life is what you decide

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[f4therlesssss]

nvm i’ve said too much #unknowme

[imdrinkingmiso]

I am doing whatever the opposite of locked in is .

[andromedianexistence]

having a whimsy-off with another friend and i can feel myself crawling back from the edge bit by bit

[romancenjoyer]

i’m doing really well for someone who goes through the five stages of grief every day

[unfiltereddddmess]

[andromedianexistence]

next invention will be a dad who doesn’t suck

one who doesn’t call me for hours during finals week to talk about how much he misses me and how everything i remember is wrong and maybe one who doesn’t me into a regressive spiral and who doesn’t force me to realize that he hasn’t changed at all despite all the years and maybe neither have i

i yearn for a dad who doesn’t call unless it’s to make me laugh and smile, who taught me to drive and throw a ball without screaming in my face or giving me a bloody nose. one who remembers my birthday and doesn’t need reminders or favors or forgiveness to absolve his guilt

i want to build a father but i can’t because it’s a shape i have never known

[andromedianexistence]

why can’t i find the motivation to do anything

where is the 7 year old that read 50 library books a week and was a year ahead in math

why did she get replaced with someone who bedrots and cries in the shower

who am i anymore

[andromedianexistence]

why does every guy I talk to and am friendly with want to go out one on one??

am i supposed to know if they’re flirting with me? am i just putting off massive cues to them unintentionally that i want them?

every time i become friends with a guy i treat them the same as i would a girl and then they get offended when i tell them i’m in a relationship or not interested

[omgsen]

Having a crush on someone is nice until you start losing your mind.

[andromedianexistence]

i turn into another being entirely

[andromedianexistence]

being bi is so epic i see someone with curly hair or bangs or a big shirt or chunky jewelry or traditional clothing or someone smiling or laughing or being themself and i’m gone

[andromedianexistence]

to the boy i met in year 12 who looked like cr and choices james potter i hope you don’t know about the incredibly embarrassing crush i had on you and your trio of troublemaking friends

[andromedianexistence]

and to the girl i met who would become my best friend i hope you know i miss you feeding my delusions about this rich boy. i miss you and i will find you in every life so we can laugh and be girls together reading fanfics and watching bollywood classics in your bed

[andromedianexistence]

to the boy i met in year 12 who looked like cr and choices james potter i hope you don’t know about the incredibly embarrassing crush i had on you and your trio of troublemaking friends

[andromedianexistence]

whitaker’s face filling the entire screen when he was voicing his opinion!

hell yeah fuck him up

[andromedianexistence]

diagnosed with adhd AND given 60 adderall by my psychiatrist yeah this bitch is about to be skinny

[andromedianexistence]

lost 3lbs in 3 days yeah we’re so back

[andromedianexistence]

first med check in in the morning and Oh Boy am I nervous

[andromedianexistence]

i can never escape my tortured past (growing up in the midwest)

[8nin]

I'm like if a missing person was literally right there

[yellow-cat]

some days are really hard and it can be difficult to understand why. but usually its probably because my blood is haunted