Tim has always trusted numbers more than feelings. But when the board starts reading his personal life as proof of stability, he’s forced to confront what it costs to be seen — and what it costs to be honest.
✍️ y’all I originally planned January 15 as the end date just because it happens to be my birthday and then the holidays got away from me so we’re a little bit behind on the story tracking so bear with me 😜
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Th email arrives mid-morning.
It’s brief. Courteous. Framed as gratitude.
You read it once, then again, slower.
💻
“We’ve appreciated your insight during this transitional period. Your presence has been a stabilizing influence. The board would welcome your attendance at the upcoming ethics and governance review dinner.”
The phrasing is immaculate.
No pressure.
No demand.
No suggestion that declining would be noted.
You know better.
By the time you reach Tim’s office, the decision has already begun forming — not because you want it to, but because this is how systems work. They don’t coerce. They invite.
He looks up when you enter, expression attentive, open.
“You got it,” he says.
It’s not a question.
You nod. “This morning.”
He gestures to the chair across from his desk. You sit. The space between you feels deliberate now, calibrated since New Year’s. Not distance. Control.
“They framed it as an ethics review,” you continue. “Transparency. Continuity.”
Tim exhales quietly through his nose. “Of course they did.”
“They’d like me there,” you add. “As… support.”
He stills.
“That’s new,” he says carefully.
“It’s not,” you reply. “It’s just the first time they’ve said it out loud.”
Silence stretches. Tim’s fingers lace together, then unlatch, then rest flat against the desk. You recognize the tell — calculation layered over concern.
“You’re not obligated,” he says. The words are precise. Ethical. Useless.
“I know.”
The thing neither of you says sits heavy between you: But if I don’t go, it will mean something.
“I can decline,” you offer, even as you hear the hollow note in your own voice.
Tim looks at you then — really looks — and something unguarded flickers there before he catches it.
“I don’t want this to cost you,” he says.
It lands harder than you expect.
“Too late,” you reply quietly. “They’ve already decided I belong in the room.”
Another pause.
This one feels different.
Dangerous.
“If I go,” you continue, measured, “it reinforces the narrative.”
“Yes.”
“And if I don’t,” you say, “it raises questions.”
“Yes.”
There it is. The trap laid bare.
Tim leans back slightly, eyes lifting to the window behind you like the city might offer an answer. When he speaks again, his voice is softer.
“This wasn’t supposed to extend to you like this.”
“No,” you agree. “It wasn’t.”
For a moment — just one — the professional cadence slips.
“I wouldn’t ask you to do this,” he says.
“I know,” you say.
The space between you tightens, not with proximity, but with everything unspoken pressing inward. The absurdity of it all — that this is where the line is being tested, not in passion or secrecy, but in a politely worded dinner invitation.
“You’d be very good at it,” Tim adds, before he can stop himself.
You smile faintly. “At being convincing?”
“At being indispensable,” he corrects.
The word hums between you.
Indispensable is dangerous. It’s permanence dressed up as usefulness.
You stand before the moment stretches too far.
“I’ll attend,” you say. “On one condition.”
Tim’s gaze sharpens. “Name it.”
“This doesn’t become expectation,” you say. “Not for the board. Not for your family. Not for you.”
He nods immediately. Too immediately.
“Agreed.”
You hesitate at the door, hand resting against the frame.
“Tim,” you say.
“Yes?”
You meet his eyes. For a second, the office feels very small.
“We’re still pretending this is temporary,” you say.
His answer comes after a beat too long.
“Yes.”
The word holds. Barely.
You leave before either of you can test it.
Behind you, Tim remains still, staring at the door long after it closes — aware now, with sharp clarity, that the things they can’t do are starting to feel more dangerous than the ones they already have.
And January fifteenth is no longer waiting politely.
It’s approaching.
⸻
The door clicks shut behind you.
Tim doesn’t move.
He stands there for a few seconds longer than necessary, staring at the place you were just standing like it might offer a different outcome if he waits long enough. It doesn’t.
Eventually, he turns back to his desk.
The screen is still on. Notes open. Tabs half-organized. The familiar comfort of structure waits for him, patient and unjudging. He sits, rolls his shoulders once, and exhales through his nose like he’s bracing for impact.
Okay.
He starts where he always does.
Variables.
Board perception: stabilizing.
Press narrative: favorable.
Governance risk: reduced.
Cost.
He pauses there, fingers hovering over the keyboard.
Professional cost to you if this continues: escalating.
Professional cost to you if it ends abruptly: worse.
He swallows.
Personal cost is harder to quantify.
He’s done this exercise before — not with you, but with versions of himself the world prefers. Straight lines. Clean optics. A partner who fits easily into sentences like future leadership and continuity without footnotes.
The board doesn’t know he’s bi.
They don’t know how carefully he’s learned to compartmentalize that truth — how often attraction has been something he audits before he allows himself to feel it. They see a man in a relationship with a woman and call it settled. Call it safe.
They don’t ask if it’s true.
The problem is — this part is.
He presses his lips together, jaw tight.
He likes you. Not in a way that fits neatly into a column, not in a way he can dismiss as proximity or convenience anymore. He likes the way you see systems and refuse to pretend they’re neutral. He likes that you don’t need him to explain himself — that you clock the pressure before he names it.
That makes everything worse.
Because wanting you is one thing.
Being expected to want you — to perform that want as proof of stability — is something else entirely.
He rubs a hand over his face, then drops it to the desk, grounding himself in the cool surface.
Panic flickers at the edges. Not sharp. Controlled. The kind that comes from too many moving parts and not enough room to breathe. From knowing that every path forward costs someone something — and that lately, it isn’t him paying first.
He opens a new document.
Titles it: January — Contingencies.
He stares at the blinking cursor.
For the first time since this started, the spreadsheet doesn’t offer relief. It doesn’t simplify the problem. It just makes one thing painfully clear.
There is no version of this where he keeps everything intact.
And the fact that he cares which pieces break — that you are one of them — is the variable he can’t isolate.
He leans back in his chair, eyes closing briefly.
January fifteenth is approaching.
And for the first time, Tim Drake isn’t calculating how to end this cleanly.
He’s calculating how much it will hurt if he does.
Love this moment for getting into Bernard’s psyche more. Also that “I had accepted myself, but not everyone else had” is so painful but real as a queer person myself who has been out for several years in a not-always-so-accepting area.
And the way Tim’s face gets so intense when asking if Bernard’s okay now. Rossmo & Fitzmartin did great on that I think, because the emotions for this scene hit hard for me, and I don’t think it’s just because I know them on a personal level.
