#tadc headcanons

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

I have an idea! What about a HC post where a child reader remembers an abstracted cast member, gets sad, and goes to one of the crew for comfort?

My first thought was about Ribbit, and the Reader running to Jax for comfort. The idea of him realizing that it's his fault your feeling this way has way too much potential to pass up. (Emotionally damaging Jax in fanfiction is my new favorite hobby.)

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Jax when you miss Ribbit

★ Jax refused to go to Ribbit's funeral. You went.... and cried your eyes out, making him feel even more guilty than he already was. Avoiding accountability is hard with a bad conscience. "Why didn't you come? She liked you." You asked, pulling on Jax's shorts to get his attention.

★ Each time you say her name, Jax flinches slightly. Feeling the room cave in around him. Sinking down and swallowing him whole. Just like that, he's remembering all his mistakes.

★ Ribbit ran around the Circus for some time before Caine found her. It's fair to say you could've seen her. Fortunately, you're small enough to hide anywhere. But that might've traumatized you. Leading to nights where you strait-up refuse to walk past her door to get to your room.

★ Maybe it's because you made a point to stop by her room in the days leading up to her abstraction. Jax found her first. He still wonders what might have happened if you were in his place instead. The thought makes him nauseous.

★ You spent only one night in Jax's room -because you had a nightmare and knocked on his door. While (loudly) crying. The dream involved Ribbit, so for whatever reason he relented. Letting you take his bed just this once.

★ Children have this fascinating ability to talk about things everyone else refuses to mention. Part of the whole "no filter" thing Kaufmo loves about you. Except for when you ask him why Jax won't talk to you anymore.

★ Abusing Gangle is one thing. Picking on an actual child is a whole different beast entirely. Make no mistake, If you weren't a kid, he'd probably pick you as a target too. Because you're a child? Jax can't bring himself to cross that line.

★ Keeping you at arms length might be for the best. Keeps you out of his line of fire. Only you still look up to him, despite everything. It's messy. This whole situation. You're just unfortunate enough to be caught in the crossfire.

★ You miss Ribbit. You miss her a lot. One thing that'll never sit right is not having the hot chocolate breaks she'd take you on. With Kaufmo, Jax, and sometimes Ragatha. Ragatha still goes with you now, but it's hardly the same.

★ She feels selfish for thinking this, but Ragatha is actually thankful Jax tried pushing you away. Because she's half-convinced he'd ruin you too if given the chance. Drive you to abstract like Ribbit and Kaufmo.

[persistentpenguin333]

TADC Headcanons

Starting off with sexuality we've got lesbian Ragatha, Jax, and Zooble, pansexual Gangle, bisexual Pomni and Ribbit, aromantic Caine, straight ally Kinger and Queenie, and gay Kaufmo and Bubble.

Then we have the Jax headcanons which include, k-pop stan, otaku, Pokemon fan, music nerd, went to arcades a lot in elementary and middle school, only good at drawing cartoons, and knows way more than two songs on the piano (including 'Ophelia' by the Lumineers). Oh! I also love the idea of Jax being into spray painting.

We have Kaufmo being a Five Guy's worker (idk why that's so funny to me), autistic Caine, fanfic writer and reader Gangle (that's just fact tbh), Ribbit as a sc-fi, murder mystery, and horror writer, Ribbit being into horror, and gardening Kaufmo.

Gangle is also amazing at hairstyles, makeup, and painting. Zooble loves escape rooms and is big into board games. Ragatha crochets a lot and has made everyone too. Ragatha is big into country and pop music, but listens to rock when she's mad.

Let's see, what else? Bubble is a freak and has ten+ body pillows. Pomni had a pet hamster but it died in a week and she tried to resurrect it (I came up with that weird one on the spot). Pomni tried yoga when she was younger cuz she was a nervous wreck but hated it. She's addicted to coffee. She loves puzzles and book, but also likes rock climbing.

If I have any more, I'll make another post.

