who referred her to an endocrinologist. And what did the endocrinologist say? He diagnosed her with one of the most advanced cases of Grave’s Disease he had even seen, and said if she had gone just a few more months without being treated, she could have FUCKING DIED. 

Also, it turned out that her thyroid levels had been moving out of the normal range in a progressive pattern for years, but nobody bothered to look at her past test results until after the diagnosis. They would just do a test, see that it was “in the normal range” and leave it at that. She could have caught it before she even had symptoms, instead of basically being accused of having hysteria. 

[celestial-cat-prince-deactivate]

i had a brain aneurysm/hemorrhage ten years ago, doctors still tell me im faking my disability BECAUSE YOU CAN TOTALLY FAKE LIMITED MOVEMENT OF THE LEFT SIDE

[symphonicsadness]

My sister had intercranial hypertension which was causing headaches, dizzy spells and loss of vision, and you know what the hospital told her? She was being a hysterical girl and making it up. A few weeks later she spent roughly a month in hospital and had several lumbar punctures to relieve her RECORD HIGH spinal pressure that was causing so much strain on her brain and optic nerves she was being sent blind.

[fail-sage]

Everytime I see this post (and it’s been a good 5/6 times), it has different stories and experiences of women who have been horribly mistreated by doctors and it just blows my mind that this is so big. It’s absolutely disgusting how terribly women are treated in the medical world and something needs to be done about that.

[kirawords]

my friend lea had back pain, then pain in her legs and feet, and then numbness. despite seeing 7 different doctors over 2 years, by the time they found the cancer it was inoperable. chemo and radiation didn’t work. the cancer spread. she died and left behind a 5 year old daughter.

[kaijuno]

A few years ago I would go through spells where I literally could not stand on my own and I couldn’t get out of bed. I would be freezing and too weak to eat. I would keep having heart palpitations as well. I got up the money to go to a clinic and they told me it was just stress and to basically just work on chilling out. I saved up money for a few weeks to do this and I pretty much get a “chill out” from them. As time went on it got worse, most noticeably the heart palpitations were happening almost constantly. I went again to a different clinic and was told it was normal and that it was probably stress. They did no tests, and they told me it would “just go away”. Two weeks later I ended up collapsing going down some stairs, and at the hospital it was discovered that I had such severe anemia that my heart could barely keep up with trying to get enough oxygen to my body. I had developed left ventricular hypertrophy (my heart muscle is too big) and because of them ignoring me and dismissing me I’m at a much higher risk of heart attacks and stroke now.

[spacebabenumber-25]

I went to the doctor with severe intermittent pain in my upper right stomach area that was so bad I had to miss school. Despite the fact that my period has been on a regular 3 month cycle for years, and I still had two months left until my period, my doctor told me it was period related cramps and or indigestion. 2 months later I’m in the hospital getting my gallbladder removed. It was so obstructed that there was gangrene developing my my system.

[words-writ-in-starlight]

So…everyone who’s given me shit for that one post (about medicine and equal treatment and shit) can just read this because I’m sick of defending my case.

[hypergoomba-deactivated20171103]

i know this post is already long but here’s a pretty good article about how gender bias in medicine is quite literally killing women. it focuses a lot on heart attacks but it applies to all areas of medicine

[spacebugarts]

We were lucky that when my sister got an ovarian cyst the worst thing we had to deal with was a long wait. It was a long time ago, but I’m pretty sure it was mistaken for cramps first, then it got worse. Although the doctors mistook it for appendicitis, and had it been that her appendix likely would have ruptured by the point she got in the operating room.

[canisnatatrix]

This story involves me but I was a kid so it is also about my mother. As a child, I had chronic bladder infections. I mean, a couple dozen over a few years, some so bad it hurt to walk. My mom took me to my doctor many, many times, eventually losing her shit when he wouldn’t believe her that something more was up. (She once saw my chart when my doctor left it open on the counter. It had the note “mother is difficult” on it.) The doctor finally referred us to a urologist, who said I had the worst bladder infection he had ever seen in a juvenile. (The urologist was great. Not only did he believe me and my mother and actually order tests and whatnot, he was kind and friendly. He let me look through his microscope at my urine sample and gave me pictures of the inside of my bladder and a printout of my heartbeat. I still have them.) It turned out that I had a minor malformation in my bladder that took a single, incredibly minor operation to fix. Like, it took less than an hour and didn’t require general anesthesia. I’ve only had one bladder infection since then, and it was several years later. I went through years of pain and embarrassment and antibiotics because the doctor thought my mother was overreacting.

At the same time, I also had an unrelated issue with the muscles of my urethral sphincter that caused pants/bed wetting long after it was socially/developmentally acceptable. It also took a ridiculously long time to treat and again, the treatment was incredibly simple - two muscle dilation procedures that took 20 minutes.

