TigerCrossbow

she/they bi/pan

[soracities]

when e.e. cummings said “i’ll live my life if it kills me”

[softspringsolace]

when andrea gibson said “i suppose i love this life, in spite of my clenched fist.” & when ellen bass said “to love life, to love it even when you have no stomach for it”

[typewriter-worries]

when james baldwin said, “this is why one must say yes to life and embrace it wherever it is found-and it is found in terrible places; nevertheless, there it is;”

[queerpontmercy]

when Mary Oliver said “it is a serious thing / just to be alive / on this fresh morning / in this broken world”

[boginyagroz]

the first time ilya takes shane to the club after they get married, he shaves beforehand, puts on a tight black tank top and sprays himself with his fuckboy cologne from the hookup era. shane is already horny for him even before they leave the house — crucially, he loves fuckboy ilya, because come on, he’s been fucking this man for years when he looked exactly like this.

at the club, ilya buys out the entire dj set to only play 2010s club anthems all night long. he wants to give shane the ultimate 2010s clubbing experience he never had, but also make up for all those nights ilya had to spend dancing and making out with strangers and not the one person he wanted. but now he gets to do all this with his husband! who is delightfully hard for him by the way, because shane finds sleazy club slut ilya absolutely irresistible. ilya is gripping his hips, grinding against him, licking his neck and whispering the dirtiest filth into his ear, and shane gets dizzying butterflies he imagines all those girls got back then. and he isn’t even retroactively jealous, because now his ring is on ilya’s finger, and oh god, he gets to be taken home by ilya rozanov! he gets to have all his attention now and get railed stupid by him later!! in their shared home!!! shane is living his dream life, and ilya is right there with him.

[kissyelriel]

Yeah my final thought on this… but also as a poc it’s literally so awful to see another poc have hateful symbols drawn on them by their stupid ass white friends, have my picture taken while I’m visually uncomfortable, and have it be brought up again would make me SICK ???? And THEN being told that I have to hold myself accountable oh eww I feel gross

[lizzyloveshockey13]

Ok so you guys know abt that trend on tik tok where one person is secretly videoing their parter being all sweet because they think they’re in private?? I got a little something.

Harris had showed Shane this trend one day after practice and jokingly says to Shane “You should do this with Ilya. I bet you’d get hella views” and Shane laughs it off but then is like wait this might actually be a good way to hold something over Ilya for always making him blush in front of all of the other guys.

So Shane starts watching tik toks and studies how he should act when doing this with Ilya.

The perfect opportunity to do it comes later that day when Ilya is sprawled on top of Shane with Shane’s hand in his hair. All sleep heavy and warm.

Shane starts recording without Ilya noticing as Ilya nuzzles his face into Shane’s stomach murmuring I love you over and over again. Shane smiles at the camera and then looks down at his boyfriend. “Are you tired, baby?” Ilya hums and kisses Shane’s stomach. “Just want to stay with you all day” Ilya murmured sleepily, continuing to nuzzle closer into Shane.

Shane couldn’t help but show the absolute admiration he had for this man on his face. “You can be so sweet when you want to be”

“I’m always sweet for you malysh.” Ilya starts kissing up Shane’s chest which has him thinking this video might take a turn soon.

“You’re my sweet boy.” Shane says as Ilya rubs his face into Shane’s neck. “Your sweet boy” Ilya turns his face to kiss at Shane’s jaw and then opened an eye, saw the phone camera, and immediately huffed “Oh shit” and dropped his head on Shane’s shoulder. Shane starts laughing hysterically and saves the video before posting it. Ilya is both gobsmacked and exhilarated about Shane’s quick decision to post something so private about their life together. “You are an evil man” Ilya says to his still laughing husband. “The guys will never let me live this down!”

The guys did not in fact, let Ilya live this down. “Hey lover boy” Troy smirked as Ilya strode into the locker room, Shane’s hand in his. “Has Roz been a good boy Holzy?” Tanner Dillon laughed. Ilya groaned and Shane couldn’t help but smile at his husband’s embarrassment. “Holzy has this man more whipped than cream” Wyatt says loudly, earning laughter amongst the teammates.

Ilya can’t help but smile down at Shane, so much love and devotion in his eyes “yes he does.”

[ilyasmole]

*shane and ilya hugging, very early relationship days, prob at the cottage*

shane: squeeze me

ilya: what

shane: just. squeeze me. really tight.

ilya: *squeezes*

shane: tighter than that, come on

ilya: *squeezing a little harder* better?

shane: no. like. seriously, use all your strength.

ilya: i could hurt you, no?

shane: you won't, i promise. please just. tighter.

ilya: *squeezes shane as tight as he possibly can, grimacing a bit as he does it*

shane, groaning: thank fuck. do you have any idea how long i've waited to have someone strong enough to do this for me who isn't my dad

[endlessly-ranting-antheia]

Au where [the long game spoilers ahead] hollanov still get caught making out on Hayden’s video except instead of admitting that they’re together they make another video going “no we’re not together you guys just don’t understand that’s how guys greet each other in Ottawa that’s all. They call it an Ottawa Handshake, kind of like dapping each other up or a bro hug, obviously” then to prove it Hayden and Shane make out and act like that was a greeting. People obviously don’t believe them until Wyatt Hayes makes his own post about it going “yeah guys that’s obviously the Ottawa Handshake” and the rest of the centaurs start making their own posts like that too acting like everyone else is just sooo ignorant of Ottawa culture. Then once everyone is convinced that hollanov are not together and it was just some Ottawa custom, Shane and Ilya announce that they’re married out of nowhere like Shane and Courtney from Smosh

