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[therealsalmanella]

CAN I marry you PLEASE

“ Err... I dont knoz. If j00 want and promize to take care of me. ”

[torturedconscious]

7/14/2026 at 1:30 AM - diary entry #3

current main fronters: luffy and sabo

today was much better than yesterday! we spent a couple hours on call with our partner, watched some memes, and have been playing roblox all day. we did some work for our blogs as well. i (luffy) don't have much to report or talk about honestly! as soon as we're done writing this out we're going to take our melatonin. hopefully gonna get to see my brother soon!! for now i'm currently just reading fanfic and probably will until we go to bed :3 i (sabo) am a newer split, and i hope that me, ace, and luffy can help get this system back on track in one way or another when it comes to recovery. i hope to help enforce us to take our medications properly and continue trying to form a proper routine, as advised to us in therapy. :)

[hopemogai]

reason to live #23: because your life has value

[hopemogai]

even doing small favors such as opening the door for someone can lighten a person's entire day. you never know what a stranger is going through, so it's good to try and be respectful. it's good to do good things for other people, even if it's something small. small favors are still appreciated by many. translating your negative feelings into something positive, such as spreading kindness, is a great coping skill.

[torturedconscious]

7/12/2026 at 11:45 PM - diary entry #2

current main fronters: corazon... and whoever else

feel like shit. today has just kind of been a blur. at this point it's just a game of trying not to kill myself. got close to trying. realistically i should go to the hospital but we can't fucking afford that shit and it's not like they're going to do much to help anyways. i have to help myself. but i get so depressed i give up and just fucking can't i hate summer. i probably just feel like this because it's summer. not that it stops me or helps me in any way to know that but whatever. i'm tired of everything and i just want to die. i can't handle being in this world. i don't feel like we were made for this place. we never fit in anywhere. we don't belong anywhere. the world is evil and cruel and unjust and i don't know how to be happy and i don't want to live here anymore. i'm tired. i feel so bad. and guilty. im supposed to be better than this. i'm supposed to be the one helping us. i'm supposed to be happy and loving and caring and everything great in the world. but my mind can't help but wonder if killing us would be a mercy. we weren't even supposed to live. not this long. we weren't supposed to be born viable with life. and i think some part of us still isn't i wish i had an explanation for why i'm like this. but whatever. just have to try to make tomorrow a better day. life is one big pile of fucking cope. all you can do is cope. all you can do is hope and pray when all things are said and done, that the next reality will be nicer than this one. for now you can try to believe in god but you know that, just like your parents, he doesn't believe in you. im a husk of a person, nobody knows my name, nobody cares about me, one day i'll be nothing but a memory, and later a speck of dust, and later, nothing. nothing matters and we're all gonna die and this reality is so impossibly cruel that i can't stay here. all i can do is hang on to this intangible light at the end of the tunnel. a light that doesnt exist but i have to fool myself into thinking it does. recovery is a lot like finding religion. whatever

[hopemogai]

reason to live #22: because the world is more beautiful with you in it

[hopesmeadow]

while i am still going to keep discourse off of this blog, i'm also going to start adding a "radqueers will be reported on sight" banner or something to my posts because i'm honestly getting tired of radqueers interacting with this blog.

respectfully, this blog is not for radqueers. i do not want this blog associated with a community that openly accepts sexual abusers and the rhetoric that leads to sexual abuse. that is not what this blog stands for and it never will.

this is all i'm going to say on the matter.

[hopesmeadow]

today's paraphilia of the day is: exhibitionism! (#17)

exhibitionism is defined as the sexual attraction to exposing one's intimate parts in a public or semi-public environment.

having sex in public spaces or enjoying being watched during intimate moments may also fall under exhibitionism.

flags below were created to be used by anti-contact chronoadults.

flag meanings...

DARK GREY: exposure GREY: being watched LIGHT GREY: pro-consent BLACK: intimacy DIPHYLLEIA: clarity, honesty BIOHAZARD HEART: personal paraphilia symbol

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