NCT Dream Headcanon | Unrequited Love { Huang Renjun }
MASTERLIST // requests : open
! please read my guidelines before requesting !
A/N : I'm so pumped for Dream's newest comeback. Glitch Mode is gonna hit, I just know it. they always deliver.
♡ pairings ; Renjun x gender neutral reader
♡ genre ; unrequited love, some fluff, angst
♡ warnings ; none, but it gets really sad towards the end
"⇢ when Renjun likes someone, everything else goes out the window
⇢ which is probably why he never picked up on the fact that you were interested in someone else
⇢ he might have a hunch here and there
⇢ just doubting whether or not you're into him in the same way he's interested in you
⇢ the two of you had been friends for years
⇢ and while things mostly stayed platonic, that didn't stop any playful banter
⇢ "Y/N, what do you think of my new hairstyle for our comeback?" Renjun asked
⇢ "I think it really suits you! It's super hot! No wonder you've got tons of girls swooning all over you." you'd respond
⇢ the two of you were some comfortable around each other
⇢ at lunch, you would never flinch when he wipes the ketchup from the corner of your mouth
⇢ "Y/N, that ketchup could have gotten all over your clothes." Renjun groaned
⇢ 'what would I do without you?" you laughed, still chewing on your burger
⇢ and Renjun would never cringe when you plucked the stray eyelash off his cheek
⇢ "hold still for me. this has been bothering me all afternoon" you'd say
⇢ all of these signs made him believe that you might have feelings for him
⇢ even though he thought he hid his attraction to you well, the other members would tease him about it
⇢ "hey Jeno! did you see the way Renjun was looking at Y/N at lunch?" Jaemin teased
⇢ "haha yeah! boy's got it down bad!" Jeno laughed
⇢ but one day, he finally mustered up enough courage to confess his feelings to you
⇢ he had it all planned out
⇢ confessing to your best friend could either go really bad, or really good
⇢ on one hand, you could end up happily ever after (Renjun's ideal scenario)
⇢ or your friendship could be damaged forever (Renjun's worst nightmare)
⇢ so he devised a plan to casually bring it up while the two of you went on a walk through the park
⇢ and he still had some doubts about your feelings, so he didn't want to completely fall on his face if you didn't feel the same
⇢ so he felt that casually bringing it up would make him feel a little better, because he can subtly change the subject if things go wrong
⇢ "Y/N, has Jisung told you about his new girlfriend?"
⇢ "yeah! I spoke with Chenle about it. she seems really sweet. I'm happy for him" you replied, kicking the stones on the sidewalk
⇢ "what about you? are you interested in anyone?" Renjun asked softly, avoiding eye contact out of nervousness
⇢ "I don't know ... I've sorta got a crush on someone, but I'm don't think it'll go anywhere else." you said casually
⇢ Renjun coulda sworn his heart skipped a beat
⇢ "if you don't mind me asking who is it? do I know them?" he asked almost too quickly
⇢ "why do you wanna know?"
⇢ "just curious I guess .. and we always tell each other everything." Renjun answered
⇢ "promise you won't tell anyone? pinky promise?" you said, extending your pinky finger
⇢ "promise." he said as he wrapped his pinky finger around yours
⇢ "it's Mark ... I know I know ... it's dumb. but it's just a crush, it's not important. it'll never go further than that." you confessed
⇢ Renjun's heart shattered into a million pieces
⇢ he was so sure, so hopeful you were about to admit your feelings for him
⇢ and even though he felt like crumbling into a ball and hiding from the world .. he pretended like nothing happened
⇢ he masked his pain and continued the conversation
⇢ "well, he'd be a lucky guy to have you. I know I would be." Renjun's words were heartfelt and all too honest
⇢ he would love for you to be his
⇢ but in a way, you kind of already are
⇢ you're his best friend, and he feels lucky enough to even know you, to even be around you
⇢ it has to be enough, because otherwise he would lose you
⇢ "what about you? you got your eyes set on someone special?" you teased, bumping his arm
⇢ "not really.. " he lied