Bladder issues are no fucking fun. Neither is you or your child being dismissed for legitimate medical issues, especially when they are so easily diagnosed and treated.

(Due to the many, MANY urine samples I had to give as a child, I can now basically pee on command.)

[fuckingexplosive]

When I was twelve and still presented entirely female I had massive side pain like someone was stabbing me, and is throw up constantly. 2 doctors said it was psychosomatic until the third did a quick test and found that I had stage 2 liver cancer.

[sangled]

lesbians are swell. they’re just bein’ women, lovin’ women. y’all keep up the good work. yeehaw

[empresspinto]

hey guys, hope your skin is clear and you get a text from someone you like real soon.

also that your lunch tastes good, you find twenty dollars on the ground, and that thing coming up that you were dreading turns out not so bad

[loren-vance]

Passing this good karma

[pocketsofroses]

I reblogged this 3 days ago and my skin got clear and I got a message from a guy who refers to me as queen yesterday. Good karma vibes all around.

[blueastro-deactivated20170311]

ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY AND MY SKIN IS CLEAR AS F NOW

[nerdartsy]

I have been looking for this post ever since I took a screenshot. Finally reblog.

[365daysinalife]

[joiekeery-deactivated20171123]

tag urself as a student

i.d.g.a.f:  goes to school unbothered, doesn’t give a shit about makeup or looking nice, constantly has a water bottle filled, when they’re not taking notes they’re sleeping in class, goes home and actually studies/does homework, bottles up emotions, wants to travel

covfefe: lives their life on coffee and tea, always participates in class discussions, likes to observe, challenges themselves sometimes a little too much, needs more sleep, always trying to make plans to fill up their schedule, likes aesthetics

netflix & procrastinate: honestly wants to do well, gets distracted easily, when they’re focused they get shit done, pulls lots of all nighters, tells everyone ‘im fine’ when not fine, accidentally skips breakfast, loves their friends, gets anxiety over tests and quizzes

pastel: is always organized, loves to journal, actually listens to the teacher, people think they’re always super sweet, wants to visit japan, loves animals, does research for fun, looks over work 948208 times before turning it in, watches horror movies and then regrets it

complaint department: acts like they didn’t have enough time to do homework (they did), blames others for their problems, doesn’t study then cry when they get a bad grade, secretly is very insecure, is always out “sick”, acts better than others for no reason sometimes

chilly child: is very relaxed but knows how to work, is nice to their teachers, tries to avoid half-assing things, loves autumn, likes studying with other people, is very self motivating, tries not to focus on the letter grade but rather how hard they worked, and tbh they’re just tryna enjoy life, 

[fuckosexual]

helping my pals decorate for their engagement party and we’ve just made loads of banners with swear words on them

[fuckosexual]

this is a totally adult engagement party no goofs n giggles here

[fuckosexual]

absolutely correct the mistake has been rectified

[imwiremother]

it is pretty annoying how the fandom erases shaggys flaws to make him into a uwu precious scoobie snack babie…like hes a coward that when push comes to shove isnt there to help out his friends lmao

[bopdawoo]

alright, lemme school your dumbass because obviously you’ve never watched scooby doo before

shaggy rogers is a hero

yes, he canonically has anxiety issues, but when it comes down to it, he is there for his friends no matter how scared he is. he cares very deeply for his friends and he would absolutely not hesitate to put himself in danger to keep them safe

in ‘music of the vampire’ when the vampire threatens his friends, shaggy’s first response is to grab a bunch of wooden stakes to attack the vampire with

later in this same movie when he (albeit falsely) believes he’s fallen victim to the vampire curse, he runs away and gets as far away from his friends as possible so there would be no chance of him harming them or inflicting the curse on them as well

and in ‘camp scare’ when the fish monster they’re dealing with hurts scooby, shaggy’s first response was to shatter a two-by-four across its face. watch it go down here, skip to about 1:30

during the climax of ‘legend of the phantosaur’ after struggling with his anxiety for the whole movie, shaggy overcomes it for the sake of saving the lives of his friends and the villains who put them in danger in the first place

in ‘ghoul school’, without any help from fred, daphne, or velma, shaggy saves the lives of several monster kids, and in ‘reluctant werewolf’ when he’s cursed to become a werewolf, he wins back his humanity in just under two days, again without help from fred, daphne, or velma

hell, the whole plot of ‘goblin king’ was about shaggy and scooby travelling into the realm of monsters, the very things he’s afraid of mos, so he can save his friends from being turned into monsters themselves. and he does save them

and those are just the examples i could think of off the top of my head!

shaggy is as essential to the gang as everyone else is. he’s the one who repeatedly throws himself headfirst into the path of the monster of the week to lead it into fred’s traps, despite his anxiety issues, because he’s the only one fast enough not to get caught. fun fact! he’s won multiple awards in high school for gymnastics and athletics. he isn’t just all about fear and food. he’s a friendly, caring person who would do anything for his friends, and on top of all this?

