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we gotta get back into revolving bookcases i'm begging
truly we allow the pinnacles of human achievement to wither and collapse into ashes in the wind
so many. stupid fucking people. smugly wrong. the term . "all art is political". does not mean. every artist puts political intent into their work. no. the guy drawing dicks on the subway did not intend any deep message by it. HOWEVER. all art. IS political. he chose to draw that dick. for a reason. society shaped what he finds funny. what he finds shocking. the fact he chose to draw a dick at all says something about his society. actually, the fact it is a dick and not a pussy is itself political. we are all. ALL. shaped by our environments. in an alternate universe a woman is drawing a vulva on the wall. and shes saying "TCH! this isnt political. stupid liberals". all art. has political CONTEXT. that is a more specific way to phrase it. because we live in a society. who has access to art? where is the art located? who is the artist? why did they draw that in that specific location. what led to them even having the sharpie they used to draw the dick to begin with. their society shaped their tools! their society shaped their choice of subject! their society shaped the location of their art! but these people are too stupid to understand this. so theyll continue pretending that they are not shaped by their political environment. SAD!
out of all the posts ive made that have blown up this has to be the most fascinating Given how i was too drunk to remember how to form full sentences. but was i wrong? no.
its important to me that all you in the notes saying "i love how this is written like a trump tweet" understand that when i say "SAD" i am actually referencing this mcr post
which is, to be fair, likely referencing those trump tweets. but the distinction matters to me. they dropped frankie airo into the bong and smoked him. SAD.
Looking through old notepad files on my PC #9
Talking Cats
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ohhh i DEEPLY regret teaching my cat how to talk kawaii-kozume
Oh? Would you elaborate? saturniata
okay so one night like a week or two ago kurt was meowing at me and one of the meows sounded like he was saying “hewwo” so since then I started saying “hewwo” instead of meowing back at him (like I do with all his cat sounds, naturally) and slowly his meows evolved into something vaguely “hewwo”like with the one or two True and Powerful Hewwo’s a day
but now that you have backstory I was just standing in my kitchen making rice, everythings dead silent, and suddenly this fucking “HEWWO??” echoes through the whole apartment and it almost killed me Avatar evilauthor
I actually got in huge trouble with my fiance’s sister for that. One night, I heard Fish meowing and it kinda sounded like she was saying “hello” so I decided to encourage it. If no one was going to try to get the cat to stop screaming at 3am, I wanted to try to get her to scream words so everyone would be as disturbed about it as I was. For the better part of three years, I used treats to reward her whenever she “spoke” while not letting anyone else know I was trying to teach her stuff.
One day, my fiance’s sister goes to give Fish a treat and the cat whiffs it. Misses the treat completely and it bounces under the fridge, so she’s trying to stick her paw under to get it back.
“Oh no, Fish. You lost your snack!”
“I know I know.”
Instant chaos. It wasn’t even Fish’s best words. If she had only said it once, maybe no would have noticed, but the repetition got attention and everyone just lost it. I made the mistake of praising Fish and suddenly I have the sister turn on me. “Are you why she says ‘oh no’ all the time?” Apparently Fish rarely “meows” properly anymore and will say “Oh no” whenever she’s mildly inconvenienced and wants a human to fix it for her. Avatar kyluxlovechild
My kitty knows “Hello” and “Mama” which she says when it’s very very late and she wants me in bed.
The aromantic agenda is a good one.
Go and think about what kinds of relationships you want. Don't think about labels like romantic or platonic or sexual, think purely about what relationships would make you happiest.
When I realized I was aromantic, I was asked things like "Would you still date? Would you have a QPR? Will you ever kiss?"
But the aromantic community didn't ask that. Instead, they focused on "What do you want in a world where anything is possible?"
And I realized I want to be alone, surrounded by friends and family I love who are close enough, I can bring them fresh baked scones when I overbake.
They asked me "What do you want?" and the question was so broad, I could weigh labels in my hand like queerplatonic partner and nonpartnering and significant other. I could look at these and shrug and say, "What I want is to not worry about questions I don't care about." I could shelve these indefinitely. Maybe even forever. And just enjoy being myself.
