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Ren/Crow ☼ he/him they/them crow/crow ☼ disabled ☼ 22 most times $batixx

[lindleland]

there is so much to unpack in this clip

[lindleland]

[wrenimod]

choosing to care about cats while also being paid fuck all is like

oh hell yeah i got a bonus at work! my entire monthly paycheck in 2 weeks :]

suddenly now i need to pay for a spay that will be all of it, oh but before that now i have to do 2 emergency vet visits and so now i actually dont even have enough saved for the spay anymore and also i havent even been able to save a penny since i decided to try and help these two, they have felv so nobody wants them, shelters are all booked, i cant just re-release them, and its not like im going to get paid more or anything!

this is just honestly the worst and its been so stressful

[wrenimod]

anyone that says "you can keep foster cats in your bathroom" fails to mention said foster cats can and will climb all over you, yell at you and stare daggers at you while you are in said bathroom for non-cat related reasons.

what im doing barely needed one cat but thanks for making sure two are involved. no you dont need to be this close to me, no i actually dont want eye contact, thank you for understanding

[cecil-apologist-deactivated2024]

does anyone know if we have transmasc and transfem love and friendship today

[damazcuz]

We do. And tomorrow and the next day and every day forever and ever and ever too. :)

[cecil-apologist-deactivated2024]

a long time ago i was struggling with being transmasc because i felt like i was betraying womanhood somehow. then one of my best friends came out as a trans woman and i realised "ah... there will always be so many beautiful women in the world, so it's okay that i'm not one of them". what i'm trying to say is you need to love each other or there's no point to any of this

[risenfromthebog]

in a reversal of this. when i came out as transfem i was almost dissapointed because i spent so long trying to be a truly good man. i was raised with a lot of shitty guys so i tried to be the most pro-feminist comfortable dude i could be for the women around me. when my egg cracked, i almost felt this feeling of "shit, are the only men who think like this secretly women inside?" and it feels nice to see that proven so utterly and completely wrong by the trans men i know in my life. i love seeing people take on the masculinity i hated and do amazing shit with it, god bless trans dudes

[wrenimod]

a question for all dissociatively disordered: what is "you" to you? i have two drawings i did quick to kinda help explain.

basically what i think is a normal way people might consider themselves is this: body + brain = "me". body and brain are together and you are both?

but then how it is for me is like. body is its own thing. brain is its own thing. "me" is a separate thing outside of both and its own third secret thing.

i do definitely by definition have a dissociative disorder 0 doubt about that but i don't know if this is related or a non disordered thing or what? and im curious. thinking too hard about it makes me dissociate which happens whenever i read about did/osdd too,,, ;;

[crippled-peeper]

“testosterone saves lives” is an undeniable fact. doctors give it to ppl with certain blood cancers so that they make more blood cells. also it makes me really hairy and fat and happy which is cool too

[hungwy]

I don't wanna go to wooooork

[wrenimod]

being hungry and making frozen waffles just to put butter on them that was open in the fridge and now has Fridge Taste making them basically inedible to me is a fate worse than death. and its not even one taste. its many fridge tastes. its layered. :(

[wrenimod]

my insurance finally decided to cut off coverage for my hrt </3 literally the only thing ive had to pay for from this insurance in the years ive had it. cool. thanks. i wonder if i can at least eventually get top surgery covered if i make it about my heds and stuff but i have 0 way to even recover from surgery so i guess maybe when i can everything will be normal and fixed and ok?

hopefully goodrx works and isnt lying to me abt the discounted price being ~$32 because i genuinely dont think i can afford anything higher. my ass makes like 400 a month i can barely afford to breathe. trying to budget more so mayyyybe i can do it? maybe?

[wrenimod]

higher up having a mug with the word snowflake on it in a very similar way to the whole "facts dont care about your feelings snowflake" that magas love. and im the only openly queer person at work. and ive seen someone have a trump 2024 sticker visible with their stuff. etc etc.

i have never been this genuinely anxious to go to work before but i feel like i cant report it. i just dont know how to really, plus im literally what right wingers would think of as a snowflake (queer, trans but im not out at work. they think im j a cis butch lesbian likely). huge sigh. it probably would fall under harassment/discrimination bc our handbook mentions objects, not just words + clothing.

someone help me find a new job thats walkable and maybe even pays more. im tired of this. the only people i came out to even a little left ages ago. 3 new people at least are chill and have been to protests/have trans relatives or friends but like. ugh. feels awful still

[dizzyzs]

Everyone look at the cat blanket I made like .. 3 years ago

[dizzyzs]

Btw don't believe any Etsy ad or things trying to sell this pattern to you. It's been free since the 90s. It's very simple, just double crochet and color changes. Be sure to weave in ends as you go unlike me

[lesserdreams]

MY MOM JUST MADE THIS PATTERN EVERYONE LOOK

YOU CAN DO IT IN SO MANY COLORS

[such-justice-wow]

