#faetality.disability

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wishing all SEAsian, EAsian, SAsian, WAsian, Pacific Islander, Latine, First Nations & Black neurodivergent folks a very comfortable, productive and appropriately-stimulating day.

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        𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔠𝔥 𝔤𝔬𝔡𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔰                🏮                𝔟𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔫𝔠𝔢

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Fair Warning : Get your rabies shot before you contact me. Do not republish or share my personal media. Blog contains mild NSFW, sex & kink positivity & uncensored heavy political rants INCL. media criticism, academic racism, race- & gender-based C/SA, massacres & state violence. Centering Asian and Austronesian sapphics. NO FLIRTING.

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#faetality.intro — all introductory posts as tagged.

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             𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔫, 𝔯𝔬𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔫           🏮           𝔦 𝔞𝔪 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔪𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥

‘00 SEAsian Diasporic Malacca Straits Chinese-Austronesian 1st-gen immigrant on unceded First Nations Aboriginal lands. s/He. aplatoaroacespec sapphic & achillean. XIÁ 侠 Knight-Errant. HIGH FEMME. tomboy femme. Masculine-of-Center (MoC) and Feminine-of-Center (FoC). transneutral. gender & sexually fluid. gender anarchist. LesBI. AuDHD. psych major. professional ragebaiter. sweetbitter. mindfucker. demonfucker. knifethrower. intermediate rigger. sadomaschochist. Dom-lean Switch, Bottom-lean Verse. Yang Spirit, Yin Body. Yang Will, Yin Heart. Year of the Metal Dragon 金龙. ♐︎ Hunter Sun, ♉︎ Stubborn Sensualist Moon, ♈︎ Riot Rising, Vigilante Mars Chart Ruler Ω︭ ♂, Dominants ; Jupiter ♐︎ + Saturn ♒︎. Pragmatic Lover ♑︎♀, Sexual & Sociopolitical Freakologist ♒︎⚸. ENTP VLEF ILE 3w4 371 so/sp. Political theorist. philomath. avid consumer, novella RPer & writer of angst hurt/no comfort, theology, mythology, fantasy, sci-fi, psych, horror & crime thrillers. volatile. vile villainess. scathingly hypo/critical. leather, silk & lace. hellion, horror. cannibalistic symbolism. venomous diatribes. religiously destructive. eternally damned & more ➣

Anger awakens. Anger is real. Anger is something they made forbidden for all of us to reach in different ways, even the “angry” ones. Too angry and fearsome to honor your own anger. Too delicate to honor your own anger. Too much of the adult to honor your own anger. Too much like a child to honor your own anger. But It’s Yours. It’s yours, it’s yours.

    𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱 𝔭𝔬𝔦𝔰𝔬𝔫                     🏮                    𝔱𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔰𝔢

MUSIC. TASTE

( reworking section )

流行 LiuXing, Ballad-Pop, Mandopop, C-Pop: 周興哲 Zhou XingZhe/Eric Chou • 隔壁老樊 Ge Bi Lao Fan • 李荣浩 Li RongHao • 周杰倫 Chou JieLun/Jay Chou • JJ Lin • 蔡蔡子 Tasia • 高旭 • 田馥甄 Tian FuZhen/Hebe Tien • 苡慧 yihuik • 王靖雯 Wang JiWen • 董唧唧 • 王力宏 Wang Leehom • 陶喆 David Tao • 吴克群 Kenji Wu • S.H.E • 王翊恩 “en” Wang YiEn • Tay Kewei • 杨胖雨 • Kaho Hung • Evangeline Wong 王艷薇 • 胡66 • 陈粒 Chen Li • 卓文萱 • LBI 利比 • DIOR大穎 • 薛之謙 • 派偉俊 Patrick Brasca • Tr33 • BK/Bill Kang • 雪二 Xue Er • 蓝心羽 • 不是花火呀 • Zkaaai • Joysaaaa • 我是土豆 • 颜人中 • 杜宣达 • 鄭潤澤 • 张紫豪 Zhang Zihao • 周星星 • Bomb比爾 • 吳卓源 Julia Wu • 呆呆破 • step.jad • aMEI

Sino Hip-Hop & Melodic Rap: PPlin 林芃逸 • 齊翔 XIANG • YANGCh!ll • 刘柏辛 Lexie Liu • 马也 Crabbit • Lil RAD • COY6OI • JaS52 • Ensie • Seluu • 林達浪 Lin DaLang • 王子明 Wang Zi Ming • Lizi 栗子 • 寒冰 Ice • JERRYZ • 永彬 Ryan.B • Lambert凌 • Tyson Yoshi • WYAN 王毓千 • 高爾宣OSN • 制造热搜 • XMASwu 吴骜

Sino Emo & Pop-Rock: 陳奕迅 Eason Chan • Mayday 五月天 • 庄淇玟 Zhuang QiWen 29 • 八三天 831 • Lil Ghost 小鬼 • Silence Wang 汪苏泷 • Kaizly • Kuo.ZT • 韋德 WADE

