programmed culture is . . .

no hate tolerated :> ran by a programmed system, for programmed folks & experiences

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general tw for talks of programming

this is a blog run by a programmed system, for programmed experiences. this includes systems, singlets, etc, as long as it's programmed.

programming can include ramcoa/oea, but we are referring specifically to itbc/tbmc.

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this blog is run by a (programmed) side system in a programmed system. for our safety, we will not be specifying who we are .

please only refer to us as "♠️" using it/its pronouns & computer/robot based terms .

the blog goes on hiatus sometimes due to not being able to come here without triggering things internally . askbox will remain open usually , though .

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please properly tw triggering asks, don't censor the tw AT ALL. anon sign offs are completely welcome :> just let us know if it changes. please don't go into detail about trauma, programming triggers, system details, ANY OF THAT- even if you're on anon; i will not post it for your safety. also, typing quirks are fine, just provide translations before your ask please. i will tag asks mentioning having OSDDID, using we/us/our, & similar as "programmed system culture"; and asks not implying plurality as "programmed culture".

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T.R.A.S.H., under 14, transprogrammed/transramcoa, non programmed singlets & systems (you may interact- just dont send asks), if your blog centers around images of sh/ed/nsfw, kink blogs, people who think this is a conspiracy theory/people are faking, anti self dx.

THIN ICE (can still interact & send asks, we just might block you) — endos of all kinds

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Sorry for inactivity ! We will get to the inbox as soon as we can ^^;

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Programmed culture is your parent who was involved in programming you, using the word programmed instead of conditioned, and then testing you on your response. And THEN not knowing if you were just being paranoid about the testing part or not.

(We weren't supposed to know, and theyre not supposed to know that we know. So it was extremely anxiety inducing /lh)

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Apologies for the lack of image descriptions / alt text on recent, & past, posts- it'd slipped my mind. i'm trying to fix it currently, but the tumblr mobile ui makes it difficult to tell, due to the small width of the image; if i miss any, let me know, please !

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Programmed culture is having really oddly specific memories of the desert and heat and sandstorms, and also hating sand, but never having been there. Also, possibly unrelated, having vivid flashbacks and programs going off when you watch a specific Disney tv show (Aladdin 1994-1995)

So. Yk. Weird as hell but nothing to tie it in with everything else I experience.

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tw ig for suicide jokes 😭 sorry this is half vent and half jokes idk

programmed culture is i am going to fucking explode Right Now because of inexplicably horrible things i went through like ten years ago.

oh now everybody thinks im dramatic. great. good. awesome.

killing myself now-

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TW specified, in depth sexual, psychological and physical torture, self-doubt, self-fakeclaiming etc

Programmed culture is knowing that what happened to you, in my case my most prevalent abuse was rape which is what I was mainly thinking about today, is one of the worst, most violating things a person can ho through. But in your head, the same trauma you went through, when applied to you and your experiences, is “really not that bad.”

I was thinking today, about what I went through. Like yeah, I was raped and assaulted every single day for way over two years, to this day I still get severe somatic flashbacks where it feels like he’s thrusting against my bruised cervix again (I have had a LOT of physical damage done to me, but god, the pain on a bruised cervix continuing to be abused is a feeling I truly have no words for. It’s excruciating, unlike anything I’ve ever experienced), because he did it so fucking often that it’s a near constant physical reminder of what happened. And that’s only the rape part of the story. And even this tiny fucking piece of it is enough for my brain to say “you’re too much, your trauma is too much, you’re exaggerating, nobody will believe you, you’re a fraud.”

This whole thing is so incredibly complex and my brain says that just the daily rape part of it was already “too much” and therefore fake and I’m a dramatic whiny bitch. I’m scared of the time I can finally accept *all* the parts of it, because if just this aspect of it is too much already, god knows what my reaction will be to everything else *on top of it.*

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Tw specified torture + war crimes

Programming culture is feeling immense fear at calling your abuse programming, RAMCOA or TBMC, because your experiences don’t fit the Hollywood image of torture (like war crimes, waterboarding, electric shocks) since you were tortured in a more domestic setting, and society hasn’t caught up to the fact that torture is very common and very much real torture outside of a strictly military/war setting.

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Hi? Sorry if this question sounds weird. I'm just kinda uninformed. Does the person performing TBMC on a victim need to know about DID? I thought the person torturing the victim doesn't necessarily need to know about DID and just focuses on getting responses

These questions are fine, we don't mind !