he’s only seventeen. of course he’s scared, he’s just a kid.

tl;dr, shaggy rogers is more than his anxiety

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

canonically, shaggy and scoob have dealt with more real monsters than the entire gang.

the mystery gang tends to unmask humans. The exceptions (authentic monsters, zombies, witches, ghosts, etc) are in certain movies. some of which (Zombie Island, the Witch’s Ghost) involve the full gang. Others (Ghoul School, Reluctant Werewolf, the Boo Brothers) have Shaggy and Scoob (and Scrappy) on their own adventures. 

oh hey and in ghoul school, looking for some peace and quiet, they get hired as gym teachers at a school for girls, that turns out to be a school for ghouls. Despite being terrified,  

they stay, become fantastic teachers, inspire their students and lead them to victory in the volleyball champion, and then risk their lives saving the students from an evil witch and spider minions. 

oh and they befriend an adult mummy, vampire, wolfman, and phantom along the way

not to mention whenever they hang with the rest of the gang, they invariably get used trap bait against their expressed wishes. but still they stick around

oh, and despite their reluctance, scoob and shaggy regularly play some of the most vital roles in the gang’s adventures, to the point the movie posters regularly feature them as the most prominent members. the rest of the gang may provide the motivation, but shaggy and scooby are the lifeblood of the show:

conclusion: Shaggy Rogers and Scoobert Doo have enormous hearts that lead them to face their greatest fears on an almost daily basis for the sake of protecting those they care about.

PROTECT AND APPRECIATE SHAGGY ROGERS

[littlegoddesshestia]

Also, THEY ARE ALWAYS RUNNING AROUND LIKE CRAZY AND DOING SUPER DANGEROUS STUFF. THEY ARE BURNING MORE CALORIES THAN THEY HAVE IN THEIR BODIES. OF COURSE THEY’RE GONNA EAT LIKE CRAZY. IF THEY DON’T EAT CONSTANTLY THEY’LL DIE.

[imwiremother]

im currently kinning jared 19 

[de-la-tierre-a-la-lune]

Also the mystery machine was originally Shaggy’s but he gave it to Fred because he’s too anxious to drive more often than not. Miss me with this fake as shit about my favorite guy.

[mageknight14]

In this house, we stan Norville “Shaggy” Rogers.

[kidzboppizza]

Imagine the raw energy of Depression vs. Anxiety that would happen if Bo Burnham and John Mulaney did a show together

[debrides]

I worked with toddlers and pre schoolers for three years. Sometimes I accidentally slip and tell a friend to say bye to an inanimate object (“say bye bus!”) & occasionally they unthinkingly just do it.

[lesbirdan]

I’m glad there’s a teacher version of “accidentally called teacher ‘mom’”

[hermionegranger]

when I worked at Medieval Times occasionally I would slip in real life and call people “my lord”

[mugsandpugs1-deactivated2019010]

One time during family prayer, dad began: “our father who art in heaven, American Airlines, how can I help you?”

[thomrainierskies]

One time my dad went to the White Castle drive-thru and the lady (who was supposed to say ‘Welcome to White Castle, what’s your crave?’) asked, “Welcome to White Castle, what’s your problem?”

She apologized profusely while my dad proceeded to lose his shit laughing.

[mirab3lle]

Yesterday I went to Wendy’s and the girl said “Welcome to McDonalds” and then just sighed

[icouldwritebooks]

Somebody in the elevator asked me what floor I lived on, and I answered “please open your books to page eight”, and we just kind of stared at each other, blinking.

[crimeronan]

i work retail full time and my script gets frequently messy - ill ask the same question twice, or say “$2.60 is your total” while handing back their change, or say “how are you doing today?” instead of “have a good day!” like name it ive bungled it

but anyway, this lady came thru my line buying a book and the review on the front said: “few books are well written, fewer still are important, and this book manages to be both”

as i handed her the bag i was trying to say “thanks, youre all set” and instead my brain mashed up the review and i said “thanks, youre important”

there was this short pause in which i tried to figure out what the fuck id just said. she blinked and then said “oh thank you! youre important too!”

the real kicker was one of my coworkers. when i was relating this story later his response was “at least you said something NICE. last week i accidentally combined ‘youre welcome’ and ‘no problem’ into ‘youre a problem’”

[agrestenoir]

one time, since I used to work as a daycare teacher with preschoolers, i was on my college campus in my gym, and someone was running in the weight room and tripped over a machine and fell, and instead of offering to help, I just stared and said, “This is why we use our walking feet.” we both sat there for a while until the guy nodded and said, “yeah, okay, i should’ve done that.”

[gin-and-eschatonic]

I’ve spent a good chunk of time working in kitchens, so I still will reflexively say shit like “behind” and “coming around” as I maneuver through spaces and around people.