Sino R&B: Zou PeiPei 邹沛沛 • 深水29 • Aioz • 果妹 GuoMei • GrayGray灰灰 • JuggShots 袁生钰 • karencici • Gareth.T • 任然-Ren Ran • YangYang • LOFTHESTAR 刘思达 • Yu JiaYun 余佳運 • Khalil Fong • 加木 • 梓渝 Zi Yu • Ice Paper • 蒋小呢 Jia XiaoNe • 梁根荣 Gen Neo

Sino Shanghai Jazz, Retro Pop & City-Pop: 布鲁昔 BlueC • J.Sheon • Shanghai Restoration Project

Chinese Lofi, Ambient & Indie Pop: Haze哈泽 • Cole 先生 • Pank • 小包 Zerinn • bbbluelee • 芊芊龍 QianQianLong • Howard Lee • Jeffrey 董又霖

Chinese 民谣 Minyao: 毛不易 Mao Buyi • 李健 LiJian • 伦桑 • Winky诗 • 宋冬野 Dongye Song • 房東的貓

Chinese 古风 GuFeng / 仙侠 XianXia: 黄诗扶 Huang Shifu • 银临 YinLin • 董真 DongZhen • 音频怪物 YinPinGuaiWu • 司夏 Si Xia • 王敬轩 Wang JingXuan • 张紫宁 Zhang ZiNing • 李鑫一 Lin XinYi/Rex • 鞠婧祎 • 等什么君 • 云の泣 • 清水er • 李袁杰 • 阿 YueYue • 排骨教主 • 叶里 • 小时姑娘 • HITA

Goth, Dark Pop & Darkwave: She Wants Revenge • Lebanon Hanover • Mr. Kitty • Mareaux • Social Order • Nyxjvh • Astrophysics • Jah PHNX • Witchz • Depeche Mode • Twin Tribes • Joy Division • London After Midnight • Johnny Goth • Kwasi Kai • Artemas • Isabel LaRosa • yeule • Korine • She Past Away • Baby Storme • Vestron Vulture • MGMT • REDCHINAWAVE • The Bravery • Interpol • Ashley Sienna • Witchz • Goldfrapp • UNKLE • The Masqs • The Cure • Violent Femmes • MOTHICA • Pale Waves • Sinnerella • The Violent Youth • Asal • Ari Abdul • Dionnysuss • Royal & The Serpent • Elita • Night Club • ULTRA SUNN • Blind Seagull • French Police • cutouts • phyllzx • Cult of Venus • Vlad Holiday

Pop & Rock: Glass Animals • Peach PRC • ADÉLA • FEYI • NIKI • COBRAH • Ashnikko • bludnymph • Doja Cat • PVRIS • DPR IAN • Ayesha Erotica • Kim Petras • Nessa Barrett • Dutch Melrose • Olivia Rodrigo • Dove Cameron • BENEE • XTINA GG • Honey Revenge • CHAII • The 1975 • SNOW WIFE • Cassyette • Chandler Leighton • tiffi • MAY-A • arya x • FINNEAS • Imagine Dragons • Fall Out Boys • Nasty Cherry • MNEK • A.i.Jones (Adrian McKinnon)

Alt Rock, Indie Rock: Sons of Silver • Nine Inch Nails • New Order • U2 • AC/DC • Beth McCarthy • Saint Motel • Woodkid • Crystal Castles • Arctic Monkeys • Gorillaz • Empire of the Sun • Charlotte Sands • emlyn • Lauren Sanderson • The Aces • ZELA • KiNG MALA • NO CIGAR • The Warning • The Wombats • The Cab • The Bleachers • The Killers • RIELL

Baroque Pop: Hozier • Florence + The Machine • The Last Dinner Party • Son Lux • Missio • Woodkid • Cosmo Sheldrake • Erin Lecount

Southern Rock: Alabama Shakes • ZZ Ward • Stela Cole • Fleetwood Mac • Noah Cyrus

Alt-Indie, R&B, Soul: Blackstreet • Leon Bridges • Sade • Gigi Perez • Chance Peña • Leonard Cohen • sombr • Japanese Breakfast • Ogi • The Cab • RINI • JADE • Millie Turner • Griff • Spacey Jane • Coldplay • thuy • Stan Walker • SZA • H.E.R • Khalid • Daniel Caesar • Frank Ocean • Rachel Chinouriri • Lyn Lapid • The Beaches • The Velvet Underground • Blondshell • King Princess • SEB • RAYE • The Regrettes • Teddy Swims • Ella Mai • Chloe × Halle • Miguel • JYYN • Pink $weats • BaggE

Hip-Hop & Boom Bap Rap: Wutang Clan • Jeru The Damaja • Metro Boomin • Blackway

Afrohouse & Afrobeats: 0.griot • Tems • Dave

Psychedelic, Surf, Hazy, Downtempo, Ethereal: Nusantara Beat • Jungle By Night • Cocteau Twins • Sabrina Claudio • Alina Baraz • Frank Ocean • Esha Tewari • ARK IDENTITY • Alan Chang • Saint Avengeline

Electronic: Son Lux • Missio • M83 • COBRAH

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Essays on Intersectional Disabilities & Neurodivergence

Mental Health & Suicide “Jokes” as a QTBIPOC Immigrant | Part 2 of this drama | The drama continues…

“Passing” as a disabled person

Whiteness is the standard coefficient for privilege

Housing, Disability & Multiculturalism

Autism & “Making it about me”. Marginalisation as contextual.