I spontaneously sent this to my brother (likes cats and crochet) and it turns out hes been looking for a free version of this pattern for ages

[cuddlyplaguedoctor]

@lankira

[dzjadzja]

Free patterns get a reblog

[wrenimod]

i know theres probably loads of resources for this but what are some good apps/ideas/etc to get the phonerotting doomscrolling adhd depression demons out of my damn brain.

i have tried using built in app timers, those i can easily disregard and they often have bugs. i have bedtime mode, focus mode, i can too easily get rid of them, if i get rid of the button to turn it on and off easily theres a notif that then makes it easier to turn off then on, and recently with my gf's phone as help, i downloaded a parental lock thing (alli360) but the free version is a little annoying and also it drains tf out of my battery

related to the third: anyone have any experience using parental lock type apps? and if so what's a good, relatively basic free one? i dont need gps or browser tracking, literally just need hard limits on my app usage. maybe website blocking bc my ass keeps using the browser to log into shit and doomscroll more. im tired of being an ipad baby but im a grown ass man w a job and being like this sucks

idk tags. neurodivergents and depressed dopamine seeking phone addicts find this post and help please

[wrenimod]

nyall is it normal to suddenly gain lactose intolerance. legit one day fine next day wake up and lactose causes agony. like what causes that. ive been sus of mcas just because it's comorbid with heds and ive got night itchies, gained a sudden orange allergy a while ago, and am allergic to so many antibiotics. also sus of the mold in my house. idk if it can do that though. any doctors here to armchair through the screen diagnose me. is it lupus

[wrenimod]

if anyone is in search of women's clothing, as well as (some) men's and is willing to pay $3usd per piece + shipping please dm me! i've been holding onto my own old clothes and now my friends + girlfriend's old clothes and have been meaning to list them all online but haven't had the spoons.

general sizes are from s-l adult

i also have some older youth clothing available for $2usd each. below is what i was able to list online a while ago, and then some others up for grabs i haven't listed. not pictured is a sizable cardboard box worth of clothes + more. if you dm me what you're looking for (pants, tops, shorts, etc) and your size, i will look around and let you know what i have!

clothing will be washed before shipping and i will double check for staining, damage, etc! these all come from a home with two cats, no smoking. if requested i can gently febreze items as well! these will be shipped through ebay/mercari/marketplace for buyer and seller protection

american eagle jeans are 30x36, the black pants are youth 18r, the cat shirt is an adult womens large

[wrenimod]

so low income housing with 2 bedrooms and cats allowed is such a rarity around here. half of the places you get when searching "low income housing" for my area isn't even low income. the other half is either senior living or 1 bed no pets allowed.

i guess its live in mold house forever or be homeless or actually move away from my mother which i know will mentally be way better for me but there's endless guilt and worry attached plus i dont have anywhere to go legally.

genuinely don't know what to do. we have so much stuff. we now have a pipe leak that is more than what plumbers thought itd be so we have to wait on landlord to tell them what to do. our landlord sold all his other rentals so we are the only renters of his.

idk what any of this means. im really scared. im really depressed. i can barely work 12 hours a week, 4 hrs 3 days, i cannot pick up a new job without destroying myself physically and mentally. what am i even supposed to do. at this point im crying out into the void as if someone can just pick us up and find us what we need out of thin air. i feel so hopeless

[wrenimod]

new thought in renny medical hell: what if i have mcas and i feel like its mild but the mold that is taking over the house is causing severe symptoms im dismissing

symptoms: severe brain fog daily, my memory has steadily worsened to where yesterday doesn't exist and anything past yesterday feels like forever ago. sometimes forgetting things instantly recently. severe fatigue daily, could be my chronic pain and insomnia as i've always assumed. joint pain, muscle pain daily, likely just my heds. every night if i stay up too late i get The Night Itchies. frequent headaches, usually promptly after being exposed to too much mold (aka i go into the basement for more than a few seconds). sudden orange allergy development a while ago, recently sudden lactose and spice intolerance that make me SUPER suffer. i used to add red pepper to everything, now 7 cracks of black pepper is too much for my tummy. intolerances were triggered soon after changing my diet to a low-saturated fat, less processed foods diet

frustrating: had gyn thing done today, brought up sudden intolerances with doctor. told to "just avoid" all dairy and spice. 99% of what i eat includes dairy and spice :( i am also very worried because i dont know what other sudden intolerances or allergies i could get, and idk if the constant exposure to mold could lead to a worse and worse experience, possibly leading to usual allergic reaction symptoms for me (hives, once or twice was on the path to anaphylaxis i think)

general thought: i want to leave this house. we now have a pipe leak. ll has not been told despite me telling mom around a week ago about it, and it's just getting worse and developing more mold quickly. i cant even leave this house comfortably for a few hrs bc i worry its going to genuinely collapse

[podcastwizard]

come on gimme things to sort. i'm so fucking good at sorting come on lemme sort