Diamond & Regrets
“Sometimes people leave before we’re done needing them.”
Humiliation is what you’ve experience… You had two options either fight through it or let it go and start over. You did what you thought was best and decided to start over… You were tired of looking like the bad guy because of the decisions you make. For once everything was working in your favor until the past comes back and bit you in the ass. Is there anyway you can ever move on or is there a reason behind this?
*Trying something new and adding gifs throughout the story*
Previous story: Just For A Little Bit (M) Part 1
Previous Chapter: Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4
Part 5
MASTERLIST
Your Point of View
To be honest you weren't sure whether telling Jiyong that you spent time with Mino today was important... You two don't hold secrets, but you were afraid that if you were to briefly mention this minor detail it will blow out of proportion.
You looked at him and debated with yourself...
Maybe it's best if you do mention it regardless if it's a big deal or not. It's better if he hears it come out of your mouth than someone else.
"What did you do today?" You asked as Jiyong continued to drive looking directly at the road.
"I have been running back and forth with meetings, I was getting ready to run out of there." Jiyong has been telling you about his intention of possibly coming out with a new solo album but he's still in the process of putting everything together before doing so.
"Have you started to work on any new songs," you ask him. He glanced over at you and smiled.
"Of course, I have 2 new songs written already,"
"When will I be able to hear them," you ask, and he just smiles.
"Soon... Maybe."
you glanced over and noticed the small notebook he keeps for his song lyrics sitting there in front of you. Even though you were beyond curious to see what he's been working on, you were going to wait until he showed you the final product.
"How about you? How was your day? Tell me all about it," there was no way you couldn't mention Mino as part of your day... After all, you did spend time with him.
The last thing you wanted was for him to find out about this information from anyone else.
"Well, I was taking advantage today and used my time to shop. However, I couldn't get much shopping done because before I knew it, I suddenly bumped into Jihoon and Mino, and they asked if I wanted to go out and eat with them. I couldn't be rude, so I went out to eat with them, we went to the bar for a little but now here I am," you said as you stretched over to hold his hand.
He glanced over at you and nodded his head.
"Well, I'm glad that there isn't going to be any awkward tension if I take you to more parties," Jiyong says and you just nod your head.
To be honest this wasn't the reaction you were expecting to come out of Jiyong. For some odd reason, you were kind of hoping he would have been bothered at least a little by the idea of Mino and you hanging out...
The only reason you wished he would have shown a little more of a reaction is because you wanted that reassurance that he likes you... But you know what, maybe it's better he doesn't show that he's bothered. He must trust you and that's all that matters.
"Well, you already know my views on parties," you reminded Jiyong and he smiled.
"I'll change your mind eventually,"
"We will see about that," you said smiling and he smiled in return.
Maybe Jiyong being unbothered about the situation is for the best? Did you want a jealous boyfriend again? Look what happened between Mino and you...
After comforting yourself you suddenly felt relieved that this relationship was different.
-
After being out the whole day, you were finally back at home. As you walked over to your bedroom, you dropped off your keys on your nightstand. As you were about to remove your coat, you stopped and looked over at the collection of vinyl.
It's weird...
Before you even went to that party, these vinyl’s did not affect you. To be honest you had forgotten that vinyl’s were something Mino and you used to share. But after seeing him buy more... The memory of the two of you going shopping for vinyl began to appear in your head. How the two of you would play your favorite album, lay in bed and talk, laugh, and absorb the music that was playing in the background.
You weren't necessarily missing Mino, but the memories the two of you hold were suddenly revisiting your mind. It's inevitable to prevent yourself from being some type of way.
All that's in the past, it doesn't matter anymore. You were in a whole new relationship... At least you think it's a relationship. Jiyong hasn't technically asked you to be his girlfriend officially...
You shook your head and ignored your thoughts.
You looked at yourself in the mirror and touched your cheek. Instead of overthinking like you usually do, you should probably relax, have a self-care day, and mask it... Yeah, that sounds like a great idea.