[Repost] cakesexuality—Disability Tips

[Repost] hi-fi-planetoid—Intersection of Disability, BIPOC & Masculinity

[Repost] noodle-shenaniganery—“What if you can’t get support” Gotchas

[Repost] Bluespringrights—Your disability will continue to disable you

[Repost] terraswallows—Shoutout to autistic & disabled lesbians

[Repost] www—Shoutout to Disabled Butches

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It is everyone’s responsibility NOT to glorify or over-positivitise “idols” at the expense of invisibilising their harms to others.

But it does suck that the process by default means that marginalised people have to be the ones who SEE these injustices, SPEAK of it, AND defend our “gritty” realities in isolation.

Meanwhile, those with relative privilege want to be an avoidant escapist who sees one problem but not the other and they still get to be the “shiny-eyed idealist”.

Being marginalised ≠ we are all emo, it’s that some have the privilege in the first place to “see the good in the world” because they are blind to the bad. Often through wilful ignorance. Frankly I don’t respect naïveté and I don’t find it cute either.

Many marginalised peoples can try to stay blind but it’ll inevitably bite them in their ass, and so we do not have the privilege to do that even if we wanted to. What we end up with is being branded as too negative, contrarian, being unnecessarily loud, depressing and abrasive.

Those who are “shiny-eyed idealists” while confronting many/all intersections, are radically idealist. Because the world wasn’t designed for them, idealism was intended to be out of their reach, but they see the shithole and this is their strategy to fight it. To add: Idealism doesn’t have to come with positivity and pleasantries.

With this said, I refuse to play the “real strength is being kind/happy even when you’re hurting” shit, that has been used to police others and pressure labour from us to fit “victim tropes” that we aren’t predisposed to. [as well as promote docility, suppressing trauma and mental health disorders derived from systemic oppression, and to not bite the hand that beats].

“Real strength” isn’t measurable by facing things beyond our control and it isn’t measurable by one way of being, so sue me for opposing the martyr complexes so many have around strength that they picked up from their Western “heroisms” and their marianismo ideals. It is in the balance of autonomy and choice, without safety being at the material expense of others.

People who do decolonial work even when they can’t be “nice and kind”, are not any less nor more valuable, worthy and strong. These are the peoples I respect.

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Fascinating. I didn’t realise “neurodivergent” was synonymous with “whiteness”.

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#faetality.intro                       — all my intro blogs.

#faetality.reflections           — essays and analysis.

#faetality.theorycrafting 🪢 — messy workshop of theories.

#faetality.glossary 🔖 — terms i use. some i coined.

#faetality.femme                  — femme & femininity posts

#faetality.moc                       — trans/masculine of center posts

#faetality.trans                      — trans & gnc posts

#faetality.bipoc                     — multicultural, decolonise, anti-racism

#faetality.asian                     — asian rep, queer and more!

#faetality.sinophobiaorientalism  — Sinophobia & Orientalism

#faetality.swr                        — QTBIPOC SW rights

#faetality.immigrant             — immigrant rights & xenophobia

#faetality.auspol                  — Australian Politics

#faetality.queer                    — critical queer theory posts

#faetality.intersectionality — intersectionality posts

#faetality.aroace                   — aroace and amatonormativity

#faetality.disability — disability, neurodivergence & mental health

#faetality.knightposting   — knightposting

#faetality.write                      — roleplay & writing

#faetality.art                          — i make art

#faetality.bites                      — personals & prose

#faetality.spits                      — shitposting, rants & drama

#faetality.cam                     — personal media.

#faetality.qna                      — SFW asks & anons

#faetality.affirmations        — comfort & strength

#faetality.reads                    — books and quotes

#faetality.spirituality           — occult, spirituality, psychoanalysis

#faetality.love                        — investigating romance & love

#faetality.perv                       — BEING A PERVERT ONLINE 💋

Back to pinned.

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My brain is so low on dopamine.

It’s so crazy that I am actually conscious of it because I was chasing. Things (the usual). Typically this starts around the time my schedule fills up and I use up so much of my spoons on the average day. And then it kickstarts really frustrating long bouts of harmful coping mechanisms.

And I just realised—alright, no this is a response to the lows of today, which were especially hard to get over because I wasn’t taking care of my bodily needs as much + hormone things.

That’s okay baby, we can have a good day tomorrow.

And so now my “aims” for dopamine is shifted to tomorrow. YAY. Genuinely joy for coping better.