let it ache

🍃 🌲 🐮 nanna, danish, 30s, they/them 🐮 🍂 🌳

[beesmygod]

What are some smart sounding things you can say out loud while reading a book in public

a dry chuckle and a "how droll" is a classic. shows youre above the material but recognize its attempts to amuse you

[flayboymagazine]

they’ve always got Alicent Hightower in a situation that you would see in the plot of a mobile game advertisement

[sporeblossom]

my new bedsheets arrived but they're just not giving in the way that i hoped :(

[emziess]

Pingu S01E03

[tomb-mold]

are shows and movies allowed to be subtle and ambiguous anymore..... is that still allowed or does everything have to be a patronizing hand holding session. just wondering

[tordenvejr]

whatever you do on summer nights do not think about how everything is fleeting

[dragongirlsnout]

a girl at the club spiked my drink with jasmine and a wave of tranquility washed over me

[nae-nae-supreme]

They're feeding us Tuesday poison today. Watch out

[mummer]

they thought it would be okay for ormund to be homophobically murdered and called a child molestor because he was homophobic to gwayne and called him a child molestor. while being a gay child molestor. And it’s like i guess i see their reasoning but im not sure homophobic murder karma really works like that

[meelie98]

ruben needs to feel needed and like a provider because it lets him understand himself it lets him know his place in the world and most importantly it's what allows him to feel masculine and whole

but the person who needs him most the only one subservient and adoring and frankly weak and vulnerable enough to fill that void in him is niall.

and it is not really in the normative frames of masculinity to have that sort of violent possessive and psychosexual fixation on a younger man and that just makes ruben more violent and cruel and dismissive because he thinks if he dominates niall enough if he puts him into these specific boxes (his stupid little brother, his social and sexual inferior, his literal houseservant) it will hide the implications of his fixation and need to help niall but ultimately doing all these things just reveals how odd it is. if he really didn't care why on earth finance niall's life, why take so much pleasure in niall's helplessness - as a way to exert control, yes, but also a way to nurture reliance.

ruben's masculinity, his sense of self, is just as reliant on niall as niall's is reliant on ruben. that's why he's so angry when niall goes off to university, where ruben's lack of academic success, his misogyny, his violent tendencies, and his general working class demeanor make him reliant on niall for access to spaces. it's why he's so resentful and enraged that the one time HE desperately needed niall - during his trial - niall 'betrayed' him. it's why he's so angry when niall tells him he is having a child, a step towards a life without ruben in a patriarchal mould ruben cannot emulate due to his infertility. throughout the whole show, even through his relationship with ava, ruben suspects (read: knows) niall is gay. its fine he's with ava because it's a sham relationship and niall is still financially and psychologically reliant on ruben. it's obvious why he's so angry about niall's sleeping with mona - it's a complete and total betrayal from the people he imagines as needing him most. and it's why he kills niall on his wedding day, when niall's close to finding fulfillment and stability completely apart from ruben.

that's the paradox of ruben as a character - he's a symbol of toxic, masculinist, heterosexual hegemony yet his manhood is totally reliant on an effeminate and waifish boy that's in love with him. niall is the only one pathetically dependent enough to properly fill up ruben's 'needed' barometer, to make him feel like a man. but that's not very masculine at all.

it's the only thing I've ever felt. it's like a chemical dependence.

[nicoleanell]

the tags though

[sporeblossom]

i will forever remember the hightowercest summer we all shared together<3

[samlickereightyone]

i love when a man is fresh of getting his ass beat. it’s like a pregnancy glow

[wordfather]

[daemonwaters]

Jaime's dream threesome is with...

Catelyn and Brienne

Rhaegar and Arthur Dayne

Ned and the Blackfish

Some other combo

Remaining time: 4 days 5 hours

[sporeblossom]

also not that i want helaena to suffer MORE but it made very little sense for her to kill herself and leave her daughter behind without an event to really push her there. i mean they've shown how important jahaera is to her the whole season and then she didn't mention her at all this ep before she killed herself lol 👍

[qhorinhalfhand]

we haven’t gotten a death that homophobic since they called loras a pillow biter and then blew him up

[alysmond]

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON | Season 3, Episode 8