hey yall i just realized i should probably pin something here given some of the stuff i do here
- THIS BLOG IS NSFW
---- some of yall followed me before i started reposting nsfw stuff so proceed with caution
- im very unlikely to genuinely date anyone from online but if im super attracted to u there might be a chance. i am completely open to noncommittal horny stuff from pretty much anyone tho <3
- transphobia, homophobia, racism and sexism aren't welcome here. actually bigotry as a whole isn't welcome here
- i dont like detrans stuff as a concept but people who do like it can interact with me i really dont care. just keep me out of it
- i have a massive phobia of needles
- all genders or sexualties or whatever are welcome here, including cis men (somewhat). just be aware that a lot of my moots and ppl i repost tend to block cis guys, so check if they're okay with you interacting with them. that all being said, if you're a cishet dude i would prefer if you wouldn't try to fuck me in dms or asks. anyone else feel free to be as horny as you want with me
- this blog is pretty much just anything i see and feel like reposting. theres not a theme. this isnt a gimmick account. yes most of what i post is woke and my url kinda fits that but thats just a coincidence. i have interests beyond being woke. the url is what it is because its a sarcastic application of conservative speech. also i made this blog before i knew about the aave origins of the term woke so i've probably misused it at some points, lmk if you find any misuses
- im either a satanist, pagan or agnostic idk which. im just whatever i feel like at any given moment
- unfortunately i am an american. specifically texan :/
- this is the first tumblr ive ever had, and is close to the first ever social media ive interacted consistently with. i probably will get stuff wrong so uh yeah
- ive been reposting some really horny stuff, so dni if thats not ur thing
- some of that horny stuff involves things like:
---- cnc/rape fantasies (rape is a horrible thing and i dont support it nor those who commit it, but as a fantasy i dont mind it (from victim pov at least (rapist pov fantasies are valid imo but its not something im interested in)). its a power dynamic thing. and probably a trauma thing too but shush),
---- tnwo/transfem superiority stuff (i dont believe in that AT ALL, but the posts they make are really intense and i kinda like them. also tumblr decided to recommend me a bunch of tnwo posts so ig thats just a part of the repost pool),
---- incest/fauxcest (im really into it but some ppl ik really arent, so ill avoid posting anything that explicitly shows it. ill still make posts about ships or whatever that are incest, or pairings between ocs that are incest, as long as the post itself doesn't explicitly mention incest. i will however reblog posts from ppl with incest stuff in their usernames or tags. i might still reblog stuff that mentions incest, but doesn't show it)
---- zoo stuff? (i dont intend for this blog to feature zoophilia stuff, but in text posts it can be difficult to decipher whether somethings puppyplay or beastiality. i have nothing against people who like it (as SPECIFICALLY A FANTASY that is NOT TO BE ACTED UPON IRL), but im sure most of my followers dont wanna see that stuff, so its not going on this blog. if ur actually condoning doing that to animals irl then get off this blog. if ur genuinely attracted to animals but are committed to being anti-contact, i would recommend to talk to a specialist about it, but you obv dont have to if you trust yourself (ur still allowed here))
---- guro/gore type stuff, maybe (i don't find this stuff on here that often but if i find some that i genuinely like i'll probably repost it. ill abstain from posting super graphic images bc ik that can be triggering and icky but for stuff like biting or more minor things i might still repost images. i have some kinks that relate to guro/gore (like flesh eating, blood, biting, cutting, knifeplay, stuff like that) but i don't really have much interest in anything involving full on death. im not into necrophilia but yall are welcome here ig (as long as its just in fantasies, don't actually get freaky with a corpse. not only does it run the risk of medical issues, its also very disrespectful of the person who died as well as their loved ones. i get that to some people corpses are considered objects after someone dies, but most people see corpses as still being people (which i believe, personally), and you need their consent to do stuff with them. they cant consent if they're dead)),
---- omorashi/watersports (i probably wont post about this that often but it will appear here on occasion. im not particularly into piss drinking or anything like that but i think wetting and desperation is kinda hot (maybe ill post about pissing on people or on the floor but thats not much of a kink of mine. more of a thing im just ok with. i do think its a cute dynamic when someones encouraging a puppyperson to piss on them or the floor tho)),
---- objectophilia/objectum stuff (i dont find much of these posts on here but i will be lusting after weapons. there is no stopping it),
---- and a lot more stuff that there probably should be a cw for. make ur best judgement
- my likes are public. i would recommend only rly checking them if you're like radqueer or dont care about what im into. its the wild west in there, you'll see stuff that fucks you up
