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[vampiremonday]

Do I really need one of these...?

I think I used to have a pinned post but unpinned it a couple of years ago in a fit of 'this is screaming into a void and nobody cares about who is providing them drops of dopamine'. I still think that's kind of true with the state of the internet and the world, but I decided to make another one as an exercise in introspection and to let anyone who wants to know a little more about me, since I'm trying to post fic and stuff again.

This is going to try and strike a balance between friendly and open disclosure and just giving someone a laundry list of all my trauma and squicks to exploit. I do not really believe in posting DNIs or lists of things for people to please tag for me, as I have been convinced that this is basically just bait for bad actors.

I'm generally anti-censorship, and believe fandom isn't activism, so I will not interact with people who carry on with "anti" rhetoric. If I notice someone doesn't want me to interact with them after the fact, I will back off, but I am not going to scour your blog for a list of rules before interacting with an individual post. Ship and let ship. Art is allowed to exist. You are responsible for your own online environment (and if you aren't, I assume you need an adult that isn't me). Occasionally, I enjoy art with some themes that a lot of antis tend to write off as inherently wrong to portray or like. It is not even close to the majority of what I enjoy, but if it's here, it'll be warned for, and it is your job to avoid your squicks.

If you wanna know more about me, please read. Interacting with the post with a like if you read it or something is also nice but not demanded.

☆✭✰ About. ✰✭☆. ⁺ ✦ * . ˚. ⁺ ✦ ‧ ‧₊ .:･˚˚₊˚✧₊

Call me Prix. AFAB and mostly perceived as cis, gender-ambivalent. Often okay with being a girl or woman, but I also want to be an anime boy sometimes. I'm in my mid-30s. I've been doing online fandom since I was 11 or 12. I remember when it wasn't weird for adult people, especially women, to make up the majority of the vocal fandom that I was in. Therefore, I'm not going to tell minors not to interact at all. However, minors should not interact with adults about adult topics unless it's to ask trusted adults questions, so if I find someone interacting with me about a topic I find inappropriate based on age or any other context, I'll block you. I am going to assume that most people who want to interact with my online content are peers, meaning that I presume most people reading my stuff are adults, and I will behave accordingly.

I rarely engage with political or current events on here. Doesn't mean I am not engaged. I just try to separate this into a space that I can relax, have fun, and think about other things. That said, I am not a safe person for people who are in favor of genocide or far-right poison.

I'm a progressive, LGBTQIA(-affirming) Christian. I am still working on deconstructing some of the conservative Christian theology I grew up with that I have not directly confronted or figured out through developing my political identity, so I am not always super vocal about it on here, but if you are interested in perusing or filtering, you can look at #religion and #christianity

This blog comes and goes, as does its contents. I am a very fandom-centric person, so you will often see whatever I am into in the moment. I have a handful of specific sideblogs, but it varies as to whether or not I will post stuff on main.

Currently kind of into nostalgic emo/scene/whimsigoth stuff.

If there's anything else someone would like to know, just ask?

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I am pretty good about tagging stuff, so an exhaustive tag list would be completely impractical. In general, I tag common nouns as plurals. Here are some useful or commonly-used tags:

general. #funny / #personal tag real name tba / #animals / #tumblr (about the interface, use, current tumblr-specific events, features, etc) / #tumblr culture / #internet culture / #pretty pictures / #me / #mood / #art / #fanart / #writing / #writing process / #employment / #adulting / #neat stuff / #poetry / #inspiration / #shipping / #tropes / #fandom culture / #fandom history / #replies / #tumblr polls / #mine

You can also find my carrd and my dreamwidth and my AO3.

fandom.

In general, I just use the name of the fandom or character. Specific abbreviations I can remember using are: #mdzs (all iterations of the story about Wei Wuxian and co), #btvs (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), #sg1 (Stargate SG-1), #bnha (My Hero Academia), #pmmm (I can't remember if I've even posted about this on this blog but Puella Magi Madoka Magica). For anime fandoms, I sometimes use the Western name order but usually default to the Japanese one. For Death Note in particular, I use the Western one because that fandom has in-universe reasons to at times. I tag ship-specific posts with a tag for the ship and don't always put the individual character names.

I never post anything with no tags at all, so try your luck to see if I've ever posted about any topic you can imagine. Sometimes I make tags deliberately unindexed if it's just there to trip filters such as mentioning a common squick.

sideblogs.