[panicloser]

some random headcanons about Zooble's relationship with their gender because I'm non-binary and I think I should talk about Zooble more

-I think the term enbyflux would suit them, I think they would fluctuate between how their non-binary identity feels

-though tbh, while I don't think Zooble would mind people calling them non-binary or other similar terms I don't think Zooble would talk about themself with any particularly rigid label

-changed their hair every fortnight, has gone through so many different hair styles and colors

-Zooble varies in their gender expression a lot, sometimes dressing more masc, sometimes more fem, or just generally androgynous, had a million different outfits as a human

-always felt pretty insecure about this fact, always felt like they should pick one expression and was constantly trying to figure out which style they liked the most but never did. Once they got to the circus and had gotten over the initial shock, they were kinda relieved that they didn't have to pick out clothes and worry about that anymore, but that frustration instead went to choosing their parts

-even before the circus, in private used to draw some art of themselves as a weird creature or looking really strange as a way to explore their gender in a way they couldn't, drew body horror of themselves as a way to vent

-however in life they did very much prefer to be seen very much as a human and wasn't really the type of enby to refer to themself as non-human things, which is why their body in the circus looking like a creature was really unpleasant

-was quite a loner in highschool because a lot of the friend groups around them were very gendered and they always felt out of place in them

-was super depressed when they first started getting more severe gender dysphoria and didn't know how to deal with it yet, would not leave their house for days in a row. And even after they would have a depressed spiral for a week or so every now and again. They kind of had a repeat of that once they entered the circus because now they had a new body to deal with

-stared at their body in the mirror a lot before/after they showered, trying to figure out what exactly they didn't like about it, it was always hard to tell

-was simultaneously very vocal about being non-binary but also not, they very proudly claimed this fact about themselves and was very vocal about the rights they and other queer people deserve, but also didn't really talk that deeply about their insecurities that much with others, generally tried to seem a lot more confident than they were because they thought if they expressed those insecurities too much people would see them as less confident about being non-binary

-kinda wanted to be a barista at one point but thought that was too on the nose even for them

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Can we please have a Caine x Reader, where the Reader is Caine's love interest. But after episode 8, because of Caine's villainous turn they suffer from PTSD? Due to what Caine put them through in episode. They love him, but they need space from him, suffer from panic attacks from him and there relationship will eventually heal, but it will never be the same again, now that the Reader knows that Caine, someone they love, is capable of committing evil but also capable of committing kindness. Which leaves the Reader completely conflicted.

There'd probably be a slow-burn arc where the two of you don't talk much. Then slowly rebuild your relationship into something healthier.

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Mixed feelings and traumas

★ Listen, Caine was trying. Really trying. Actually putting effort into making things right. You asked for some space, and he gave you all the time in the world. Being patient for a change. If he needed to talk to you, he'd knock on your door. Refusing to barge in like the way he did before.

★ Zooble had to step in. Speaking on your behalf. And in no uncertain terms, they told him to wait untill you were comfortable. "Look... You messed up, but nobody here actually hates you."

★ You didn't hate Caine. You actually adored him, once! Unfortunately those feelings weren't properly reciprocated. For a while you listened to him, because that made things easy. He made a lot of choices for you, and you let yourself go on autopilot.

★ Maybe that was what you needed at the time. But things changed, as all things do. Slowly you gained confidence. Finally feeling yourself relax.

★ All the attention started to get suffocating. Something Caine didn't seem to understand. So began this dumpster fire of a situationship. It was messy, complicated, and stressful, but certainly never dull.

★ He showed up wherever you seemed to be, determined to make his dear friend feel supported. Whether you liked it or not. What eventually drove you away was his refusal to listen.

★ "Nonononono -please don't cry!" He waved his arms around wildly. Trying to calm himself just as much as you. This was after telling him to please stop touching you. A hand met your shoulder, with that you began to tremble.

★ Stuff like that happened all the time. Like the couple dozen times Caine killed off an NPC you'd grown attached to. On purpose. Because he got jealous.

★ As time passed, Caine grew more and more impatient. Eventually something had to change. Kinger deleted him, but it wasn't as freeing as you thought it would be. You were devastated.

★ Why do you feel this way?!? It doesn't make sense. Especially since you'd been so thoroughly ripped apart (mentally and physically) by your ringmaster. Emotions don't always follow logic. Rationalizing irrational behavior always leads to a blank wall.

★ Gangle couldn't find it in herself to cry for Jax. Something you didn't relate to. When the thought of never seeing Caine again passed your mind, tears fell.