The aromantic community celebrates exploration. Tells people asking if they are aromantic, "This is a personal decision. Your personal decision. If this label helps you, take it. If this community helps you, stay as long as you need. You don't have to be labelled anything, aromantic or otherwise, unless it would bring you comfort. You don't have to be anything you aren't."
It's a good community with good philosophies born from a unique experience, not rooted in missing out, but in being forced to consider what you want when you don't want what's expected.
but how do i stop thinking about the decade i wasted before i got adhd meds? now it's too late for me to do the things i was passionate about like get a black belt or run a marathon.
First, I’m not a therapist. This is not mental health advice, this is just personal observations from a life I have lived.
First, I’m going to do you the courtesy of assuming your assessment is accurate, and you cannot do those things anymore. If this is more of a feeling than a fact, consider working towards those goals now even if you think you might not reach them. But, assuming you’re correct…
I think to a certain extent, grief has to run its course. I cannot ease your pain. When you think of it, it will hurt until it hurts less. I’m sorry. I’m sorry this happened to you.
However, we start to think about the past less when we are thinking about the present and the future. You are clearly capable of deep, long term passions. I doubt that these goals are the only things in the world that can inspire this passion in you.
There is so much to learn, so much to do, and so much to care about. I don’t know enough about your interests and abilities to recommend something specific, but I do recommend you look for something new. Something you’ve never thought about before, and some things you have, and maybe old things you’ve forgotten.
Libraries are wonderful resources, and in the US (where I live, so all I can speak to), they have tons of other resources people often don’t know about. They have digital resources like ebooks, music, television, and movies. Some libraries have shared tools. Hell, some have 3D printers! There are tons of other options too, but I can’t resist plugging your local library for free or low cost exploration.
Try a bunch of things. Whatever catches your eye! You’re free to explore. Do multiple things at once. Fill your days with things to look forward to, and when you find something that can inspire these feelings of dedication and pursuit, you now have more support and more tools to help you get there. Give yourself so much to like today that you have less and less time left for yesterday.
Things don’t shift overnight. But I hope this gave you ideas to start off with. I hope we both can find peace and excitement in the things we can do today. 💝
As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.
This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.
I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.
I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!
And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??
If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.
Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.
So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.
And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.
Minas Tirith Sandcastle
A Minas
Tirith
Sand
Castle
So goes Denethor, son of Ecthelion.
*throws crab off the top*
this is amazing
absolutely flabbergasting to see people who have so enthusiastically succumbed to despair. like okay denethor, but some of us are gonna actually face the armies of mordor in battle nonetheless.
The thing about Denethor is that he not only succumbed to despair, he wanted to ensure that Faramir succumbed with him. Similarly, a lot of people now are not only succumbing to despair, they're actively proselytizing despair, trying to convince others to join them in their hopelessness. Despair is apparently lonely and they want company in their self-immolation.
btw denethor succumbed to despair bc he was doomscrolling on the palantir. Sauron tweaked his algorithm so he only saw bad news, and he fell into the trap of thinking the world couldn't be saved.
Had been a horrible year in terms of gaining anykind of good employment or getting some earning device into Motion.
Started the year mentally and fiscally broke, at least now only a lil mentally and still fiscally broke
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for those who don’t remember, “mole interest” was an experiment I did 2 years ago because I wanted to test what causes tags to go trending on tumblr. My hypothesis was that all it takes is one (1) post blowing up in an established tag to make the entire tag trend.
I had randomly generated 2 words, which is where “mole interest” came from. I failed to consider that by generating a new tag, it wouldn’t have had enough posts already in it to prove what I now call “the mole interest effect”.
But now it does.
In 2023, we said “fuck it” a la mythbusters and ended up doing whatever it took to get #mole interest to trend. And it did. And it happened to be September 11th that day, and we managed to get #mole interest to trend ABOVE #9/11.