Some of these were set up on a wish and a prayer. Some of them are more vested with actual posts. If they exist, it is probably because at some point I was particularly motivated to contribute heavily to the fandom, but whether or not I ever did is also anyone's guess to be invested or inquired about on AO3. If you check one out and it's dead, nudge me about it with an ask or something, and you might be the change you want to see.

@couslandofhighever - an actual separate account for a Dragon Age blog that I was really active on during 2020 but not so much now but do still occasionally check on. If and when I replay, might be more active.

@prixmiumarchive - my original tumblr blog from 2011 until I kind of quit in 2018

@prixmiumcontent - a sideblog where I posted a few long-form Doctor Who episode meta posts/reviews that I intended to eventually use to do a lot of other media posts about. I have gotten some good feedback on the posts I wrote, but I stopped because my old computer broke, and I stopped making gifs. I was originally making a gifset to go with each of the posts I made but got irritated that the easy-to-consume images got a lot more notes than the actual posts.

@millenniumblog - my YuGiOh sideblog that is my most successful sideblog venture. Apparently, I am a good YuGiOh post curator. I get back into YuGiOH DM a couple itmes a decade and make actual original posts. I'm really into it for the chracters and worldbuilding concepts, but learning the actual rules of trading card games hurts my brain.

@districtxii - sideblog I made during my most recent Hunger Games fandom relapse. I also intend for it to be a sort of Appalachian themed thing and talk about things like Old Gods of Appalachia and so on if I ever get around to it.

@dyinginlasvegas - for a minute in late 2019/early 2020, I was writing this Fallout: New Vegas fanfic that I was really confident and excited about. Then, life changed, and I stopped working on it. Ever since, I have thought about going back to it, and this is kind of an aesthetic blog that I intended to help me with that. So it's like a FNV sideblog but very vibes-only and has few posts.

@paimondotcom - Genshin Impact sideblog that will also be general Hoyo I guess with the addition of Honkai: Star Rail if I ever get more active on it.

☆✭✰ Likes & Dislikes. ✰✭☆. ⁺ ✦ * . ˚. ⁺ .:˚₊˚✧₊

fandom.

I'm into a bunch of stuff, and it is rare that I completely sour or bore of a fandom. When I first started this blog, I was still really into Type Moon/Fate. I haven't been in a few years, but as mentioned, I rarely hate things I used to be active in. Some current, recent, or unexhausted fandoms include:

Death Note ☆ Honkai: Star Rail ☆ Gensin Impact ☆ Trigun (esp. Stampede; I have not yet seen Stargaze) ☆ John Dies at the End (books/the author) ☆ MDZS (I was watching the live action but am now watching the animated, neither quite finished) ☆ Boku no Hero Academia ☆ Haikyuu ☆ YuGiOh Duel Monsters ☆ Dragon Age (esp 2) ☆ Frieren ☆ AMC IWTV

While not very active in them anymore, I used to be very into Doctor Who and Stargate SG-1. I also like Type Moon in a general sense. I like documentary shows and podcasts. I watch a lot of YouTube about various topics. I am terrible at finishing things, but I don't really care much about most spoilers.

Death Note has very quickly become the fandom I have been most-active in on this particular tumblr account. That kind of came out of nowhere and blindsided me. I am excited, but understand that this blog is a very subject-to-change experience.

general likes.

Space and Stars and Mountains / Food / Dogs and Wolves / Staying at Home / Being in Airports / Cool > Hot / Salty > Sweet

general dislikes.

Pineapple / Hot, Humid Weather

[animentality]

[golfgalaxy]

y’all still beat your meat? lol

[yassmines]

what do u beat

[golfgalaxy]

evildoers

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[cobwebkitten-deactivated2020101]

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- anything!!!!

[kynvillingur-deactivated2026021]

guy sitting in front of me in class was vandalizing wikipedia and i kept reverting his edits as soon as he made them and he couldn't figure out why it was happening

[kynvillingur-deactivated2026021]

absolutely

[ID: a tag by weirdlizard26, reading, “ive never seen death note but i think this is what death note is”. /end ID]

[bamkoon]

[pronoun-note]

he reeks of omega pheromones

[azspot]

“Because the truth is, tech doesn’t have an image problem. It doesn’t have a message problem. It has an intention problem. What’s wrong with the axe murderer who broke into my house is not that he hasn’t successfully persuaded me to buy into his narrative. What’s wrong is that he’s trying to kill me with an axe. Similarly, when you launch a product that’s designed to put millions of people out of work, block access to sources of verifiable truth, replace human creativity with slop, and lower the barriers to every sort of atrocity, the problem isn’t that you haven’t told the public a good story about those things. The problem is that you are trying to do them.”

