If you know us, no you don't! [This is where we like to post assorted items at will, reblog stuff we like, and otherwise lurk for fun. Nothing too serious. Check pinned for more info about us.]
Judas: host & body name // Choir: system name (Choir System)
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— body is twenty-one [21] years old.
— collectively he/him + it/its and (when referring to multiple parts) plural they/them. alternate between first-person pronouns i/me and we/us.
— multiply disabled; autistic DID system, primarily a cane user for chronic pain & balance. hard of hearing because auditory processing disorder. we have other issues but I'm not going to list them out lmfao
— intersex genderfluid cistrans man. multigendered like a math equation; cisgender nonbinary, transgender boyflux(man–neutrois)+agender. sometimes butch lesbian on top of that. genderfaunet as a whole I think but it's rlly hard to explain go check out the full hoard here on pronouns.page (link)
— racialized reconnecting wative or something IDK the W in wative shines in terms of majority lived experience I fear. USAmerican in nationality, and ethnicity I primarily identify as Southern Italian, Polish, and Hinono'ei (Arapaho) but I'm a mysterious mixed blend of others
— check out my other [tumblr] blogs @yourfaveisintersex, @cah-culture-is, and @hypogonadism-culture-is!
Testosterone HRT Jun.1.2023 | Top Surgery Oct.30.2024
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psst... this is only a basic intro. click below for lots more!
Boundaries and BYF info.
— Feel free to send us asks or DM us. We like messages. In addition if we do anything wrong... please just tell us? We're constantly trying to learn and grow for the better.
— We block liberally to curate our online experience. If you make us uncomfortable we won't hesitate to do so, even if you aren't on our below "DNI". Folk who apply to our DNI can and will get blocked, including when found in our notifications.
— We also read a lot of, if not all, our notifications. Expect the possibility of a response as well when you say something, whether it be in your askbox, a reblog of your reblog, whatever.
— If you say dumbfuck shit in my notifications expecting me to debate you (especially if you're on our DNI!), you're sorely mistaken. I rarely if ever debate or argue because it's worthless time & energy to expend. At least be funny if you're gonna try?
— Please do not interrogate us about our full background, especially if you are a stranger. We literally don't know it all, and more importantly we don't owe you it. If you demand our intersex variation you owe us $20 also. Fund our testing if you insist we need to be diagnosed.
— For the love of humanity if you have a complex typing quirk and are able to, please be willing to translate it into plain English. Obligatory "typing quirks are inherently ableist and refusing to translate is being actively ableist". As a Homestuckie I can understand leetspeak-esque quirks, but if yours is so esoteric I can't easily gleam what your message says it will get on my nerves.
— Please please please understand that if you misinterpret my posts as a stranger I might come off as passive aggressive. I try not to, this is unfortunately the piss on the poor website, but god damn please use your reading comprehension for a minute before saying something on our posts.
— Parts/alters (we use both terms interchangably) don't have signoffs by default just cause we don't really see the point here. Everyone who's willing & allowed on here uses tumblr as they wish.
— At this point we're endo-apathetic. I truly can't bother to give an earnest fuck over the discourse anymore. Pros neutrals and antis alike are allowed to interact. Don't be a dick, don't be someone who spouts blatant misinformation about OSDDID, whatever, and we should be fine.
— We don't usually tag triggers (or much of anything) especially on reblogs. We just hit the funny green button unless the content is particularly compelling enough for us to tag.
— In general we're really sloppy with tags. We've had this blog for years on end, and don't feel particularly inclined to sideblogs. This also means you might stumble upon old posts and/or opinions if you go through our blog. Sorry for any cringe you find /lh
DNI
more of a broad "who we ignore/block" and opinions list. I mean seriously, is a flesh & blood TERF going to listen to this?
in other news, if you don't apply to any of the below, you should follow us! /not forced
— Any type of bigot.