So, in the name of science, I ask you to reblog just this post. Let’s put the mole interest effect to the test.
hot take here but the way people talk about “redemption arcs” and how they require that the sinner repent, debase himself, and then atone for his sins in order to be accepted back into the warmth of readers’ love, but there are some unforgivable sins for which no atonement is enough
is INCREDIBLY culturally christian
i understand how redemption arcs are christian bc forgiveness is extremely important for xtians but ig it’s op’s tone that throws me off??? like it’s not a hot take tho ppl in the notes seem to think it is i agree w op it’s v reflective of xtianity ideology so idk why ppl are so confused about that part i grew up in the church since i was 7 so i would know lol but op makes it sound derogatory so ig that’s why i’m puzzled i understand that having a hegemonic religion like christianity so strongly influence tropes could be frustrating for non-xtians but is there something else i’m missing i’m not being sarcastic btw i’m genuinely wondering (from @glockpaperscissors )
(First, yeah, the fact that it’s based in xtian ideology isn’t, like, actually debatable. But I knew that people would find it so, and, indeed, quite a lot of people have tried to debate it.)
It’s not meant to sound derogatory, actually. My issue isn’t with the arc itself. That’s a perfectly valid way to write a villain-to-hero arc! And it’s certainly not with the entire concept of something being based in xtian ideology - plenty of nice things are based in xtian ideology.
My issue is with how many people believe that this is the only valid way to write a villain-to-hero arc. Because they’re embedded in a culturally xtian framework, they’ve internalized that ideology as the only acceptable way to approach justice and morality.
As with many cultural xtian things, a lot of people think they’re universal, and don’t even realize other cultures or religions approach things different ways. (Let alone realize that potential other approaches could be equally valid.)
My goal here is simply to help people realize that this formula for an arc is, in fact, a product of a particular culture. Which means that there may also be other options for formulas, and, indeed, those other options could be just as good.
hot take here but the way people talk about “redemption arcs” and how they require that the sinner repent, debase himself, and then atone for his sins in order to be accepted back into the warmth of readers’ love, but there are some unforgivable sins for which no atonement is enough
is INCREDIBLY culturally christian
Another fascinating thing about responses to this post: whether they’re agreeing with me or disagreeing, whether they think people’s insistence on this arc is good or bad, a huge portion of people use the word “forgiveness” and center their entire response to this post around it.
Please observe that I never once used the word “forgiveness” - although I should have, because the idea that forgiveness is a necessity for ceasing-to-be-a-sinner, and indeed that forgiveness is the primary goal, is itself christian.
I have at no point in the original post or in any of my further discussion of it said that the end goal, or even a significant feature of, a villain-to-hero arc was forgiveness.
Yet everyone who thinks this arc is indeed the only valid option phrases their arguments in terms like “Would you forgive someone who didn’t…”
Maybe I would - maybe I wouldn’t! But I never said anything about forgiveness being a requirement!
And everyone who wants to tell me that Christians Don’t Think Like This, Actually, says it in terms of “But Jesus forgives everyone, all you have to do is repent and you will be forgiven.” …okay great who says the characters need to be forgiven, why is it RELEVANT whether Jesus would forgive them or not - unless you’re operating in a Christian framework where God’s Forgiveness is a central feature of your belief system.
People who agree that yes, this is a culturally christian thing, and further believe that another form of arc would be superior, are saying “you should be able to just stop doing bad things and only do good things, and that should be enough for you to be forgiven” - okay you got the spirit but why do we have to be forgiven.
Forgiveness - as least as it is being used in this context - is someone else granting salvation to you. It is someone else absolving you of your guilt. It is you having shown someone else that you are worthy now, and them casting judgement upon you, and then agreeing that you are enough better than you were before.
Why does someone else get to sit in judgement and decide if you’re a good person now? Who besides a god stands in that position of omniscience and moral superiority and moral infallibility?
What if a character chooses to end his life of villainy, anonymously transfer all his ill-gotten gains to those he harmed, and devote the rest of his life to curing cancer alone in a lab on a deserted island, finally releasing his cure anonymously on his deathbed. No other character even has any idea this has happened; they all figure he just died or went into hiding. No one has forgiven him. Does that mean he’s still a villain?
What if all the other characters have hardened hearts for whatever reason, and no matter how much penance the ex-villain does, even if he only did one tiny bad act and then spent years in pain in punishment and then spent decades saving the world over and over at great personal cost, they will never, ever forgive him? Does that mean he’s still a villain?