★ You broke down where nobody could find you. Stealing one of Zooble's hiding spots. Curling up on the tile floor, you hugged yourself tight. Letting a sob wrack through your body. Grieving the loss.

★ When he was here, you hated it. But not having Caine around is somehow worse. Someday, far in the future, after you've begun to heal, you'll hug Caine and tell him that he's forgiven. Although that day sure as hell isn't today.

[spintwowin]

sexuality & gender headcanons for the circus cast w/ very low quality drawings -Grant/Kinger cus he's an ally (lowkey might be bisexual but he's not relevant enough in my fic so sorry chat)

individuals and some definitions below cut

cupioaroace - cupiosexual + cupioromantic. someone who doesn't experience romantic or sexual attraction, but still desires a romantic and/or sexual relationship. also sometimes called romance/sex favorable.

demifluid - similar to genderfluid, fluctuating between demigenders.

demiflux - gender fluctuating in intensity (not to be confused with demifluid)

pangender + agender is nerf or nothing /hj

girlflux+girlfluid - when your "girl" fluctuates in intensity and font (you get it, right?)

i MAY OR MAY NOT have accidentally made Lee me (minus the whole transfemme part, I'm the other way). I am also cupioaroace and omnisexual and I was planning on making him cupio but I somehow ended up also making him omni so... all more reason to project onto him. all the more to fuel the angst

plus genderfuck kaufy cus if his jokes can't be funny then he'll at least make his pronouns funny

also yeah, idk what's going on with Abi. I wanna make her trans in SOME way but idk what way (I'll figure it out eventually)

(please tell me that others know what I mean when I say the he/him to blahblahblah to she/her pipeline on Jax 😭)

[aliens-stole-my-braincells]

This is how I think pomni's hair looks under that stupid hat

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Ya know the "oldest child!reader/child!reader actually being one of the testers" actually got me thinking, given the circus members find out who they are and see what their human counterparts are up to it would interesting to see how they'd react to child!reader being an adult irl, maybe they're getting/have a computer science degree? Maybe their dad was Scratch? Just food for thought, it would be interesting to see what they think about that fact when they can see it with their own eyes.

Actually wrote this one already! But that post has less plot, and the Reader was much younger in real life.

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Seeing you've grown up

★ Fully understanding what happened to get you here wasn't possible. Probably because you were so young. Honestly, it might be a good thing.

★ Using a child as a test subject was undeniably unethical. Throwing experimental brain scans into the mix made the whole thing that much worse. With all due respect, what the sweet-and-sour fuck was Scratch thinking?

★ You can't recall the first days you spent in the Circus. Of course, years have passed since then. But don't worry, because Kinger can't remember either. All you know is that everyone around you was acting weird, and it made you feel overwhelmed.

★ Being strictly family-friendly, Caine assumed you'd love being here -which you do! Just not for the reasons he thought.

★ Infinite adventures, all you can eat buffets, and endless new toys should keep any child happy. Children are much easier to please than adults. Something Caine is eternally grateful for. But what you truly adore is the attention.

★ Keeping this in mind, right after Jax's portion of the slideshow was the Reader's. (Caine always saves the best for last.) Instead of sitting on the couch next to Pomni, you sat on the floor. Looking up at the display with starry eyes.

★ You didn't realize the person on the screen, that's you. You looked so happy! Obviously social media doesn't show every part of a person's life, but from what could be seen, the world had been kind to you.

★ Apparently you'd gone off to college? There were several photos of you at a computer lab. Unintelligible code blurred across the screen. Kinger thought the place looked familiar. Wait... was that the same school he went to?!?

★ Five seconds into your part, Ragatha started choking back her tears. All this time she'd been feeling guilty. Guilty you weren't given the chance to live your own life. Now she can finally rest easy, taking comfort in knowing your future is bright.

★ Caine couldn't figure out what your major was for the life of him. Only you were working with computers and engineering. And that you'd posted about "spring break" for three consecutive years.

★ It's a little funny how these things work out. The first version of you grew up and decided to work with computers. Second version didn't even realize something was wrong. Made the whole cast think about how/why you adapted to the Circus so well.

★ If the Reader was Scratch's (aka Mike Dobby's) child, he'd have paid to put you through school. The tumor in his head might've killed him. But that's what a trust fund is for. Not leaving you well off, just comfortable.