-
One thing about you is if you miss breakfast, and you remain the rest of the day hungry, you happen to be one of the crankiest people on this planet. If you don't eat you catch yourself getting ready to fight everyone and everything.
Even though you were running late to head to your office, you didn't care. Right now, the only thing you were worried about is making sure you got your morning coffee and some kind of bagel, a sandwich... SOMETHING.
You walked into your favorite coffee shop and luckily since you have become a regular, one of the workers took one look at you and started to prepare your usual order.
At this point, they should just have your picture on the wall.
You felt your phone vibrate. You pull out your phone from your pocket and there you see your assistant already calling.
Should you pick up the phone? Maybe it's something important?
Just as you were about to answer, you don't know what made you look around the cafe but when you did, you took one look to your right, and you spotted a familiar face.
Maybe if you look away you won't get noticed...
Nope...
You were spotted.
It was Jinhwan. You have no problem with him whatsoever. You just didn't know what to expect anytime you encountered him and that was the only thing that had you worried.
As you tried looking away, from the corner of your eye you noticed him approaching you. You decided to completely ignore your phone call and wait till Jinhwan approached you.
As he caught up, you looked over at him and smiled.
“Hey,”
“I knew it was you. I wasn’t sure for a second” Jinhwan says as he caught up and you smiled.
“I thought the same thing when I saw you.” Lies, you knew it was him.
“Well, I’m glad I ran into you. I wanted to ask you something” You were slightly scared of what his question was going to be, but you nodded your head.
“What’s up?”
He looked over at you and smiled.
"Well, I know this is probably weird for me to ask out of the blue especially since we haven't had an opportunity to catch up... But I am having a birthday party tomorrow night in Octagon. I was going to invite Jiyong but now that you're here I was hoping you can let him know and the both of you come along."
You already weren't much of a party person... But you felt bad to decline such an offer.
"Sounds like a good time... I'll let Jiyong know." Jinhwan smiled.
"Perfect. I hope to see the two of you there," you nodded your head and both exchanged goodbye with one another.
It's amazing how the world works... You went from going MIA to everyone in YG after breaking up with Mino and didn't come across a single soul until you started to date someone else from YG again...
Now you see them left and right... And see them anywhere you go.
-
After the day you had, you came straight home and didn't hesitate to get comfortable quick. You grabbed a pair of sweats, a T-shirt, and your slippers. You threw your hair in a bun and sat down on the couch ready to watch a movie until you decided to go to sleep.
Just as you were slowly dozing off the movie you felt your phone vibrate right next to you. As you grabbed a hold of your phone, without looking you answered the phone.
“Hello,” you mumbled into the phone.
“Did I wake you up beautiful?” You hear Jiyong's voice on the other side of the phone.
“No, I was still awake,” you sat up and decided to wake yourself up.
“Babe,” you know he had something to tell you.
“Yes? What’s up?”
“I have to head over to Tokyo for a photo shoot,” well that’s great. You were planning to ask him about Jinhwan's party but now that he can’t seem to make it… what was the point of telling him?
“That’s short notice,” but you weren’t surprised. Jiyong always had events that would occur at the last minute because of his job.
“I know, they told me I have to catch a flight tonight.”
“How long will you be gone?” You asked him and he sighed.
“I think they said a week,” he was going to leave you for a whole week… wonderful.
You weren’t planning on telling Jiyong about Jinhwan's party but for some reason you felt like you were holding a secret back from him. So, although you had no intentions of saying a thing you decided to tell him anyway.
“Oh… I know it’s pointless to tell you now, but this morning I bumped into Jinhwan. He invited both of us down for his birthday party tomorrow night but since you won’t be in town, I’ll just let him know we can’t go,” you said waiting for Jiyong to respond.
To be honest you were expecting him to agree and the conversation to end from there, but you were wrong.
"Why don't you go?" Jiyong encouraged the idea, and you froze.
It's not like Jinhwan was your ex or anything but Jinhwan is friends with Bobby and there is 99.9% that Bobby was going to be at that party. On top of that, you were pretty sure Mino was going to be there as well.