- if u see something on my blog that disgusts you deeply and makes you look at me weird, just block me or tell tumblr not to recommend my posts. dont harass me or anyone i follow/repost, thats uncool. (unless its harassment that we've specified is ok. im fine with specifically sexual harassment (including rape threats and whatever) in my dms)
- i might end up reposting or liking posts from completely horrible unredeemibly terrible evil people. my bad. just because i interact with a post of theirs doesn't mean that i support them or their choices (this is especially difficult to judge given how some blogs i repost do rape fantasy/tnwo stuff in a way thats hard to tell if its genuine. im assuming its just fantasy, but if u have proof otherwise, dm me)
- i also might follow or be followed by bad people. im not an omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent being. what i said above also applies here
- you can ask or dm me whatever. if it bothers me, ill try to say so. or ill ghost u. who knows, my brain is an enigma. chasers are welcome as long as you aren't transphobic
- if u know me irl dont dox me or whatever. thats probably common sense but i gotta cover my bases. also if anything here is weird to you, you saw nothing
- im okay with sending and receiving pics (especially of the sensitive variety) and stuff but do keep in mind that i havent really done physical transition in any way, so i still just look like a random guy unfortunately, and i wont send anything with my face in it for both dysphoria and privacy reasons. also i can decline to send pics for any reason. theres a fine line between genuine harassment and kink, so if you pressure me ill just give you benefit of the doubt and assume its part of kink. whether or not i give in depends on how horny i am atm
- yes i have trauma. everyone on tumblr has trauma, it came free with your blog
- i might be a dissociative system. from what it sounds like id be osdd bc of not having an amnesia barrier (and maybe the alters not being clearly defined? not sure about that one) but im not officially diagnosed or anything. ill continue to use i/me/mine pronouns to refer to us collectively because thats what we're used to, but ill also use we/us/our sometimes, usually when directly mentioning alters. ill try to color my posts according to what alter i think is posting at that moment but given how my likely form of osdd works it can be difficult to distinguish which alter is active. if i cant tell, the post will be white. system name would probably be something like shimmerclaw system if mixing up ournames but ill just go with eveline being the general name for normal use. as far as i can tell theres like maybe 4 of me, but due to the nature of osdd there could be a lot more. i dont know if any specific alter is the host, but it would probably be split between river and corvus. river is super feminine and energetic and horny and speaks like ":3" all the time, and is usually the one fronting when im online or with close friends or especially when im horny. [shes the main puppygirl of the system, and maybe therian? i really like when ppl call me puppy and tell me im a good girl and and give me pets and kiss me and let me lick them and nuzzle into their side >~<] (addition made by river). shes the personality who ive always thought was my "genuine self" from before the trauma, but shes the one who exclusively interacted with my online abusers so her moral compass is a bit warped, but i try to keep her on track as best as i can. after some deliberation, i think she's not a host, probably actually formed in response to neglect and loneliness and attention starvation, and made more defined as a result of the sex trauma. corvus is someimes quiet and doesn't really keep up with social queues very well, usually just listens in, and is kinda gender ambiguous. personality-wise i would compare them to andrew from tcoaall. not entirely sure of pronouns, in terms of gender expression im kinda just a guy, or maybe tomboyish, but we usually dont like masc pronouns so she/they works for corvus. usually the one fronting in situations where i need to boymode or if im really low energy or sometimes if ive recently orgasmed (probably a post-nut-clarity response from when i would cum after being molested), which means im her most of the time offline. they're kinda really difficult to get horny bc i usually end up shifting over to river when im horny, and corvus kinda doesn't care about sex at all (so if i cum as river, i might shift over to this one, but if i persist and force myself to be horny again, ill shift back over to river). shes probably the birdgirl of the system. shes the one writing this paragraph i think. they probably get some of their fronting behavior as a protective response to dysphoria or extreme sexual trauma and regret. she's most likely the system host. they also have a few subsystems too im pretty sure so i might vary from sounding like the most annoying nerd ever to sounding like i was dropped on the head off of the empire state. sometimes they'll be a lot more feminine or express themselves in text similarly to how river does but im pretty sure its still a subsystem of corvus in those cases. those are the main two who front the most.
