This pinned is a little outdated now, we've been meaning to add the changes and progress in our medical case, little alter intros they've plan to write, and any other thoughts we've had recently.
Something we are working on when we have the time, energy and headspace is a little mature adult safe space community for people like me, who face the challenges we do, and need somewhere to feel less isolated, It was my little community for my stream, but I want to make it place for people like me to feel unjudged too.
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My Other blogs:
My Window unto the World 🎮🎤🌍 My Streaming Blog, screenshots, little stories from games I play and more. @my-window-unto-the-world
Alts Ghouls and Goths 🦇🌕🐺 Reblogs of Creatures of all kinds, and people if given permission. @alts-ghouls-and-goths
The Allure of the Void 🌃🌌 Reblogs of All things in the world goth/punk/alt, places, art, music, and architecture. @the-allure-of-the-void
Passion from the Machine 📚🌹 Thoughts, Ideas, Imagery, Sentences, Paragraphs, Page's, Short Stories, Misc' romantic thoughts, and maybe requests? @passion-from-the-machine
A Moment in Time and Space 📸🌠 My Photography/Art Space. @a-moment-in-time-and-space
Museum in my Mind 🎨🧾🎼📷🎥 Reblogs of Creativity in all context. @museum-in-my-mind
Trauma in a bottle: 🍾🌊 Me and My Alters Vent Space.
[18+] Mature Blog, If you are a minor please DNI.
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This is blog is where I talk a lot about health, trauma, the odd bit of advice for adults who resonate with the things that I write, and what I've learnt to manage it all my conditions. I share a lot of these posts in various communities, to throw a message in a bottle in hope that someone might read my words, that It might help others feel less isolated, or at least act as a way of letting out the vast amount of thoughts I have, and maybe make a friend here and there 😊. There are lots of people in all sorts of health communities that are able to help you make the first step in seeking help from a medical professional like they did for me.
Due to the combination of everything I manage, how complicated my life is now and a list of traumatic experiences, I often forget a great deal, especially after a flashback I can forget what I'm talking about mid-sentence, that I'm making a cup of tea while I'm making it or remembering to message people back.it's nothing against you at all, it's purely me trying to navigate an insanely complex life, the friends I have made here have been a great help in feeling less isolated, and if you feel lonely and I've not sent you a message, feel free to message me, I guarantee if I see a notification I'll reply.
Please don't take your memory for granted and hold the good ones as close as you can.
If you’ve resonated with anything said, leave a like or an emoji, It might seem awkward but it helps me and everyone "upstairs" feel like my any of my writing is worth doing, thank you for the support.
Some thoughts about this blog and ourself.
I am a system, I'm still figuring out how extensive currently and a list of other stuff because I'm all kinds of messed up.
This is a blog for us to write down our thoughts, talk about our medical conditions and the problems they cause us, and write various articles. maybe something I come out with might help another feel less alone? Or if it ends up simply a message in a bottle at least I get some kind of "peace." 🙏
After a list extremely traumatic events, my psychological states have become erratic and entirely chaotic, the more pain I now experience as the result of extensive damage to my body means more chaos, disassociation or attempts too while experiencing extremely uncomfortable levels of pain and/or inability to ground.
I am nothing but a list of conditions held together with whatever glue the doctors could find. but after a decade of medical mistreatment it shattered whatever I had left. Only fragments and dust remain, my pain can hit 9/10, it's that high as a result of the permanent damage I've suffered as a result of being used and run into the ground by the vast majority of people in the past because I was too naive to protect myself from them.
I have gained a copy of my psych' records and its clear as day that many events I've been put through coincide with the deterioration of both my mental and physical health, and overall wellbeing.
I'm poor so no, I probably won't buy your content, but I do believe sex work is work, we are all just doing what we can to survive a cold, cruel and isolating world.
Im not a fan of "dude bro's" no offence, just not met very many nice one's.
Current Conditions: 🫂💖💛🤍💙💚🖤
I have a long list of medical conditions and I feel it's necessary that I state them here so people are given the chance to understand why I do things the way I do. So you're aware, this list has changed over half a dozen times in a decade, do not be surprised if more gets added, some things are clarified and others are fully accessed and defined. Given how badly the NHS has been at helping me (Missing over a decade of abuse signs I now see as clear as day), I have had to prove a shit load under my own steam in order to not be gaslit, marginalized, misinterpreted, ignored, allow doctors to refuse to take any accountability, and be subject to more examples of negligence, I will keep fighting for my right to be treated, but now as a more civilized person not crushed under tones of pressure from others in the past.
(in extensive evaluation, has been for a few years now) DID caused by masking Bipolar with Schizoaffective Disorder for 28 years, with symptoms including and not limited too: 10+ Alters/Headmates, Psychosis, Manic Depression, Delusions, Paranoid Delusions, Mood Swings, Hallucinations, and more
C-PTSD that include extremely vivid flashbacks, Mixed Anxiety and Depression, Dyslexia, Agoraphobia, Suicidal Intent, Ideology and Thoughts, An Eating Disorder, Body Dysphoria, Insomnia.
Osteoarthritis, Joint Hypermobility Syndrome (being re-accessed as Ehlers Danlos Syndrome) Fibromyalgia, Tinnitus, Asthma, A Miscellaneous Liver Issue, Back problems that have at times debilitated me for days (I've slipped a disc twice), Something along the AuDHD spectrum (proved it just waiting for the checkbox to be ticked),
I think im gunna make a trauma list too, since I think it would show people that I've been scarred deeply, but I keep on fighting.
