Sagittarius A

Hi uh, I have no clue what to do on here so just enjoy some random shit posting, a lot of anger to society & just gayness in general FtM|He/Xim|pan|20

[salvinalis]

When I haven’t watched supernatural in years, and haven’t engaged in the fandom for just as long.

But the moment I hear 🎶 carry on my wayward sooooon 🎶 I wake up like a sleeper agent

[salvinalis]

Someone tell me how my 4 year old sister can tell I’m a boy

My 9yr old sisters friend who’s spoken to me like 3 times can tell I’m a boy

But my own parents can’t seem to clock it even though I’ve dropped basically every hint in the book outside of just telling them.

[salvinalis]

Just to bring this back,

Said 4 year old sister: “are you a mummy, daddy, brother or sister?”

Me, not out to her as trans yet: “what do you think?”

4 YO: “hmmm….you’re a brother!”

[salvinalis]

Let play a little game called can I somehow get testosterone by the end of the year

(Considering I’m not even out to my parents yet let’s see how it goes)

[salvinalis]

Updates! Came out to my parents and should (hopefully) be in T within the next 3 months if all goes well (don’t question my methods-

[salvinalis]

4 months later, officially here!

Start date, Friday 13th

[salvinalis]

Let play a little game called can I somehow get testosterone by the end of the year

(Considering I’m not even out to my parents yet let’s see how it goes)

[salvinalis]

Updates! Came out to my parents and should (hopefully) be in T within the next 3 months if all goes well (don’t question my methods-

[salvinalis]

Some quotes from my dad when I told him I’m trans

“I know.”

“Is this a gay thing?”

“Does this mean you’re going to steal my razor?”

“Will you get more facial hair than me?”

All in all? Went well.

[salvinalis]

When the adhd decides it’s time to try and get fit, so you hyper fixate on working out, burn yourself on the first day then don’t work out for the next 7 months

It’s a viscous cycle

[salvinalis]

Someone tell me how my 4 year old sister can tell I’m a boy

My 9yr old sisters friend who’s spoken to me like 3 times can tell I’m a boy

But my own parents can’t seem to clock it even though I’ve dropped basically every hint in the book outside of just telling them.

[salvinalis]

Let play a little game called can I somehow get testosterone by the end of the year

(Considering I’m not even out to my parents yet let’s see how it goes)

[salvinalis]

(Don’t mind me marauders hyperfixation is hitting hard)

Okay okay okay

I have search far and wide on the internet and I have only found 1 tumblr post about it

Are you satisfied? By MARINA is so Sirius and regulus black coded I don’t think you understand

If I had drawing ability I’d make a whole animation to it

Sadly I don’t

And I’m too broke to pay anyone

But I will be reblogging with the lyrics so others can see my vision

Oh and

Family jewels is Sirius (everyone knew this)

Oh No! Is regulus

The outsider could be either of them depending on how you characterise them

Thank you for coming to my ted talk

[salvinalis]

Feel free to ignore this, it’s been stuck in my head for months

Tw, this song references su!cide, and sh behaviour (let me know if I missed any)

Sirius is red, regulus is green, Walpurga is purple

[sirius, after being sorted into Gryffindor]

I was pulling out my hair, the day they cut the deal, chemically calm.

Was I meant to feel happy that my life, was just about to change?

[sirius, making a reputation in Gryffindor]

One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream.

Oh everybody says “Marina is a dreamer”

[sirius, recalling Walpurgas words]

People like to tell you what you’re gonna be

It’s not my problem if you don’t see what I see

I don’t give a damn if you don’t believe

[regulus, being made to be the perfect son]

My problem, it’s my problem that I never am happy

It’s my problem, it’s my problem on how fast I will succeed

[walpurga, ‘teaching’ them]

Are you satisfied, with an average life?

Do I need to lie

To make my way in life

[regulus, at hogwarts]

High achiever don’t you see? Baby nothing comes for free

They say I’m a control freak driven by a greed to succeed

Nobody can stop me

[after sirius runs away, arguing ]

Cause it’s my problem if I want to pack up and run away

It’s my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway

It’s my problem, it’s my problem if i feel the need to hide

And it’s my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die

Are you satisfied with an average life?

Do I need to lie, to make my way in life?

Are you satisfied with an easy ride?

Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied?

[sirius, at the potters, hoping regulus will join him]

Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied prayin’

[regulus, in Grimmauld place, missing his brother]

Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, waitin’

[both recalling the argument that split them]

Are you satisfied with an average life?

Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

Are you satisfied with an easy ride?

Once you cross the line will you be satisfied?

[sirius joining the order, regulus getting the dark mark]

Black

White

(Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?)

[sirius going to Azkaban for murder, regulus sacrificing his life for the horcrux]

Black

White

(Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?

[sirius dying to protect harry, regulus being knows as a death eater]

Black

White

(Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?)

[both reuniting after death, they’re both blacks, but fought for the same cause]

Black

White

(Are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?)