i think there might also be another one named garnet who's something between corvus and river, who's kinda a big sister or mom in terms of personality maybe? shes kinda like corvus except horny and more of a dom. usually its kinda hard for me to subconsciously tell her apart from corvus but she's definitely more social and flirty than corvus is, and a lot more feminine. she's probably part of the dominance that i lost when i was groomed. theres another one i think who appears in the middle of delirium, when im overenergetic (i think? i can't really tell), when im highly overstimulated or when i feel disconnected from reality (and especially when im in a combination of all of these), who has absolutely zero filter and will say literally anything on her mind, which is kinda empty (she doesnt think she just does stuff). shes the most likely to be a puppy bc shes kinda like that idk she kinda just gives me childlike or puppyish vibes. usually if shes fronting everyone around me is really confused and thinks there's something wierd with me or something, which probably doesnt do much help for me irl. if im ever acting like im a delirious child its probably her. you can still nsfw interact if im fronting as her because i think shes usually pretty horny (she's probably not an agere alter, shes just missing her brain). no idea what her name is bc i rarely ever front as her. shes very unlikely to end up actually posting anything but if she does i doubt she'll color the text. if i shift into someone coherent and remember that she posted ill try to edit it to be colored properly. there's another alter kinda like her except more like corvus and almost completely zoned out at all times. probably they/them agender as a default bc they don't have the energy to maintain a gender. usually is staring at a wall or something and speaks very monotonous and gives very cold or dismissive responses to anything. no name for them yet so ill call them blank. theres another alter who age regresses between 12-7 years old, with the younger usually being in response to being overwhelmed or trying to hold in piss. giving them they/her pronouns bc we don't really know what she prefers. we call her orange
also there's some fuckwad in here who i don't think has fronted before who kinda just sits in the back of our mind and is just as rude as possible about literally anything. like extremely bigoted and has nothing nice to say about anything. not going to color or name them bc they're a fucking dipshit who doesn't deserve an inch of respect. pretty sure hes a redneck straight guy. might have formed in response to having to blend into bigoted spaces irl. theres some other headmates who kinda just sit in the back sometimes, maybe contribute a thought or two, and there might be some times where they might front, idk.
also if any of us are in a high stress situation we can temporarily deafen it with rage and violence at will and pack it into our subconscious so we're still coherent and not having a panic attack in the middle of whatever's happening. although usually it erodes after a few hours and we might get hit with a mild panic attack as a result of the stress. we can also call this thing into our headspace to front if it feels like it, but sometimes it takes some effort to substitute it with a normal headmate if it's fronting. also i think maybe sometimes it just shows up because it feels like it. i think it would be maybe endogenic due to usually being conciously summoned without trauma. i think they usually front during violence or competition or anything involving opponents (like racing, or fighting games, or arguments, or anything like that). they tend to snarl and growl a lot and have a tense stance and move very erratically. might be a wolf regressed alter, might just be my internal perception of rage giving them those characteristics, idk. they really like femtanyl and machine girl and those kinds of artists and will usually be more keen on fronting if we're listening to them. don't have a name for them yet, ill just call them red. i think thats actually a pretty good name on its own. they probably use they/it.
- theres probably more stuff i should add but im tired of typing on my tiny phone keyboard. if you have questions or think i missed something just ask me in the comments or dm me or something
- blog made december 8, 2025
- my pfp is from this picrew i do NOT draw people that well
