#relationship vent

[deadfang]

"you're not with anyone yet????"

no, i'm not. romantic relationships don't come easy to me, they never have. it takes me a minute to open up and be vulnerable with people, and a lot of times people are impatient and i get it. i just hate when i try and try and try and it's like i'm not going anywhere. it just sucks because it's like i almost get there and then something happens and everything falls apart.

i yearn for a romantic relationship. very very much. but sometimes it's like i'm only meant to experience small pieces of it and never actually be happy.

[imtotallyobssesedwithyou]

Btw being a masochist doesn’t mean you can be a slut and sleep around because you need pain. I tried getting into the sadomasochistic community,in here and in bdsm websites,and the amount of people who would cheat if you don’t hurt them how they want it’s genuinely crazy. It’s different when you like pain from anyone and different when you like it from someone you love. Yall get upset that most sadists aren’t into sharing and have boundaries too lmao. In these kind of relationships,dom/sub and sadist/masochist ,the sub/masochist have the most power since yall decide what we do and do not,and this is literally a common saying if you are in BDSM communities. I genuinely don’t understand some people fr fr. Anyway,the point is,if you want to sleep around,don’t try to be with people who want commitment,and don’t be upset when it’s genuinely not our thing.

[gerranhowelllover]

no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares no one cares

[freeofbody-freeofmind]

vent sorry

genuenly just wish he put in more effort its been like a month or two i guess not the long but it feels long because he just wont try anymore, hes not the boy i fell in love with 4 months ago..hes distant and its so fucking tiring i just miss the way he looked at me and i want him to feel the same way i feel about him. I love him so much i dont wanna loose him but if he really doesnt feel the same anymore i dont want to trap him..i just want him to communicate with me.. i just want a conversation is all im asking and im crying typing this but oh my god im so emotional.. I just want him to tell me how he truely feels..is that too much to ask???? He wont even look at me anymore, he avoids me at all times and i would kill just for a single moment with him again. This is prolly like…the hardest i fell for someone and i hate crying abt lovey dovey stuff cuz its so stupid..i want to be independent and not gaf abt any boy but it truely breaks my heart for him to b like this.. I talked to him once abt this and he just said hes a bad bf and he’ll try his best to do talk more but atp hes just given up. He seems concerned that i would break up with him or cheat on him which i never would but i just feel like he’d break up with me at any moment…I miss the late night convos we had. The laughs at the small things i said. When he actually tried to get into my interests and i get into his.. I recently read the confession note he wrote a couple months back and im crying because (what i belive) he used to love me…idk if he loves me anymore or just says “lyt” to fill the gaps…I know its stupid to cry over teenage love but it really hurts…I want to hold his hand again…we havent held hands since..since long ago..I say “hii” atleast 100 times a day and he will leave me on read every single fucking time. It hurts…it really hurts. Im tired..really tired and im repeating my words but its true. Im tired. Im sick and tired of his bullshit. I want him to notice for fucking once. and im gonna read this back when im older and think how stupid i was but just let me feel it right now. Im already grieving a break up before it happens. im sorry. I cant tell if he likes me anymore…even as a friend.. either way id go back to him 1000 times

I know someone here follows me from school and i swear to fucking god if u say SHIT.

didnt mean to bring the mood down yall sozz XP

[the-real-loser-otaku-girl]

I think loved the idea of being with them more then actually being with them

[ducklingking666]

What am I supposed to do😔. My hosts partner doesn’t want the host to engage in any other romantic relationship, which is fine. But that means the ENTIRE system can’t be with someone else outside of the system, which lwk pmo. (The only person that loves the hosts partner is our host, and half of our male alters are gay, or too young. I’m just straight, meaning don’t wanna date a women either way) so now I don’t know what to do, because a very close friend of the hosts is also a system, and they have an alter from around the same source as me (Percy Jackson), and I can’t do anything about it, not only that. Half of our system is ADULTS (the gay men, and our protector) meaning it makes it weird (especially for our protector when she fronts, she has to somehow tell our hosts partner that she isn’t our host. Which makes the hosts partner extremely sad)

[dead-since-the-beginning]

nonononono i can’t do this again. i can’t be in that kind of relationship again. i’m getting better please don’t do this to me

[the-wanderer]