To put it simply; no, the abuser/handler doesn't need to know about DID or dissociative theory to program someone.

To go into a little more detail; programming doesn't need to result in DID to be programming. At the very core, it's just abuse to get the victim to do what they want. Abusing someone doesn't require any knowledge into disorders, or symptoms, or anything- it just requires to know how to hurt someone, which everyone knows how to do.

I hope this answers your question, sorry the response was late.

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What are the symptoms of conditioning? People mention it but I'm not sure what to look for in myself

There aren't any. Programming looks different in every individual- it's a trauma response, not a specific criteria set. It's complex and nuanced and, unfortunately, there's no One Way to figure it out or not. You can look to see if there are any cues that you, or alters, reply to in a certain way; or if you relate to any other survivors' experiences; but again, there's no definitive way to tell or criteria to meet.

I also don't recommend searching into memories, since that can be very dangerous, programmed or not. /serious

I wish you luck anon, and i'm sorry this reply isn't of much help. Stay safe.

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Anon[s]; i will get to your questions when we have more mental energy, which will probably be in the next few days.

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Programmed culture is feeling invalid due to mostly only experiencing iota/isolation programming and not things such as sexual and physical abuse :(

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Programmed culture is getting incredibly freaked out and twitchy and nauseous whenever you see Alice in wonderland stuff :')

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Tw for specified torture type and beta programming

programmed culture is sleep torture being used on you as a specific beta program so now you have a completely fucked relationship with sleeping

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Programmed culture is randomly discovering a trigger/program and having issues for WEEKS.

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Hi, I don't really know where to ask/send this, but if you're ok with answering

What are ways programming can present other than DID? I only know about programming as in programmed systems

Hi, very sorry for the wait ! This is completely fine to ask :>

I hope this answers your question, feel free to send more ! — by the end i got slightly triggered, so if it's unclear or anything that's why.

Also please don't just take my word as fact, I am a random on the internet.

TW: semi in-depth programming talk

("Handler" is a specific term for an abuser who carries out programming.)

"Programming" refers to Torture Based Mind Control (TBMC) / Intentional Torture Based Conditioning (ITBC). This happens when specific responses are ingrained into someone's brain through means of torture and abuse.

The point of programming, usually, is to create dissociated parts (for the handler's benefit). The handlers dont want their victim to remember things, so they try to create dissociative barriers.

The torture might fail to created dissociated parts, the handlers might just not know what the fuck they're doing (thus weakening the programming), etc.

Handlers generally try their best to create immense stress and trauma to force splitting, but not everyone splits as a response to extreme trauma, and the handlers have no control over that.

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Hi, we made a big oversight while answering this ask. Please listen to this version instead.

Anon, i really hope you see this version. Im sorry for the mistakes in my original.

CORRECTION:

First, let's go over what conditioning is vs what programming is. Conditioning is the act of getting a behavior/response to respond to a cue/trigger. Conditioning happens naturally, and doesn't need abuse or torture to reinforce it. Everyone has conditioned responses, to a varying degree of severity. Victims of general abuse, not specifically torture, usually have more severe conditioned responses than someone who has not been abused, for example. Similarly, programming is a type of conditioning that's reinforced with abuse, and, more specifically, torture.

Programming is done with the explicit intention of creating specific responses to specific cues/triggers. It is training the victim, through means of force & violence, to respond a way the abuser likes/wants.

Some abusers know of dissociative disorders, dissociative theories, & the like; but most don't. Oftentimes, splitting is the byproduct of undergoing so much repetitive torture, and so the victim's alters/parts will correspond to different cues/triggers. Now, I'm not saying abusers don't intentionally cause the victim to dissociate, cuz some do, im just saying dissociation & splitting is often a byproduct rather than the main goal.

Anyone can be conditioned, anyone can be tortured, and anyone can be programmed. It's common for programming & torture victims to split systems, but it's not necessary/gonna happen 100% of the time.

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trigger warning for re-aging in trafficking. please anon me if it breaks.

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programmed culture is everyone in my life, including all of my friends, coworkers, classmates and even my current boyfriend thinking I look older, vastly older than I am, to the point where they thought I was an adult when I was underage and were surprised to hear i wasnt, to the point where I was getting liquor menus without being carded at 14..

and then I find old photos of me looking at least 3-4 years old... with digital camera dates reading 4 months before the alleged date of my birth.

how old am i?