no one's mistake but my own

"wtf is a tumblr?" - the tumblr user he/him, american, gay, not in that order i like history, because it's interesting, and politics, because i'm a masochist

[viv-hollande]

hi

I'm viv, and this is my blog. Its mostly reblogs, but I do occasionally post original content. Occasionally.

For those wondering, I am legally an adult, he/him pronouns please, I have bipolar disorder+autism+ADHD, and I live in GBA, Massachusetts.

I will not give you my exact age. Do. Not. Ask.

That's as much personal stuff that I'm going to give you.

Uhh, socials . . .

@ viv-hollande.bsky.social

Ao3

If you want fandom, not politics (can't say I blame you) here is my fandom blog. not that I really use it

I'll try to keep fandom stuff on that blog but I may slip up here and there. Speaking of politics . . .

My Politics updated 5 May 2026

I'm a pragmatist, a social democrat, a capital-punishment abolitionist, pro-choice, and vehemently opposed to all bigotry. Spouting any of that shit is the quickest way to get blocked. TERFs, queerphobes more generally, Islamophobes, racists, antisemites, all of it.

I unconditionally support universal human rights, which shouldn't be controversial, but is somehow.

I support Ukraine's continued resistance against the Russian fascist government trying to destroy it.

I've made it clear on my blog, yet somehow people keep misinterpreting me so I'll lay it out for you here.

I oppose the Netanyahu government's continuous escalation of the ongoing war in Israel, Palestine, and elsewhere in the Middle East. His blatant desire to continue the fighting to protect his own position from the judgement an electorate that hates him has already cost tens of thousands of lives.

I oppose the systemic human rights abuses perpetrated by the Israeli state against Palestinians in Gaza and the West Bank. I oppose the war crimes being committed by the Israeli state in its war on Gaza.

I oppose the genocidal antisemitic terrorist cell Hamas. They are committing and have committed war crimes, crimes against humanity, violent domestic political repression, and mass executions of Palestinians.

I oppose the Islamic Republic of Iran, because unlike some I do not have amnesia about the IRI's gross abuses of its own people, especially Iranian women, nor Iran's support for genocidal terrorist groups in the Middle East.

I unconditionally support the right of the Palestinian people to live peacefully in their homeland of Palestine.

I unconditionally support the right of the Jewish people to live peacefully in their homeland of Israel.

If you oppose either of those two precepts, we probably won't be friends for long.

My ideal solution is this.

Main Tags

#viv lectures - longer posts about politics and history, which i pretentiously call lectures

#viv asks - my asks, obviously

#viv rants - non-fandom rants of various lengths and topics. these are less rigorous than the lectures

#viv muses - random, usually brief musings on whatever i feel like

#viv life updates - banal details about my life

#viv polls - my polls. while they're up i reblog so more people see. those reblogs get deleted. only the original remains

#viv fandom rants - specifically fandom rants

#viv reblogs - some of my self-reblogged content

#fandom - most of the fandom stuff i could find. this used to be my only blog, and i still sometimes post fandom on main

#viv queues - queued posts idk i don't really get the point of queuing, but sometimes i do it anyways

The rest should be self explanatory.

Post Directory:

Gaza: Genocide? Series

Genocide: a Historical Comparison and addendum

That's Not Genocidal Intent: a List

Genocide: a Historical Comparison II – Srebrenicia

Urban Warfare F*cking Blows

Genocide: a Historical Comparison III – Namibia

Antisemitism is Judenhass

[imathers]

[adi-lives]

as a non american i gotta say it i fucking hate those posts that are all like. "noooo why would i do anything on fourth of july fuck fascist america"

you get to barbeque, eat good food, do fireworks and sparklers, dress in unnecessarily patriotic clothes, and most of all, make fun of the british. why would you want to just sit at home moping about america being bad when you could be doing all that? idkidk seems kinda stupid to me.

(also i hate this notion that celebrating your country is an inherently right wing thing to do, therefore playing into right wing rhetoric that all leftists hate and want to destroy the country they are in)

[moonshinemagpie]

It's also very suburban quasi-woke to me. If you're in a big city, you'll see tons of different groups of folks celebrating the Fourth and realize that this holiday means too many things to too many people to just be dismissed because "America bad."

