I’m glad I had this surgery. God knows it’s been painful and difficult but honestly it’s been a great thing for my health and for my marriage, actually too. My low self esteem has negatively affected Steven and I’s relationship in the past, but since I have changed my lifestyle I have been a lot happier and a lot more confident, which is having a positive affect on him as well. I haven’t ever for a moment doubted that my husband loves me, not from the day we said I do, but as I’m getting stronger and my self esteem rises, he is becoming much more affectionate physically and I mean… God, that means everything to me. I guess it is easier to love someone when they love themselves too. I’m very grateful for him and for his love and support. Idk if I’d have had the strength to change otherwise. I want to lose this weight and make this change for me and for him, too. I was unhappy for a long, long time and it was my own fault and that misery bled into our marriage unintentionally. I have a long way to go, but I’m getting there. I’m just really happy. I brag on Steven a lot bc he truly is a miracle in my life but sometimes like now when I have the luxury of time to rest and heal and think, I really ponder how much I adore him. I’m so fortunate for him and for my family, despite their dysfunction, bc they proved they care these last few weeks. I’m so overwhelmed by everyone’s support and encouragement. My life rocks, you guys. I’m finally excited to wake up in the morning. That shit’s intoxicating.