Although you ended the tension with Mino, you still felt like it would be awkward and weird for you to go to an event where you will be in the same room as your ex and someone you had a situationship with.
“Why would I go?" You were curious to hear what Jiyong was going to say.
"Well, why not? Aren't you friends with Jinhwan?" you were still surprised. I was about to comment on your ex being there and Bobby, but you didn’t bother.
To be fair you weren’t even sure that he even knew about Bobby…
“I mean… you know how I feel at parties.”
“Just got for a little. I feel bad I can’t attend but you can go on both of our behaves” You were speechless to see the support you were receiving coming from Jiyong, but you decided what the heck… what could go wrong?
Mino and you have officially cleared the air and then Bobby and you well… That’s a whole other story.
Eventually, you both began to talk about other things until you ended the convo and caught yourself falling asleep.
-
There you were standing in front of Octagon with a gift in your hands.
After Jinhwan invited you to his party you were hesitant about coming. But what did you have to lose? You are all civilized adults who can come together as one and be around one another without wanting to kill each other...
Plus, everything that happened was in the past. You were fortunate enough to clear the air with Mino but not so much with Bobby.
Who knows if Bobby has any hatred toward you... It appears to be only one way because on your end you didn't hate the guy. What happened and there was not a thing you could do about it.
You took a deep breath and walked in.
Neon lights were flashing left and right from all sorts of directions. The music was loud enough to hear the bass go off. You saw many different faces hoping to spot someone you knew.
Just with your luck the first person you happened to spot was Mino at the bar.
You were hoping to find Jihwan, but it was hard when there were people all around... Maybe you should approach Mino and have him help you find Jinhwan.
You slowly made your way to the bar.
As you approached Mino you noticed that he was in the middle of a conversation with one of his members. You were planning to walk off and look for Jinhwan yourself but as you were getting closer, they both stopped talking.
Mino's back was facing you so the person talking to him could see you approaching. As you were there and close to the two his friends looked at you and then at Mino.
"It appears that you have a guest,"
"Guest?" Mino says extremely confused, he looked over his shoulder and you were awkwardly standing there feeling bad for interfering with the conversation.
"Y/N, hey," he stood up from his seat and smiled as he saw you right in front of him.
"Hey, I hope I'm not interrupting anything," you blurted out and Mino's bandmate Lee Seung-soon shook his head.
"No, not at all! Y/N, right?" He asked and you nodded your head.
This isn't the first time you're meeting Mino's bandmate. When the two of you were exclusive at one point, you met them a few times but never really had much of a conversation with their hectic schedule. It was more like hi and bye and that was about it.
"Yes, I'm surprised you remember," to be honest you were expecting to have to reintroduce yourself to his friends, but it seemed like they remembered exactly who you were.
"Of course! After all, Mino wouldn't shut up about you," after that go blurted out, you glanced over at Mino and noticed his eyes widened at the sudden confession that way.
Mino wouldn't shut up about you? Is this recent or was this when you broke up?
You were becoming slightly curious, but you could see just from Mino's facial expression how uncomfortable he was starting to become. To avoid creating an awkward environment in today's party you just smiled and looked at Lee Seung-soon.
"It's a pleasure to see you again," Mino noticed how you didn't ask any further questions and seemed relieved.
If this was the old you, then you probably would have asked him questions or made remarks to get an answer but that's all in the past. You're with Jiyong and that's all that matters.
"Where is Jiyong?" Mino asks you and you look over at him.
"He had to travel for work, but I am here on behalf of both Jiyong and I... By the way, have you seen Jinhwan? I want to give him his gift," you said as you lifted your gift bag and he looked at the bag and then looked around.
"I did see him, but then he disappeared."
You took one look to your right and there you see Bobby and Jinhwan talking to one another.
"There is the birthday boy, I'll see you around," you told Mino, and he nodded his head and you approached Jinhwan and Bobby.
You watched the two talk to one another as you approached them.
At least as you walked up to them, they stopped talking and immediately noticed your presence.