I loved going to Prospect Park in Brooklyn as a kid and seeing Hasidic families eat kosher hot dogs right next to halal barbeque pits. I loved hearing people speaking Yiddish, Arabic, Haitian Creole, Spanish, and English in one space, all celebrating side by side.

Every year, the Fourth has meant everything from celebrating that my family was granted refuge in early 1900's Brooklyn to my cousin recently being granted US citizenship.

Like, if people who think they're being righteous had any recent immigrant friends or family at all, they would know that people who just came here really don't want to hear griping about a perfectly good holiday.

& Even when I lived in Japan, it was so much fun to gather my two (2) American friends and go to the one (1) place in my town that sold American-style beef hot dogs (it was literally a vendor in an old samurai house) and then set off sparklers by the riverside.

It's a nice holiday!

And when I was a very earnest kid and cared a lot about history, I would personally read stuff like Frederick Douglass's "What to the Slave Is the Fourth of July?" and Born on the Fourth of July during the day, then go set off fireworks and eat watermelon at night. My mom spent yesterday morning watching a bummer documentary about Project 2025 and urging all her boomer friends to vote, and then she chowed down on a burger. You can/should do both!!

P.S. The fake idea that Americans don't have culture? This is our culture!!

P.P.S. It makes me think about how Muslims fasting during Ramadan is a communal event; it's considered better to break the fast with company than alone (ditto for fasting in Judaism). For a month each year, almost 2 billion people around the world are united by that fasting.

By contrast, Lent for Catholics, at least in the US, is much more of an individualistic self-improvement project.

There's not a lot of value placed on community in general in the West.

So for folks who complain about fireworks: I get it, but it's also important to acknowledge that there is something cool and lovely about being able to *hear* (and see), for just a handful of hours each year, that we're all doing the same thing at the same time all across the country. That we a hundreds of millions but we are also a shared society.

[nogodsnokingsnomasters]

Kent State University

[tiredtransgal]

“The Kent State shootings (also known as the May 4 massacre or the Kent State massacre)[3][4][5] were the shootings on May 4, 1970 of unarmed college students by members of the Ohio National Guard at Kent State University in Kent, Ohio during a mass protest against the bombing of Cambodia by United States military forces. Twenty-eight guardsmen fired approximately 67 rounds over a period of 13 seconds, killing four students and wounding nine others, one of whom suffered permanent paralysis.[6][7]”

“There was a significant national response to the shootings: hundreds of universities, colleges, and high schools closed throughout the United States due to a student strike of 4 million students,[10] and the event further affected public opinion, at an already socially contentious time, over the role of the United States in the Vietnam War.[11]”

Student strike of 4 million students! Let’s do that again lol

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kent_State_shootings

[solarpunkcast]

Don’t forget that basically half the country thought the students deserved it…

[captain-rez]

Another picture from Kent State.

But it was not just Kent State, eleven days later Mississippi Police fired 150 rounds into a dormitory at Jackson State College, killing 2 and wounding 15 black protesters.

[saurons-optometrist]

Btw half of the students killed at Kent State weren’t even protesting, they were just there

[bando--grand-scamyon]

What in the absolute fuck

[wuh2k]

When the Irish guy has known about this since he was like 8, but it’s suspiciously hard for Americans to learn about…

[pagecommando]

This was taught in schools. This was taught in every high school. This is basic curriculum in public schools. There is no conspiracy to hide the truth of Kent state. You were just drawing Naruto or a stussy some shit. “THE AMERIKKKANS WONT TEACH YOU ABOUT A PIVOTAL FUCKUP OF THE CIVIL RIGHTS MOVEMENT WHERE THE NATIONAL GUARD SHOT STUDENTS, I, A EURO KNOW MORE THAN YOU ABOUT YOUR OWN BAD COUNTRY. DON’T LOOK UNDER OUR FLOORBOARDS.” It is in textbooks, It is discussed right alongside Nixon, Vietnam, the Civil Rights movement and protesting generally.