[argillaforma]

shane crashing out because every time he tells someone he's with ilya they go oh but he's an asshole or they say rozanov? what the fuck are you doing with an asshole like that? or isn't he too busy fucking all of boston? you could do so much better like no one is ever just happy for him and shane's like no you stupid fucking idiots he's the kindest, sweetest most loving guy in the world and if you talk shit about him i will push my hockey stick through your skull until you stop breathing

[stilinscute]

after Cliff’s first (he certainly hopes not his last) time with Shane and Ilya he’s not like. totally willing to start self-identifying as anything other than straight. he still loves fucking women but fuck, he’s certainly never going to turn down the opportunity to join those two in bed again, if they ask.

what he does take away from the experience is an appreciation for certain types of people. he finds his attention lingering on blonde curls and freckles and brown eyes and soft looking skin with smatterings of moles. men, women, whoever really- he begins to notice the patterns.

it’s at some league event where Cliff meets this absolute fox of a woman. yeah, okay- she reminds him of Shane which really does it for him- but she’s fucking sharp and seems to know eeeverything about hockey- which, also hot- and Cliff becomes a little obsessed with her immediately. he’s always been into older women so that’s another draw. and he keeps running into her at hockey stuff, like, way too regularly to be a coincidence so he starts thinking, yeah ya know what? I’m Cliff fucking Marleau I can ask out this sexy older woman, I fucking pull, dude I can do anything-

anyway that’s the story of how Cliff got rejected by Shane’s mom.

[insanitysilver]

When I was younger I used to be part of the “only-reads-complete-fics crowd” but as I’m getting older I’m realizing how powerful it can be to have consistent things to look forward to…

[insanitysilver]

All the ppl in the tags laughing abt how fic updates aren’t consistent are cowards. I aim to be subbed to at least 365 fics. One for each day of the year. And that’s just my starting point. Your inbox? Empty. Barren. Fallow. Mine? Bountiful. Overflowing. A cornucopia of ripe treats awaiting my tender consumption. I wade through honey-rich excess while you starve of your own volition.

[hrfiction]

“I wade through honey-rich excess while you starve of your own volition”. 

This line is the sexiest way to say “You fucked up” that I have ever read. I have to start using this in my life when pointing out the follies of others.

[nightquills]

when ilya learns that the largest t-rex in the world is named scotty, it's fucking over for scott hunter

[cuppydogshane]

i love shane and ilya because shane could be standing there with the nastiest expression on his face, body language completely closed off staring somewhere above ilyas left shoulder and Ilya would interpret it as "Come Fuck This" and he'd be 1000% right.

[boitterfly]

ilya courting shane like is everything you dreamed of?/ montreal is nice yes? boston is nice too?/we will be seeing each other a lot/ you look pretty like yes he was hunting that boy for sport but he was also just a young man with a crush.. he just thought shane was soooo cute and wanted to connect with him and be near him and get in his head and haunt him and eat him alive wait who said that

[puppilya]

dating shane hollander headcanons (fem!reader)

- the sex is bad

- he leaves you for ilya rozanov

[autistichollander]

shane always getting spoken to growing up about how he needs to be making sure he wears clothes around the house bc hes always got just a pair of underwear on and he doesnt fuckingggg want to wear those shorts mom they feel GROSS against his thighs!!!!!!! him always giving annoyed looks to grown ups that dare speak to him about this. shane rolling his eyes after years of hearing the same thing over and over and then one day hes so sick of hearing about how he doesnt even dress normally in his own home that he starts wearing "normal" clothes and hes so fucking overstimulated but whatever if hes home alone he can dress how he wants but he will dress more accordingly to when others are around.

anyways cut to shane being so ufcking comfortable around ilya that he stops wearing clothes around him other than like maybe a pair of his fav underwear at MOST and ilya is broken brained staring at shane like holy fucking shit you just are hiding this all for years and now we live together and you love being naked other than underwear???? HOW DOES HE SURVIVEEEE

[ivviannaa]

#myshane loves the pwhl and the pwhl loves him back. in montreal, he would go to every victoire (triomphe?) game that he could given his schedule. he has jerseys and gets wedding invites and the entire roster's numbers in his phone. they adore him and he loves being around people who share his love of hockey without being boisterous dickbags

this leads to a full fledged uprising when shane gets run out of montreal though. they're so pissed off because really?? you got rid of your best player because he's GAY? the victoire no longer even associates with their nhl equivalent. it doesn't exist in their minds. meanwhile ottawa's pwhl team is already best friends with the centaurs and is just excited to have another addition that happens to be shane thee hollander

[softgnome]

One of my big headcanons is that Shane and Ilya would both find it very funny to see how far they can push the PDA level in front of their team, and they are not above pulling the 'we had to hide for a decade 🥹' card to push it further.

It's a game between the two of them. This is their version of that game where everyone has to yell sex louder than the last person until one chickens out.

Shane has hopped onto Ilya's back like a backpack and has Buried his nose behind Ilya's jaw, waiting for someone to finally suggest that maybe there's a line to physical affection at the rink, but then Ilya casually mentions how he was afraid to even have photos of Shane on his phone 🥺 and now the team feels too sad to say anything for at least 24 hours.

Troy is the only one who sees that this is a sick game of chicken for them and not a single Centaur believes him.

[herainsorcia]

[fox-bright]

That is DIABOLICAL museum design, A++, no notes