[salvinalis]

(Don’t mind me marauders hyperfixation is hitting hard)

Okay okay okay

I have search far and wide on the internet and I have only found 1 tumblr post about it

Are you satisfied? By MARINA is so Sirius and regulus black coded I don’t think you understand

If I had drawing ability I’d make a whole animation to it

Sadly I don’t

And I’m too broke to pay anyone

But I will be reblogging with the lyrics so others can see my vision

Oh and

Family jewels is Sirius (everyone knew this)

Oh No! Is regulus

The outsider could be either of them depending on how you characterise them

Thank you for coming to my ted talk

[salvinalis]

Is this another trans post cuz I’m spiralling? Maybe. Anyway pick a guy in my DMs. (I’m ftm btw incase anyone sees this who doesn’t follow me)

Guy A: sent me a dick pic in 5 days of talking, used feminine terms to describe my body off the bat, said he’s only ever been with women, but that he’s secretly bi and that im ‘a good experimentation’, didn’t know how to talk to me outside of sex talk and when in was depressed on shark week he blanked me for days then complained when I didn’t message him, love bombed me after 2 weeks. But he did only ever refer to me with masculine terms, and he wanted me to top 24/7 so ig a win for the trans? No fetishised porn.

Guy B: sends me good morning messages, only sent a dick pic after 2 months of talking and making sure that I wanted it, uses neutral terms for my body until I establish things first, on shark week he comforted me through melt downs and came up with stuff for me to focus on (fantasy’s that involved, chocolate, fluffy blankets, cuddles and comfort shows) he’s openly bi, we share the same interests and while he’s a little confused at times he respects my boundaries. But he gives me the ick on occasions (he thinks water is poisoning us?! He purposefully does cleaning shittily so others will do it for him?!)

Anyway, pick a guy!

Guy A

Guy B

Voting ended onJul 12, 2024

[salvinalis]

When you pe

[salvinalis]

When your family have decided you’re either trans or a lesbian

And keep picking the wrong option

[4bsorb]

[youre-in-my-veins-you-fuk]

You never know if someone needs this. Reblog this, even if its not your ‘blog type’. Just do it.

[fuckyeahknbsnkygofree-yaoi-deac]

Yes, please reblog

[dendenmusume]

Do it. Now.

[alienpal]

i sat here and thought about reblogging this or not but then i realized how many people feel suicidal, and i  have too its not dan and phil but i could honestly care less, bc i rather have someone not die then make sure i strictly stay to my ‘blog type’ 

[lauriehalseanderson]

Blog type doesn’t matter. Caring for people does.

[typewrxter]

This isn’t my blog type but *deep inhale* 

SAVING SUICIDAL LIVES IS BETTER THAN KEEPING IT TO MY BLOG THEME SO DEAR YA’LL WHO ARE SUICIDAL I’M HERE SIS/BRO/SIBLING!! STAY STRONG!!

[the-sinkmire-symphony]

Fine I promise.

[theninjabozo]

This could save people!!

[finchthemockingbird-deactivated]

Read and reblog this, regardless of anything.

[ballofstress9]

Always reblog when you see posts like this!!!

[import--math--geek--math-rand]

@faulty-radio

[faulty-radio]

damn not this post again

i really wanted to

[beans-in-your-socks]

stay safe everyone, we’re proud of you, you can do it, keep going 💕

[wizardly-weirdo]

Love you all, stay safe

[maximum-tragedy-deactivated2024]

There are people out there that care about you

[incognitostunner]

Pinky promise

[the-real-starbucks]

pRoMiSe

[weirdnessdept-deactivated202407]

okay i promise

[salvinalis]

I love you, stay safe xoxo

[oh-munda-kukkad-kamaal-da]

Reblog if its ok to spam you with boops

[nick-nonya]

(you need to view the image or you'll just like the post)

Since people liked it i made a toy that works on the computer: https://nick-nonya.itch.io/trampoline-toy Have fun!

[salvinalis]

Is this another trans rant? Yes.

Do I care? No.

BASICALLY

Im so pissed off. I could be such a whore. The power I could have.

Ya know those guys? With the tattoos? And the mesh shirts? And long hair? And rings? And piercings? Who look so god damn feminine and they look like such whores and it’s like. I want that. I want the lace corsets, and the slutty waist, and the long hair, and the jewellery, and the make up, and the heels, and the nail varnish and fucking smirk they get cuz they know they’re hot af.

I want that. So bad.

But I can’t.

Cuz if I do? I’m a girl. People will see me as one, people will mistake me as one, people will use it as an excuse to invalidate my gender. All cuz I want to be a pretty man whore.

It just sucks cuz even when I do dress hyper masculine people still see me as a girl. Cuz of the voice. The hips. The chest. I can’t escape it.

I just want to be able to express myself how I want and have people accept me and understand.

It’s funny.

I’ll have these melt down. Have the vents and the rants but then I’ll question if I’m acctually trans or if I’m just delusional or faking it or whatever.

I don’t know

Im tired

I just wanna be pretty

I just wanna be a guy