Raven~☠︎

🧷🤍 infj/22 .☘︎ ݁˖ּ ֶָ֢. Nauseatingly miserable beyond repair~〽 Jumble of emotions𓍯𓂃 24/7 Sylvia Plath ☾☼ Do no harm☮. Take no shit.𓇢𓆸 Belongs to Straw hat Pirate ﹏𓊝﹏ IG: https://www.instagram.com/the_witch_that_writes_?igsh=YzQyNmRxOWt1aDQx

[the-witch-that-writes]

I try so hard and then I fail,

Same old nightmare.

Seems like everybody moved on,

I'm stuck in my same old ways.

I get high so I don't feel low,

It's killing my body, I know.

Talking to strangers so I feel new,

Everyone I loved now hates me anyway.

In my dreams I kill myself,

That helps me cope with the day.

There's blood and then there's my wrist,

I overthink everything.

The only reason I exist,

Is because of my mother's grief.

-Alisha.

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[the-witch-that-writes]

Of course, it's going to be my family that puts me six feet under so that they can let me down again for one last time.

- Alisha.

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[the-witch-that-writes]

I've betrayed my own self for the bits of love they gave me in alms.

I've swallowed my own blood to not stain their white lies.

I've lived in the hope to be chosen, while not even being in the line.

I've changed every piece of me, just to fit in their puzzles.,

I've never complained to a God, cause I never had one.

I've broken my own heart so that they never had to.

No one has ever been cruerler to me than I had to.

- Alisha.

[the-witch-that-writes]

My love would be the death of me.

[the-witch-that-writes]

I've raised myself within the melancholy that would even break spirits of grown ups, I've buried people who are alive more than the dead ones. I'm a shrine of all the things I survived, with no preacher or visitors. I was born with a broken heart, and I learned to live with a wounded soul. Everything I am even in fractions is just mine. I've never found home in other people cause I am my home.

-Alisha.

[the-witch-that-writes]

And it's me falling for someone I can never have.

[the-witch-that-writes]

I'm 22, too old to not know things, too young to know everything. It's hauntingly funny how I can feel so much and then nothing at all. I make the same mistakes I did when I was 12, I'm so full of love and yet the same petty kid who hated everyone with not a broken family. I still forgive people who've done me wrong and still cut parts of me to punish myself. I can fight even with blood in my mouth, yet I crumble if someone raises their voice too loud.

I'm growing old, but not growing up. I'm trying to heal but still keeping my wounds fresh to testify for things that are never going to come.

-Alisha.

[the-witch-that-writes]

There's a NEW EPISODE OF 911 OUT?

Why did no one tell me about it. I legit thought season 9 ended 😭 like I was even in denial about the entire season.

[the-witch-that-writes]

No one prepares u for the heartbreak which u can't even talk about.

[the-witch-that-writes]

The poem I wrote a year ago for the Women's Day celebration in my uni.. means a lot to me..

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[the-witch-that-writes]

I remember being a kid and playing Resident Evil with my brothers and realising this is the coolest shit ever . I got obsessed with the entire storyline and saw Leon for the first time, I realized.. hey, I like him, and that is my friends how I realized I'm attracted to guys.. he was my bi or straight awakening idk cause I never liked a guy before.

Caught up to the game after a long time and realized, "Oh damn, still attracted to him."

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[the-witch-that-writes]

A line from one of many of my unfinished books..

*sigh*

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[m00wd]

A person raised in love and another raised in survival, will never see the world the same way.

—M00wd

[beruhigdichmal-deactivated20260]

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[the-witch-that-writes]

"Kids who never seen peace, and Kids who never seen war have different values"

- Doflamingo

[the-witch-that-writes]

There's no one I hate more than who I become when I'm in love.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Melissa Cox

[the-witch-that-writes]

and one day you wake up, you forgive your mother it's her first time living too, you forgive the hurt she puts you through. She was a defeated girl. She was just a child, too. She didn't get to have her dreams and was caged by people she trusted, too, and just like a wounded dog, she bit the hands that were meant to help her.

- Alisha.

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[the-witch-that-writes]

"your family is all you have"

That's the scariest part that I'm wired in a way to love them, even when I don't actually like them. They can be the cruellest, most selfish people, and I will still have love for them. That makes me sick and unable to breathe. How am I supposed to love people who make me hate myself? And yet, in the most twisted way, I still care for their well-being. To live under the same roof you can never call home, to pretend that the broken parts of the family don't cut me deep enough that even when wounds will heal, the scars will remain in my skin, my body will remember and soul would never forget. They will be my blood even with their hands covered in my blood, even in death, I can't escape who puts me down six feet under.

-Alisha

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