Vintage Aces System

Diagnosed D.I.D system of 8+♠️ Feel free to chat with us/ask us stuff!♠️ Only a few of us are active ♠️ Here to hopefully educate and help others/share our experiences of being a chaotic system♠️ Reblogging/posting daily D.I.D stuff plus random interests of ours♠️ I draw randomness of my alters/system

[vintageaces]

We've been working on drawing a new header for our profile for days and weeks now, finally finished it together and man, we love how it came out, it's definitely an upgrade from our old one. It doesn't have everyone in it, but mostly the main boys that are around/out sometimes -K/J/V

Honestly a pool setting was fitting.

Really loving how our art style is developing too 👍

[vintageaces]

We've been actively drawing, but man most of it is nsfw and crazy shit so, can't really post all our hard work 🥲

Trying to draw more normal stuff for once (maybe) -K/J

[vintageaces]

Man I really need to update my stuff on here, its been forever.

Anyways, have a drawing I did of Jake with that one meme photo. -K

[vintageaces]

Hello :) love your post about that monopoly game 😭😭 it must take so much self awareness and courage to be so vulnerable with someone in your life.

I have a genuinely naïve question to ask.

We’re you at one point misdiagnosed?

Do you know if it’s possible with someone who is highly manipulative and NP disordered to be misdiagnosed and actually have D.I.D.?

I think I fell for someone who had DID and I see a LOT of NPD related expressions.

How did you seek help?

Anyways. I hope I’m not offending you.

Hello there! Thank you for the ask. I'll try to answer it the best I can.

I appreciate that you liked our little monopoly post! I will admit it does take a lot of trust, communication and understanding to be open with other people about our disorder. Thankfully, I found exactly that when I first started dating my gf and now we're engaged! She's helped a lot along the way of our healing journey and some alters are best friends with her, obviously not everyone will get along though, some have their own ways going about things so yes it can be very hard at times.

For your question though, I have actually been misdiagnosed twice, one by a therapist who didn't know anything about dissociative disorders and labeled it as "anxiety" funny right? They are no where near close to the same time, anxiety and dissociative identity disorder (DID) cannot be compared. And lastly I got misdiagnosed by a psychiatrist and said I have schizo-affective bi-polar disorder. Yikes.

(sorry if this is a long reply btw)

We've been through multiple therapists and they all left us feeling more horrible than before so we felt like giving up till we found an actual therapist that specializes in DID so we thought to give it a try and guess what, we've been with him ever since. Almost going onto a year now and I'm grateful, but the others have their own opinions.

As for the other question, it's a bit more tricky to answer because with anyone who has any kind of disorder(s) there will be overlapping with symptoms, expressions, etc.

Try viewing it this way because every alter can have different mental disorders. So say the person you knew and suspected they had DID but also NPD chances are, they could have both or maybe one alter does, why the others don't, or maybe it's just NPD by itself to where they will do anything to manipulate you and lie/cover their actions by "saying it was an alter." It's quite complex.

As for our system we have 1-3 alters that have NPD all at different degrees, that doesn't mean we all have it though. I (the host) was abused by those sorts of people so I vowed to never give that kind of treatment to someone else/that I love. So if you're still in contact with that person, try communicating but also encourage them to go to therapy because everyone should want that for themselves and if they're not actively trying to better themselves and get help, please cut all contact with that person. If they get defensive over therapy, also a red flag. There's some people out there that are in denial and stuck in their ways. Doesn't mean you have to go through hard times dealing with that. Like I've said we have some alters that are in the wrong sometimes but as long as we go to therapy, that sets a better example.

I hope this helped!

[vintageaces]

Ahhh! The host was so kind enough to draw me a new pfp for my Instagram! I just wanted to share because I'm excited and he really captured ME! -V

Looking like the fine Lord I am~

[the-devils-dozen]

Yk that dissociative feeling when you look in the mirror and your reflection hits you like ?̷̭͚͈̪̋͋̕͝*̸͚̋̔͋8̷͔͓̬̰̞̍́̍̀̚k̷͕͙̺̙̜̐̎0̴̸̸̭̜͙͍̪̝̫̤̱͕̻͈͊̽̂̓̇̏̑͋̕͝=̷͔̬̭̫͆̾3̴̤̳̭̀͂̐f̷̺̗͓̼͋̏͘͝

[vintageaces]

yEs, seeing the others then myself and just never feeling "right" -K

[shipaxe]