— The 40 Most Rage-Inducing Problems in Tech

[scarecrowbutch]

[curiositysavesthecat]

Do you think it's weird and/or predatory for a 13 year-old and a 30 year-old to be best friends if they're not family members or related by blood? Assuming everything is innocent and platonic. Nothing romantic or sexual.

Yes, it's weird and predatory

It's weird. But not predatory

It's predatory. But not weird

No, it's not weird or predatory

Remaining time: 5 days 9 hours

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[creelson]

unpopular opinion but I don't think there's anything weird or predatory about an innocent friendship

[dianxiacantastemolecules]

The question is why the fuck is a thirty year old hanging out with a 13 year old if not in their family?? The only other relation that could have them interact is through teacher/student and bring friends like that would be weird as fuck

[creelson]

found family? the kid not feeling safe in their house? the adult wanting to help? family / teacher / school isn't always a guaranteed safe place. should the kid and adult each have friends that are their own age too? sure. but if their friendship is genuinely innocent then I think the problem isn't them but people who project their weird and predatory thoughts onto them

[the-bar-sinister]

Don't forget shared hobbies?

A 13 year old and a 30 year old could reasonably meet at a tabletop gaming store, a fiber arts group, a book club....

[audacityinblack]

They could literally just be neighbors. This whole isolationist thing of never even talking to the people you live closest to is new and weird.

[mstrickynici]

The thing that makes it weird is the "best" friend. If it's just friends ok, but best friends requires some form of equality.

Like theres no question the kid could go to the adult with their problems or if they need help, but you can't expect a kid to deal with an adults problems and/or be their emotional support.

Being best friends doesn't just involve having fun together, its helping each other as well.

[decemberwinter]

I mean my best friend is literally my cat so

imo "best friend" isn't necessarily always about someone you can reply on emotionally or someone you must share your experience or your trauma with. if you have a good time and are comfortable with their presence then you can consider them your best friend. that's why I voted not weird or predatory.

it would be weird if the adult started trauma dumping on the kid. but this poll didn't say anything about that so the best friend part alone is still not weird or predatory

[miranova23]

Husband and I run a homebrew D&D campaign through the library (he DMs & I play a Bard as the "Charisma leader & support" roles), so we've been "hanging out" at these sessions with the same table of middle schoolers for like 2 years. We work, plan, scheme, and goof around together, with our own inside jokes now. There's still an acknowledgement of authority for the sake of table order, but yeah we're friends.

1 of them is particularly attached & invested, because there was another DM in the room you have to go through to get to ours, & that DM (probably twice our age!) would always bother us & misgender this 1 kid. Kid is indeed trans, but if you ask me, like 100% passes, especially for a 13yo. We corrected him 3 separate times max, but then he literally argued with us, among other immature annoyances. We got the old man kicked out of the program. Kid has never missed a session. 🤗

[vampiremonday]

Teacher chiming in: As a teacher, I have learned (over time) how to have boundaries with students whom I have a friendly rapport with where I don't feel like we are friends. When I first started as a teacher, it was actually kind of hard to do that, because in your 20s, it's actually pretty easy to still be friends with people in their mid and late teens.

In other contexts, I am sure I still could be.

I think that it's great that the present generations are a lot more consciously aware of problematic power dynamics that can exist between children and adults, but I think it is bonkers that we are trying to segregate children and adult social spaces to the point that people think the only reasons adults would interact with children and teens are "being legally responsible for", "teaching" or "grooming" them.

I am not friends with my students, because I need to be fair to them. I need to be objective, and I need to focus. I am also busy when I'm at work. But if I just knew them in a D&D group or in some other context, I absolutely would be friends with some of my students. I even sometimes wish that they would, like, ask me for a Letter of Recommendation or something as they cease being high schoolers, leading to the possibility of friendship.

