I'm just looking to learn...

I've had some dreams and experiences recently that are strange compared to the norm of the paranormal I've experienced through the years. Looking for some help anywhere I can get it.

[who-deity-what]

How to know a ghost (or any entity idk what this thing is and lowkey am worried to find out) likes your new night sky projector?

1. It will turn it on even when the power strip its connected to is off.

2. The colors of the lights will change in ways it is not programmed.

3. It will rotate the lights in no specific pattern what's so ever.

It'd be funny if I wasn't trying to sleep. But at least they are being kinda kind in the means that they aren't having the lights rotate on the lowest -highest settings because even the slowest speed (minus not moving) aggravates my epilepsy.

[who-deity-what]

I think this will just be my emotional dump page. Amazon. Don't need to read this. Just scroll past it if you'd like.

I have one and no where to dump this negativity. If I don't I probably will end up killing myself despite knowing it'd be a hassle for everyone else. I have 8 days till my 23rd birthday and even knowing that, knowing my grandmother has a whole party planned, I'm so tired of everything. My mother is stuck in her highschool mentality. She's always starting fights. Lies to my father to get him pissed off at us so she can watch drama and act like she's the nice parent. Trying to be our best friend despite turning everything we say to start a fight. Borrows money from people then tells them not to tell our dad and then tells him that we aren't paying our parts of the bills. She joins in on the yell fest she started but when it comes to the point where he confronts us on being late or not making a payment, which are lies, she says "oh well maybe I misspoke" and redirects it to chores in the house. My siblings and I could clean the entire house and she'd lie to our father saying she had to clean it because we never do anything apparently. She riles our father up knowing he has anger issues and high blood pressure. She finds his triggers and makes him mad before she leaves for work. She angers him every chance she gets knowing an hour long fight will ensue thanks to it. But I guess her getting fucked afterwards is worth it all but of course then she comes to us kids saying "all he ever wants from me is sex" and "he practically rapes me because I don't wanna but he gets mad if I dont" but in the livingroom she drapes herself all over him telling him how she wants to do it. Make up your mind and stop talking to your kids about you and your husband's sex life. If you don't want sex don't throw yourself on him telling him you wanna be stuffed in front of said kids. Like wtf. Just make up your damn mind. You say you don't want to deal with him being mad then stop going out of your way to make problems to get him mad. Instead of taking all the bill money, that you tell him you didn't get, and put it into buying books off MY Amazon because you don't want him seeing it on yours that yall share. Just enough! I am supposed to be your kid but yet you treat me like you met me at school and we are still there. We live together, that's not the same as having a slumber party. Clean up after yourself. Stop expecting me to go clean your room because you are too fucking lazy to do it your self. I'm not your fucking maid.

I'm your disabled kid. I can barely walk to the fucking mailbox so why do you expect me to climb a fucking ladder to fix your damn ceiling fan. Why do you expect your child to edit your fucking fan fics of you getting fucked by strangers and fictional characters.

How about instead of expecting our pocket cash to be yours you calm the fuck down. How bout instead of waking me at 6-7 am by throwing shit at my head while I'm asleep just so you can say that if I get money for my birthday I have to give it to you because you spent too much on amazon.

[who-deity-what]

Suddenly smelling baby powder when there is no baby powder scented items/products in the house.

[who-deity-what]

So, I just nearly had a heart attack. I was talking to one of my sisters in the kitchen when I heard a knock on the door. I go to answer it but ended up asking who it was. Got no answer. Asked again. No answer but I thought I heard my other sister talking outside the door. I called out her name but, again, no answer. (Now we have a ring door bell. Thank heavens. ) I pull up the video feed and no one was there. I go back to the kitchen. Feed still open. There I show the video to her and the screen lacks our sister or anyone else. I'm telling her that I had heard her. Pretty clear, seemingly on her phone with her boyfriend like she normally does out front at night. Then my sister Screams I tell ya. Screams. This was because, after I said I heard her on the phone for the third time, she came from behind mom's car that hid her car from view.

We asked her if she came to the door, knocked, then went back to her car for something. The answer was obviously a no or I wouldn't still be frazzled by this.

No we don't really live near the woods. The closest wooden area is like at least 7 to 10 miles away. This is Florida there aren't any mountains either. And my sister didn't see anything or anyone, not even the neighborhood cats, leaving the door.

I'll check if the ring caught the knocking or voice. I'm just freaked out by this alil.

[who-deity-what]

Update the ring didn't catch the knocking but did capture after. My sister pulling up triggered the ring to start but only at the second time I called out if anyone was there.

[who-deity-what]

So, I just nearly had a heart attack. I was talking to one of my sisters in the kitchen when I heard a knock on the door. I go to answer it but ended up asking who it was. Got no answer. Asked again. No answer but I thought I heard my other sister talking outside the door. I called out her name but, again, no answer. (Now we have a ring door bell. Thank heavens. ) I pull up the video feed and no one was there. I go back to the kitchen. Feed still open. There I show the video to her and the screen lacks our sister or anyone else. I'm telling her that I had heard her. Pretty clear, seemingly on her phone with her boyfriend like she normally does out front at night. Then my sister Screams I tell ya. Screams. This was because, after I said I heard her on the phone for the third time, she came from behind mom's car that hid her car from view.