Which, actually, not such a bad thing; I’m a big guy and can come across as imposing pretty easily. The position calls can help defuse that, and also help avoid collisions.

Less good is the time my brain was half functional and I let slip a “coming with a knife” while grocery shopping. THAT took some explaining.

[harold-theyre-thespians]

I work in an office and send tens of emails to customers every day. Once my mum asked me to send her a train ticket I had bought for her. I emailed her “Hello mum, as agreed, please find attached the ticked you requested. Thanks, Alex”

[narwhalsarefalling]

i worked as a camp counselor, and i would have the kids tap somewhere on my legs if they needed something because im a pretty tall dude. today asked my cat if he needed something.

[wren-likethe-bird]

I have woken up in a cold sweat saying “is that for here or to go?”

[la-mancha-screwjob]

Every time a friend thanks me, and I respond with “gladly” or “my pleasure”, I die completely 1000% inside

[fair-itself]

I work at a plasma donation center. When processing donors, we call them by name, they walk up to the counter, and then we ask for their name and donor number. One time, instead of saying “Robert” I hollered “Name and donor number!?” into a full waiting room. Three people started announcing their names and donor numbers before we all realized that I fucked up.

[maplefiasco]

In college, I was a barista at Borders (remember Borders, you guys?!) I once drove through Taco Bell on my way home after a shift. When the cashier said, “okay, that’ll be $5.46!” I cheerfully responded, “Do you have a Borders rewards card?”

[iamthatbeast]

I have dealt with so many difficult customers over the years that I used to angrily call my dog “Sir” when I was mad at him.

[widonotts]

My first job was at my nearest Panera, and after coming home from a ten-hour Sunday morning shift, I was exhausted; but when my mom called me to come downstairs, instead of replying in the grumpy teenagerish tone I usually would, I said in my cheeriest, fakest voice, “Not a problem at all, let me just check with my manager!” before realizing my mistake.

[artwlw]

my coworker went to back up the cash registers one time and she had been at customer service right before. when we finish with a customer we have to sometimes get the attention of the next person and will shout “i can get the next person in line!” but instead of saying that she yelled “HI WHAT CAN I HELP YOU WITH” to everyone in the general area

[youlovelucie]

I have told my dog “no thank you” so many times after working at a preschool

[spacecores]

a couple of times i’ve gotten stuck in a hello how are you good how are you good how are you loop with an equally tired Fred Meyer’s cashier after a long shift but the best time was after a 10 to 10 post-holidays after they told me my total, I asked if they would like a bag today and after a confused few seconds they were like, “no… I have the bags”

[thebritishteapot]

Worked in a gallery where we asked people to take off their backpacks in order not to accidentally damage paintings. So when I went to the shop later and saw a guy in the line in front of me, I told him he had to remove his backpack. He probably thought I was politely trying to rob him.

[emilyelizabethfowl]

i live for stories like these

[rockpaperscissorsgun]

i work with kids, one time i came back from a long shift and ended up (successfully) telling my dad to “Stop it.” in the most commanding tone i have ever heard when he was being loud at dinner. i have never felt so mortified yet so powerful.

[letsboldlygomotherfuckers]

I’m a cinematographer and I was sharing a room with a friend while we were shooting my last film and I woke him up yelling “I just don’t understand what you want from this shot”

[concerningwolves]

A few weeks ago while I was writing a very intense scene, my dad asked me if I wanted a cup of tea, startling me so badly that I yelled the line I was about to type at him instead of my usual “Yeah, ta.”

That line was “Tell me what the fuck I just broke my nose for or we’re not going anywhere!”

[garrettauthor]

HOT POINTS in an empty garage.

[we-are-not-amoosed]

I worked in retail in Britain before I worked a similar job in Germany. The first few days were a language confusion mess.

[shinimegami]

[thestormscrolls]

no way in hell am i passing this up

[6-couture-deactivated20171109]

a student from uni scrolled past this and ended up failing all of his courses, even the ones he thought he passed… not gonna take this chance.

[commanderfirepaw]

BIRTHDAY

@not-oki-doki , my guy, I have known you for about a year now? And I gotta say, I am so fucking happy that we met. Also happy that you aren’t a 45 year old man ;). Anyways, you’ve become one of my really good friends over the time we’ve known each other. You’re funny, easy to talk to, and just make me really happy every time we talk. You let me vent to you, and in return, you tell me about your life.

Whoever told me that you can’t meet actual people on the internet has clearly never met you. Happy birthday, dude. So grateful to be a part of your life.

[not-oki-doki]

Ahhh! I love you so much! Thank you! You’re honestly such an amazing person and I’m so glad I’ve gotten to know you💖

[commanderfirepaw]

I WUV YOU girlie!!

[not-oki-doki]

I love you too!!!!!💕💕