#mssucks

[beautifulpersonpeach]

I miss them bpp , more and more each day. What do I do?

#mssucks

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Eat, sleep, live through the pain of missing them. Shift that emotion towards making yourself better. Get used to it. Move on. 2025.

[kiramessina]

Tuesday's selfie

[brienneferguson]

I friggin' hate MS!

Aside from feeling like there's a new issue every day, the stuff I have already doesn't let up or go away and I feel like I'm slowly being robbed of my basic functions, I can't even get online escape like I used to. It used to be I'd get online and keep busy, making gifs or fansites, etc. so I could forget about how unpopular I am in real life. Like anxiety and depression was bad enough but then the horrors of MS and everything that comes with that strikes and now I can't even get into anything I used to like.

It's coming up to an entire YEAR since my fall. My hand has still not gained it's strength back so I can turn my wrist or put 100% weight on it. My shoulders still hurt and I can't raise them above me. My neck still hurts and is stiff when I turn it too far either way. My legs sure as hell never got their minimal strength back. I just wanna be able to get online and forget about my problems, do something I enjoyed doing before, and be happy doing it.

Instead I feel guilty because I have all these blogs I can't even get into (even the ones I have tons of Drafts waiting to be posted, I just don't feel like dealing with it). I don't enjoy making new stuff. I don't talk to anyone any more. I usually just sit here surfing the web until it's time to go back into bed. Yes, I'm grateful for what I still have, but it's just so damn hard. Thank God for my mom who helps me cope because I couldn't do this alone.

TLDR; If you follow any of my other blogs and I'm not seen much, I just can't get into the swing of things these days.

[msfightingbeautyqueen]

TINGUIAN: Search & Decolonize

“Our ancestors have invented, we can at least innovate.” ― Amit Kalantri

DISCLAIMER! As a heads up, I want to let you know that I am still learning about my roots, my family, and my ancestors' stories. I am NOT an expert, but I will continue to do my research and share my findings with all of you.

For those who don't know, June is officially Filipino Heritage Month in Canada (and recently in Ontario)! It has brought so much joy and pride knowing that the Filipinx community is being recognized for their contributions from coast to coast.

As a Filipina-Canadian who was born and raised as an immigrant on a beautiful land called Turtle Island (settler-colonially known as North America) -- I do acknowledge that my family and I are guests in Canada and my roots are from the Philippines. Part of my roots is from Northern Philippines in a province known as Abra.

It turns out, I am a descendant of an Indigenous Mountainous Tribe called Tingguian (meaning People in the Mountains) due to my paternal-grandmother. My ancestors had tattoos on their bodies with beautiful meanings (including beauty and honour). They were able to hunt and fish for food and weave baskets and dye the fabrics for clothing.

1-2 years ago, I was able to order a dark poncho made by the Tingguians in Abra via Pinas Sadya (a local Filipino shop). When it arrived On the front, it had red threads sewn on the borders while there are four frogs from all four directions (N, S, E, & W) facing the star in the middle on both sides. Based on what I was told: "The weaves with frogs are typically worn during the rainy season. It is the belief of the tribe that it pleases the gods and will give them a bountiful harvest". From that point on, I knew that I would wear it in April each year for April showers (and May flowers lol).

Overall, I am happy and grateful that I am a descendant of the Tingguian tribe. This is a really cool fact that not a lot of people know about me. To be honest, I don't blame them. Every day is a new learning opportunity and I see it with a glass half full. I'm so happy that I found out how my ancestors were like prior to Spain's colonial invasion. However; I wish my grandmother was still here to tell me how much she knows. As the granddaughter of the Seeker of knowledge and wisdom, I am living up to her name by learning and asking questions of my ancestors' past and their way of life. When I have kids in the future, I will be sure to tell them about this part from my side. It is important to learn about the past in order to have a better future for all of humanity.

p.s. Please let me know if you or anyone knows where I can get more clothing made by the Tingguians. I would love to wear more clothing made by them ♥.

[fightermedic]

MS sucks: not sure what I ate different but damn my stomach Is agitated. All damn day. I went two days prior constipated no poo, then today literally every near hour. My poor colon. I just want my internal organs to soothe. Peppermint tea and good thoughts are gonna aid me tonight.

[grush91]

For “mom”. After I wrote this I immediately heard my mom’s voice, “So, I’m your *air-quotes* mom now? I think i remember better than you.” Or some sarcastic response similar to this. .
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Walking Encyclopedias
It’s hard dealing with this, thinking about all this disease has taken from my mom from our family, but it’s a weird relief seeing so many others facing this same burden.
Thank you everyone for donating! We raised $710 for the National MS Society!
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(at Pier 97)
https://www.instagram.com/p/BwzSnFQgRzg/?igshid=1740l98e7vdah

[awkwardshanandagins]

Currently hospitalized for trigeminal neuralgia and the worst part is hearing that damn lullaby over the speaker each time a baby is born. Not only am I in a horrible amount of pain, but I also get to be reminded how I’m nowhere close to having my own baby multiple times a day. I may be a bit bitter...

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