We asked her if she came to the door, knocked, then went back to her car for something. The answer was obviously a no or I wouldn't still be frazzled by this.

No we don't really live near the woods. The closest wooden area is like at least 7 to 10 miles away. This is Florida there aren't any mountains either. And my sister didn't see anything or anyone, not even the neighborhood cats, leaving the door.

I'll check if the ring caught the knocking or voice. I'm just freaked out by this alil.

[who-deity-what]

I'm so tired. I just want all the negativity to end. Won't kill myself cause that'd cause me to be a burden to my family and devastate only 3 of my family members. (Only one is an immediate family member.) But in the end I'm already a burden.

I ask for help but no one listens. I try to remove myself from troubling situations but it doesn't work. I can't move out because I can't get a job due to a disability that the system says my age and gender makes it less of a disability. And my siblings say I'm faking despite seeing xrays and the medical reports...

Just have to smile though. That way no one yells at me. Don't let them see the tears or say a word so they don't yell at me sooner. It's not like I'm the one who does most of the house work right? ... oh wait never mind I am...

[who-deity-what]

I've been awake for just over 2 hours and here's a peek at what's happened in the 1 hour my siblings have been home of that time. My mom yelled at me to wake me up and yelled at me for my siblings not cleaning around the house as she threw my things around.. My eldest siblings watched as my younger 2 stole my breakfast, called me a selfish bitch 3 times, threatened to break all my shit under their breath as they walked away and yelled at me for even wanting to eat because I need to loose weight (the usual, fat shaming me despite them being just as over weight). My mom walked out of the kitchen at the beginning of the issue with my younger siblings and I and just ignored us. Fun yeah?

[who-deity-what]

I'm so tired. I just want all the negativity to end. Won't kill myself cause that'd cause me to be a burden to my family and devastate only 3 of my family members. (Only one is an immediate family member.) But in the end I'm already a burden.

I ask for help but no one listens. I try to remove myself from troubling situations but it doesn't work. I can't move out because I can't get a job due to a disability that the system says my age and gender makes it less of a disability. And my siblings say I'm faking despite seeing xrays and the medical reports...

Just have to smile though. That way no one yells at me. Don't let them see the tears or say a word so they don't yell at me sooner. It's not like I'm the one who does most of the house work right? ... oh wait never mind I am...

[who-deity-what]

So I found this antler looking thing partly buried under one of my bed room windows. Any clue if it's real or if I should worry? It was in a part of the yard that I replaced with mostly compost not long ago. It also wasn't there yesterday.

We have things hanging around that shouldn't be interacted with that hang around outside like a rather large cat that isn't a cat if you get my drift. Unless cats whistle, and ligit disappear into a shadow, and have hollowed eyes.

...I brought it inside. Imma clean it...

[who-deity-what]

Four nights ago I saw the shadow of someone walking past my window, even through my curtain, and when I looked out no one was there and there was no light source to cause that kind of shadow.

Three nights ago my fairy lights, the kind with no timer and are battery operated, turned on at 3 am when I was trying to go to sleep. But the switch was off.

Tonight the fairy lights turned back on at the same time but the switch is still off and all day I've been seeing echoes of people. I even saw an echo of my dad, who's still alive, walk out of his and mom's room moments after he did and felt sick after each one.

[tearsofgrace]

in every century, in every town, in every corner of the world, Dean Winchester cannot slip by anyone’s gaydar 

aka my poor bi bb experiencing microaggressions

[la-plus-heureuse]

Also:

[ipod6-remade]

[the-only-useful-lesbian]

[whatsaconsequence]

Why are we still here

[spooky-scary-virgil]

just to suffer

[lizluvscupcakes]

Why not?

[who-deity-what]

To survive and post what others won't.

[who-deity-what]

Because of Covid-19 a sibling of mine moved back in and we had to rearrange the livingroom so it would be a bedroom for us both. This put a window behind my bed and I haven't put blinds up because I had to find and put up hooks. Last night my sister was woken up by the feeling of someone watching her through that window but no one was there.

It has not been uncommon to see a shadow person out that window in the backyard getting closer. Roughly 7 feet tall, silver eyes, and the rest is a dense black mass.

Any clue?

[who-deity-what]

Hi, I come from a religious family who can't help me with this and don't know anyone knowledgeable in this field so I'm coming to the internet for help. Recently I've been having dreams about a god like deity who's skin from his to calves is painted ink black with his bones painted over top of where they are. He seems to be, possibly, Aztec or Mayan but I could be mistaken. He had head wear that gave him a mane of feathers. And he had a necklace but I can't remember what all it had on it. Does anyone know who this may be? If there is anyone who may fit this description?