This is “Beto O'Rourke goes to Kent State to promote more civilian gun control when the people who opened fire were the National fucking Guard levels of conspiratorial historical and educational illiteracy.

(Yes. He fucking did that. He is that stupid. And so is this entire discussion.)

https://www.cleveland.com/politics/2019/09/beto-orourke-advocates-for-gun-control-at-kent-state-after-meeting-with-may-4-1970-shooting-survivor.html

“Bla bla state sponsored propaganda bla bla. THEYYYYYYYYYYYY don’t want you to KNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW” everybody knows. Everybody. It’s just history, like the MOVE bombing or the Black Panther protest at the California Capitol building. And you all decided to amplify an aesthetic posting account that likes Killdozer guy

and posts weird shit like this

Because you couldn’t work out that the OP was hitting it from a conspiratorial and pro-gun perspective because, again, you refuse to fucking read or pay attention.

[sweaterkittensahoy]

“The US government is trying to suppress info about Kent State!”

Here’s a whole fucking graphic novel you can get that looks at the shooting from several days before it happened and explains the tensions and terrible choices BY THE GOVERNMENT AT ALL LEVELS. I am linking it from Amazon because YOU CAN BUY IT ON AMAZON.

I have actually never managed to finish it because I get up to the day of and can’t handle knowing what’s coming. Because Backderf does an amazing job showing how it all slowly went to shit, and it fucking hurts.

We learned about it. It is talked about. Do five fucking seconds of research before deciding you just want to agree with someone because you want to hate the US more than you want to actually learn shit.

[ginstermotte]

Antisemitic conspiracy theorist for your blocklist:

[penguinsdemise]

For context, global yearly CO2 emissions are around 38 billion tons. If we assume none of the above is captured in Israel's emissions data and add it in, we get a yearly per capita CO2 emission of about 4.6 tons per person, putting it around 60th on the list, right near Greece and Bulgaria.

(In contrast, Qatar is at 45 tons per person, Australia and the US are at 14 tons per person, and China is at 9 tons per person.)

In short, blaming Israel for the heatwave in Europe is antisemitic because Israel's contribution to global CO2 emissions is comparatively miniscule.

My numbers are from https://www.worldometers.info/co2-emissions/co2-emissions-by-country/ and are from 2024.

[squeeful]

Russia’s war on Ukraine released emissions were, as of February 2025, 230 million tonnes

[the-library-alcove]

Yeah, but those don't count according to these Tankies, for... Reasons.

[rjc1993]

In 2023 China emitted about 12.3 BILLION tonnes of CO2-equivalent, about 35% of the world total for that year. Anyone who wants to talks about climate change and the current heat dome in Europe better be placing the blame first and foremost on China and the USA since together they’re the source of nearly half of global emissions. If you decide to blame Israel instead then you’re an antisemitic shitstain who deserves to be completely ostracized from society.

[ginstermotte]

REBLOG THIS VERSION FOR THE NUMBERS PLEASE.

[eosofspades]

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

[catscatscatscatscatscatserybody]

This is so fucking funny

[4thefreaks]

made this gem on Sunday. had to wait all week to post it

[totally-cis-offical]

Fuck I forgot

It’s still Friday in some timezones tho

[mimosa-sexypeople-contests-2026]

It’s Friday!!!!!!

[plumslices]

If we don’t microdose delusion we won’t make it through this reality babe….

[leebrontide]

So I remember reading about this study in grad school where they have a bunch of clinically depressed people and a bunch of non-clinically-depressed people a game that was partially chance and partially skill, and asked them to estimate how much control they had over the outcome.

The depressed people were far more accurate in estimating how much influence their actions had on the outcome of the game compared to their nondepressed counterparts, who consistently overestimated the effects of their own choices on their chances of winning.

Then I remember this other study (CW animal testing) where they put rats in a bucket of water that they couldn’t get out of, so they’d have to swim. There was a fairly consistent point at which the swimming rat would falter, and stop swimming, fated to drown.

Except that that’s when the researchers would pull the rat out of the bucket, give it a nice rest warmth and a meal.

When those SAME rats who had been rescued before were put in the same situation again, they swam much LONGER than they had before.