What if everyone he personally wronged died in an accident, he was the only survivor, it was that shock that caused his change of heart, so everybody he knows now loves him and knows him only as a hero, but the people he hurt can never forgive him? Is he still a villain?
On the other side, if, say, a child continuously forgives their abusive parent, does that mean the parent isn’t a villain?
Forgiveness does not have a one to one correlation with goodness. In either direction.
I am concerned that what people are doing is translating “…in order to be accepted back into the warmth of readers’ love” as “be forgiven by the readers” (which is not inaccurate, in terms of the christian framework) and then all agreeing that yes, that should indeed be the central goal of every villain-to-hero arc. Which opens a WILD can of worms.
Because that means - We, as the readers, are in the position of gods to the characters, casting judgement upon them, looking into their hearts and deciding whether We will grant forgiveness to the characters for the wrongs they have done to others.
Like. Aside from all the other implications. At the point where you are granting someone forgiveness for something they did to someone else, something’s gone very wrong. Assuming you’re not, in fact, actually yourself a deity.
But also for people to make translation of “…warmth of readers’ love” to “readers’ forgiveness” you have to already be assuming that we can’t love a character if we haven’t forgiven them for every wrong they’ve done. And that wouldn’t even be true if they were a real person, and super duper isn’t true if they’re fictional. I love my mother with all my heart. I’ll also never forgive her for what she did to me and my brother. Forgiveness and love are two separate emotional axes and one does not imply anything about the other.
Look. Here’s some advice for actual real life. You don’t need to forgive someone to let them participate in society. You don’t need to forgive someone to love them. And you DEFINITELY don’t need to forgive them for them to be a good person. Whether they’re a good person is in their heart - not yours.
I’m too tired right now to give an answer to this from an overarching point of view, but here’s how it relates to my personal experiences of abuse:
First, it’s the narrative I would have liked for my abuser (now deceased, so tenses will be tricky here). I have never had any intention of forgiving them; however, in an ideal scenario, they would have stopped abusing people, and been able to go on to heal and recover from their own abuse and mental illness.
Something I very much do NOT want would be for them to continue to engage with me in order to “try to make reparations” (not possible, and if it were, I would NOT want to spend enough time with them for it to be so) or “get forgiveness” (they won’t, and at that point it’s a guilt trip on me).
I do, however, recognize that they hurt me because of their own pain, and I pity them, and wish they could have had a better life.
Two, a central feature of my abuser’s “abuser mentality” was that, once some offense has been made (not doing a chore to satisfaction, crying and upsetting people, eating without permission, etc):
a) The “offender” (in this case victim) must “take responsibility”; any attempt to explain (such as “I am a child and physically not capable of doing that”, “I am crying because you are hurting me,” or “I didn’t know I wasn’t supposed to do that, I was allowed to eat yesterday”) is an “excuse” and is “not accepting responsibility”.
b) The “offender” (victim) must then continuously debase themself (“apologize” in degrading ways, accept being called assorted slurs/curse words as appropriate descriptors, etc).
c) The “offender” (victim) should be punished/ experience pain/go through the getting-hurt-because-they-“deserve”-it part of the arc.
d) This should all continue until such time as the “offender” (victim) is forgiven - until forgiven, the “offender” should continuously apologize, be punished, and accept emotional abuse as deserved. Also, obviously the “offender” can’t be loved until they are forgiven.
e) Since no one has to forgive someone else/forgiveness is not on a timeline, this means the previous step can occur indefinitely. I can be in my twenties and still “deserve” physical and emotional abuse because of something I did as a small child, because I was never “forgiven” for it. It can be fully appropriate to never be loved by my parents because I can’t be loved until I am forgiven.
So… that’s where I’m coming from, here.
As it applies to real people, I figure I’d rather everyone receive compassion and healing than anyone be treated as above.
And if you want some people to be made to debase themselves and wait on others’ forgiveness and so forth, but not others, then someone has to decide which is which - who is actually an abuser and who is being abused? And… frankly I trust the people who don’t want to cause pain and debasement, more than the people who do, to not be abusers working the system or peoples’ sympathies to their own gain.