— Radical feminists in general. This includes TERFs, T"I"RFs, SWERFs, febfems, transradfems, etc. We include them under our "bigot" label, but just being thorough. This includes people who have "men DNI" somewhere on their profile. For all intents and purposes I am a man 🫶
— Any flavor of right-wing nonsense. (conservative, alt-right, neonazi, pro-life, antivax, etc.)
— Anti-Furry. Your life is boring as shit.
— Anti-therian/otherkin/alterhuman, or any adjacent label.
— Anti-POSIC+ (link) and objectum folks.
— Anti-self-shipping, self-inserts or self-OCs, and OC x Canon. Your life is ALSO boring as shit.
— Heavily involved in shipcourse. We do not label ourselves proship/antiship/neutral because we don't take shipcourse seriously. It should be common sentiment that pedophilia(+related i.e necro, zoo), incest, abuse etc. that's publicly romanticized/fetishized as normal, okay, or otherwise something that should be encouraged in real life, is wrong. However, it's also wrong to harass & bully people over the shit they enjoy that's completely fictional when nobody in real life is actively being tangibly hurt about it. Use the block button and filter content you don't wanna see. If I'm correct I think this is called being "pro-fiction & anti-censorship" in Tumblr shorthand, but I already wrote this out and like I said I don't care about shipcourse. Lighthearted TL;DR,
[ID: A tumblr screenshot with a grainy filter overlay. It's a post by @/bloodenjoyer posted on May 25, 2023 that reads as follows, "i’m not “pro ship” or “anti ship” i live in the real world + have media literacy + am grossed out by pedophilia which is all pretty standard fare for people who life in the real world actually". /end ID.]
— Puritans. Your anti-kink folks and the like. Much like the above I genuinely don't fucking care what consenting adults get up to in private as long as nobody is being tangibly hurt. And I think you're the weird one if you police people's sexual lives if, again, nobody is actually being hurt by their behavior.
— Queer exclusionists, infighters, and feds (truscum/transmed, anti-contradictory identities, believes aspec aren't inherently queer, doesn't believe transandrophobia is real, attempts to rehash the gender binary i.e. with afab/amab or tme/tma, etc.)
— Not normal about intersex people. Sex is a bimodal spectrum, not a binary. AFAB and AMAB do not inherently imply anything about current/past body parts or experiences, if you use them like they do you're effectively just calling folks "biological (fe)male" in faux-progressive language. Be a better advocate.
— Pro-radqueer/(non-harmless) transx identities.
— Pro-contact stance of harmful paraphilias. (ex. pedophilia, zoophilia, necrophilia)
— Believe in "narc abuse" or other cluster B "abuses".
— Anti-age regression/age dreaming (agere/agedre) or pet regression/pet dreaming (petre/petdre).
— Anti-well researched self-diagnosis.
— Believe OEA isn't real or purposefully believe conspiracy theories & other disinformation related to it.
— If you don't know how to use the block button yourself and shit bricks in our notes/askbox over something trivial. /hj
Apparently some people still need to hear this so: using an 'ai checker' is still using ai. If you are feeding someone's fic to one of these checkers, you will still not be sure their fic is ai because they are not 100% accurate, but you can be 100% sure that you are using ai. For fic. Furthermore you are doing the work of an ai scraper for them. You are, personally, feeding the machine. There is no actual excuse for using an ai checker on fanfic as a hobby. YOU are the problem.
If you think a fic is ai, mute it and move on. That's it. That's all you do.
im just so happy i live in a time period where actual meaningful biological transition is possible. even if we lose rights or the ability to exist in public, nothing can turn back the clock on that, and just by having any sort of access to that our lives are made immensely better. millions of our sisters throughout history would never have dreamed of a day where they could have what HRT does for us.
please don't lose the plot of this. if you're a trans person on HRT you're a living miracle, the dream of hundreds of millions of your ancestors. your lives are all deeply meaningful no matter what anyone says.
Cursed be the one who announced to my father:
“It’s a boy!"...