Why? The risk was the same either way- drowning. You’d have thought that the fear of drowning would keep them swimming to their maximum length no matter what.

The researchers conclusion was that the rescued rats had something they hadn’t had the first time- they had more hope. A miraculous rescue could come, and that let them swim for longer, just in case.

I think we do microdose delusion because sometimes that little overestimation of our chances, of our luck, keeps us swimming that little bit longer, just in case something good happens. And sometimes, that little margin really does make the difference. 

[phlebasthebroenician]

[daco-showman]

why can rockstar games institutionalise you for life like nikita kruschev for being autistic

[transhuman-priestess]

He didn't steal 10 million dollars. They made that number up as a loss, they never fucking had it. Rockstar has spent more than a billion fucking dollars on GTA VI and will likely make billions more when it gets released.

Uber is a fucking shell game of a company designed to leech investor capital and output bootleg cabs.

Nvidia posted a profit in 2023 of $4.37 billion. This is like someone stealing less than a penny from me.

And they lock this kid in a prison hospital for LIFE?

Capitalism is disgusting.

[fuckblast]

Nobody should buy GTA til they free Arion Kurtaj

[blasting-the-bee-movie-script-d]

he didn't even get to stand *trial*. because he's autistic. he's in an institution for life for hacking while autistic, without trial.

[bisexualisopod]

hey yall remember this

[prismatic-bell]

Okay, I looked this up rather than do a blind response, and there are some CRITICAL facts missing from this post.

--Arion was sentenced by a judge. Not Rockstar.

--he'd already been deemed mentally unfit to stand trial for other charges when this happened. That was not Rockstar's doing.

--while he was out on bail, he physically injured people and committed random property damage. This is a large factor in him being considered dangerous to the public.

--he committed blackmail.

--he hacked into the London Police CCTV. You may wonder why this is a big deal. Easy answer: imagine what a stalker could do with one of the most comprehensive surveillance systems in the world. That footage is heavily restricted for a reason.

--he is not in "a prison hospital." He is in a psychiatric rehabilitation center that's designed for detention. I know that probably sounds like splitting nails to make tacks to some people reading this, but there's actually a very big difference between the two--psych rehab aims to actually help people get better while keeping other civilians safe, rather than just tossing somebody into lockup.

--a fellow hacker who was only involved in the Rockstar hack, and who is autistic as well, got 18 months in youth social rehab.

Now we can certainly debate about the ethics of things like indefinite detention and the size of the Met's surveillance system. (I suspect our views would be more similar than you may think.) But pretending he got life in prison for daring to release a couple of video game clips is wildly misrepresenting the case.

[clueingforbeggs]

He also was deemed unable to stand trial because he stated repeatedly that he would commit more cyber crimes, which he also did whilst on bail. Not because of autism.

In doing so, the charge actually changed from 'hacking with criminal intent' to 'hacking'. Because he admitted to having intent.

He also hacked into BT (our largest broadband provider), and EE and Orange, two large mobile data networks, and stole customer data.

At around the same time, the fellow hacker stood trial, as did Eddie Ratcliffe, the then-16-year-old autistic boy who murdered Brianna Ghey. I don't know if the fellow hacker required any additional considerations on trial, but Ratcliffe was only verbal towards his mother, so defended himself by typing to communicate.

[awnowimsad-deactivated20260306]

@i-add-sources

[i-add-sources]

Lapsus$: GTA 6 hacker handed indefinite hospital order

Judge says hacker remains a high risk through his skills and motivation to carry out cyber-crime.

Reuters article with additional information.

He was sentenced by a Judge.

"The court heard that Kurtaj had been violent while in custody with dozens of reports of injury or property damage."

He hacked Rockstar while on bail, using an amazon firestick, his hotel TV, and a mobile phone. He is highly skilled.

In the same period of time in September 2022 he hacked Revolut and Uber

He broke into Rockstar's slack messaging system and threatened to release source code if they did not contact him.

He'd previously been convicted of hacking BT Group, EE, and Nvidia.

He previously admitted to an offense related to the hacking of London Police cloud storage.