My experience being wrong about multiplicity

Hi. For a year and a few months more, I believed I was a system. Why did I believe this, and what are some reasons I did, as well as how I realized I was wrong? Why I thought I was a system Around September of 2021, I labeled myself as an endogenic median system. Upon finding the system label, I did nowhere near enough research before labeling myself as one. It felt like the non-traumagenic community didn't care; if you thought you were a system, you were one! If you didn't, you weren't. It felt black and white. Eventually, I realised I had trauma I was unaware of, and switched to the label traumagenic. I was no longer median, either. In less than a year, I had 100+ "alters", almost all "fictives". While this can happen, I don't believe I was nearly as stressed as I would have needed to be, and just.. didn't feel right. Other factors that lead me into the belief I have multiple other disorders. Specifically, I suspect I have BPD, and the dissociation, mood swings, sense of emptiness, and identity issues impacted me a lot. I mistook these symptoms for OSDD-1. I subconsciously started sectioning off parts of my identity, and felt more and more separate- hence the switch from median to multiple. I am also fictionkin and polymorph otherkin. Around 20 of my "fictives" ended up being kins. I am also, to put it simply, lonely. I never feel like I fit in. In the system community, sometimes I DID feel like I fit in. When I didn't, someone else was "chilling in cofront". A lot of them were like imaginary friends to make me feel less alone. Those ones don't even feel like a part of me, but they're not separate people, either. They're just.. figments of my own imagination. To be honest, I've felt much lonelier upon learning I am a singlet. How I realized I was wrong Honestly, it was somewhat obvious. Many of my "headmates" felt like they were a part of me, and if we had different bodies, it wouldn't be the same- because they were me. I also subconsciously started to copy symptoms I didn't have, I switched as I wanted, I was fictive heavy- which can happen, but it's rarer than people realise. My trauma was not severe or repetitive. I could go on. A big problem in the system community is the "everyone is valid" mentality; I believe MUCH more research should be done before labeling as a system, and not enough people talk about it. Another issue is that not a lot of people talk about being wrong, and personally, I was terrified to tell people I was wrong. It's fucking difficult. There's too much "you're valid! you're valid! you're valid!" and not enough "hey, it's okay if you're wrong!". When I panicked around the time I realized I was wrong (and denied it for weeks), I never received an "it's okay if you're wrong". All I got was "hey, calm down, you ARE a system". I think the community has a lot to fix. This has fucked up my dissociation issues and identity problems worse than they were before. I wish I had realized I was a singlet sooner or never jumped into this label. Not all of these mean you're a singlet, but if you relate to this, please be open to the idea of being wrong. Thanks for reading this. Please share this- my goal with it is to help others. Have a good day/night, drink some water, and know that it's okay to be wrong. ☆

[vintageaces]

This is great information and awareness -K

[syrenki]

[vintageaces]

More like 1 and it's my fiancee! 😂💚 -K

[traumauserboxes]

This user experiences extreme paranoia due to their trauma.

[vintageaces]

Hey, me -K

[wickedhawtwexler]

me when other people tag me in things: this person??? thought about me???? i'm so flattered??????? 🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕

me when i consider tagging someone in a post: i am annoying!!!! i am overstepping every single boundary!!!! i am making an absolute fool out of myself!!!!!!

[vintageaces]

Mood -K

[sysboxes]

[Text: This system has a lot of hypersexual alters due to trauma.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use!

[idontlikedicktionaries]

REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

[tarnished-angelcoric]

being a protector and having chronic pain when other alters are present at all is so conflicting because its just. im hurting and im miserable and i want to hide under a blanket and cry. but the kid is right next to me and she ALSO is hurting and miserable and wants to hide under a blanket and cry. and i cant even focus on my own misery bc my instincts kick in and i need to Help Her even if that means just like. gently putting her(/us) to bed

[Text: This system does not want non-traumagenic systems or supporters interacting with their account.]

[vintageaces]

How I feel, but as a caregiver. -D

Also having to hear everyone complain about the pain/symptoms. -K

[vintageaces]

Lays down and goes into heavy dissociation from severe pain and panic then gets up.

Me: "I feel better after that 5-10 minute break"

Looks at time and 2 hours went by.

Me: "What the fuck??"

[azzehkarla]

Gonna start referring to all my past traumatic experiences as "lore"

[vintageaces]

Lmao that's a good one -K

[vintageaces]

Does anyone else feel like they have everything, but aren't satisfied? Yet, feels like you've got nothing as well. With such a feeling, dreading down upon you, you haven't got a clue where to go from there. Just me? Alright. Figured as much. -V

[vintageaces]

Sometimes it's hard to even form a sentence. Let alone describe a feeling, thought or emotion. I often wonder what it is that I crave or better yet, need from this world or myself. More so believing in material things, but somehow doesn't satisfy me in the right way, logically it does, but why not in all areas of myself? Other times it's a belief in an emotion or connection, however all with the same outcome. I may think a certain setting or lifestyle is what I need, but I place myself there mentally and I come to realize maybe that's not what I'm after or yet, need. So how does one come around to the idea of, something..? Needinglyful. If there were such a word. Where does one begin to place himself in a world that makes sense to him? A wish, too far fetched. Yet, I believe a man can dream, but where will dreams get him, if not the real thing, nor a fantasy. I suppose it's a curse that has haunted me for many years. No motivation to break through it because who's to say it's all good on the other side? What if this is what I need, comfort, but in a way that I can't comprehend nor does my body truly resonate with..

-V