...How could he twist the course of the stars so much?
How could he have erred so in his astrology?
A lying tongue, a fool’s mouth it had given him
For he foolishly transformed justice to poison
He altered the law and transposed the lines
Oh, but had the artisan who made me created me instead – a worthy woman...
...I would say "how lucky am I"
Father in heaven
who did miracles for our ancestors with fire and water...
...Who would then transform me from a man to woman?
Were I only to have merited this being so graced by goodness...
What shall I say?
why cry or be bitter?
If my father in heaven has decreed upon me
and has maimed me with an immutable deformity
then I do not wish to remove it.
the sorrow of the impossible is a human pain that nothing will cure
and for which no comfort can be found.
So, I will bear and suffer until I die and wither in the ground.
Since I have learned from our tradition
that we bless both, the good and the bitter
I will bless in a voice hushed and weak:
blessed are you [HaShem] who has not made me a woman.
Wild how there are lgbtq+ people on here who hold the same opinions on queer culture as the average homophobic transphobic straight person, just that they've reasoned themselves into them from the opposite way around.
You don't like drag. You don't like bisexuals. You don't like asexuals. You're suspicious of queer & trans people who you think have too easy. You don't like pride parades. You don't like people with genders you don't understand. You don't like it when people fall outside of the sex binary. You're suspicious of any queer people who are not part of your friend group. You fear-monger about "men invading women's spaces" and people pretending to be queer for clout.
Do you have any views that you don't share with the average cis straight terf? Besides being against whatever happens to negatively affect you personally?
"I can't believe humans would hunt the thylacine to extinction, humans are fundamentally evil" Hey, did you know that extinction was long thought to be impossible, and within 50 years of humans realizing that extinction via overhunting was a possibility it practically stopped happening? Did you know that humans are so desperate to prevent more losses that they're funneling millions of collective hours and billions of euros into helping other species? Hours and euros that could be spent on humans, being spent on species on whom humanity's own survival does not depend? Did you know that due to an accidental introduction of rats, the Lord Howe Island stick insect population was brought down to 24 individuals and now there are tens of thousands of them?
This bug. This bug that, to most humans, is utterly useless, relatively gross, and completely foreign. Humans saved it because humans do not want to cause another extinction ever again if they can avoid it.
A recent conversation in a discord group reminded me of something important. If you're on the younger side (under 25 or 30) and you haven't seen all the incredible, dark and disturbing fantasy films that came out in the 1980s and late 1970s, then I would strongly encourage you to do so. There was something so dark about that genre during that time that I absolutely adore and that isn't really around in modern films for children and young adults (once they learned that it traumatized a whole generation of us).
My faves in case you need any recommendations. (Some of these are really not appropriate for children, so keep that in mind lol).
The Dark Crystal - 1982 - the Skeksis will give you nightmares. I am honestly very proud of the remake for being just as disturbing if not more so than the original.
Watership Down - 1978- NOT FOR CHILDREN - Jesus Christ why did so many of our parents show us this film at a formative age? It's all about trauma and death and displacement and there's literal blood and murder. Not a G Rated Film. Still, it's very good. Loads better than that CGI remake from a decade ago.
The Secret Of NIMH - 1982 - Incredible movie. Minor disturbing elements. Probably my favorite on the list. It's just a great adventure story with real world issues (animal experimentation, mental health problems, disabilities) and there's even a lovely romance. Highly recommend.
Legend - 1985- This film is just straight up disturbing. Yes, there's a lot of beautiful shots of unicorns and sexy, 20-something year old (insane Scientology wack job) Tom Cruise and gorgeous Mia Sara, but there's also torture, madness and literally the Devil (Tim Curry is the entire reason you should watch this film)
Labyrinth - 1986 - I only really have two words. David. Bowie. My 10 year old self found out about a lot of burgeoning kinks while watching that man prance around in eyeliner and a codpiece. It's a wonderful adventure as well - if you ignore the blatant romantic and sexual tension between Bowie and an underage Jennifer Connelly (none of us could)
The NeverEnding Story - 1984 - Lots of disturbing imagery in this one! The Nothing was fucking terrifying, and the creatures in this world seemed uniformly creepy, but still incredibly well done. Love the adventure of it.
