Misplaced

It doesn't feel like I should be here... but where else could I be?

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[accidental-stereotype]

Of course I'm selfish! I'm not going to be thinking about you, when I'm convinced no one will ever be thinking about me!"

Accidental Stereotype

[gnossienne]

Anne Carson, Sublimes

[accidental-stereotype]

I Hide Behind The Rain

I see horrible things within me.

My selfish attitude,

How I demand compensation.

If I can't do this for myself, why would i do it for you?

I see the demons that plague me.

My sluggish actions,

The result of various distractions.

I don't want to feel everything I'm missing.

I see the way my words cut others down.

The guilty satisfaction of honesty,

I can't be me if I say what you want to hear.

Oh I'm so afraid of being someone else.

The sun's light won't reach me past these clouds.

[accidental-stereotype]

How can I prove to myself that I am more than my anger when it's all I feel?

Accidental Stereotype

[corilon]

 Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but hate socializing. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb..

[borderlinebadger]

You don’t have to relate to every symptom for your diagnosis to be valid.

You don’t have to relate to every symptom for your diagnosis to be valid.

You don’t have to relate to every symptom for your diagnosis to be valid.

You don’t have to relate to every symptom for your diagnosis to be valid.

Just because you can’t relate to one tumblr post does not mean you are faking it. You are valid.

[accidental-stereotype]

Knowing it wasn't my fault only makes it hurt worse. You might as well tell me there was never anything I could do.

Accident

[caylaxmerie-blog]

i can’t tell if i actually have an eating disorder and i need help, or if i’m just some normal teenager wanting to be skinny

[yagurlanna69]

do you ever really want to get EXTREMELY sick and lose like 20+ pounds?? because me too

[high-functioning-depression]

High functioning Depression Problem #37

You still gotta go to work even though you are super depressed. And obviously you can hardly concentrate on your tasks, because of your illness, but that is simply not an excuse.

[ladyofsatan]

I can’t see any color

[flightlessfallingfeather-blog]

[accidental-stereotype]

Oh that's right I'm still depressed

I don't usually type things out cuz I don't want people to have to read through all of it or scroll forever.

So I'll keep this short-ish.

I woke up and depression hit full force draining all of my energy. I still had things to do for my mom so I did them... albeit very slowly.

She got really mad at me, called me lazy, and insisted that I was on my phone not fully paying attention to the task at hand. I was feeling too drained to protest so I just kept mumbling that I was focused. She kept telling me that it was such a simple task anyone could do it, and she couldn't believe how long it was taking me. She said to stop lying to her and just tell her what else I was doing that was distracting me. I already felt like I couldn't do anything so I let her yell at me, and even though I wanted to cry I finished what she wanted me to do.

I know I could've explained that I was going through an episode, but she's never fully understood mental disorders, (when I tried telling her about my anxiety she yelled at me to snap out of it and do what I'm asked) and I'm not mad at her for not realizing what was happening when I supplied no explanation; it just kinda hurts that she immediately assumed I was slacking off and being lazy. It took her no time at all to doubt and undermine me like I was a child, even though I was telling her the truth. She still wrote me off as a liar and refused to believe me.

She keeps talking about how she wants us to be okay, but how can we when she won't hear me out! She won't even give me the benefit of a doubt much less listen to me. I know I'm bad at explaining myself, but I'm really trying and she only sees me as an angry kid making excuses.

Sorry I just needed to vent.

[babygirlstarving-deactivated201]

Hungry? Have a pickle. 0 calories

[selfhxtredkid]

[self-care-suggestion]

To those of you that have been clean, be it from self harm, a drug or alcohol addiction, or some other destructive habit, I want you to know I’m proud. Be it for 5 minutes or 5 years as long as you are committed and wanting to change directions you’re clean to me. I’m proud. I always will be proud. Relapses happen too, and I’ll still love you because you’re human. Getting a hook out of your own mouth is really hard and I admire you so much for putting forth the effort to try.