I'm okay.. I'm okay...

Ven | 28 | Genderfluid | Emotional Wreck | Loner

[vhentin]

It's crowded inside my head -

- one shot should clear up some space..

[vhentin]

My person decided to go back to the person they cheated on me with. Just friends they told me. How utterly disappointing.. backstabbed yet again and left to feel as if I am the villain. Is it so bad that I wanted them to prove they wouldn't hurt me again?

[sa-dnesss]

and just like that, I’m back in the same place I fought so hard to get out of

[jealous-bitch]

Same as always.

[vhentin]

Always.

[obsessedtillidie]

A bullet in my head would be less traumatic than me waking up everyday

[vhentin]

I do believe in God because only God would work this hard to keep me away from you.

[jupitertears3]

i get so sad when i remember

[vhentin]

I wish we had self destruct buttons.. cause I can't do this shit anymore.

[neglectedmutt]

i feel like a bird that flew into a glass window i never saw it coming

[vhentin]

ᴶᵘˢᵗ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵈⁱᶜᵏ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵃ ⁿᵃᵖ

[voidspacesystem]

i feel like im screaming into a void i wish i could talk to people better i hate that I cant keep a conversation open

[jealous-bitch]

What I would give to have good social skills and hold a conversation.

[silent-insanities]

You were my favorite moment in time.

[expiredfrillycake]

one day ill disappear and you'll just think im offline

one day you'll be mad at me for one last time

one day ill just stop talking to you

one day ill just stop being annoying

one day ill just stop

[vhentin]

Violently Ill

I have long since forgotten the feeling of a blade slicing into my skin. How I've missed the sight of my own blood pushing through my flesh, dripping down my arm into the sink and dying the water red.. a deep dark red. The sight of my life slowly being washed away. I have all but forgotten the pungent copper scent that lingers in my nose. Running my fingers across the cuts, how they protrude from my skin, the slight burning sensation.. This. This is the only thing I have full control over. No tears invade my eyes as I cut and cut and cut deeper, deeper into my flesh. The sound of the knife digging into my skin, as it slides across over and over. The sadness subsides and this moment is as close to peace as I'll ever be. And now, whenever I feel overwhelmed or feel as though the sickening sadness is attempting to strangle me.. I just cut more and I feel okay again. I'm okay. I'm okay, I promise.

[cryptid-corpse]

Pretending to be less mentally unwell than you are is exhausting. I just want 2 go feral, scream cry and kick

[s1ck-pup]

why does loneliness sit so heavy?

[vhentin]

Got my phone back today and saw someone tried to contact you about my wellbeing-

It was another gruesome reminder how while I stressed and worried myself sick about your suicide attempt, you couldn't care less if i broke my toe.

Thanks.

[vhentin]

Life update: still wanna die.