#no guilt

[thepeacefulgarden]

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

Anyone who talks about how “edgy” they are needs to go take a bath in acid.

It makes it so hard for people to talk about their actual homicidal ideation or low empathy or low guilt or delusions or other stigmatised symptoms of mental illness.

I shouldn't have to clarify that my delusions are actual harmful, prolonged periods of distorted reality or that when I say I want to kill someone I mean that I have dark fantasies where I kill them in graphic detail.

I don't feel empathy. I don't feel guilt. Most of the time, I don't feel anything for other people. It's not quirky. It's not a joke. It's not something you can say you experience only to turn around and criticise the moment I go more in depth.

Stop trying to be cool by imitating mental illnesses. It's pathetic.

[mindinthevoid]

[hotwife-heat]

[autopsyfreak]

‘you don’t experience guilt or remorse, so why do you apologise?’

{as always this is just my experience with my own disorders that stop me from being able to feel guilt or remorse}

generally speaking, i do view apologising to be pointless because i view things i do in two categories, those are the things i meant to do and the things i have done accidentally. both come with their own reasons as to why i think apologies aren’t helpful, these are as follows:

things i intentionally did - as far as i see it, if i meant to do it then why would i apologise? i did it knowingly, willingly and intentionally so an apology doesn’t really have any use because i’m obviously not sorry for doing what i wanted to do.

things i did by accident - if i didn’t mean to do something then why should i apologise? i wasn’t trying to hurt you so technically no one is at fault and therefore no apology should be socially necessary.

i understand this may not make a whole lot of sense since my reasoning for not apologising in the second point does imply that there is need for an apology in the first, however i just don’t view apologies as necessary at all.

this is further amplified by the fact that most people apologise out of feeling guilty or remorseful about their actions, which are things i’m not capable of experiencing so i have no drive to say ‘sorry’ in that sense either.

so why do i apologise when i upset someone i care for?

this is simply because i’ve come to realise that just because the way i operate doesn’t align with the ‘normal’ use for an apology, doesn’t mean that i can’t use it in a way that makes sense to me.

i only use it when i believe i’ve accidentally inflicted hurt or upset onto someone i care for (mostly just my FP/EP if i’m being honest), therefore i will never apologise for anything that i’ve intended to do. when i apologise for any accidental harm i’ve caused, i use it as more of an acknowledgment that i’ve done something wrong and i didn’t mean to rather than as any sort of expression of guilt or remorse, etc.

i use it as both a way of just fitting in i suppose since it is the social norm to use it, but mostly just as a way of going ‘ok yeh, didn’t mean to do that’. just because i can’t feel any strong emotion towards it, other than my crippling anxiety about abandonment towards my FP/EP, doesn’t mean it isn’t genuine. it just means something different to me.

i hope this makes sense.

[katsukisevilblog]

guilt as a concept is so fascinating to me. it doesn't make the situation any better. people do irrational shit out of guilt that make things worse.

I don't even particularly understand it from an evolutionary perspective. guilt doesn't suddenly stop you from doing awful things, just like how a lack of it doesn't make you do awful things.

I'm always amused by people who are made uncomfortable by my lack of guilt or empathy. are guilt and empathy the only things stopping you from being a terrible person? I think that's a lot more telling than me lacking those things and still being pretty damn decent according to most people I know.

[morelikeravenbore]

I've been seeing this topic being discussed a bit lately, and I know every writer (specifically in fandom circles) has their own take on it, but I wanted to send a message to my readers in particular.✨🩵

I say this with all the love and respect in my heart, and without any intention of invalidating anyone else's experience or feelings, but I would like my readers to know that if you ever wish to discuss my fics in private settings or on a discord server that I'm not part of, that is completely fine by me. You don't need to send me screenshots, or invite me, or let me know about it in any way if you don't want to, and you don't need to feel guilty about it.

A readers experience is none of my business. I write the fic for you to consume — hopefully enjoy — but beyond that, I can't control what you do, nor do I want to.

Of course, like any writer, I LOVE AND WELCOME comments and kudos like a validation-hungry gremlin, but again: how you choose to consume fic is your prerogative. As long as it's respectful, I'm cool cool cool.

With love. ✨🩵

(edit: oh my god pls ignore the ungodly amount of typos in my tags loooool my brain isn't working properly)