Panic

Just because I'm losing - doesn't mean I'm lost.

[panichord]

Monsters

Trust is a liability. Obedience may be worse...

Lucy must reckon with what it means to stay with The Ghoul and what she might lose by doing so. Survival becomes a delicate negotiation of boundaries, leverage, and split-second choices that rarely come without cost.

Post–S2E7 continuation. Canon divergence.

Fallout (TV) /Cooper x Lucy / Slow Burn / In Character / Developing Romance / Longfic / With a plot!

Chapter 21 Preview:

“Cooper?” Lucy half-asked in confusion, staring at him until deep amber eyes finally met hers. “Don’t.” His voice remained low and his jawline tightened. “Take the damn gun.” Her eyes searched his, trying to figure out what exactly he was doing. He dropped his gaze. “Cooper,” she tried again, placing a hand on the gun but not removing it. “I can’t keep watching you-” he paused, shaking his head as his drawl slipped momentarily. “I’m not going to ask you to leave your brother, Lucy.” His gaze remained downcast.

AO3 I Jump to 21

[veteran-ranger]

I know Aaron Paul has been struggling getting roles because everyone sees him as Jesse after his big breakthrough, so whoever he ends up playing, I hope it's a role where he gets to show off his range, and not a Jesse-esq role.

He 46 now, so I'd really love see him in a more mature and serious role, where he gets to be part of a big show and play a memorable returning character and escape Jesse's shadow. And I honestly think an NCR Colonel or even General would be the perfect part for him.

[panichord]

Please let Paul break the chains of that typecasting! If Cranston got to break his...

[aveimperator40k]

YOU'RE GODDAMNED RIGHT HE DOES.

CAPTAIN OF THIS SHIP.

[panichord]

Monsters

Chapter CATCH 22...

Now what could possibly throw Cooper back into this state?

And send Lucy into shock?

...will launch tomorrow!

Catch up? Hit the link below!

AO3

My writer's ass is back in the saddle. Life be damned. Life pulled a reverse uno so looking live on Wednesday/Thursday! Life apparently laughs in the face of deadlines. Make that Friday/Saturday - sleep be damned. Behold the spectacle of perfectionism colliding with life limitations. It'll be out soon™.

[periodicambition]

People headcanon the Ghoul how he talks about himself--ruthlessly violent for the sake of it

Admitedly he is ruthless, but he never commits violence unless it is in self defence or directly helps him get closer to finding his family. He is extremelly strategic and reserved about when he draws his guns.

Just look at season 1: Episode 1: Kills the two bounty hunters who shoot him, keeps the third one who didn't draw alive.

Episode 2: Shoots the doctor's leg to guarantee he can get the bounty that will get him to Moldaver. Kills every attacker in Filly after they've aimed at him. He doesn't even aim at Ma June or Lucy until they've aimed at him.

Episode 3: Roughs up Lucy to find the head.

Episode 4: Uses Lucy as bait to get the Gulper, but only as much as he needs to. He picks the leaches off her every time he pulls her up and he tries to help keep the gulper off her when it surfaces.

Episode 5: Doesn't give Lucy irradiated water until she choses it for herself. Mercy kills Roger before he can go feral. Cuts off Lucy's finger after she bites off his. Sells her for two months chems to keep himself alive.

Episode 6: Shoots the Sheriffs once they try dragging him out back. Sorrel never raises a gun to Cooper so he doesn't get shot.

Episode 7: Shoots Tommy after he reaches for the gun.

Episode 8: Fights the Brotherhood to keep them from getting upstairs before he does.

He's not violent for the fun of it, he's just violent to achieve his goal. There's more humanity under his surface than he admits.

[panichord]

THIS! People forget pre-war Cooper and flatten him into bad boy cowboy.

He's a lot more nuanced and complex than that.

[panichord]

Grief for the dead?

A soul-crushing part of the human experience.

Marked by fluid stages that many travel through and across at varying rates.

An unfortunate universal.

Grief for the living?

No one and nothing prepares you for this.

Not universal.

Hits just the same.

[panichord]

This scene.

Is.

THIS.

Vibe.

[panichord]

Looking at Norm closely, it's hard not to notice that he's built different and then...

Which explains a lot. Especially, post-leaving Vault.

...he's just top tier support in a main character wasteland!

Am I the only one who thought of this? Move cake to strengths and swap zoology for intelligence (weapons valet may be valid).

