trying to let the soft animal of my body love.

23, she/they, queer, ace | ger/eng | fandom stuff (mostly tatort) & other chaos

[toastmitpflaumenmus]

"But I guess we're always leaving, even when we look the same"

Song: White Fire - Angel Olsen

[vamptits]

practicing radical acceptance about the fact that I'm always gonna be weird and awkward and a little difficult to be around. it's okayyyy to be weird as hell

[luna-azzurra]

Something neuroscience-y that helps with prose: attention is selective. A character will not notice everything in a room. They will notice what matters to their goal, fear, desire, training, wound, or obsession. A jealous character notices hands. a hungry character notices food. A soldier notices exits. A lonely character notices pairs. Description becomes character when attention has a bias.

[duckbunny]

don't infantilise yourself. you are not a child who needs an adult to make your decisions for you. you are a splendid and magnificent autocrat and you are consulting your trusted advisors. you are exercising great wisdom by inviting an expert to give their opinion before making your ruling. often the path of wisdom is to say "good morning, I'm trying to [perform task] and I have a question about [aspect], can you tell me who I should speak to for advice?" before you do it. sometimes the path of wisdom is to hire a plumber. there are times when you cannot do things for yourself but that doesn't mean you are not an adult. you don't need a grown-up. you need a specialist.

[duckbunny]

this has come up a couple of times so let me be really really clear:

the path of wisdom is sometimes to hire a plumber.

the path of wisdom is always to hire an electrician.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

"Not dating or having sex isn't even a source of discrimination in real life-" How many rights and benefits are tied up in marriage contracts though? How much of our economic and societal structure is built with the clear expectation that people couple up and support each other? Where's the security nets and affordable options for people who will never have a partner/spouse to take care of them? How many people save serious commitment only for people they have a romantic and sexual relationship with? How many people will unquestionably prioritize their sexual and romantic relationship above all other social connections in their lives? And where does that leave the people who don't want that at all, ever?

[lokh1]

‘how would other people describe you’ why would i know this

[stroebe2]

June and July are the same months btw. They want you to think they're two different months but it's the same month that's 60 days long. Same way August is actually August and the first half of September

[guccifloralsuits]

If THE modern translator of the OG Odyssey text wrote this about my film adaptation I’d kill myself

Emily Wilson you’re goated

[barelyfunctionalcephalopod]

[image transcript: Nolan's Odyssey lacks many of the elements that make the poem great. It has nothing convincing to say about time, memory, history, war, or about the relationship between one warrior's glorious return and the lives of his family, adversaries, comrades, friends and neighbours. It lacks psychological, emotional, political and ethical depth. Its narrative structure is gimmicky. The writing is abysmal. None of the characters have convincing motivation for their actions or words. There are no sex scenes, and all the food looks horrible. /End image transcript]

I strongly recommend checking out the full article linked by OP, this isn't even as brutal as Wilson gets.

[the-rainbow-spoon-incident2]

I actually found what she was saying rude and dismissive and I had a hard time articulating why because I didn't love the movie but this lovely woman on YouTube had a great explanation.

[aitchdeetee]

Yeah, Christopher Nolan does NOT need defending, but the discourse is driving me crazy because while I appreciate Wilson's expertise and perspective on the original poem (and ofc, "no sex scenes and all the food looks horrible" is a banger line), there are several parts of her review that makes it clear that she just...literally did not understand the text of the movie??? Even as an amateur cinema enjoyer this really stands out to me.

The claim that we are not shown that war is bad is absolutely fucking wild. It's the central thesis of the ending! The characters all but state it directly! We are shown this in the sequence she is complaining about, the sacking scene. True, most of the actual violence is off-screen, but I don't think you have to explicitly portray rape and murder for the horror to be effective. The scene works because of the visual language and sound design. You HEAR the anguished screams of the victims echoing around Odysseus and are left to imagine the violence. It doesn't need to be depicted in the literal frame of the picture to still be in the movie, because film is an audiovisual medium (this is also how the ambiguity of the gods works, you feel their presence without ever seeing them (besides ZendayAthena)). Nolan is showing us these things without directly telling us, and he is doing it extremely unsubtly. It didn't seem to work for her, but if you are talking about what the movie is actually doing structurally, it's a baffling take.

Also the part about the dehumanization of the Trojans is kind of weird. I think Wilson's complaint is more along the lines of, we do not get the perspectives of these victims, that they are not fleshed out as characters. Which I don't think needs to happen for the movie to make its point that the murder of these nameless, faceless people during the time of war is criminal. But even still, the claim that they are nameless and faceless is patently false. The soldiers look like stormtroopers, but we do see the faces of the civilian victims. Zendaya is right fucking there! Wilson knows this because she critiques her Athena, so I'm not sure why she isn't connecting the dots.

