Something That Scares You

just some words of mine...

[houseofthinspo]

new year new you

[thoughtkick]

“Do you ever miss yourself? The person you were before you had your first heartbreak or before you got betrayed by a person you trusted?”

— Unknown

[thoughtkick]

“You often feel tired, not because you’ve done too much, but because you’ve done too little of what sparks a light in you.”

— Unknown

[aditiv3rse]

we were meant to live slowly!!!! we were meant to savor moments and feel unabashedly lazy and frolic and smell the flowers and laugh with our entire hearts and love with our entire souls!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for resting!!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for slowing down!!!!!! enjoying life shouldn’t be something you’re ashamed of

[hedgehog-moss]

If you genuinely enjoy being alone, do you ever wonder if it is an inherent part of your character or if it stems from feeling inescapably lonely in the first place until you taught yourself to enjoy the peace and happiness one can find in solitude? what if the reason you now prefer & choose solitude at every turn is because you were a very lonely child, or teenager, not by your own choice, and that’s how you learnt to thrive and grow, so you no longer know if you can do that around people? There might also be an element of personal pride, an unconscious “you can’t fire me I quit” point when your brain decided to switch your feelings about solitude from distress to relief. I often find myself defending my love of being alone, to people who worry that I can’t possibly be happy to live in an isolated house in the woods; I insist that I do! I really do specifically enjoy the isolated factor and chose to live here because of it, but then I wonder how to differentiate an ingrained love of solitude from an acquired ability to thrive off unchosen loneliness, to learn from it and be nourished by it; to what extent it might be a form of contentment built on a bedrock of resignation.

[tomarrowski-deactivated20210907]

[eliminated]

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Are you a magician or what?

why can I not get over you? 

why does it feel like all the 7 billion can’t fill in your place

 what did you do to me?

why you had to be so wise?

how did you impress me like this 

are you a magician or what

and knowing that you’re closer than a couple hours from me

knowing that we passed the same streets

we’re breathing the same air

maybe we passed by each other one day

not realizing who that stranger was

maybe you were sitting across me in that bus 

but I was too busy looking at my phone and

didn’t even see you.

Maybe we saw each other but didn’t know

what was laying behind those eyes

maybe we’re the cure for each other

that we’ve been looking for all these years...

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Wish You Knew

I didn't even know I needed anyone this much until I met you

Wish you knew how much you messed me up

Wish you could be here to hold me

You've got me so vulnerable...

So needy...

Now I can't stop thinking about you

I forbid myself thinking you

But I know that you're gone now

You will never come back

I forbid myself hoping you'd come back someday

Would you come back?

When you feel lonely

Or do you ever think about me

Do I ever pop up in your mind

Because you never get out of mine...

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[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Life is Such a Deceptive Journey

At first, your mind is just a blank page and you start to fill it as you learn and then by the time you’re thinking you’ve got it all figured out it makes you realize so many things you believed to be true were actually not right and you start rewriting all over again until you find out that there was no right and wrong since the beginning…

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

It's scary how much we're shaped by the place we're born as if we are actually not so unique like we're just born into different conditions and if we were in the same conditions we wouldn't be any different at all

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Isn't it so strange that life has a different meaning to every single person in the billions of people out there.

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

why can’t we just be souls wihtout bodies?

why are theese layers of bones, skin and clothes so important?

[purplebuddhaquotes]

I like hearing myself talk. It is one of my greatest pleasures. I often have long conversations all by myself, and I am so clever that sometimes I don’t understand a single word of what I am saying.

Oscar Wilde (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Just a dream

Your dream was helping me to go to sleep at night it was a dream that I never thought would come true but it'd just make me happy anyways, it'd help me forget about all the struggle I've faced through the day, take my mind to ease, relax my body part by part slowly walking me to the darkness of the night even though everything crushed by the sunrise I'd not let it go because it was the only thing to get me through my day the dream of dreaming you before I fall asleep

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

Sometimes just ignore me

I don’t understand how some people never get it. Yes, I cried that’s why my eyes are red congrats you caught me! And I’m not okay but there’s nothing you can do and I don’t want to tell so don’t even ask me if I’m okay cuz that makes it even worse. I know I don’t look okay. I don’t need to hear that okay?

Sometimes I get tired of acting like I’m all okay maybe huh? Not everyone has perfect lives i don’t want your support. Listening is not enough and I’m not asking for anything so just let it go like I do. Stop asking what’s wrong it’s maybe none of your business…

[notmymonkeynotmycircus1]

...Someone...

I wanna be alone because I'm really bored of dealing with people it's just too much sometimes and I wanna curl in my bed just have some time with myself but then I realize I need someone, someone that'll understand me without talking, that'll look me in the eye and give me trust and a warm feeling, someone that just holds me tightly between his arms at nights and tells me that everything is gonna be fine, I just need someone...

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