I’m feeling kind of terribly. I feel like being involved in fandom is making me into a more negative person, either by constantly seeing negativity or participating in it. And I don’t want to participate in it. I just want to stick to my fluff and who I know I am to be, which is not someone in such a constantly depressed state. I’ve dealt with major depression for most of my life, but it started to get a bit better when I began writing about tiny dragon Tony, and now I feel I am constantly depressed again due to negativity within some fandom spaces. I don’t meant to say that as if every interaction I’ve had has been negative, because that isn’t the case at all. I’ve made good friends in these spaces! I’m just in the wrong mental place to be slogging thru day to day or fandom drama when I very much joined these places to escape to drive and droll of such things.