The Princess Bride - 1987 - Not technically a kids film maybe? Lots of adult themes and adult jokes, but safe for kids imo. I adored it and still do. Incredible performances by Cary Elwes and Mandy Patinkin. R.O.U.S, Hello! My name is Inigo Montoya! (need I say more?)
The Last Unicorn - 1982 - A beautiful film with stunning representations of innocence, good and evil. Just gorgeous really. I should rewatch it as it's been 20 years or so.
reminds me of this one time i went to give a blowjob to this really sexy 38 yo man who was very masculine, wore a leather jacket, and smelled really strongly of mens cologne; i remember i got down on my knees and he was caressing my face while i was unbuttoning his pants and to my surprise when i pulled down his pants he was wearing lace panties and fishnet garters. i remember how he was looking at me while i sucked his big cock. yes i swallowed
I think theyre planning on sacrificing the orange man under the guise of an assassination attempt so he goes down a martyr instead of health issues and that scares me immensely
The reason i say this is its the most logical result of his declining health and them denying it. Rn MAGA thinks his health is great despite all the signs because he keeps talking about how good hes doing and they eat him up regardless of how outlandish the claims. If he dies in his sleep it'll be "Iran poisoned him" or some bs that furthers his agenda then the cult transfers to the next person in power, most likely Vance. It also Alternatively let's them blame the Left in an attempt to sway the upcoming elections.
you completely missed the point but congrats on the cynicism. Anyways this is also not "just a tiktok"
It's on every social media platform, news outlets are reporting on it, its a big deal especially with The Orange in office who is besties with Netanyahu. Mamdani is also an immigrant to the US, and our own government supports Israel, the right especially and our current government does not like immigrants to begin with. The Orange is insane enough to call something like this Treason even though it isn't.
As a politician he's openly putting a target on his back.
my understanding of a dogwhistle is that it is something that appears innocuous, and can be easily dismissed if ever called out on it. while signaling to their in group something derogatory about a minority. and if i am right in my understanding “trans men are the men of trans people” quite literally is one.
Overview of some topics when it comes to drawing characters who are burn survivors.
DISCLAIMER. Please keep in mind that this is an introductory overview for drawing some burn scars and has a lot of generalizations in it, so not every “X is Z” statement will be true for Actual People. I'm calling this introductory because I hope to get people to actually do their own research before drawing disabled & visibly different characters, rather than just making stuff up. Think of it as a starting point and take it with a grain of salt (especially if you have a very different art style from mine).
Talking about research and learning... don't make your burn survivor characters evil. Burn survivors are normal people and don't deserve to be constantly portrayed in such a way.
Consider supporting me on ko-fi if you find this to be helpful.
Edit: How are people seeing this post where I specifically talk about burn survivors being normal, real people, and still tag this as "TW body horror"? Not a single one of these drawings or pictures is a fresh injury. All of them are healed. How the hell would you feel if someone tagged a photo of you as "trigger warning: gore"?
Disabled people are not your fucking body horror. Grow up.
"Vanderhorst had been under the influence of MDMA and three litres of vodka she had consumed on the night of the offence last September, her lawyer Michael Hill told the court."
Most cop thing I've ever read. what the fuck are you talking about. The posts you're looking for might be on this website but we won't show them to you???
just so you know, if you completely ignore the search feature on the website and just type "tumblr.com/search/term" into the address bar, it bypasses all of this. broken-ass website
Most cop thing I've ever read. what the fuck are you talking about. The posts you're looking for might be on this website but we won't show them to you???
just so you know, if you completely ignore the search feature on the website and just type "tumblr.com/search/term" into the address bar, it bypasses all of this. broken-ass website