Which brings me to the part of her review which REALLY rubs me the wrong way...

This, I think, is doing a massive disservice to these Black and brown actors (Patel isn't Black but is lumped in for being 'non-white'). Well, apart from Travis Scott, who is basically just doing a silly cameo. And that is fine! I do NOT need him to perform Sicko Mode for 5 minutes to feel Represented. But aside from that, whose Black friend is the bard supposed to be...? These characters have varied roles in the film, it's actually Wilson that is compressing them into the "Black best friend" trope, not Nolan. I'm lukewarm on Hawkins's role as Antinous's co-conspirator, but Patel was putting in a lot of work, performance-wise. I simply do not think it is fair to reduce his part as Odysseus's trusted second-in-command that is constantly being frustrated by, questioning, and undermining his decisions, as Matt Damon's brown (he is literally not Black) friend. It's one thing to point out that all of the most prominent roles went to white actors, it's another to basically write off Black artists who are acting their asses off just because they're in secondary roles.

And for the love of god, put some fucking respect on Lupita Nyong'o's name! Yes, she only gets a few minutes of screentime. However, it's what you do with that time that matters, and in those few minutes she gave what is easily one of the Top 3 most memorable performances in the movie (the other two being Pattinson and Elliot Page). Her presence in the movie is outsized relative to the runtime because of the sheer amount of emotion she's able to convey every single time she's on screen. Though vignettes! She is not being underutilized, she is being deployed with precision. It is a testament to her incredible strength as an actress that she can take a story that is not about her and (however briefly) make you forget that.

But are Helen and Clytemnestra underwritten? Well, maybe. Wilson has a point when she says the script sucks. Nolan isn't good at dialogue, and there's often some clunky lines. But the performances are killer. Even a bad script can be brought to life with the power of cinema, and visual storytelling is the thing Nolan is actually good at. The parts of Wilson's review that fall flat for me are the ones that are basically just doing "well the book is better than the movie." Of course the book is better. That's not a critique of the actual movie!

[mayahart]

THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR  ↳ 1.04 | 1.09

[darthmasterchief]

This show broke my damn heart.

[ryan-sometimes]

This makes me feel like such a boomer, but I hate it how all media has been TikTok-ified and algorithm primed. Songs are shorter, designed for short viral clips rather than a full listening experience. TV shows and movies are sloppier, dragging on and on, assuming you’ll be on your phone and have it only in the background. Even books have been chewed up and spat back out as easily consumable tropes, with bite-sized chapters and mannequins for characters. This late stage capitalism hellscape we’re in has made art into something you snack on rather than savor.

[racketghost]

every time i start to feel cringe for being too deep in the hyperfixation i remember the intense depression i have waded through and have to remind myself that enjoyment is fleeting (so grab it with both hands), and life is for loving (so hold that love close), and if anyone thinks i’m cringe they must not be having a very good time (and i hope they can find a good time soon).

[racketghost]

[tags via : @heavenly-havoc]

[fieldexplores]

Never Learned - Gator Days

[twenty-fourth-order-simulacra]

...the alt text?

[ndnbutch]

sometimes i talk about how awful it was to feel trapped by my daily makeup routine and how i couldn’t leave the house without putting on a full face and it played a major role in the misery of my high school experience because i had to spend so much extra time getting ready in the mornings and that followed me into my early 20s as well and it was hell and it was so incredibly liberating to go through the slow and uncomfortable but ultimately essential process of getting my bare face back and having makeup be an optional accessory instead of a mandatory uniform. and the response always tends to be ah yes of course, because of your trans and your masculine. and it’s like aha so close! actually! I think if I ended up being a feminine cis woman I also still would not deserve even a second of that shit! I think trans women and nonbinary people and every human alive should have the option to leave the house without a single cosmetic product ever touching their face! but thanks for playing!

[ate-a-chili]

[record scratch] [freeze frame]: yeah that's me. that's me in the corner. that's me in the spotlight, losing my religion.

[queer-tatort]

Tatort Zürich + text posts (21/?)

[wheelchairoftheseus]

how manual wheelchair users move (explainer for non-users)

frequently when i’m out and about with someone walking, they can’t anticipate what path i will take and therefore they’re in my way pretty frequently. this is fine! i can politely ask them to step to the side. but it makes me think about how little non-wheelchair users understand the way wheelchair users move. as someone who used to walk everywhere, it was an adjustment period for me to figure out how to navigate the world in a chair. here are some things that didn’t occur to me so that you don’t cut off your friend right as they’re building momentum to go up a ramp 😆

for context, i use an active manual chair. the world is very different in a power chair. even among active manual chair users, there is a huge diversity in physicality and strategies for getting around. this is a general guide that i think will apply to most manual wheelchair users. i’m starting super basic and getting more complicated as i go.

