#tw memory problems

[stahp-right-there-peasant]

[imsosocold]

 I think Belos never forgetting about his past with Caleb, unreliable and biased as his memories may be, is supposed to be a show of commitment and a sign of his lack of ability to let go of things. But with all the time that’s passed, all the Grimwalkers he’s made, and how traumatic the overall experience has been on him, I think it’s more realistic, more poignant, and more tragic if Belos does have memory problems/ memory loss. Like him realizing that a Grimwalkers personality differs from Caleb’s but not being sure in what way. Like him being undercertain whether Caleb had the same  mannerisms and ticks as a Grimwalker does. Like him recognizing that a Grimwalker’s features are wrong but not being sure which ones are. Belos at least remembers that his brother’s eyes were brown but he doesn’t recall what shade or shape they were.  And he hates himself for forgetting.

~This post was made by the memory loss / memory problems gang.~

[typewriterosha]

After finishing his last journal entry, Gerald sighs contentedly and sets his type writer on the bedside table. He'd finished repairing it earlier, just before the nice folks hooked him up to some nice liquid in a bag that made his head feel all floaty and made all the bad things seem distant.

His hand is now wrapped in bandages along with his other various injuries. What's left of his hand is somewhat splinted, there wasn't much anyone could do to save it other than keep it from bleeding.

He's been looking forward to a promised visit from @union-of-mad-scientists, though he can't help but be a little confused at why he cares. Part of him is starting to realize if he just hallucinated all of this happening to him...

[sickteeth-archive]

MY MEMORIES ARE SLIPPING AWAY

042420

[stahp-right-there-peasant]

Song: 🎶Do you remember?~🎵

MePhone4: No! :’)

[stahp-right-there-peasant]

MePhone4 headcanon: He has memory issues due to how much he messed with his memory. Removing every memory you have in one go would probably have lasting effects on your ability to remember things (especially if u don’t know how to). He probably plays it off and tries to hide it, but it’s even worse now that the removed memories are back, because that was another bit of messing with his memory system.

Anyway, memory problems for the phone? Heck yeah

[sickteeth-archive]

hello! feel absolutely no obligation to respond to this im just curious/wondering. what is dissociation for you? could you explain what it feels? I feel like i might experience it too but i dont know (im not going to self diagnose). anyways, even if you decide not to answer, i hope you have a wonderful day! ☆♡

hey anon ! thank u for being so respectful :)) i’m like half dissociating rn but i will do my best to form sentences in my head. i’ve struggled with dissociation since i was a child but it’s how it affects me has changed over the years (as i gained a shit ton of trauma lmao). i used to get like hardcore episodes of dissociation where i would be completely unresponsive, unable to move, barely hearing what’s around me. these days i’m honestly just casually dissociating for weeks on end with like 2 second realizations that i’m tapped out and then it hits again and i forget i’m dissociating lol

anyways here are things i experience ! :

memory loss, i’d say that my memory problems are partially due to my head trauma and my just truama trauma and that i’ve been on meds forever ,, but anyways, when i’m dissociating my like 90% of my memories are fuzzy/blurred

losing time, sometimes literal hours will pass and i don’t realize it

eating/drinking/self care, i have a really hard time remembering to eat and drink and take care of myself when i’m like long term dissociating, sometimes it’ll be 8 pm and im like oh fuck i didn’t drink or eat anything today

(there are rlly prolly more symptoms but both my braincells are just non functional rn)

i experience depersonalization (feelings of being not real, feeling like you’re not a real person, feeling very disconnected to my physical body) and derealization (thinking things happening irl aren’t real, feeling like you’re in a dream) as well

pls remember that everyone’s dissociation and symptoms can present differently! if you’re feeling like you might be having struggles with dissociation i recommend you reach out to a mental health professional :))