Doctors deemed Kurtaj unfit to stand trial due to his severe autism so the jury was asked to determine whether or not he committed the alleged acts - not if he did so with criminal intent.

A jury found that he commited 12 offenses, including three counts of blackmail, two counts of fraud and six charges under the Computer Misuse Act

The 17-year-old who worked with him on the Nvidia and BT/EE hacks was sentenced to a youth rehabilitation order with 18 months supervision.

I cannot find any article claiming he was sentenced to anything but "life in hospital prison". Furhter research does seem to indicate that means a "high-security psychiatric hospital"

As someone who is active in the cybersec world: the 10M number is not "stolen money" as much as it's the cost of overtime hours and hiring security companies to a) make sure he's out of the system and b) all the leaks are fixed, possibly the purchase of new software and/or overhauling the security infrastructure. For big companies with a lot of network infra this gets real expensive real fast. It's also the combined number for Uber, Nvidia and Rockstar so I can't call it super unrealistic. A bit inflated, maybe.

@prismatic-bell is mostly correct. The physical injury and property damage were in custody, not on bail. The hacking was on bail. He hacked into london police cloud storage, not live CCTV cams.

@clueingforbeggs is partially correct. The first two points are incorrect (he was found unfit for trial and intent was not investigated, but not for the reasons stated), the last two correct. Radcliffe's accomodations outlined in this wiki page under trial - pretrial

[prismatic-bell]

Not gonna lie, part of me wants to shove this into the faces of all the people who claim I just make shit up. I made two relatively small errors, probably by misreading my source.

[bigbigbigtruck]

i’ll be real, kitten, daddy needs multiple wealthy and powerful folks to die in a painful, drawn-out, and generationally humiliating manner

[unsolicited-opinions]

Natalie nailed this one.

[viv-hollande]

Hey tumblr, doing that thing where I ask strangers to find me a fanfic I read.

It was Hollanov. The part I remember was a reading thirst tweets section+online commenters reacting. I don't remember if the whole fic was mixed media or only parts of it.

One of the thirst tweets was roughly "Oh I'm Ilya Rozanov and I have a slutty waist and a fat ass and I bagged Shane MF Hollander girl fuck you"

Shane read a tweet saying "My pussy is sick and Shane Hollander's fingers are the only cure" to which Ilya responded "It is terminal if only cure is Shane's fingers"

Ilya read a tweet saying roughly "Ilya Rozanov is so lucky he gets to see Hollander's hole" and Ilya said something like "Is very pretty hole, but is mine"

I think the fic also might have introduced Shane as captain of the Centaurs, which I only remember because I saw a commenter saying they were a captain!Ilya truther, but that might have been a different fic.

I also remember a Vanity Fair lie detector test where Ilya kept failing when he said he was a better hockey player than Shane, but I think that was also a different fic.

I've scoured the "Social Media" and "Mixed Media" tags with no luck. It's possible that I'm overlooking it, or it isn't in those tags, or god forbid it was deleted for some reason.

[viv-hollande]

The thirst tweet interview was in transcript form, not regular prose. I remember it was center aligned.

[viv-hollande]

Update: I'm 90% sure @paper-needles found it! It was (probably) "first time WAG" by DadMight/HockeyMight and it unfortunately seems to have been taken down for now. I was afraid this had happened considering I had no difficulty finding it right up until it disappeared. On the off-chance that anyone seeing this has a copy saved, I'd love if you got in touch with me.

Alas.

[viv-hollande]

NEVERMIND POST CANCELLED THANK GOD FOR THE INTERNET ARCHIVE!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[viv-hollande]

Hey tumblr, doing that thing where I ask strangers to find me a fanfic I read.

It was Hollanov. The part I remember was a reading thirst tweets section+online commenters reacting. I don't remember if the whole fic was mixed media or only parts of it.

One of the thirst tweets was roughly "Oh I'm Ilya Rozanov and I have a slutty waist and a fat ass and I bagged Shane MF Hollander girl fuck you"

Shane read a tweet saying "My pussy is sick and Shane Hollander's fingers are the only cure" to which Ilya responded "It is terminal if only cure is Shane's fingers"

Ilya read a tweet saying roughly "Ilya Rozanov is so lucky he gets to see Hollander's hole" and Ilya said something like "Is very pretty hole, but is mine"

I think the fic also might have introduced Shane as captain of the Centaurs, which I only remember because I saw a commenter saying they were a captain!Ilya truther, but that might have been a different fic.