"Y/N! You made it. Jiyong texted me telling me he wasn't going to make it and I was afraid you were going to bail on me," Jinhwan says smiling from ear to ear and you shook your head.
Even though you were hesitant to come to the party in the first place, you still decided to come because, at the end of the day, Jinhwan was never rude to you in any way. He always managed to make you feel welcome and included.
"I had to make an appearance even if it's for a little. Which by the way before I forget. . . "You lifted your hand and showed him his present in your hands, "Happy birthday."
You handed him his present and he smiled.
"You didn't have to!"
"But I wanted to, it's the least thing I can do after all you invited me here," you said and then looked over at Bobby who had his eyes on you.
"Hey, Bobby,"
"Hey Y/N," for some reason there was still awkward tension between the two of you and you were hoping that this tension would clear up sooner or later.
"Well since it's my birthday, you have no choice but to take a drink with me," Jinhwan says, and you hesitated a bit.
You weren't much of a drinker, if anything you tend to get nice easily, but one drink won't hurt anyone.
"Just one drink,"
Jinhwan nodded and you followed both Jinhwan and Bobby to the bar.
-
What ends up being one drink leads to a few more than you anticipated. After allowing the drinks to help you loosen up and allow you to forget all your problems you were genuinely enjoying yourself.
You ended up meeting new people and before you knew it you happened to make new friends and were out on the dance floor dancing to each song that came out.
"Do you want another drink?" Hyeryeon asks you and you shake your head.
"If I take another drink, who knows what I am capable of doing," you weren't in your five senses, however you were still in a sense aware of what you were doing.
"Aw come on just one drink," Subin insisted but you decline the drink.
"What I need is water,"
You excused yourself from the girls and walked over to the bar hoping to get a cup of water to sober you up.
"Excuse me," you tried to get the bartender's attention, but it was crowded by the bar, and it was hard to get service. Awesome.
"Y/N," You looked to your left and noticed Mino right next to you.
This man has been popping up out of nowhere.
"Mino, how are you enjoying yourself?" You asked him and he shrugged.
"Can't complain, but I am not having as much fun as you are," He commented, and you smiled.
"It's nice to loosen up for a change. Sometimes I feel like I feel too uptight and care about what people think...." you realized you were starting to blab a lot more than you probably should.
"I can tell. Coming back for another drink?" Mino asked and I shook my head.
"Well, more like a drink of water. I better sober up or who knows what I am capable of doing," as you said that Mino's eyebrows arched.
"What do you mean?"
The both of you suddenly started to look at one another and for some reason, you caught yourself looking at his lips. Mino's lips were always soft... Now that he has a lip piercing... you were curious how that must feel when kissing him.
You looked back up to his eyes and shook your head and snapped out of thoughts.
"Ooo Nothing... Just ignore me,"
You were pretty sure Mino caught on to what you meant however instead of questioning you he just smiles.
Ah, he is still cute…
You knew that this was alcohol-speaking. You wouldn’t be thinking this way if you were sober or even if you were with Jiyong.
“Ima head to the bathroom,”
You told Mino and he nodded his head.
You walked over to where the bathroom was and pulled out your phone. Maybe if you hear Jiyong's voice you can ignore this random temptation you have to kiss Mino.
As you approached the bathroom doors, you stepped to the side, leaned against the wall, and began to look through your contacts. Without thinking twice, you clicked on Jiyong's name and began to call him.
The phone began to ring.
One ring…
Another…
And then at last you heard his voice.
“Mmm hello?” He sounded like he just woke up… shit.
“Oh! Were you sleeping?” You blurred out.
“I was, but that’s okay. What’s up?”
You now felt bad for selfishly calling him.
“Oh, nothing… I just missed you and wanted to hear your voice… but it’s okay you should go back to sleep,” you tried to rush the call, but Jiyong stopped you.
“You’re fine, I don’t mind ever being woken up by you.” Jiyong always knew what to say.
“Don’t say that you’re going to make me miss you more,” you pouted, and you can hear him chuckle on the other side of the phone.