Me too, Norm, me too.

[panichord]

I've got a bone to pick with an actor archetype (or have we already reduced this to a label?)

Daddy Zaddy Vibes:

The Golden Standard

The Typical

Note: These two are not actual dads haha

The Refined

The Tired

The Evades but Exudes

Why are we placing this man in the bucket?!

Call him mysterious. Call him intriguing. Call him captivating. Call him dangerous. Just don't call him fucking daddy.

Older + Attractive =/= Daddy

[panichord]

Am I the only one who sees some pretty striking...

parallels

in

how

pairings

interact

...overlap in dynamic?

Fundamentally, we don't get along but let's keep going?

Adversaries, friends, or what the hell is this?

Could shoot each other. Could kiss. Who the fuck knows? They don't.

[soldierboys]

THE BOYS 5.01 Fifteen Inches of Sheer Dynamite

[panichord]

Ah Butcher...my spirit animal.

[panichord]

Monsters

Cooper x Lucy (Ghoulcy & Vaultghoul) / Slow Burn / In Character / Developing Romance / Longfic / With a plot!

Chapter 21 teaser:

I'd advise against threatening Cooper.

Join the adventure? AO3

"Would you please just lower your gun and we can all try talking.” Lucy pleaded, shifting her leg to block his gun.

“I ain’t much for talkin’.” The Ghoul growled as she leaned slightly against his side trying to hold her ground despite the spin that kept blurring the edge of her vision.

“You know him?” Norm asked, his gaze shifting between The Ghoul and Claudia.

“Yes, I did - not like personally or anything, that would be silly - but I did talk to him once,” Claudia said with a brief glance to Norm before turning back to The Ghoul. “You see, I do respect you - even liked you - but if what they said was true.”

 “Then you best make that shot count.” The Ghoul challenged, stepping away from Lucy which caused her to stumble and lose her grip on his hand.

“Cooper!” Lucy half-shouted, staggering to catch up to him as he stalked towards Claudia.

“Claudia, I think we should listen to Lucy.” Norm cautioned, keeping his distance. “Why are you acting like they’re a threat to us?”

“Why is he acting?” Claudia asked weakly, taking a step back as The Ghoul entered her space. “Were you what they said? Your wife, or I suppose ex-wife, I worked with her-”

“Don’t really matter now, does it?” he interrupted, coming to a stop with her gun pressed into his chest. “That world, it’s gone. Shoot or cut the shit, sweetheart.”

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[panichord]

No bingo for me.

This was actually kinda fun. My lane's a weird one (but aren't they/we all)...

How did I get here? I don't know but been here awhile.

What inspires me? I, also, don't know.

Do I have the desire and drive to write? Depends on the topic.

Can I get invested? Incredibly so.

Must the show go on? Always...to the bitter end.

Next Question? Asked no one, because clearly I would not interview well.

But here I am, in all my glory.

[panichord]

While hunting for a gif to define, the world is a vampire - sent to drain...

Behold! A tagline for Cooper's aesthetic

Dead

But

Delicious

If it fits, we ships.

[panichord]

For those of us who came from ER:

That's not Robby

That's Sith Zaddy Carter

[gender-luster]

episodes that i think every tv show should have:

timeloop

whodunit

musical

beach trip

random genre change (especially if it's to a noir detective thing)

one where they get randomly meta and fourth wall breaky but then never acknowledge it again

one where something happened but we as the audience don't actually get to see how it happened and only see it through the unreliable narrated flashbacks as recollected by the characters

[lunarriviera]

• episode shot entirely in black & white • body swap episode • everyone meeting their own doubles from another universe • (cf. angel "smile time" 5x14) episode starring puppets

[panichord]

Ever heard of X-Files?

[panichord]

Thematically, I vibe with this song on a life level. As for specifc lyrics, let's flag this verse today:

Just because I'm hurtin'

Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved

No better and no worse

Emotionally, I'm hanging at:

Creatively, I could 💯 write a crackfic one-shot for these two:

It would be fun or I'm just looking for a reason to throw cunt into every other line with a side of passionate argument that goes emotions to fighting in 60 seconds or less. Kiss and someone's dead.

I'm all about that restraint/staying in my lane though so using this energy to: analyze (I got you, Coop - full meta!), character study, refresh on voice, dialogue cadence, and brush up on certain characters. Let's get it Chapter 21!