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1. manual wheelchairs are a momentum game. it is very easy to maintain speed and direction. but speeding up, slowing down, or turning, is hard. one thing this affects is if we’re on a wavy sidewalk or other twisty-turny walkway, that is a pain in the ass and i am taking as straight a path as i can.

2. wheelchair users also have to pay attention to the slope and condition of the pavement, so our path somewhere will be different than yours, even if we’re taking the same route to the same place. for example, i usually have to go down slopes straight, not diagonally, to avoid tipping over sideways. one area this affects is crosswalks. many intersections have one curb cut for both roads you could cross, which means i will go down curb cuts to a crosswalk as if i am aiming for the middle of the intersection.

your path in orange, mine in blue. to you it seems indirect, but to me it’s the path of least resistance.

i also will be building speed in the second half of the crosswalk. this is a much easier way to tackle a ramp. if i approach with momentum, i won’t have to drag myself up the slope once i get to it.

3. building momentum and maintaining it is only half of the job. the other half is stopping. manual wheelchairs cannot stop on a dime if they’re moving with any kind of speed. if i tried to stop immediately when going downhill, i would fly out of the chair. so don’t walk right into the path of a wheelchair in motion and then stop! i will have to turn to the side very quickly and hope i don’t tip. i can’t tell you how often parents pushing strollers will stop their stroller directly in my path and then get offended when i am alarmed and turn sharply to avoid hitting their child. from their perspective, i was being careless and going “too fast.” in reality, normal walking speed takes a few feet to slow down from and stop.

4. in terms of slope. see this street in san francisco?

i can’t go down this street, it’s way too steep. i would give myself friction burns on my palms trying to control my speed. if i was in a situation where there was no avoiding this street, like in an emergency, i would be breaking my straight-slope rule and zig-zagging in the middle of the road.

this would require several zig-zags back and forth, more than the four that i drew. i also could not go up this road other than with this method. up or down, i risk tipping over sideways if i’m not careful.

4. in a similar vein, consider terrain. slopes with grass or carpet take huge amounts of energy to get up. this grassy hill isn’t insurmountable, but it would take me like thirty minutes to get up there. honestly i would probably go backwards, because it’s easier to pull yourself up a slope than push yourself.

other types of terrain can be completely immobilizing, though. this decorative gravel pathway is beautiful, and inaccessible to me. my casters (front wheels) simply will not go through that.

5. in terms of walkways and obstacles. if there’s a deep gap in the pavement lined up the way i’m going, and it’s, say, an inch wide, that is an obstacle for me. my casters are one inch wide, and my back wheels are an inch and a half. i’ll get stuck in it like a train on a track.

i have to straddle this, even if it means being too close to the middle of the sidewalk and preventing us from walking side by side.

similarly, if a crack is greater than an inch high, i’m gonna wheelie over it. at two inches, i have to. a wheelie may require a change in speed, either faster or slower depending on the person.

i have 4 inch casters, so a lip as little as 2 inches will stop me in my tracks. a lip as little as one inch, hit with any speed, can knock my casters out of square. casters can get knocked out of alignment pretty easily depending on the chair. i’d rather not have to pull out an allen wrench and a level, so i’m gonna wheelie.

this happened when i hit about a 1.5” lip on a pavement crack when i was going downhill at maybe 3mph.

6. putting it all together. see how diagonal this crack is?

this is another situation where i have to go straight relative to the slope. because that crack is wide, it will probably also require a wheelie. if i tried to approach that straight relative to the sidewalk, my left caster would get up the slope, i’d wheelie, then my right caster would land in the crack. i have to go this way.

(also lol at the trash can blocking the curb cut)

these are just a few things to keep in mind when walking about with a wheelchair user! ofc the best strategy always is just to listen when someone asks you to move out of their way 😆 but i think being able to anticipate movement a little better will help it seem less random. feel free to ask any questions!

[ziijsh1]

"Why do you talk so much about being intersex?"

Over 90% of parents of visibly intersex children opt for cosmetic surgery on their infants.

The ones that don't experience medical violence then, likely experience it as a teenager.

I didn't.

I am very rare in that I did not experience medical violence.

Why? Because I learned what intersexuality was as a young age, and I actively fought against what doctors wanted to do to me. All the way down to legal research on what medical care minors can be forced into. I remember walking into that doctor's appointment with the state law written down that proved that if I did not consent they could not do surgery.

That is why intersex activism is important. It saved me and it will save more.