I wouldn't say we're friends, but I am Facebook friends with one student from my first year of teaching whom I now respect as a young adult. I didn't add him back until after he was 18 and out of school, so the friend request was there in my inbox for YEARS, but he just wanted to reach out and apologize to me for how rough that cohort of kids was on me. He's smart and a sane dot in a very MAGA area.

When I was a teenager myself, I was online friends with a lot of young women who knew I was a teenager. One specific thing I remember is being a part of this Doctor/Rose shipping community that was shippier than the main comm and so therefore invite-only because they didn't like people who only saw Doctor/Rose through a gen-lens, and the main comm was for gen and shippy content. Looking back, I think that sort of values-testing in that environment taught me both positive fandom behaviors and sort of made me develop "oh, this feels kind of ew" radar for certain things I experienced in that community. But it was really cool for me to talk to women who had jobs, kids, families, who were still in fandom when I was sixteen or whatever.

Teenagers need to have adults who are not authority figures to them to talk to as well.

Sure, we need to keep kids safe, and I think it's perfectly valid for adults to choose not to interact with minors from a self-protective standpoint, but I still just think it's insane that we act like adults and minors are different species

As someone else pointed out, though, I think that an adult and a child being best friends would require there to be a sense of equality or great common ground, so I think it would require extraordinary circumstances. So, it's weird, but it isn't inherently predatory.

[levonsnape-deactivated20230929]

I love The Golden Girls.

[gholateg]

Ya’ll don’t have any idea how fucking brave and needed these plot lines were.

This was before Ellen came out.

This was before civil unions.

This was before Don’t Ask Don’t Tell.

This was when your ass could be fired, blacklisted, and shunned with no legal protections for even being hinted at being gay.

And the Golden Girls said “Fuck you, Fuck this, we’re doing it anyway.”

[silenthillmutual]

I think it should be noted that Blanche’s quote about AIDS is also “It is not god punishing people for their sins” and that the episode also deals with slutshaming.

[darkravn]

I don’t know if people realize how much activism these women did for gay right and during the aids crisis. If you think about it they were all long established in Hollywood and Broadway. They had tons of friends personally affected and dealing with the aids crisis. Estelle Getty lost a nephew. I think they helped plant seeds in people who watched Golden Girls that helped make things a little more normalized and mainstream.

[goth-queen]

[tj-crochets]

My grandma just called and, among other things, said “You have hips. That’s good! Men like hips!” and then she interrupted herself to say “Women like hips. People of your preferred gender like hips. I can never remember”  And I was like “Thanks grandma! My preferred gender is none of them, no thanks.” and she was like “Okay, no one will comment on your hips!” very self satisfied, like “aha, I have figured it out” I think like half her grandkids are some variety of not-straight and she can’t always remember which is which but she is the epitome of like “she’s a little confused, but she’s got the spirit!”

[tj-crochets]

Update: I gave it some thought and my estimate was wrong. Of the grandkids that are out, it’s 1/3, not ½

[tj-crochets]

I told my grandma that I’d told my friends about what she said and that some of y’all had said you wished she was your grandma, and she said “Well, you can never have too many grandkids!”  So like…consider her your honorary grandma* I guess? *if you want an honorary grandma, that is

[tj-crochets]

Update on my grandma: I told her my hair was standing up, but instead of straight line it was diagonal and she said “That’s okay, you’ve never been straight!” and then laughed so hard at her own joke I thought she was going to drop the phone

[tj-crochets]

Happy almost pride month! Have my confused-but-supportive grandma!

[tj-crochets]

An update: my grandma just called me to ask if I knew it was pride month

[tj-crochets]

Happy pride month!!

[dumpitos]

the cure aesthetic ; like if save or use

[catchyvideos]

OP theaverycottage on TikTok ♡

[porterr-robinson]

[nightmare-grass]

Why is this the funniest thing I’ve ever seen

[wasdplz]

can’t remember if i’ve reblogged this before but i stumbled across it again at 9pm and am sitting here cryIN G, SO

[ink--poison]

How the fuck did the entire internet’s sense of humor make one hell of a 180 in 7 years?

[crittizen]

Okay but I love how “me and the boys at 2 am looking for BEANS” actually became a meme after this video.

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[macleod]

How to Use Torrents (with Pictures) - wikiHow

An expert guide to get started using torrentsTorrents are one of the most popular forms of file sharing on the internet, accounting for over

always use qbittorrent, do not use bittorrent or utorrent.