Someone hurting others, apologizing and “making it up to them”, and being forgiven, and then hurting them again, is the classic cycle of abuse. Apologies and forgiveness and reparations don’t stop that, they’re part of it.
On the other hand, if someone is no longer hurting others, then… great. That is unqualifiedly a good thing. Full stop.
There’s a post floating around about how Zuko not telling the Gaang how he got his scar reflects him “taking accountability” for his actions, instead of manipulating them by guilt-tripping them and placing responsibility onto Ozai, his adult abuser.
There are some replies to it pointing out that in general Zuko tends to not be manipulative (or lie) even when it would serve him, and explanations offered for this ranging from the Watsonian (largely “he’s autistic” and variants thereupon) to the Doylist (“he’s being narratively contrasted with very manipulative Azula”). Some other comments about him not wanting to share private trauma with people he doesn’t know well.
But in this particular case I don’t actually think it’s any of that, really, from Zuko’s point of view, because the most fundamental thing of it is that he’s an abused kid.
People don’t tend to appreciate how much growing up surrounded by the language of abuse, and/or in a culture of abuse (as Zuko was - dozens of people saw Ozai burn him, and none objected), affects you. It’s not just about the trauma directly. It’s about being forcibly taught that this is normal and deserved to the degree that you genuinely don’t realize most of the world doesn’t.
It’s about casually mentioning things about your childhood and everyone responding with shock and horror, and you being confused, because you had no idea that was yet another thing about your life that wasn’t normal. It’s about how you eventually realize you just can’t talk about the first couple decades of your life at all without being accused of trauma-dumping and guilt-tripping and manipulation, being punished again for failing to protect others from the discomfort of hearing second-hand about something you had to live through with a child’s body.
And the thing is? Zuko isn’t at that last sentence’s point yet, when we see him with the Gaang. He’s before that, at the “does not yet realize this isn’t normal” point. We know this, because of how he responds to Iroh at the end: kneeling in front of him waiting for punishment. He doesn’t think abuse is abnormal; he thinks it’s a natural and deserved response to his poor behavior, so thoroughly that he believes even Iroh would do it. All the way to the end of the show! (After he’s had any opportunity to say anything to the Gaang!)
Whether he would choose to explain his scar to the Gaang if he knew it would make them like/forgive him is a moot point. He had no idea that it would. With his frame of reference, he assumed their reactions would be somewhere in the range of “yeah, why are you whining about something that normal and mundane, I don’t bore you with stories of how Gyatso used airbending to punish me” to “dang, how badly did you fuck up to deserve that? you must be even worse a person than we realized” to “he went easy on you and should’ve done worse”.
It would never occur to him to share the scar story to get the Gaang to like/forgive him, because he has no way to know that they would react with shock and horror instead of dismissal or putting even more blame on him.
As part of her social media detox this girl on YouTube made herself do one hour of understimulating tasks every day and she just counted rice for 60 minutes straight because its no different from doomscrolling in terms of wasted time
When I say this changed my life. Every time I'm on my phone I ask myself Is this different from counting rice for one hour ? and if the answer is no I go find something else to do. It works well because it's not about conforming to productivity standards or about moralizing digital hobbies it's just an honest reflection on whether tomorrow I will be glad I spent my time this way and then acting accordingly. The rice paradigm
"Bisexuality itself is inherently resistant to heteronormative frameworks. Because gatekeeping is shortsighted and unbecoming. Because desire and understanding do not always go hand in hand. The project of identifying false or performative queerness is dead in the water. Do not trouble yourself to rescue it. Do not grieve at its graveside. Kiss someone. Fuck someone. Think about fucking someone while kissing someone else. Let sex be unknowable, warm, thrilling, funny, erotic, terrifying."
-"Both Ways" by Carmen Maria Machado from It Came From The Closet: Queer Reflections on Horror edited by Joe Vallese
Am I the delusional one in trying to see that young people like me and my peers in my country will take up responsibility for their future? Future with greenery, more peaceful and safe streets, better education and more? When half of the young population of my country is out, grinding and churning themselves for some semblance of value/worth? When they are all just tired of the parents and the culture that demands relentlessly from them, from us, to fulfill some archaic ideas of duties towards family??