I also remember a Vanity Fair lie detector test where Ilya kept failing when he said he was a better hockey player than Shane, but I think that was also a different fic.

I've scoured the "Social Media" and "Mixed Media" tags with no luck. It's possible that I'm overlooking it, or it isn't in those tags, or god forbid it was deleted for some reason.

[viv-hollande]

The thirst tweet interview was in transcript form, not regular prose. I remember it was center aligned.

[viv-hollande]

Update: I'm 90% sure @paper-needles found it! It was (probably) "first time WAG" by DadMight/HockeyMight and it unfortunately seems to have been taken down for now. I was afraid this had happened considering I had no difficulty finding it right up until it disappeared. On the off-chance that anyone seeing this has a copy saved, I'd love if you got in touch with me.

Alas.

[hydro-homies]

[waxworm-moved]

[sepulchretide]

[rethmyc]

[behindnightmaresanddreams]

[splodey-goat]

[scp-threats-is-back]

[usernameichoseonawhim]

I love how tumblr users play with Jorge I mean jpegs not Jorge who the fuck is Jorge

[scp-threats-is-back]

[slaughterednsfw-wav]

Spiders jpg

[fawkesheart12]

Woah dude

[bludraws094]

[unyieldingsilence]

‎ ‎

[malicious-screaming-sentinel]

[evilfuckignskeleton]

[viv-hollande]

Hey tumblr, doing that thing where I ask strangers to find me a fanfic I read.

It was Hollanov. The part I remember was a reading thirst tweets section+online commenters reacting. I don't remember if the whole fic was mixed media or only parts of it.

One of the thirst tweets was roughly "Oh I'm Ilya Rozanov and I have a slutty waist and a fat ass and I bagged Shane MF Hollander girl fuck you"

Shane read a tweet saying "My pussy is sick and Shane Hollander's fingers are the only cure" to which Ilya responded "It is terminal if only cure is Shane's fingers"

Ilya read a tweet saying roughly "Ilya Rozanov is so lucky he gets to see Hollander's hole" and Ilya said something like "Is very pretty hole, but is mine"

I think the fic also might have introduced Shane as captain of the Centaurs, which I only remember because I saw a commenter saying they were a captain!Ilya truther, but that might have been a different fic.

I also remember a Vanity Fair lie detector test where Ilya kept failing when he said he was a better hockey player than Shane, but I think that was also a different fic.

I've scoured the "Social Media" and "Mixed Media" tags with no luck. It's possible that I'm overlooking it, or it isn't in those tags, or god forbid it was deleted for some reason.

[viv-hollande]

The thirst tweet interview was in transcript form, not regular prose. I remember it was center aligned.

[viv-hollande]

Hey tumblr, doing that thing where I ask strangers to find me a fanfic I read.

It was Hollanov. The part I remember was a reading thirst tweets section+online commenters reacting. I don't remember if the whole fic was mixed media or only parts of it.

One of the thirst tweets was roughly "Oh I'm Ilya Rozanov and I have a slutty waist and a fat ass and I bagged Shane MF Hollander girl fuck you"

Shane read a tweet saying "My pussy is sick and Shane Hollander's fingers are the only cure" to which Ilya responded "It is terminal if only cure is Shane's fingers"

Ilya read a tweet saying roughly "Ilya Rozanov is so lucky he gets to see Hollander's hole" and Ilya said something like "Is very pretty hole, but is mine"

I think the fic also might have introduced Shane as captain of the Centaurs, which I only remember because I saw a commenter saying they were a captain!Ilya truther, but that might have been a different fic.

I also remember a Vanity Fair lie detector test where Ilya kept failing when he said he was a better hockey player than Shane, but I think that was also a different fic.

I've scoured the "Social Media" and "Mixed Media" tags with no luck. It's possible that I'm overlooking it, or it isn't in those tags, or god forbid it was deleted for some reason.