“Don’t worry baby, I’ll be back home in no time.”
You felt so much better hearing that.
“Well, I’ll let you get back to sleep, talk to you tomorrow?”
“Of course, I’ll call you when I wake up,” the both of you exchanged byes and you hung up.
Okay… you have Jiyong.
What you two have is exactly what you need.
As you got off the wall you were about to walk away until you noticed someone leaving the bathroom and you saw Bobby.
You two meet again.
“Y/N,”
“Bobby”
You could walk away… cross that you should be walking away but you were feeling bold. You walked up to Bobby and looked at him.
“Can I ask you something?” You told Bobby and he nodded his head.
“Do you hate me?”
Wow, you could have asked him anything and the first question that popped into your head was that? Get A GRIP.
“Why do you ask that?” Bobby even seemed surprised by the sudden question.
“I don’t know. I just feel this unnecessary tension between the two of us every time we are in the same room. I know you and I didn’t leave in the greatest terms … and things happen for a reason, but I just feel like maybe you and I should clear the air.” Right now, was not the time to have a conversation like this but it felt like it…
“I mean I don’t know what you want me to tell you. I tried to talk to you before and you walked away.”
“Maybe I am afraid of hearing what you have to tell me,”
Without thinking twice, you blurted that out and your eyes widened.
“I thought you didn’t care what I had to tell you,” Bobby was suddenly confused by your sudden words.
STOP TALKING, you thought to yourself.
“You know what… you’re right. I should probably go.” you were about to walk away but you suddenly hear Bobby begin to speak again.
"Can I be honest with you,"
You looked at Bobby.
"I would be lying if I were to say I didn't miss having you around. . . I mean I know I screwed up in the past and that's my mistake, but I was hoping we could move past that. I know you are with Jiyong and because of this, I know I will be seeing you around a lot more. I was hoping maybe you and I can be friends. . . What we should have been from the very beginning," you were surprised to hear this come out of Bobby's mouth.
After the incident with both Mino and Bobby, you were upset for some time but eventually, you got over the whole situation when you decided to clean up your act and focus on yourself. Fortunately for you throughout your journey, you met Jiyong and have been good since.
You didn't think about Mino and Bobby since you saw them again but now looking at the scenario you wonder if the universe put all three of you in the same room again to fix the relationship between them and you.
They probably aren't supposed to be in your life romantically but maybe they have another purpose.
"Being friends sound good to me," you told him, and believe it or not Bobby finally smiled at you.
It's been a while since you have seen him grin the way he did.
"Now that we have officially cleared the air, how about we go get a drink for old time take,"
You told yourself you were going to stop drinking for the night but one more drink won't hurt. . . right?
"Let's go,"
-
You had no intentions of drinking anymore but for some reason when Bobby happened to mention getting a drink you couldn't seem to say no. Instead, it sounded like a great idea, and you went with the flow.
The two of you ended up leaving Jinhwan's party without anyone around you being aware and found yourself in a bar nearby instead.
Bobby handed you your drink and you smiled.
"Don't you think Jinhwan will notice that we are gone?" You asked Bobby and he shook his head.
"I highly doubt it, if we are being honest, I overheard some of the boys say that they were on a mission to get Jinhwan drunk... So, if they succeed, he won't even remember what happens tonight,"
Aw, poor Jinhwan. You giggled and got a hold of your drink.
"Shouldn't one of us be sober to make sure we get home safely?" you asked Bobby before taking a sip and he shrugs.
"I mean we should but what's the fun in that?"
Bobby grabbed his drink and he looked at you.
The both of you cheered and then took a sip of your drink.
-
*Bzz Bzz*
You felt the vibration of your phone right by your head. Instead of opening your eyes you stretched out your hand and began to feel around hoping to get a hold of your phone. However, the more you stretched out your hand you felt a body next to you instead.
Jiyong is back?
You opened your eyes, looked up, and automatically realized you weren't home. . .
You looked to your right, and you saw Bobby sound asleep...
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED
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To be continued. . .
